the time I fought through the hordes of commoners. American rap
and hip-hop had given way to some sort of Turkish trance music,
and it seemed the entire space was pulsating with barely concealed
bodies. Camilla, Alessandra, and Monica had all found men—a soccer
player from Real Madrid, an anchorman for CNN International,
and an English playboy who claimed to know Philip from their
boarding-school days—and were tucked away with them in various
dark corners around Bella, under the watchful eye of Nedim
and the other owners. I spotted Elisa and Davide standing next to
the dance floor, gesturing wildly to each other. I figured they were
fighting, until I got close enough to hear. They weren't actually arguing
or having any kind of exchange at all: both were so obviously
high on coke that they were talking
at
the other one, each so
caught up in the importance of their own ideas that they shouted
enthusiastically over the other's voice. As usual, the photographers
and reporters had claimed a little table for themselves, away from
the rest of us, and seemed once again to be drowning themselves
in hard alcohol. Six empty packs of cigarettes were littered around
them, and they barely glanced up when I asked if they needed
anything. I didn't see Leo, but Philip wasn't hard to locate—I
merely looked for the blondest girl in the room, with the biggest
boobs, and then moved my eyes a few inches to the right. He had
his arm around her waist as they both stood in front of the DJ
stand. She looked vaguely familiar, but I couldn't place her from
behind. As I waited for them to turn around, I watched as Philip
removed a giant wad of cash from the back pocket of his AG jeans
and thrust it toward the skinny DJ, who maintained the requisite DJ
earphone-pressed-to-shoulder stance.
"Hey, mate, how much will it cost for you to play something with
some bloody words?" he asked as the girl giggled and swigged from
her drink. "I can't listen to this Turkish shit anymore."
The DJ palmed the cash and made it disappear under one of the
machines on his table. He beckoned to another kid sitting in the
booth and said a few words to him. The second guy turned to Philip
and said, "What you want to hear? He will play you anything."
"Tell him we want a little Bon Jovi or Guns n' Roses."
The helper translated and the DJ nodded, appearing puzzled.
Within ten seconds "Paradise City" was blaring from the speakers
and Philip was mock-smashing his head to the beat. When he spotted
me, he leaned in to whisper something to the girl and she nodded
and scampered off.
"Hey, love, how much better are these tunes?" he asked, checking
his reflection in the glass of the DJ booth.
"Was that Lizzie Grubman?" I asked, finally figuring out why
she looked so familiar.
He resumed hitting his head against an imaginary wall. "Apparently
she and Tara Reid heard about our posh party here this
weekend and wanted to have a look for themselves."
"She's, uh, she's pretty," I said lamely, knowing I should be
happy, professionally speaking, that Lizzie Grubman and Tara Reid
had followed our group to Istanbul.
"Face like a crocodile handbag," he said, grabbing me and
pulling me onto the dance floor. "Come on, love, loosen up a little.
Let's have a dance."
I sneaked away after a few minutes and went back to Elisa,
who seemed to have calmed a bit. She was sitting on Davide's lap,
chattering quietly as he massaged her shoulders and took long
drags off the joint that hung from his lips.
"Hey, do you think you can handle things here? I think a
bunch of people went back to the hotel, and I should probably
make sure everything's in order there."
"Sure, whatever. You worry too much, Bette. Everyone's having
a great time. Where's Leo? Just tell him you're going back and we'll
see you at the hotel, okay?" She giggled as Davide exhaled the pot
smoke in her face.
"Excellent. Will do. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Yeah, whatever. I don't plan to see daylight tomorrow, but I'll
find you when we wake up. Oh, where's Philip?" she asked, trying
very hard to sound casual.
"Philip? Last I saw, he was dancing with Lizzie Grubman and
Tara Reid."
"What? They're here?" She leapt off Davide and plastered on a
huge smile. "I'm totally going to say hi. See you later, Bette."
I looked around for Leo, but when I couldn't find him anywhere,
I figured he'd met a guy and had retired to his room
for playtime. Nedim offered to escort me back to the hotel in
his Porsche, and I was tempted to accept until he let his hand
brush against my lower back while smiling suggestively and saying
he'd give me a tour of Istanbul's late-night hotspots. I declined
politely and took a Town Car. The woman at the front desk
greeted me by name and briefed me on who had returned so far
and when.
"Oh, wait, there is a message for you." She handed me a piece
of folded paper, which I immediately opened, expecting some disaster,
MEET ME IN ROOM
18
WHEN YOU GET BACK
was written in bold
print, all caps. There was no signature, but a plastic room key was
enclosed.
I briefly considered my options. The note had to be from
Sammy. He'd somehow arranged for a room away from Isabelle so
that we could spend some private time together. It was, if I dared
to think about it, the most exciting romantic gesture of my lifetime.
I was buffed and polished from the spa that morning, and now my
secret boy had called. It didn't get better than this.
The elevator ride seemed to last forever, and by the time I
knocked on the door, I was shaking with excitement.
It took almost a minute for it to open, a minute that felt like a
month, and I had a fleeting, horrifying thought that it wasn't
Sammy at all, or that maybe the note was intended for someone
else. A dozen possible misunderstandings flashed through my mind
in the thirty seconds I stood there, rooted to the carpet, quietly
panicking and wondering how I could possibly be expected to
function if it wasn't him, if he wasn't waiting inside, preparing to
tear my clothes off and throw me on what would surely be a kingsized
bed tricked out in all its Four Seasons, down-filled, Frettecovered
glory.
Oh, please,
I prayed to some unknown entity,
oh,
please let it be him and let him want me as badly as I want him
and also make it so that he has
—
The door swung open, and Sammy pulled me inside immediately,
pressing his mouth to mine even before kicking the door
shut. "I want you so badly," he breathed, moving his mouth over
my face, my neck, my shoulders as he pushed aside the straps of
my dress before he got frustrated and pulled the entire thing over
my head.
Those were the last words either of us bothered with. We collapsed
on the bed, which delivered every inch of fabulousness I'd
imagined, and attacked each other with a ferocity that would have
scared me if it hadn't delighted me so much. It was impossible to
tell whose limbs belonged to whom, and I lost all awareness of
time or place or where, exactly, I was being touched. It was a total
sensation overload—the weight of his body, the smell of his deodorant,
the way the hair on my arms and the back of my neck
stood on end every time his fingers ran down my back. It was, I
had to admit, a sex scene straight out of a Harlequin—maybe better.
It wasn't until someone knocked at the door that I even no-
ticed the dozens of candles strewn about or the two glasses of red
wine that sat untouched or the great Buddha Bar soundtrack playing
from the bedside Bose CD player.
"Who knows you're here?" I whispered, climbing off him and
collapsing all in one motion.
"No one but the front desk. I put it on my personal credit card."
"Could Isabelle have heard you?"
"No way. She took a fistful of Ambien to get over the time difference.
She won't be awake for another two days."
We continued to debate this for another few minutes, until I realized
that night had eased its way into morning and I'd better be
getting back to my rightful room if I didn't want to deal with lots
and lots of questions.
He pulled me on top of him again and began kissing my earlobe,
earring and all. "Don't go. Not yet, at least."
"I've got to, I'm sorry. You don't want this to be public yet, do
you? Not like this."
"I know, I know, you're right. Not like this. We'll have all the
time in the world together once we're back in New York."
"You aren't going to be able to get rid of me once we're
home," I whispered. My short, beaded dress was bunched up in a
tiny ball on top of the desk, but I managed to get it on with some
semblance of dignity before falling back into the bed. The thought
of putting on any sort of undergarments was unbearable; after freeing
my strapless bra from its resting place on the headboard, I
tossed it and my underwear into my purse.
He yanked a sheet from the bed we'd destroyed and wrapped
it around his waist as we walked to the door. "Bette, thank you for
an amazing night," he said, holding my face in both his hands,
making it feel small and delicate and absolutely gorgeous.
I stood on tiptoe to wrap my arms around his neck one last
time. "It was perfect," I said.
And it was perfect, everything I'd hoped it would be, until the
very second I opened the door and was greeted by the brightest,
most aggressive flashbulb I'd ever experienced. It continued rapidfire
as I stood, frozen, too shocked to move.
"Oh, hey, sorry about that. Wrong room," said John, one of the
photographers we'd toted along.
"What the hell is going on?" Sammy asked.
"Let me handle it," I said. "Stay here."
I stepped into the hallway and pulled the door shut behind me.
"What was that? What are you doing?" I practically shrieked.
"Hey, honey, I'm sorry about that. No worries, really, I didn't
see a thing," he said unconvincingly. He was the slickest of the
group and had made me nervous from the very beginning—most
of his work consisted of paparazzi-style pictures that he sold to the
tackiest tabloids for the highest bid. Kelly had insisted it would be
good to have him along because the photo editors loved everything
he submitted.
"Why were you staking out my room? Uh, his room, I mean.
I've spent all morning going around to everyone to discuss
tonight's schedule, so you see, there's nothing really interesting
there."
"Look, I don't care who you're screwing." He chuckled loudly
and with great gusto. "Of course, I imagine I could find someone
who'd be interested to know that Philip's girl didn't spend the