Fading Into Darkness: The Under Series Book 2 (29 page)

“Start explaining.” he said linking his fingers with mine.
We sat in Kenzie's back garden talking for over an hour. I sat on the brick wall and he sat on the
swing chair listening carefully as I explained everything. I even told him I'd been inside his head
twice, he didn't look cross though when I'd told him, he smiled a little. I think he already knew
something strange was going on when he passed out twice in my company, considering fallen
angels rarely slept. He never said one word, I kept waiting for him to say something but he just
smoked two cigarettes in a row and looked down at the floor. At one point he leaned over and
started picking at his boot. I wasn't sure what to make of it, he was being so quiet. I told him about
Jessie and he looked over at me curiously but didn't stop me or ask me any questions. I explained
everything up to the point where I'd woken up in Kenzie's bed this morning. I tried to explain to him
I wasn't avoiding him, it was only because I didn't want him knowing what I was up to. I hadn't told
him about my feelings for Jessie, even I couldn't explain feelings for someone that I couldn't even
remember. And I skipped over the part where I'd kissed Jessie during our shared dreams. When I'd
finished explaining I gulped down my glass of lemonade waiting for him to speak. He didn't for a
while, he looked out across the garden watching a small robin bathing in the birdbath.
“There's one thing I don't get.” he said not looking at me. “This Mack guy, Jessie whatever. I
vaguely know his name. But I still don't understand how you two knew each other? You said he was
friends with Micah and your brother Seth, whom I have spoken to on many occasions at the club
and Micah who everyone knows. But why would Cam take Jessie and hide him in Hell, why not
your brother? I mean that would make more sense, if he wanted to keep one of them as a bargaining
chip, why not keep your brother? Sure you'd be pissed when you found out he'd been keeping him
down there against his will, but why Jessie? There's more to the story you're not telling me. Cam's
smart he's obviously planned ahead. He's taken everything into account and he wouldn't go to all the
hassle of keeping Jessie down there if he wasn't important to you? Cam already knows you'd marry
him without a second thought if it meant freeing Jessie. But the question is why would you do that
for some fallen guy that was apparently just friends with your brother and Micah?”
He stood up and started walking towards the door.
“Where are you going?” I asked hopping off the wall.
“I have stuff to do.”
“What that's it? You're going. You don't have anything else to say? Any ideas about what I'm
supposed to do from here?”
“Ruby I will help you and do whatever it is you want me to do and I will do it without hesitation
because I love you. I love you so much but you should already know that, I don't have to tell you.
You know the way I feel about you, it's the reason I didn't take your memories. I could never do that
to you. But I can tell when you're lying. I know he means more to you, he wasn't just your brothers
friend looking out for you. And the reason I know that is because every time you say his name you
look as though you want to cry. You're hurting inside for someone you can't even remember. I'm
gonna take a random stab in the dark and say Cam knew exactly how you felt about him and he
knows you would do anything for him and that's the reason he's got him locked up somewhere. He's
keeping him as the back up encase he can't find Maite and you suddenly get your memory back and
demand to be released.”
His cell buzzed and he checked the display. “Cam,” he said waving it around. “Yes,” he said
answering his cell. “No I'm in HP. Sure give me twenty minutes.” he hung up and slid his cell back
into his pocket.
“Anything important?” I asked.
“No. Staff meeting type thing he wants me at.”
“What's HP?”
“Heaven's Point. Anymore questions?” he asked with a sullen tone.
“Senka please don't be like this.”
“Then don't lie to me. I still can't believe you kept all this from me. You should have told me.”
“I was scared. I thought you'd tell Cam. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to tell you so much, you
have to believe me. It's being eating at me for so long. But I didn't want to bring you into it, I didn't
want to involve you. I don't want anything to happen to you because of me. If he finds out you
know all this and you haven't told him. The same goes for Kenzie and Shasta everyone's at risk
keeping my secrets.”
“Nothing is going happen to me, Cam needs me too much. Not that he'd admit it. And the same
goes for Kenzie and Shasta, Cam can't do everything on his own. And just for the record I would
have never told him about us, about what we do when we're alone or what we talk about. He has
asked about you many times, whether I think you're remembering anything. But I keep it simple and
tell him you don't know anything and that you're completely clueless. I have to dumb you down to
satisfy him. I know you're not stupid, I could see you were starting to figure things out. And yes he
has asked me what I'm doing with you and he wants to know what we get up to, he's not oblivious
to what's going on. And I usually tell him to mind his own business. Cam doesn't own me.” he said
opening the door.
“Senka please don't leave me like this,”
He stopped with his back to me holding the door open.
“Do you have feelings for him?” he asked. I knew he was talking about Jessie.
“I don't know. I can't explain it.” I said.
“Try,” he said pushing the door shut again.
“When I'm with you, it's just you. I feel so completely attached to you that I can't even put it into
words. I hate being away from you, I miss you so much when you're not here. But then there's
Jessie, I feel this pull towards him it's the reason I've been dream linking with him. I've never done
that with anyone else, and it's why I can get into his head whenever I want because there's this thing
connecting us. I don't know why I feel this way? I can't even remember anything about him from
before. I have no idea how I felt about him or what he meant to me. All I know is when I see him I
get this safe feeling. I know I can trust him and then when I'm not with him or I'm not with you I
feel like something's drawing me back to him.”
“So you're in love with him?” he asked taking a step closer.
“I can't remember?” I said gulping in air trying not to cry.
“It's an easy question. It's not something you have to remember it's something you feel.”
“I hate this, it's so confusing and it's all Cam's fault.”
“Ruby.....” he said pushing me for an answer. “Does he have feelings for you?” he asked.
“Yes.”
“So I'll repeat the question. Do you have feelings for him?”
“It's complicated.” I said loudly backing away.
“No it's not,” he said taking another step closer. “It's thinking about that person constantly to the
point you forget what you're supposed to be doing. You can't imagine living your life another day
without them,” I could feel his eyes on me but I couldn't even look at his face, so I looked down at
the floor. His boots were inches away from my feet.
“They complete you,” he continued. “You feel as though you're missing a limb when they're not
around,” he raised his hand to my face and lifted my chin towards him. His bright blue eyes stared
into mine and I became captivated unable to look away. “Or is that just me?” he asked.
I reached up and grabbed onto his T-shirt without thinking about it, pulling him down to me as I
lifted myself higher on the tips of my toes to reach him. His hand gripped the back of my neck as
his lips found mine. He kissed me softly at first but I could tell he was holding back. My hands
moved to his neck and I threaded my fingers into his hair. He slid his arm around my waist and
walked me backwards until we reached the wall. He pushed himself hard against me so our bodies
were practically touching all the way down. His lips pressed down on mine and I made a noise I
didn't know I was capable of. He stopped kissing me and licked his lips looking down at me, he
lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around him, his hand gripped my thigh as he pushed me back
hard against the wall again. His kiss changed from soft and gentle to hungry and wanting more. His
tongue slid into my mouth and met mine. The kiss continued and I playfully bit on his lip ring, he
moaned and his lips came back down on my mouth. My hands slid down his shoulder blades and I
dug my fingernails into him wanting more of him. I needed more of him.
He pulled away breathing heavily. “This doesn't feel complicated to me.” he said before kissing the
side of my mouth.
I turned my lips to meet his and kissed him softly breathing in his sweet coconut scent.
“Whoa! Let's just take it down a notch shall we, try and keep it PG. I left you two alone to talk. Not
to make out and start doing whatever it is you're doing up against the wall.” Kenzie said.
“We already talked.” I said.
I ran my hands down his arms, Senka was skinny but he still managed to look and feel muscular. He
leaned forward and kissed me lightly with a smile on his lips.
“Will you put her down.” Kenzie said stuffing his mouth with his sandwich. “Now....” he started to
talk but still had a mouthful he was trying to chew down. Senka lowered me to the floor and I
reluctantly pulled my arms away from him. I couldn't help my hand from drifting to his, he looked
down at our intertwined fingers and smiled.
“Okay. So Cam's looking for you,” Kenzie said pointing at Senka. “Work related, before you panic.
And you have lessons starting in ten minutes.” he said pointing at me.
“I still don't think the clothes are a good idea.” Senka said running his finger down the button
opening of my shirt between my bra.
“Guys I'm still here. Break it up already.” Kenzie said.
“We'll talk later.” Senka said to Kenzie as we passed him. He led me to the front door and checked
back to make sure Kenzie wasn't behind us. I still hadn't had a chance to talk to him about Cam's
plan to marry me. We both knew he wanted to marry me and I knew if it came to it I would agree to
it if it meant he'd let Jessie go.
“Senka if it comes to it and Cam asks me to....,”
His lips came down on mine cutting me off.
“We'll figure something out.” he said.
“Like what? There's not many options.”
“I don't know. But right now I have to go and you have a lesson to get to. Try to act as though
nothings changed.”
Kenzie walked through the back door clattering around in the kitchen to make his presence known.
“Love you.” he said quietly, kissing the top of my head.
He went to leave but I wouldn't let go of his hand. He smiled lifting my hand to his lips, he kissed
the back of my hand softly then left.
“You ready to go back?” Kenzie asked walking up behind me. I nodded and smiled at him. “It's
gonna be fine you need to chill out.” he said grabbing my shoulder.
“How can you say that? Aren't you worried about what Cam will do to us when he finds out what
we've been up to?”
“Nah, Senka's right Cam needs us too much and I think he knows you'd never forgive him if he did
anything to us.”
“Hmm. You were listening to our conversation?”
“Maybe. Just a little before you got all frisky with each other. Now stop panicking, turn and walk.”
he said grabbing my other shoulder. “You really need to loosen up, you're so tense.” he said
squeezing my shoulders as he steered my out the door.
“I have a lot on my mind.” I replied laughing.
“How about today you act your age, like other teenagers.”
“What reckless?” I joked.
“No care free.”
“Yeah right.”
“See you at dinner. I'll keep the clothes here meantime until we know Cam isn't going to burn them
and make you wear a curtain.”
I walked back to the manor through the gardens. The smell of freshly cut grass filled the air and
gardeners were hard at work trimming the rose bushes and making sure hedges were cut to
perfection. Narmi was walking towards me, she nearly dropped her laundry basket when she saw
me.
“Miss Ruby.” she greeted me formally.
“Hi Narmi.”
She put the basket down and looked over the washing line at me as she pegged a towel up.
“Go on spit it out.” I said.
“Where did you get those clothes from?”
“They're borrowed. Next question.”
“Does Master Cameron know you...”
“No I haven't seen him today. Anything else?”
“Have you spoken to.....” she looked around making sure no one was listening. “Spoken to
Alexander? Is he still going to meet with me?”
“Crap! I knew there was something I was meant to do. Don't worry I will add it to my to-do list.
That is if Cam doesn't lock me up and throw away the key before I get a chance.” She looked
concerned. “It's fine, I'll take care of it. Don't worry he'll meet you.”
I carried on over the grass towards the manor and walked up the stairs, a few servants turned their
heads in my direction. On my way up I ran into Alex.
“Something's different,” he said looking me up and down noticing my clothes. “Did you put weight
on?” he asked grinning to himself as he passed me.
“Alex,”
“Yes.” He stopped a few steps down from me.
“What are you doing in three days time at noon?”
“Why?”
“Narmi wants to meet you.”
“Three days?” he said to himself.
“Yes is that a problem?”
“No. No problem. I'm not working that day.”
“She'll be waiting by the cherub fountain for you. Noon remember.”
He smiled to himself and carried on down the steps.
“Oh and Alex,” I called after him. He looked back over his shoulder. “Thanks for the breadcrumbs.”
I said before bouncing up the stairs to my bedroom to collect my study books.
I walked into the study room and Grayson nearly dropped his cup of tea. These clothes were
causing quite a stir.
“Problem Grayson?” I asked sliding into my seat. “Don't look so shocked that I made it on time.”
“Um...” he stuttered. I don't think he knew what to say.
I laid out my text books and got stuck in. After an hour he finally asked me about the clothes.
“Where did you find those clothes?”
“Shasta. I borrowed them. Which page do I go on to now? I've finished this one already.”
“Um...oh it's page 27.”
I left my class and wondered around looking for Senka but couldn't find him anywhere, I was about
to head back over to Kenzie's when one of the servant girls stopped me.