Within a few cubits of where the buck had stood were scattered bloodstains. He also found a shaft, wedged in a pine trunk-probably the third shaft. After recovering that- carefully-he replaced it in the quiver and put one ski in front of the other, trudging through the ever-heavier snow along a trail of scattered blood droppings.
Sweat began to ooze from his forehead, and he loosened his jacket and untied the scarf and put it inside the jacket. He didn't want to stop to get into the pack.
A welcome shadow fell across the forest as a single, white puffy cloud covered the sun.
Nylan's legs began to ache, and the buck turned uphill at a slant. Nylan's legs ached more. He glanced ahead, and did not see the hump in the snow-a covered root or low branch.
His left ski caught, and he twisted forward. A line of pain scored his leg, and he grunted, trying not to yell. For a moment he lay there, letting his perceptions check the leg. The bones seemed sound, but another wave of pain shot down the leg as he rolled into a ball to get up.
Slowly, he stood, casting his senses ahead.
The buck was not that far away, perhaps two hundred cubits, just out of sight, and Nylan slowly slid the left ski forward, then the right.
When he reached the next low crest in the hill, he could see the big deer, almost flailing his way through the snow.
Nylan pushed on, trying to ignore the pain in his leg.
With the sound of the skis on the crusting snow, the deer lunged forward, then sagged into a heap.
Nylan finally stood over the buck, but the animal was not dead. Blood ran from the side of its mouth, and one of the shafts through the shoulder had been snapped off. More blood welled out around the other shaft, the one through the chest. The deer tried to lift his head; then the neck dropped, but he still panted, and the blood still oozed out around the shaft in his chest.
Nylan looked at the deer. Now what? He didn't have anything for a humane quick kill. Finally, he fumbled out the belt knife.
Even using his perceptions, trying to make the kill quick, it took him three tries to cut what he thought was the carotid artery. Three tries, and blood all over his trousers, the snow, and his gloves. Even so, the deer took forever to die, or so it seemed to Nylan, as he stood there in the midday glare and the red-stained snow. The sense of the animal's pain was great enough that, had he eaten recently, he wouldn't have been able to keep that food in his guts. Even though they needed the meat, his eyes burned.
Nylan worked out the one good arrow shaft, cleaned it on the snow, and put it in his quiver. Then he dug out the rope and the sheet of heavy plastic. Awkward as it was working on skis, he left them on, afraid that he'd never get them back on if he took them off.
The poor damned deer was heavy, and the plastic sheeting was smaller than the carcass, which had a tendency to skid sideways as Nylan pulled it. The snow had gotten even damper under the bright sun, and most of the way back was uphill. Nylan's left leg stabbed with each movement of the skis.
The rope cut into his shoulders, despite the heavy jacket, and sweat ran into his eyes. It felt like he had to stop and rest every hundred cubits, sometimes more often.
Mid-afternoon came, and went, before he cleared the forest and reached the bottom of the ridge. There, Nylan dragged everything onto the packed snow surface of the trail, took off his skis, and tied them to the sheeting.
With another series of slow efforts, he started uphill.
Halfway up, two figures skied down and joined him.
"Ser?"
Nylan looked up blankly, then shook his head as he recognized Cessya and Huldran.
"Frigging big animal, ser," observed Huldran with a grin.
"Heavy animal." Nylan nodded tiredly. "I could use some help." That was an understatement.
"We can manage that." Huldran studied the red deer. "Lot of meat here."
"I hope so. I hope so."
As the two marines unfastened their skis, Nylan just sat in the snow beside the trail.
"You all right, ser?"
"I'm a lot better since you arrived." Nylan staggered up as they started to pull his kill uphill once more. The muscles in his left leg still knotted with every step, but the pain was less without the strain of pulling the makeshift sled and deer.
Saryn was waiting, tripod ready, by the time the three reached the causeway.
Nylan set his skis against the tower wall and sat on the causeway wall, too tired to move for a time. The sun had just dropped behind the western peaks, and a chill freeze rose.
"Ser," ventured Huldran, "would you mind if I took your skis and poles down?"
"I definitely wouldn't mind. I'd appreciate that very much."
"Don't stay out too long, ser," added Cessya, picking up his poles.
"I won't." The coldness of the wind felt good against Nylan's face, and he just sat there, staring into space.
Saryn looked up from the deer carcass, then at Nylan. "Good animal, but you sure made a mess."
"I'm a poor killer and a worse butcher," Nylan said, his voice rasping. "I wasn't planning on getting anything this big. I hope I didn't spoil anything by taking so long."
"It's cold enough that it isn't a problem." Saryn grinned. "Gerlich came back earlier. He said there wasn't anything within kays."
"There isn't. I went down that section you call the forest wedge."
"And you carted this back that far? That's a long climb."
"Huldran and Cessya helped me back up the ridge."
Kyseen hurried out the tower door, looked at the deer, then at Nylan.
"Mother of darkness! What am I going to do with that?"
"Cook it," snapped Saryn. "The engineer didn't cart it back to waste."
"Tonight.. . the meal's done."
"I'm sure you can find something to do with this tomorrow, Kyseen," Nylan said. "And they'll eat anything you cook."
"They're already complaining about the chicken soup, and it's not even on the tables. Why didn't I wait for the big deer the engineer brought-that's what Cessya asked."
"Tell her it's worth waiting until tomorrow." Nylan grinned, and slid off the wall, trying not to wince as his leg hit the stones of the causeway. "You mind if I leave you, Saryn?"
"No. You did the hard work. This is simple drudgery." Saryn's skinning knife flashed again.
Nylan limped into the tower, and looked down at his damp and bloody clothes. Should he go straight to the laundry, or up to find something, like his sole remaining shipsuit, that was dry?
"You look even worse than manure." Ayrlyn walked toward him from the stairs leading up from the lower level. "You're limping. Is any of that blood yours?"
"I fell chasing the deer. I don't think any of it's mine."
"Let me see." Her fingers lifted the trouser bottoms and touched his upper calves. "It feels like you ripped the muscles. You shouldn't be skiing or hunting for a while."
Nylan could feel a faint touch of warmth radiating from her fingers, and a lessening of the cramping. The pain subsided, slightly, from an acute stabbing into a duller, but heavy aching.
Ayrlyn straightened. "I hope it was a big deer."
"It's a huge deer," interjected Huldran as she passed, adding, "I'll get the stove in the bathhouse warmed up. You look like you need it, and there's a little wood we can spare."
"I'm all right," Nylan protested, feeling as though he were being humored.
"Enjoy it," Ayrlyn laughed. "People are glad to see another solid meal. And you do look like you need some cleaning up. I'm going to help Saryn. From what everyone's said, she needs it, or she'll be out there all night."
Nylan flushed. "It's not that big."
The healer grinned before she turned.
Nylan looked at the stairs up to the top level. The bathhouse wouldn't have warmed that much yet. He suppressed a groan before he started up the stone steps.
LXIX
IN THE WARM lower level of the tower, Nylan worked only in a light tattered shirt and trousers, occasionally even wiping sweat from his forehead, as he smoothed and evened the cradie's sideboards. At times, he had to stop and massage, gently, the aching left calf that still had a tendency to cramp if he stood on it too long without moving.
A few cubits away, Istril used a single smoothing blade to plane the sideboards of the cradle that could, except for the carvings and designs, have been a mate to the cradle before Nylan.
The engineer glanced at Istril's headboard-which bore a crossed hammer and blade surrounded by a wreath of pine boughs. He nodded at the detail of the pine branches.
"You like it, ser?" She leaned back against the cool wall stones and wiped her forehead.
"You did a much better job on the carving.than I did," he admitted. "The pine wreath is good."
"Thank you. I worked hard on it." She grinned, although the grin was wiped away as she stopped and massaged her abdomen. "They say the last part is the hardest."
"Of woodworking?"
"Of bearing a child. I suppose that goes for anything."
Nylan nodded, lowering himself onto his knees to take the weight off his leg, but the stone was hard, and he'd have to switch position before long.
"Jaseen said you and the healer saved Siret and Kyalynn."
"We did what we could. It happened to be enough."
"If... I need you ... would you?"
Nylan nodded. "If you need us, we'll be there."
"Thank you."
He paused. "Istril, could you feel what we did?"
The silver-haired marine blushed slightly. "A little, ser."
"Good. You might try to explore that talent. It could come in useful."
Istril paled. "Ah ... excuse me, ser." She turned.
"Are you all right?"
"I'm fine. Fine as I can be with someone punching my bladder." The formerly slim guard half walked, half waddled up the tower stairs, even though, except for the distended abdomen, she carried no extra weight.
Nylan couldn't imagine carrying and bearing a child. Having to experience the pain and discomfort secondhand was bad enough. Maybe Ryba was right. Maybe things would be better if women ran them. Then, again, maybe they'd just get used to abusing power, too. The soreness in his knees from kneeling on the hard rock got to him, and the engineer switched to a sitting position beside the cradle.
He picked up the fine-grained file and studied it, glancing at the assembled cradle in front of him. After looking at the wood, he set the file aside and picked his knife back up.
With long strokes that were as gentle as he could make them, he worked on rounding the left sideboard just a touch more, trying to make the sides match as closely as he could. The relief around the rocky hillside on the headboard needed to be deeper, too, although he sometimes felt as though attempts at art were almost a waste in a community struggling to survive.
He looked up at the sound of boots.
Relyn stood there, studying the cradle. After a moment, the red-haired man asked, "Were you ever a crafter, Ser Mage?"
"No, I can't say that I was." Nylan blotted his forehead with the back of his hand, then shifted his weight on the hard stone floor.
"Then the forces of order have gifted you." Relyn squatted next to the cradle, his fingers not quite touching the carving of the single tree rising out of the rocky hillside.
"It's not as good as Istril's," Nylan said, nodding toward the momentarily abandoned work.
"She is also one of the gifted silver-heads." Relyn eased into a sitting position with his back against the wall.
"Are there many in Lornth with silver hair?"
"None, except the very old, and their hair is a white silver, not the silvered silver of the angels." Relyn tapped the blunt hook that had replaced his right hand against the cut stone of the wall in a series of nervous movements, almost a replacement gesture for tapping fingers or snapping them.
"You look upset," the engineer observed, lowering his voice, although only Rienadre and Denalle remained on the woodworking side of the lower level, and they were laboring together on a chair of some sort across the room, in the area closest to the kitchen space.
Relyn glanced at the other two guards. "It grows warmer. What am I to do? I am not welcome in Lornth. I would have to fight to prove I was no coward."
"I saw you practicing the other day. The blade looks comfortable in your hand."