Feeling the Moment (4 page)

“What’s that?” River brushes his hand down my cheek.

“This,” I whisper as my hand reaches up and lowers his zipper down.

“Kimmmmm,” he ends on a moan as my hand moved inside his pants.

With my other hand, I unbutton his jeans. Finally able to pull him free of the confines of his pants. I’ve seen plenty of cocks in my days, more than I care to mention, but River’s was beautiful. Long and thick, it makes my mouth water and has me clenching my legs together.

“You don’t have to do this,” River tried again.

“Just let me do this,” I lick a circle around the head of his cock. “Please let me,” nibbling down the shaft slowly and licking back up.

He moaned, his hips thrust forward. “Shit,” he hisses as I close my mouth around the head of his cock. “Oh shit,” he moans, a thump following shortly behind.

Looking up at him as I slide further down, his head has fallen back against the window. River’s mouth was partly open. I can just see him biting his tongue. When the tip hit the back of my throat, he looks down at me. He tenderly touches my cheek with his fingers. Pushing him into my throat taking all of him, he grabs my head with both hands holding me in place.

“Oh fuck!”

River holds me in place as his hips thrust slowly into my mouth. His grunts and moans as he slowly fucks my mouth causing me to hold my thighs tighter together. This will be a first for me. I’ve never given to a man without getting my own in return, but something about River… I don’t know. Something told me that he was worth this.

He continues to hold my head and move his cock in and out of my mouth. I slide his pants down some so I’m able to get to his balls easier. Pushing my finger behind his sac and I began to play with the sensitive area there.

“Oh Jesus!” River’s body shudders under me as I begin to milk his cock as he slides in and out of my throat.

His hips move faster. I try to pull off him to prolong his release, but he holds me firmly on his cock. Unable to move, I begin to rub my tongue against the bottom of his shaft and suck him for all I was worth.

“Fuck! Fuck! HOLY SHIT!”

He roars as I feel the first of his release hit the back of my throat before he shoves back down, holding me there. I continue to milk him through his release. His grip loosens on my head and I begin to bob up and down with vigor to help him ride out the rest of his orgasm.

Our eyes meet as he continues to shudder and shake beneath me. It was as if our eyes were the north and south pole of a magnet, we were just drawn in and stuck. As the last of his tremors fade away, I suck his cock clean before pulling off him. His head falls back to the window as he pants heavily. Pulling his pants back up and restoring his appearance, I put the pillow back on his lap and lay my head down.

River tilts my head up to meet his eyes. “Wow, that was…wow. You didn’t have to, but…wow.”

I smile up at him. “You’re welcome. Get some sleep.”

Resting my head back into his lap, I sigh. You can call me whatever you want. A slut. A whore. Whatever, but this man was different somehow. I just wasn’t sure yet. But I can tell you I was definitely determined to find out.

He starts to stroke my hair as I hear him sigh. My mind wonders for a fleeting second if he might be thinking the same thing, but it didn’t last long. Sleep claims me a lot faster than I thought it would.

Chapter Four

“Kim,” his soft whisper filled my ears.

“No, I’m comfortable,” I groaned, snuggling deeper into River’s hold.

I hear a chuckle. “Sweetheart, we have to get out.”

Sitting up and rubbing my eyes, I looked around. Outside the windows trees, so thick that the only place you could actually see through them was this very narrow path separating them.

“Where are we?”

River pulls me into him, kissing me soundly. “We have to transfer vehicles,” River answers then kisses me again.

Climbing out of the car, I help River out after me. He hops on one leg for a moment before finally gaining his balance. He looks at me for a moment before wrapping his arm around my shoulders, kissing my lips lightly, and then pointing to a jeep.

“That’s where we are going… there.”

We slowly make our way over there. River hobbled next to me. Every so often, I could hear his intake of breath. It hurt me to know he was hurting because of me. He probably would have been fine just staying at my apartment.

Guilt started to eat at me. This was why I didn’t let people close.

As we stood next to the jeep, I looked up and then back at River. The jeep had to sit at least three feet off the ground. That’s just where you had to put your feet in order to get into the vehicle.

“How do you expect to get in to that,” I asked.

“Hmm, I didn’t think about that,” he said, looking up at the Jeep.

Thinking for a moment, I looked back down at his leg again. “Okay, I have an idea. But you need to trust me.”

“I do.”

I squat down behind him. Resting my hands on his butt while I get myself in position, he groaned. Smacking it, he started laughing.  Moving a little further forward, I pushed my head between his legs.

“What the hell are you doing?”

“Not what your hoping,” I laughed. “Sit back on my shoulders.”

“What? No! There is no way in the hell you can lift me.”

“Watch me.” With a grunt, I lifted him up.

Biting down hard on my cheek to keep from crying out as I felt a shot of pain in my leg, I hobbled over to the Jeep.

“Holy shit! I can’t believe you are doing this.”

Facing away from the vehicle, I lean a little further back. “Can you wiggle in?”

“Yes, actually.”

Soon I felt his weight lighten on my shoulders before I slowly squat out of the way of his sore leg. Once he’s fully in, I shut the door. Turning, I started to walk away. My leg was killing me. I rested my hand on the tire and gently massaged it before moving around to the other side and climbing in.

River looked at me for a moment. “That was the sexiest thing ever,” he grinned.

“Just get moving, will you?”

He kissed my hand, then started the vehicle and drove off. The woods were kind of eerie, almost ominous. The trees were so thick that the sky was not even visible and River had to turn his lights on. The feel had me scooting closer to him on the bench seat. River took his hand off the steering wheel and wrapped it around my shoulder, pulling me closer into him.

I cuddled further into his embrace, my heart beat a little faster. He was getting too close, but damn if I wanted to stop it right now. My eyes grew heavy and soon I was falling asleep.

# # #

“Sweetheart?”

“Hmmm,” I moaned.

“Sorry sweetheart, but we need to change modes of transportation again.”

Groaning, I sit up. “You make me comfortable and then make me get up,” I grumble.

He smiled. “It’s the last time sweetheart. I promise.”

Looking out of the window, I see water and a boat. My head snapped in his direction, but he wasn’t in his seat. Opening my door, I jumped down only to be reminded of pulling something in my leg. Sucking in a breath, I walked toward the water. The water was sparkling blue.

“Kim, you want to climb on the boat so we can get to our destination.”

“Oh yeah. Sorry.”

There was a driver for the boat. So, River pulled me into his lap and wrapped himself around me. He nuzzled my ear then kissed my neck.

“I’m really becoming addicted to having you in my arms,” he whispered in my ear.

Taking a deep breath and snuggling deeper into his hold, I was becoming addicted to having his arms around me. That scared me, no it terrified me. I’ve never let anyone that close to me, close enough that I could start feeling anything for anyone. Getting attached only proved to be torture for me. It only brought about pain, sadness, loss.

Clenching my eyes shut tighter, I forced those thoughts away. Just for tonight, at least, I’m going to live in the moment. No I’m going to live in the moment during this vacation. After all that, when it comes time to part ways in two weeks, I’ll do so with my head held high and the memories to last me a life time.

It’s not like I was in love with him or anything. It was sexual attraction. Yes, that’s all it was. I haven’t had sex in a long time. My body was just screaming for the need that it has been denied for too long.

“We’re here,” River said into my ear.

Standing up, I saw the most gorgeous little cottage. A boat sat on the other side of the dock.  Looking around, I couldn’t see much of anything else because of the trees. With the help of the driver, River got safely off the boat. As soon as our bags were unloaded the guy left.

“You use your crutches this time and I’ll get our bags to the house.”

“I feel so emasculated right now,” he pouted.

“Oh, whatever,” I laughed, rolling my eyes. “Just get moving, would you?”

Kissing my lips quickly, he started toward the beautiful cottage. It was white with green shutters. There was a cute little porch with a swing and two chairs sitting on it. It looked fairly old but updated. Once the door was opened, I could see that my earlier assumptions were correct to a degree.

Though a flat screen television hung on the wall of the quaint little living room, you could still see the original structure. It was beautiful. The living room had a couch, love seat and an over-sized chair that circled a glass coffee table and faced a fireplace where the television hung above.

Across from the living room was a small dining room with a table to seat six, four corner cabinets. Two of the corner cabinets were connected with a bar. Hanging in the center of the room was a chandelier, when the sunlight hit it there was almost a glittering effect on the walls, it was breathtaking.

Connected to the dining room, was a small homey kitchen. It had an island that housed the sink and the ability to eat there. Above the island hung a pots and pan rack that had pans hanging all around it. There was a stove top, dishwasher, wine fridge, wall ovens, fridge.  There were two doors in the room. River pointed out that the one straight across from where we stand was to go outside. So, I walked over to my left to the other. Opening it, there was a huge walk in pantry. Shelves, another fridge and two chest freezers fill the space in.

Leading me back through the kitchen, to the dining room and back into the living room, just on the other side of the living room was a small hallway with four doors. First door was a guest bathroom.  Next two doors were bedrooms each complete with a bed, dresser, closet, chair and reading light. The last door could only be described as the king of all master bedrooms. A big king sized sleigh bed sat in the center of the room, and a sitting area off to the left. A television hung on the wall. It was complete with a huge walk-in closet and even bigger master bathroom.

“Which room is mine?” I breathed as I spun in a slow circle trying to absorb what I was seeing.

River starts laughing. It washed over me like rain falling from the sky. The sound was mind numbing. Unable to help myself, I walked the short distance and kissed him. River immediately wrapped his arms around me pulling me tightly against him. Pulling back after a few minutes, I rested my head on his chest.

“Not that I’m complaining, because I’m not at all, but what was that for?”

I laugh, and then look up at him. “Just because I wanted to.”

“I won’t argue with that. You can kiss me whenever you want,” he winked at me then yawned.

“Get in bed. You need sleep and your meds. Wonder where the extra pillows are kept,” I said as I walked out of the room.

I began pulling open doors that we hadn’t already walked into when I found pillows in a small closet off the bathroom. Grabbing a few of them, I head back to the room to find River already asleep. Something pulls inside my chest. I’m not sure what it was, but it took my breath away.

Quietly, I walk over to the bed. Gently lifting the covers, I place the pillows carefully under his leg and replace the covers. Brushing some of his hair from his forehead, I pressed a small kiss to his cheek before leaving the room.

I headed out to the deck and looked out over the peace and quiet this place seemed to have in abundance. Out on the deck, it overlooked the woods in the back. It wasn’t as thick as the trees we drove through, but still enough to offer privacy.

I wonder how close the neighbors are.

Taking a deep breath, I walk back inside. Looking around the house, the feel was family, love, happiness. It made my heart ache. It was enough to make it hard to stay inside. Quietly, I snuck into the bedroom, grabbed my swim suit, changed, and went out the front door. Walking down to the dock, I dipped my toes in the water.

It was beautiful. There was nothing as far as the eye could see from the dock. It was nothing but water. The waves lapped soothingly against the dock and shore. Birds sang in the sky. It was so nice to be out away from the noise of the city.

Unable to resist the urge any longer, I walked off the dock and down to the shore. The first step into the water was a shock, but a good one. The temperatures weren’t warm yet, so the water hasn’t had time to heat up, but it was still rejuvenating.

Diving under the water before laying on my back and just relaxing, for the first time in a long time I didn’t have to rush to do something. My head wasn’t clouded with all the things I needed to do. Before long, my mind wandered back to River. Damn that man really brought my body to life.

After so long of just giving myself freely to whoever, I promised myself that I’d never do that again. But my reckless side was brought out again when River was around. Sometimes, I even felt like I knew him more than for the week I talked to him in the hospital.  How could that be?

Dropping back under the water, I stayed out just floating around for a while before deciding to go inside and cook something. My stomach was growling. River will need to eat too. Once inside, I slipped on the shorts I’d left sitting on the chair. Peeking in the bedroom door, I find River still asleep. So, I head back out to the kitchen and check out what our options were.

Soon everything was in the oven and cooking, I decided to check on River. If he was at all like me, he’ll need some time to wake up before he ate anything.  Food was not an option for me until at least forty-five minutes after I woke up.

Walking into the room, my breath left my lungs. There laid River with his bare chest exposed as well as his muscular legs. Reaching the bedside, I ran my fingers lightly over his bare chest, dipping into each muscle line.

Shaking my head from the trance I was in, I placed a tender kiss on his cheek. “River, it’s…”

Just then strong arms wrapped around me and pulled me to straddle him. “Mmmm, I need a better kiss than that.”

Without any pretenses, I leaned down and took his lips with my own.  His hands sat at my lower back, mine were braced on either side of his head. As the kiss deepened, the stiff hold I had on my elbows began to loosen, lowering myself closer and closer against his chest. River’s hands began to roam my back. Feeling his hands on my bare skin sent goose bumps covering my body. He moaned loudly as his hands run over my bikini top.

“You’re really testing my control, Kim,” he whispered against my lips. “Please stop me when I go too far.”

Leaning up, pushing all thoughts (but this amazing man) aside, I reach behind me and untie my top. After shaking my hair out of the bun, I pull the top completely off.  Biting my lip, I look at him through my lashes. Nervous was never something I felt with men before, but as with everything else, River was different.

“Damn, you are so fucking beautiful,” he choked out. River looks up at me with desire burning bright in his eyes. “If this is a test, I might fail in a minute.”

“No test,” I breathe as I lean down and take his mouth in a fierce, desire induced kiss.

His grip tightened on me as I began to grind against him. River’s hands move up my sides slowly, barely brushing my skin as he continues to devour my mouth. There was too much between us. Careful of his leg, I move to the side and strip out of my shorts and bikini bottoms, never breaking from his mouth.

Straddling him again, his hands moved down to my bare ass. Squeezing tightly, he thrust up as he pushed me firmly against him. The sheet was still between us and I growled in frustration. One of his hands left my ass. Breaking from the kiss, I press kisses across his jaw, down his neck, across his shoulder, and then down his chest, where I spent some extra time on his nipples. River’s answering groan only encouraged me to continue.