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“Not really,” he admitted. “You’re trying to separate
us, but we’re inseparable, for the most part. One of us feels stronger about volatile things than the other does from time to time, but normally, there’s no separation of one from the other.”

“So … why are you … ?”

“I honestly have no idea why I’m here alone,” he confessed. “And to be even more honest with you, after all this time being Blended with Ram, it’s a little effing scary.”

“I can just imagine,” she said softly, trying for a moment to poke around inside her own head, wanting to see if her other half was somewhere to be found within. But if she was there, she wasn’t speaking up. Then again, she rarely had so far. “So I’m guessing you’re tied up over there somewhere, too?”

“Well, I’m not polishing my toes,” was the biting reply.

“No need to be snippy,” she snipped back at him.

“Seriously. Ram has a thing for mani/pedis. He’s kind of a little bit too metrosexual for me sometimes.”

She racked her brain for a way to respond to that. All she could come up with was, “Oh. So you don’t like them? Mani/pedis, I mean.”

Silence.

She giggled.

“Well, who am I to argue with pretty girls fondling my feet and hands?” he pointed out in a tone that was positively predatory male.

“Oh. No. I can see your point.”

Silence.

“But you like them.” She giggled, imagining him in a pedicure chair getting his toes painted.

“You know, I can see right up your dress from here.”

“Hey!"

Smug
silence.

She would have given him the silent treatment, but she’d never been very good at it.

“So … best guess … what the hell is going on here?” she asked him.

“Best guess? The Gargoyles failed to get us away in time and the Templar Bodywalkers now have us captive. But …”

“But?”

“But I know why the Templars want to keep
you
alive. I don’t know why the Templars would waste the chance to ice me and Ram immediately.”

She didn’t ask why the Templars would want her. It was pretty obvious to them both. They were going to hold her hostage … maybe use her as a bartering tool. Maybe they’d kill her just to torment Menes as soon as he was resurrected.…

“Can I ask you something?”

“Can’t see how I could stop you,” he observed.

“Does Ram … is he happy to hand me over to Menes?”

“That’s a tough question,” he said after a moment’s pause. “Ram is devoted to Menes. His pride in himself is deeply rooted in his service to his pharaoh. He is second in command, should anything befall Menes and Hatshepsut. He is a natural at ruling over great masses, and contrary to his bad press, he is very open-minded and very much committed to doing the right thing. You could say he learned a few lessons since he was an original himself.”

She wanted to accuse him of not answering her question, but she realized it was the only answer he could give her. Vincent didn’t know any more than Ram did about how he would feel when the time came to bring her to his reborn pharaoh.

“You have no idea how much Ram envies what Menes and Hatshepsut have. How much he longs for it.” He
paused. “But you’ve certainly thrown a wrench in the works, hot stuff. You’ve got my boy pulled six ways from Sunday.”

“Don’t mock me,” she said angrily. For some reason, it had become important to her that Ram feel at least a little hesitation about carrying out his duties.

“Hardly that. More like I am mocking him. Or … us. I’d like to say I don’t know what he sees in you, but you’re kind of spunky. In a waifish sort of way.”

“Thank you.” She sniffed. “I think.”

“And you do have a nice ass.”

“Damn right I do,” she shot back. “It’s by far my best physical feature,” she said proudly.

“Well, the
girls
are pretty impressive, too,” he said, that smirk back in his tone.

“Nobody asked you!”

“I figured since you were so curious, you might like to know. And frankly, teasing you is helping me not think about why Ram is dead silent over here.”

“You sound nervous,” she noted as gently as she could, not wanting him to think she was mocking him in any way.

“I’m a navy SEAL. We don’t get nervous.”

They both knew it was bullshit, so he relented rather quickly.

“It’s … hard to explain. It’s kind of like having a limb traumatically amputated,” he confessed. “I think there’s a level of shock involved. I feel cold and nauseated. And, I have to admit, starkly alone. He’s been with me every single step of the way for so long now … his voice in my head, his morals in my ear … his sense of duty and honor in my soul. We both … we’re the same in a lot of ways, for all he’s this ancient spirit that’s lived so many lives and I’m pretty nascent in the grand scheme of things. I … I like him. And I hope he’s okay.”

“Do you think these Templars did something? You
know, like maybe … I dunno … a Ramses-ectomy? Maybe they forcibly removed him from you?”

“As far as I know, they can’t do that … and if they did, the host …
I …
would die. It’s kind of one of the rules. Did you know you have a mole on your foot?”

“Yes! Can you focus, please? Tell me about these Templars. What was with the fireballs? Can they just
do
that?”

“Templar Bodywalkers call on mystical forces … they call it the blessings of the gods. The red energy they use is called Ra’s Curse. Obnoxious and cheeky, if you ask me, since the one thing all the Bodywalkers believe is that Ra has cursed them and it’s not something they address lightly.”

“In our mortal lives we were known as the children of the sun. The children of Ra.” The voice was new, feminine, heeled steps walking slowly against the crisp surface of the tiles. She came close enough for Docia to see the darling blue suede Christian Louboutin shoes she wore. The pretty blue gleamed prettily in contrast with the red soles when she walked, no doubt. She looked strong, her calves well shaped, and her ivory skirt drew snug around her knees, and probably her hips, too, if Docia would just lift her head and strain a little. But she had a bitch of a headache and was too worn out to make the effort. “But now,” she continued, “Ra no longer smiles upon us. We cannot walk in the light of the sun. Or has no one told you this yet?”

Docia felt anxiety choking up the length of her, crawling down into her belly.

“Nightwalkers,” she whispered.

“Yes. We’ve been cursed to live among these lower breeds known as Nightwalkers. The Gargoyles that serve us. The Djynn. The Night Angels. I think there are six in all. Perhaps even others we don’t know of. Filthy mon
grels, all of them. And yet we wallow amongst them, as though they were our equals.”

Her contempt dripped from her lips, but Docia was terribly distracted, trying to figure out what a Night Angel might be. Was it like an actual angel? From heaven? She’d obviously met and seen Gargoyles in action, but what about the Djynn? And how was it that no human knew about these things when apparently they were all living among them? Seemed she could barely swing a cat without hitting a mystical creature these days. She could understand the whole Bodywalker thing; after all, they were literally hiding inside of normal humans. But how did the rest of them manage to go undetected?

“Make certain you stay out of Ra’s light. He takes offense if we try to take part in his blessing. Let’s just say it isn’t a pretty sight.”

“Who are you?” Docia asked.

“I’m going to take a wild guess here and say her name is Odjit,” Vincent spat abruptly. “And according to what Ram has told me, she’s a fucking lunatic.”

“I am a priestess,” she corrected him. “And I think I prefer she use my new name. Selena. Let me assure you, Docia, the gods smile upon me and my followers, for we are faithful to them and their rituals in a way the Politic are not. One day Ra will forgive us all, if we have faith in him and follow his wishes. The way of the Politic is not the way to ending this curse.”

Vincent snorted. “She means if we all bow down to her and become her mindless lackeys, everything will be sunshine and roses. But what she really wants, what she’s always wanted, is to be pharaoh, queen of the Bodywalkers.”

“It is my right. There are many who believe it. But, let’s talk of other things,” the Templar leader said, starting a slow walk around Docia, leaving Docia with
little to do but listen and admire her taste in shoes. “Let’s talk about you, Docia.”

“Well, I would, except you have me hanging here like some kind of flipping marionette.”

“Mmm. We call it the Suspension. And it does exactly that. It suspends your connection to your Body-walkers, basically imprisoning them and nullifying their powers.”

“I don’t have any powers,” Docia countered. “I barely have any hair.”

“You don’t yet … but given time you very much will be a powerful entity. I think you and I both know you could potentially be one of the most powerful women in the living world.”

She leaned forward a little to whisper against Docia’s ear in a husky, breathy voice, giving her a whiff of a luscious perfume. “I know she’s in there. I know in her heart she wants to be here with us.”

“Whatever she’s saying, Docia, think of her like a pretty-smelling poisonous gas that encourages you to breathe deep, all the while killing you,” Vincent said with cutting sweetness.

“Vincent …” Straightening, she gave a little tsk, sounding disappointed in him. “You’re so terribly brain-washed. I would think that without Ramses you might be able to give me a chance and draw your own conclusions. Just as I would like Docia to use her free will and come to her own. How has it been, Docia, with all these people trying to force all of their ways upon you? Here we don’t do such rude things. Here we want you to come to things in your own way … in your own time. And as the Bodywalker inside of you Blends with you, perhaps together you will find a new way of being, rather than falling into step with the dictates of others.”

As she began to walk back, Docia noticed a glimmer
of gold around her ankle, a delicate little chain with a tiny ankh dangling against the rise of her foot.

“Well, as appealing as that sounds, I hope you don’t expect me to do all of this hanging here like a duck in a Chinese market stall.”

“Not at all. But for the moment, alas, we must leave you as is. Once the Suspension spell has sunk in deep enough, we will let you down. It will suspend your Blending just long enough for you to have a look around … to get to know a few of us and to judge fairly without your Bodywalker’s interference.”

“And what good will that do? I assume this Suspension will wear off eventually. My Bodywalker will come back with all her opinions intact.”

“Perhaps. But we have changed the minds of others. Others that would surprise your valiant Vincent over there.”

“If I’m your goal, why bother suspending Ram? You don’t expect—”

“Of course not. But the only other choice is for us to kill your bodyguard to keep him from interfering. I am very certain that would start us off on the wrong foot.”

“Yes. It would,” Docia squeaked. The idea of them hurting Ram made the whole room begin to spin. The idea that she would be the reason for it had her fighting an incredible urge to hurl.

“Don’t worry, Docia,” Vincent said, his strong voice booming and fierce. “I’ll have you out of here long before your feet ever touch the ground of this pile of fetid rock they call a temple.”

Selena chuckled softly, and Docia could envision her touching delicate fingers to her lips, daintily covering the sound.

“Honestly, Vincent, you’re too amusing. But that’s what I’ve always enjoyed about Ramses and his choice of hosts. They are always so laughably stubborn! Now
try and rest a little, Docia. The Suspension will be complete come nightfall tomorrow … and with the sun soon to be up outside you can’t really go anywhere in any event.”

With that bit of logic, Selena departed the room. Only the sound of her heels walking away was left behind. There was no clang of a heavy prison door … no click of a lock securing them in. She seemed pretty darn confident that a bunch of ropes would be enough to keep them right where they were. And possibly a couple of guards. It would be silly to think they weren’t guarded, wouldn’t it?

She heard Vincent exhale harshly. It wasn’t exactly a sigh of frustration. She really couldn’t pinpoint the feeling behind it.

As for everything Selena had said … how was Docia to know if Selena was or wasn’t the one she should be listening to? To be honest, she kind of liked the lure of free will and making her own choices. She’d been rather anxious ever since she’d grasped that this guy Menes was about to be reborn and wouldn’t take more than a couple of breaths before hunting her down and trying to make her his queen. What if she didn’t like him? What if she didn’t want to get married? Was she supposed to, like, give birth to his heirs or some crazy shit like that regardless? And how did that work, exactly? Did you give birth to a Bodywalker … or just a normal human being?

“Docia?”

“I don’t feel like talking right now,” she told him, biting her lip.

This time it was most definitely a sigh.

“Docia, you can’t listen to her. She’s … you have to think of her like a cultist. She leads a cult of misguided Bodywalkers. She’s very dynamic and very convincing. She is also very powerful and very deceitful.”

“And you’ve been so up front with me about the whole Menes thing and the no daylight thing?” She hitched in a breath. “No more sunrises. No sunsets. One touch of the stupid sun and I explode into fire and ashes or something.”

“No. Nothing so dramatic. The sun affects all Night-walkers in some way, it’s true. The Gargoyles turn to stone at the touch of sunlight. The Djynn become smoke and will remain formless if they don’t hide in their shells, jars, or bottles.”

“What about
us
? What happens to
us
?”

This time she heard the weight of sadness in his voice.

“It paralyzes us. Every bit of us freezes up, we collapse numb and mute and powerless right where we stand. It’s what I always imagined a coma to be like. Trapped inside my own body, watching the world but not able to connect to it. But if we are in shelter, out of the touch of the sun, we simply go to sleep as usual. Or not. We can have insomnia just like anyone else. We can stay up late and watch TV. We can goof off on the Internet, if we so choose.”