Authors: Stephen Solomita
“If Marie could’ve gotten the confession without pulling a gun, I would’ve been glad to take it to the cops. I would’ve been satisfied to see Marek doing a long bit in Attica. But the truth is I never thought it was gonna be that easy. I knew she was full of shit, because I went through her purse while she was sleeping, and I found the gun.”
“You didn’t take it away?” Betty had asked quietly. “An illegal weapon?”
“I never thought about taking the gun away. Not for one second. I thought about what she wanted to do with the gun and whether she had the stomach for it and what I was gonna do if she didn’t.” He’d waited for Betty to respond, to become angry, to scream, but she’d kept her eyes on the kitchen table. “Najowski was gonna walk away, Betty. How could I let that go? You remember Inez Almeyda lying on the concrete. You remember the holes in her face?”
“I can’t forget.”
“Now remember her the way she was
before
Marek Najowski came into her life. Imagine her with her children. With her husband. Imagine her cooking dinner while the kids watch television, while her husband has a beer.” He’d stopped again, waiting for her to make the accusations, and, again, she’d held her peace. “I once looked up the word ‘murder’ in a dictionary. It was a long time ago and I forget exactly why I did it, but I remember what it said. According to the pocket dictionary I was using, murder was ‘unlawful killing.’ That simple, Betty. Nothing about good and evil. Or about justice. According to the dictionary, what the Nazis did in Germany wasn’t murder, because the same Nazis who did the killing wrote a law saying the killing was legal. I’m not gonna live with that bullshit. Why should I? The truth is, if you wanna look in the dictionary, killing Najowski was murder. Me, I’ve got my own definitions.”
“The problem is,” Betty had finally said, “that I don’t
know
how I feel about it. I’ve been nursing this revenge fantasy ever since it happened. In fact, there’s someone inside me who keeps wishing you’d done it slower. But I’ve been fighting all my life against cops who think they’re judges and juries.”
“I’m not a cop anymore. I’m a private citizen who witnessed a homicide without reporting it. I’m a private citizen who cleaned up the scene and walked away.”
“That makes you a vigilante.”
“Like the Equalizer, except younger, right?”
Neither of them laughed. Instead, they took Najowski’s death with them when they drove to Jackson Heights, Moodrow once again folded into the hated Honda. Birnbaum had called Betty after receiving a certified letter from Precision Management announcing that Precision Management would no longer accept rent and would not be responsible for day-to-day maintenance. Betty intended to petition the court to appoint a receiver to care for the property until the landlord (or his heirs) could be located and she wanted to prepare several affidavits as well as view the problems for herself.
“Let me see if I’ve got this right,” Betty said to Paul Reilly. “You suffer from emphysema and you’re currently being treated by a physician?”
“Yeah,” Reilly answered. “By Dr. Musari at the Veterans’ Hospital. That’s why it’s very hard for me to walk the stairs. The elevator went out two days ago and the super can’t fix it. I called up to complain, but the lady at the management won’t talk to me, either. Now I hear the porters didn’t get paid yesterday, so they won’t carry down the garbage. I have to do it myself or live with the stink.”
“Every time something gets better, it gets worse. How can this be?” Mike Birnbaum’s bruises were healed and the reporters had stopped coming around, but his basic attitude was unchanged. “It used to be a paradise…”
Mike stopped suddenly, his mouth dropping open. For a long moment, Betty thought he was about to collapse, but then he sat upright in the chair, pointing one long shaking finger at an old man coming up the walk. The man, leaning heavily on a cane, wore a Hawaiian shirt over light cotton trousers and sandals on his feet instead of shoes. When he saw Mike Birnbaum begin to stand, he accelerated into a stumbling shuffle, raising the cane as he went.
“It’s Morris Katz,” Reilly explained to Moodrow and Betty.
“It’s Beelzebub!” Birnbaum screamed. “It’s Satan!” The old man spluttered on for a minute, unable to form a coherent word, then finally gasped the appropriate insults. “Did you bring matches with you?” he screamed. “Did you come to finish the job your hoodlums started? Maybe you came to hit me on the head? The one thing you
didn’t
come to do is commit a rape, because you only get a hard-on when you rub your
putz
with five dollar bills.”
As Morris Katz’s face began to redden, the spray of freckles across his nose and cheeks lit up. He waved his cane threateningly, but when Birnbaum proved to be fearless, let it fall back to the ground. “Why,” he implored, raising his face to the heavens. “Why did You bring me back here? For what reason? To get one last piece of torture out of my life? Wonderful people You take every day. Saints You take. Infants in their cribs You take. Why do You let this man live who made every minute of my life in New York a misery? This bastard of a
schnorrer
who never once in thirty-five years paid the whole rent. He’s an old man, Lord. Take him tonight.”
“Pay the rent?” Birnbaum shook with anger. “For this pigsty? Did you even one time send up enough heat? Plaster falls off my wall and I gotta beg for a painter. The hallways are greasy and I practically gotta crawl so I don’t break my back. The…”
“You should fall and break your
head
!”
“Then I could sue until you’re so poor you gotta live in your own buildings.”
The combatants paused for breath, leaving Betty enough room to interject a question. “My name is Haluka,” she said. “I’m an attorney and I represent the tenants here.”
Morris Katz, his breath coming in gasps, turned to Betty and bowed deeply. “My name is Morris Katz and I’m holding the mortgage on these buildings. For two months I haven’t seen a check, so I call the company and they tell me the new owner is missing. Also his lawyer is dead, so nobody’s in charge. I’m in the court tomorrow.”
“What are you planning to do?” Betty asked.
Morris smiled as if at a child. “You are Jewish?” he asked gently.
“Yes,” Betty answered, grinning in spite of herself.
“In my life I’ve made many mistakes. In fact, I got to admit that certain people think I’m a
shlemiel
. Me, I don’t argue. What for? I’m a
shlemiel
who doesn’t give up no matter how many time’s he falls in the soup. I’m a
shlemiel
who persists.”
“A
shlemiel
?” Mike Birnbaum yelled, “More like a
shmuck
.”
“You see how he talks?” Morris replied to Betty. “You see the language that pours out of his mouth? That’s what comes of eating
trayf
. You talk like a
goy
.”
This time Betty responded before Mike Birnbaum could frame a reply, “Mr. Katz, would you mind giving me the name of your attorney? Maybe we could work out some details and go into court together. It’d make everything happen much faster.”
“What attorney?” Morris sniffed the air suspiciously. “You think I worked all my life to make some shyster rich? A lawyer I don’t need. I’m gonna fix this place up like a dream. New windows, new roof, new elevator. I’m tired of the Bahamas. The water, the sun…it’s disgusting, already. I can’t even breathe the air. When I go in the casino, I don’t care if I should win or lose. I got a forty-foot yacht—it should sink in the bay.”
“It should sink with you in it, you bastard,” Birnbaum raged.
Betty looked up at Moodrow, finding him expressionless, as usual—only his eyes held any hint of the pleasure he took from the scene. He met her glance and they began to edge away from the combatants.
“They’re just getting going,” Moodrow complained.
“That’s what I’m afraid of.” She took his arm and marched resolutely toward the car. “It’s funny, but I was under the impression that Mike loved Morris Katz. Now he acts like he wants to eat Katz’s liver.”
“From Mike’s point of view, all landlords are greedy thieves who get sexually aroused by shutting off the heat on New Year’s Eve. Morris was a saint only as long as he was the ex-landlord.” He eyed the Honda with distaste, then unlocked the passenger door and passed the keys over to Betty. “Your turn,” he said.
Betty accepted the keys, but remained standing while Moodrow folded himself into the front seat. Finally, she walked around the car and got in next to him. “Stanley,” she said, “I’ve been thinking.”
“How did I know?” Despite the weak humor, Moodrow understood that some decision had been reached.
“Remember I told you about how much I wanted to do it myself. To…” She hesitated, then finished it. “To kill Najowski.”
“Yeah, I remember.”
“And I told you how my job, which I’ve been doing all my life, complicates it.”
She paused and he felt compelled to mutter the compulsory, “Yeah.”
“Well, there’s another complication and that’s that I’m in love with you. I thought love was supposed to conquer all, but this love makes it harder.”
Moodrow tried to straighten up, but only succeeded in jamming his head into the roofliner. “Does that mean you’re not taking off on me? The way you say it, I’m not sure.”
“I’ve decided to leave my job. I’ve got more than twenty years in the pension, so I should be okay for money. As for the rest of it…I’ll just have to wait and see.
Betty maneuvered the overloaded Honda through the traffic at Queens Plaza and onto the 59th Street Bridge, dodging a bus that moved between the cars like it owned the street. “If I leave Legal Aid, I don’t know what I’ll do with myself,” Betty said, once they’d settled onto the outer roadway. “I can’t just clean my apartment all day. Not after twenty years in a courtroom. I have to have a little action. I’ll have to find something.”
The Honda’s windows, in deference to the warm weather, were rolled all the way down and the noise of the traffic was almost as loud as the Honda’s engine as it struggled to push the little car up the steep grade. A quarter mile ahead, the towers of midtown Manhattan, softened by the spring light, rose up on either side of the silent couple.
Once again, Moodrow tried to shift position. His knees still hurt from when he’d knelt in the mud outside Najowski’s window. Most likely, he reflected, he shouldn’t have told her what happened. Most likely, he should have kept it to himself. Or at least softened the truth by admitting that he loved and needed her. But there were times when manipulation didn’t work. When the prize was so enormous, it justified any risk. When the truth really did set you free. One way or the other.
He looked across at Betty as she drove her little Honda along the raised expansion cracks in the roadway. The tires were shifting back and forth rapidly, though the car continued to move in a straight line, and Betty’s mouth was slightly open, the point of her tongue a lighter pink against her lower lip.
In My end is My beginning.
The words stole into Moodrow’s consciousness as he watched the evening light play across Betty’s features. It came from someplace in the Bible, though he didn’t know where, a memory, most likely, from a reading of the Gospels at a long-forgotten Sunday Mass. He did feel as if he was ending and beginning at the same time, that there was no difference between the two. Only a gap, a pause for breath in which it was possible to see the end without fearing it.
“Do you believe this?” Betty asked, tossing the point of her chin at the sunlight reflecting from a million panes of glass. “I love the city when it gets like this.”
Moodrow agreed silently. He’d defined his life by facing down the ugliest aspects of urban life, by staring at the Medusa without being turned to stone. Now, drenched in spring light, he could admit that he loved the city. He could admit that he loved it as he loved his life and his work. That, if truth be told, he’d never loved it more.
All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. By payment of the required fees, you have been granted the non-exclusive, non-transferable right to access and read the text of this ebook onscreen. No part of this text may be reproduced, transmitted, downloaded, decompiled, reverse engineered, or stored in or introduced into any information storage and retrieval system, in any form or by any means, whether electronic or mechanical, now known or hereinafter invented, without the express written permission of the publisher.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
copyright © 1990 by Stephen Solomita
cover design by Erin Fitzsimmons
978-1-4532-9056-9
This 2013 edition distributed by MysteriousPress.com/Open Road Integrated Media
180 Varick Street
New York, NY 10014