Forever Viper (27 page)

Jade sighs, “That’s a good question. The answer being time, understanding and love. No matter how hard it gets, just don’t give up on either of them.”

I straighten my back and lean my head back against the wall. I clench my hands together to try and control the anger that still boils away inside of me. “I have all three and I know we all have our own ways of dealing with our problems. Peppa is usually the one to walk away from the situation and needs time to think everything through. It killed me to let her walk out that door. I’m so angry at Juan, I understand his pain, I fucking felt it but to leave me like that and not say a word fucking hurt Jade.”

She pats my arm, “I know, but try and see it from his point of view. I’m guessing he feels like he has lost Peppa and has driven her away from you too. Juan is like a sponge, he absorbs every emotion. Trying to deal with it on his own, trying to protect his loved ones. He needs to know he is loved and wanted. Right now he doesn’t feel that because the shame of his lies has caused a rift between you all.”

I slowly blow out the breath I didn’t realize I was holding and push myself away from the wall to stand. I turn back to Jade and reach out a hand for her to take and she does and I pull her to her feet. I smile weakly at her and say, “Thanks for talking with me. Can vampires suppress their feelings once you are fully Entwined? I can detect some of Juan’s, but I’m just wondering if he lessens them so I can’t sense everything.”

She nods, “Yes, with age you learn to tamper them down. Some can even switch them off.”

I nod my thanks. “I have a lot to think about so I will see you later. Thanks again Jade, for everything.”

She says, “You are more than welcome.” And I manage a half-hearted smile.

Once back in my room and trying hard not to let matters fester, I decide to do the one thing that seems to calm me: I pour my heart out in words to Peppa, waiting for Juan to show his face. I fall asleep alone worrying that Juan won’t come back for me. The bastard isn’t here when I awoke either, which pisses me off. I can hold off on my hunger for a little while. I just have to hope he will show up to feed me or I am on my own.

I take a shower and make my way out to ask Jade if she has heard from anyone. I find Saul sitting on the sofa instead, “Hi Noah, how are you?”

I take a seat next to him, “Things could be better, have you heard from Juan? He didn’t come back last night.”

“No, I texted him, but he hasn’t answered. I have a feeling he will be at Peppa’s.”

I rest my head back on the sofa and sigh, feeling some relief that Juan is hopefully sorting matters out with Peppa.

Saul frowns at me, “Noah do you need to feed?”

I shake my head, “I’m fine for the moment, but I hope he isn’t too long.”

Saul tries to take my mind off my concerns by talking about the tour and how well that is going. I notice him checking his phone from time to time and I can tell he is worried about Juan too. I take the plunge and ask the question that has plagued me since last night, “He will come back won’t he? He can’t leave me alone like this. I need him.”

Saul’s arm snakes around my shoulder and I’m pulled into him, “He loves you Noah. There is no way on this earth that he will leave you alone. I wouldn’t let him anyway, because you are now part of my family Noah, and I look after my family members.”

Saul eases my worries.
At least I have someone I can count on.
My anger is getting the better of me and my hunger rises. I start to pace the room trying to keep it under control, “I don’t know how much longer I can hold on Saul, will you take me out to feed?”

Saul pats the seat next to him and I walk over and take it. “Do you want my wrist?”

I shake my head, “I can’t Saul. I only want Juan’s and Peppa’s blood, but you can take me to Flora. I can feed from her.”

As I say this, I sense the connection flare and a knock comes to the door. Juan can’t even look at me and I sense his pain as he explains to Saul that he needed to see Peppa and tells us what happened there. His eyes finally meet mine and the fucker is backing down as he tells me he told Peppa not to blame me,
the stubborn shit.
Oh fuck, did that piss me off. He’s not the only one who can be stubborn and I get in his face and tell him a few home truths. I need to feed desperately and with the way I feel, I can’t take from Juan’s vein so I ask him to take me to Flora.

Things are strained between us while we are out, but I try my damn hardest to make sure he still feels my love and I take his hand in mine when we head back to Jade’s.

The next night Juan didn’t seem to have time for anything, so I feed from him quickly and get an 'I might come back later' from him, before he is gone again.

Once again I find myself writing to Peppa and that’s when a plan starts to form. I know she isn’t the type of woman who likes everyone in her face, telling her what to do. She's the type of person who needs to work her concerns out for herself, but it can’t hurt to have evidence of what actually happened. I wasn’t sure when I wanted her to read my letters at first, but now I know she has to read them and soon.

I'm left fuming when I receive a text message from Saul asking if Juan is here. I answer back saying no and what the hell is going on. When he told me what Juan said, I am left devastated and so fucking angry. How can he even think we would be better off without him? I lost it then and I rushed for the front door to go and shake some sense into him, to let him know we will be nothing without him. I can’t open the door because I'm lost in my emotions, I didn’t realize Jade is standing there blocking my way out.

It isn’t until she speaks that I glanced down and notice her, “I’m sorry Noah, I can’t let you out. We can’t take the chance in case your hunger rises and you attack. I know you are strong, but don’t you think there is enough going on without you going AWOL too.”

My head falls to the door and I bang it a few times, “I don’t know where his head space is at or if he will do something stupid. You say I’m strong, but right now, I’m falling apart. I’m scared Jade.”

Her hand comes up to rest on my cheek, “Saul will find him. Noah, when you Entwine with someone, you can’t stay away from that person. Only death can keep you apart. I promise you, he will come back.”

Jade has become like a sister to me so I kiss her on the forehead, not knowing what to say and make my way back to my room. I know she did the right thing stopping me from leaving and I let her words sink in. I know deep inside he will come back, but that didn’t stop the tears from falling as I just lay there waiting for him.

An hour or so has passed and my rage begins to take over. By the time I feel the connection, I'm seething and I let it all out by punching the crap out of him. He manages to get me to listen to what he has to say, but then Saul crashes the party before he gets anything out.

Juan apologies to his brother and my father’s name is mentioned, which has all my senses on alert, however Peppa’s name comes out. Saul lets us know she is ok and tells us what I know already, that she needs time. Then the conversation is steered around to my father again and what I hear makes me shake with anger. The man, who calls himself my father is very close to being disowned by me. I wanted to shout out my wrath until my throat runs dry. I started to pace the room so they can’t see the tears waiting to spill from pure hate towards my father.

After Saul leaves us, I let Juan know that I’m glad he was smart enough not to play into my father’s hand and he did the right thing by saying he is no longer with Peppa. I know my father will back off until he figures out another way to get her out of my house.

I also let it be known that it is time for me to get out of this fucking room. We agree that Juan will take me out so I can interact with people. With Juan lying in my arms, my thoughts turn to Peppa as dawn approaches. I'm going to fight harder for her, I'm going to conquer this hunger so I can deal with everything and then Peppa will be sleeping between us again.

Everything proceeds to go wrong when Juan takes me to the park. I'm coping just fine until all the women that walk past remind me of Peppa and it makes me want to go after them. I can hear their blood rushing around their bodies flowing in and out of their veins and I want a taste. Even when my fangs drop, I fight it with everything I have. It is then I smell the perfume that Peppa wears that I lose it and I run after the woman. I don’t want to hurt her and I guess, to Juan, it looks like I am going to bite her but he talks me into stepping away from her.
I was only sniffing her and imagining it is Peppa standing in front of me.

After using mind control on the woman, Juan takes me back to Jade’s and I feed from him. Guilt at what could have happened tonight makes me ponder Juan’s words as he lets me know I need more time. After he leaves I’m left angry at myself, which makes me more determined.

A couple of hours later, my business mind is needed as Viper finds themselves in the shit again. Someone has caught on to our plan and I’m frustrated at not being able to do my job properly. It should be me phoning people to set matters straight but there is only one way forward now and I let the others know. “As your boss, the only thing left is to tell the truth. Let the world know that someone is out to ruin Viper.”

I stare over at Cruz because he is the other business man in the room. He rubs his chin, “It will certainly back whoever is doing this into a corner. I can’t see another way of them coming at us if we lay it all out on the line.”

Our heads snap to Saul when he speaks next, “We can use the sympathy vote and get the fans back on our side, and they will see it isn’t our fault. Good idea Noah.”

Phone calls are placed next and I felt the right decision is made. After everyone called it a night, I made a beeline to Cruz before he left, “You need to phone my father and ask for backup at the venues. Threaten to quit if he refuses.”

Juan is in bed when I make it to my room and I climb in. I decide to let Peppa know how I feel by sending her a text. I'm hoping my words will make her want to come to me, but I will wait no matter how long it takes. Juan has turned to face me and I lean down to place a kiss to his lips and say, “I have a plan, it might take a while but trust me.”

His eyes shine with hope and we cuddle together clinging onto that. When we awake I take a little blood from Juan as he is taking me out again after the gig. We walk in on Saul and Jade, who are having a moment, which I find turns me on and I let Juan feel that, but then my eyes fall to the newspapers on the table. I roll my eyes when I read the headlines and show Juan the photo of Cruz on the front. Viper doesn’t need these sort of headlines. I guess the papers held off with the news we gave them last night; they know they will sell papers with this kind of news. But tomorrow will be different and today’s news will be old news.

I do have a moment where I worry about Devil Records but I have faith. I guess Juan picked up on my thoughts as he left me with a knee bending kiss and telling me I have nothing to worry about.

I have a quick conversation with Jade. She tells me she is happy Juan is spending time with me and that he seemed to be in a better place. I agreed with her, but of course I know different because I can sense his suffering. He is putting everything into Viper, hiding behind it, if you like, but he needs something and Cruz and Saul seemed to bring the real him back to the surface. I excuse myself to read through the papers to see if there is anything else that needs my attention.

Twenty minutes later a flow of heat rocks my body and I sense her. Adrenalin and excitement makes me rush to the door and Jade stops me again, “Peppa’s out there Jade, I promise I won’t go anywhere. Please let me get to her.”

Jade’s eyes widen and a smile spreads across her face as she steps to the side, “Who am I to stand in the way of true love?”

I open the door and my legs buckle at the sight of her. I pour all the love I have for her out through our connection and call out to her.
She’s here, she’s really fucking here.
She isn’t moving so I go and get her. There is no way she is getting away from me now. Everything vanishes around me. I don’t hear anything but her heartbeat, I don’t see anything but her amazing, beautiful face.

I place her on my bed, still not believing she is real and I have to ask her. She lets me know through a kiss that I have dreamed of feeling again. Her hands explore my body and my whole being lusts for this beautiful creature who owns me. I’m dying to be inside of her, but I need to know a few things and I bare my soul to her, which brings us both to tears. She says the words I need to hear and I show my appreciation through what I hope is a mind blowing kiss. She asks me questions and I answer the best way I can and tell her about the letters.

I notice every time I mention Juan’s name a flash of pain crosses her face. I don’t think she realizes that she is doing it. I know it’s best not to keep on about Juan, but I can’t help but beg his case, to let her know he loves her. She shuts me up when she asks me to make love to her. It’s not like I’m going to say no, we both need this to reconnect. I can’t help the shake that appears in my hands while I undress her, but as soon as I see her naked tits begging to be sucked, all my senses want in on the act and I let her know what I want to do to her. I go on to pleasure her and enjoy hearing her little moans, fuck I have missed them.

Suddenly, I’m hit with the need to bite her, to taste the liquid that keeps her alive. Her blood calls out to me. I try and fight it, but Peppa picks up on my need and I end up telling her I want to be fully Entwined to her. She surprises me when she agrees but I don’t wait around in case she changes her mind.

My tongue is fully buried deep inside her pussy, fucking her like there is no tomorrow. As her pussy starts to clench around me I know now is the time to take what I crave and I bite her. I have never tasted something so pure in my life. I get a buzz from her blood flowing around inside of me. I’m caught between heaven and hell when the juices from her orgasm mix with the blood and I’m left high as a kite and eager to finish this bonding between us. She begs me to take her and I don’t waste a second before I’m inside of her giving her all of me.