From This Moment On (9 page)

She made a muted purring sound that vibrated against his mouth. It might as well have zipped straight to his cock. Not much separated common sense from a wild need to drag her up to his room. He had to calm down.

“And the guests?” she asked, letting her head fall back even more. Eyes closed, lips parted, ready for him to slip his tongue inside. Taste the sweetness he’d already sampled.

“What about them?” He breathed in her dizzying scent, warned himself again to back off. The argument was already fading in his mind.

“One of them could walk in on us.”

“So?”

She smiled, swaying enough that he had to tighten his arm around her waist. “This is crazy.”

“Maybe we should start your lesson early.”

“My—?” She opened her eyes. “Oh, right,” she murmured, blinking away the confusion. “What time is it?”

The big round clock hung on the wall to his left. He strained to see it without losing ground, fearing if he let her go, the moment would be lost.

Nikki pushed on his arm, trying to look for herself. He relaxed his hold and she broke away. The sensible side of his brain told him it was for the best. His body strongly disagreed.

He turned to the clock, so worked up inside that he had to squint to focus. No way that much time had gone by since he’d come inside. He cut off a curse at the last second. Cole wanted to meet him in the east barn, and Trace had agreed to be there five minutes ago.

“What’s wrong?” Nikki touched his arm, then quickly withdrew.

She shouldn’t have to worry about a casual touch, that was the kind of thing he’d been trying to avoid. If he hadn’t pushed, she might not have given it a second thought. He lightly squeezed her shoulder, then went to the window and looked outside for Cole. If he were on time, he’d be waiting at the entrance.

“I forgot I was supposed to meet Cole. I’ll come look for you when I’m done and we can talk about later.” When he saw his brother standing outside the stable talking to Karina, Trace grinned. He knew by the look on Cole’s face he’d been caught off guard and would do anything to escape. That gave Trace a couple more minutes with Nikki.

She joined him at the window, and the instant she spotted them she broke out in a huge smile.

“What’s that for?”

“Nothing.”

“Yeah, sure looks like nothing.” It reminded him to ask her about the other night. “You and Karina, at the Watering Hole, what were you laughing about?”

She turned away, shaking her head. “I can’t tell you. I promised.”

“Well, that’s a fine thing.” He caught her arm, spun her back to face him. “You trust her more than you do me?”

“You want me to break a promise?”

Hard to argue when she put it that way. “Give me a hint. Did it have anything to do with what I told her about you and me?”

Nikki lost the smile. “What did you say?”

Trace cringed. He should’ve thought before putting himself on the hot seat. “She asked if you were my girlfriend and I sorta said I was working on it.”

“Sorta said?”

“Yeah, okay, I said it, but it was in self-defense...not to mention your fault.”

She folded her arms across her chest. “I can’t wait to hear this.”

“I was getting a group ready for a ride and thinking about us kissing and...well...I might’ve looked a little sappy when I helped Karina into the saddle and I worried she’d gotten the wrong idea.”

“Oh.” Nikki’s lips again curved into a smile, but a strange one. “What she told me had nothing to do with that.”

Well, hell, that didn’t tell him squat. “I didn’t know you two were so chummy.”

“That was the first time we’d really talked.” She lifted a shoulder. “I like her.” She moved closer, lowering her voice to a teasing whisper. “If you can’t keep your mind on work, then no more getting down and dirty.”

“We haven’t even gotten dusty yet.” Trace tried to sneak an arm around her waist but she danced out of reach. “Come on now, I only have a minute before I have to go save Cole.”

Nikki suddenly got serious. “What if Karina repeats what you told her and it spreads?”

“About me working on you?” He dismissed it with a shrug. “No one will think anything of it. You’re in the clear, and people will figure that’s just me being me.”

Regret hit him instantly. Even before her expression fell and her body tensed. A lot of people considered him a player, and Nikki didn’t have evidence to the contrary. He needed to explain....

Hilda reentered the kitchen.

Too late. He had to let it go for now. At least he still had later when they could talk in private. “I gotta go get Cole,” he said, looking directly at Nikki. “I’ll see you soon. Same time?”

She hesitated, and he tried to hold her gaze, tried to silently communicate that he needed to see her. But he knew he’d lost her the second her lips lifted in a faint smile. “Another day, okay?”

Dammit. He glanced at Hilda. She’d busied herself with stirring a pot on the stove, but she could still hear. Saying anything more would only make Nikki uncomfortable. He let out a frustrated sigh and headed for the door. Maybe he had been that guy, but meeting Nikki had changed his ways. He just wished he could convince her of that.

9

“N
IKKI
?”

She turned at Sadie’s voice rising above the boisterous laughter from the back room crowd, and saw her boss motioning that she needed her. Nikki had been idly chatting with Chip and another cowboy while she cleared off a table, so she grabbed the last two dirty glasses and headed to the far end of the bar where Sadie waited for her.

“I can’t figure out why it’s so slow tonight,” Sadie said, glancing around the room.

“It’s not that bad.”

“Huh. Most of the hands got paid two days ago. Can’t tell me they’ve already gone through their paychecks.”

Nikki leaned on the bar, studying Sadie. Her comment was odd enough, but to call Nikki over for that? Maybe the phone call she’d gotten a while ago had something to do with her strange mood. On the first ring Sadie started grumbling like she always did, swearing to disconnect service because it was a waste of money and she was tired of passing on messages from angry wives. But she hadn’t yelled for anyone to get home before they had to sleep in the barn.

Maybe she’d heard from her daughter. They didn’t speak often, but the one time Mariah had called while Nikki was working, Sadie had gotten depressed after hanging up. Part of her wanted to ask if Sadie needed to talk, but the gesture didn’t come naturally. Nikki hated people butting into her life so she tried to stay out of theirs.

And today probably wasn’t the time to change her ways.

Turned out everything had sucked, from getting up early to the reminder that Trace was exactly the kind of guy she’d feared. He was a player. Guys like him used to be exciting to her, a challenge she couldn’t resist. No more.

Okay, the thrill hadn’t disappeared, but she needed to work at tamping down her attraction. She’d been bitten twice already by hooking up with guys who had more charm than substance. That was enough. At least she’d had the sense to cancel her riding lesson. The consolation was so tiny she wanted to scream.

“Um, Sadie, did you want something?” she asked when it seemed as if nothing more would be said. “You know, when you called me over?”

“Oh, right.” Sadie waved an acknowledgment when a customer yelled they needed beer in the back. “Why don’t you go on home? No need to stick around when it’s this slow.”

“It’s really not that bad. Everyone’s drinking steady.” Nikki didn’t get it. What was going on? They’d been less busy quite a few nights and Sadie had never suggested she go home. “Did I do something wrong?”

“No.” Sadie reached over and squeezed her hand. “You’ve been a godsend. Don’t go thinking that way. I just don’t see the point in us both hanging around on a night when it’s a one-person job.”

“But I don’t mind. I—”

“I don’t wanna hear any more about it,” Sadie said, shaking her head and coming out from behind the bar.

“I can check the back first, see who needs beer.”

“Would you just go on?” Sadie could be impatient and irritable with customers, but she’d never used that annoyed tone with Nikki.

“I have five open tabs sitting beside the register. I can close them out before I leave if you—”

“We’re getting thirsty back here,” one of the pool players yelled loud enough to be heard at Abe’s Variety down the street.

Sadie craned her neck to see who it was, then hollered, “Keep your pants on, Leo.” She turned back to Nikki. “I’ve been doing this a long time, honey, I’ll figure it out. And don’t worry, I’ll make sure to set aside your tips.”

“I’m not worried about that.” Feeling like a kid who’d just been suspended from school, Nikki watched her amble toward the back. Except she hadn’t done anything bad. If there had been a complaint about her...

A sudden thought struck as Nikki crouched to grab her keys from the shelf under the cash register. Maybe Sadie needed the money. The tips weren’t great tonight, but working alone could amount to a nice chunk of change. If that was the case, Nikki was glad to leave the business to Sadie. She dug into her pocket for the tips she’d collected earlier. It was only twenty bucks or so, but it could help. She made sure Sadie wasn’t in view, then stuffed the bills into the older woman’s tip jar sitting on the rear counter.

On the way out, customers ragged on her about leaving, asking if she had a hot date. She sent wisecracks back at them, but she couldn’t deny feeling at loose ends. If it was about money, she would’ve worked for free, she didn’t care. The Watering Hole was as much home to her as the Lone Wolf.

She stopped on the sidewalk and sucked in a deep breath. Directly in front of her, Trace’s truck was parked at the curb. He was leaning back against the door with his arms folded and the brim of his hat pulled down low. As if he were waiting for someone. For her?

“Hey,” he said, pushing off the truck.

“What are you doing?” She hadn’t seen him inside. Unless he’d slipped in and out while she and Sadie were talking. “Were you in the Watering Hole?”

“Nope. Just got here. Come sit in the truck with me for a minute.”

“What is this?” She wished she could see his eyes better. “How did you know I’d be out here?”

“Come here and I’ll explain.”

“No.” She squeezed the set of keys until it dug into her palm, then pulled her arm back when he reached for her. “I’m staying right here until you tell me what’s going on.”

Main Street almost always quieted down after six-thirty. At nine, with the Food Mart and Abe’s Variety closed, the town was dead. Two trucks and a blue sedan were parked in front of the diner. Other than a pair of headlights coming toward them from the south, nothing moved on the street.

She wouldn’t even have noticed the headlights except Trace seemed weirdly interested. He stood silently watching the vehicle’s approach, his mouth a grim line as the car passed.

“Dammit, Trace, you’re scaring me.”

“I don’t mean to.” He caught her this time, tightening his grip on her wrist when she tried to shake him off. “Would you settle down?”

“No, I won’t. First Sadie sends me home like I’m a kid who’s disobeyed, then I come out here and—” She gasped at the feel of her breasts being crushed against his chest. His rough treatment stunned her.

“I’m sorry if I pulled too hard.” He put his free arm around her before he released her wrist. Apparently he wasn’t contrite enough to let her go.

“What is wrong with you?” With the light from the bar’s sign shining in his face, she could see his eyes now. They were dark and serious, and she knew something bad had happened. “Is it Matt?” Her heart nearly exploded from merely voicing the question. “Tell me he’s okay, Trace. You tell me right now.”

“Matt is fine.” His genuine look of surprise reassured her more than the words. “It’s Wallace.”

“He’s dead?”

Trace nodded. “He passed away about forty minutes ago.”

“Why did you scare me like that?” She punched his shoulder. “Damn you.” Pausing, she struggled to take a breath, and shivered in the warm summer air. It was finally over...the waiting and having to watch her brother care for the man who’d shown him nothing but contempt. She should feel relief. Still she felt nothing. “I thought it was Matt. God.”

“Now will you get in my truck?”

“Why? I drove—” She stared at him as things started falling into place. “Is that why Sadie told me to go home? She knew about Wallace?”

“I called her after Rachel phoned me. She and Matt, we all thought it was best that I come get you before you heard the news from someone else. Doc Heaton gets summoned this late it means either he’ll be delivering a baby or certifying a death.”

“Was that him in the blue car?”

“Yep. Somehow his comings and goings seem to spread fast around here.”

Nikki sighed. She couldn’t be mad at everyone for caring, no matter how misguided. When Trace hooked a finger under her chin and gently tipped her head back, she said, “If you’re looking for tears there aren’t any.”

A faint smile curved his mouth. “I want you to be okay, that’s all.”

She twisted away from him, lifted her hands, palms up. “Look, I’m fine. Just like always.” She twirled all the way around. “See?”

“Yes, good.” He gestured to his truck. “We should go.”

Screw his patronizing tone. She sidestepped him and headed for her own truck. No, not hers, the pickup belonged to the Lone Wolf. She didn’t have anything of value. Never had, probably never would. The hell with the Gunderson trust fund. Matt considered half the ranch hers, she didn’t.

“Nikki...what are you doing?”

“Going home like a good girl. Isn’t that what everyone wants?”

She kept walking without glancing back, wanting to run. But that would only convince Trace she was upset and needed a babysitter. The stupid door was locked so she readied her key. Everyone in Blackfoot Falls left their vehicles open, windows half-down, everyone but her. She hadn’t broken the habit yet, and damn she wished she had because her hand shook too hard to get her key inserted. Of course she’d chosen the only truck at the Lone Wolf that didn’t have a remote.

Sneaking a peek to locate Trace, she saw him standing right where she’d left him. She didn’t have to see his watchful eyes to know they tracked her every move. On the third try she got the door open and climbed in, quickly checking the rearview mirror to see him slip behind the wheel of his own truck. She knew he’d follow her, but there was nothing she could do about it.

Cursing her unsteady hand, she missed the ignition twice before pushing the key home. After she’d pulled away from the curb she realized she hadn’t checked for oncoming traffic. So what? No traffic except for her and Trace. If she passed a single car in the next fifteen minutes to the Lone Wolf she’d be surprised.

Her hands were freezing, and she rolled down a window instead of using the heat. The warm air rushed in. She glanced at the speedometer, saw how fast she was driving and eased her foot off the accelerator. She hadn’t even left the town limits yet. All she needed was to get stopped and ticketed. Though she was pretty sure Roy was on duty, and the deputy would probably let her skate with only a warning.

Forcing herself to breathe in deeply shouldn’t have been hard. But she couldn’t seem to draw in enough air and panicked for a moment. Trace was the problem. He followed close behind and, God, she didn’t want him seeing her fall apart.

No, no, that wasn’t it. She didn’t even understand where the thought had come from. Even after what Matt had told her this morning, she hadn’t truly believed Wallace would die soon. She figured the bastard was too stubborn and mean...he’d hang on just to make everyone else miserable. Her worry wasn’t that she’d fall apart, but that she wasn’t prepared. Her emotional bank was empty, void, not even a hint of compassion had surfaced. How was she supposed to react appropriately?

She knew Rachel was with Matt, and Lucy had to be there, too. Maybe Petey was at the house. The wrangler knew the family well. And the doctor, of course, he’d still be there when she got home. Or maybe not...if she slowed down. What if she waited a couple of hours? She’d call so Matt wouldn’t worry....

No, she’d feel like shit if she ditched him. As if that wasn’t exactly what she’d been doing for weeks. He’d given her a chance to help even things out by asking her to see Wallace a final time. Oh, Matt had claimed he meant only to give her the facts this morning, but she’d understood the subtle suggestion that she step up and say goodbye, and she’d walked out anyway. She’d been too stubborn and defiant to give so much as an inch, and now... Oh, God, she didn’t know.

All she wanted was to stop thinking.

It was too quiet. Listening to music would help. She turned on the radio, knowing the signal sucked this far north. Her CDs were tucked in between the passenger seat and the console. She fumbled trying to find one, momentarily lost control of the wheel and weaved into the other lane.

She checked the rearview mirror, half expecting Trace to overtake her and force her to pull over. But he continued to stay at a sensible distance behind, and somehow the knowledge that he hadn’t overreacted calmed her. Deciding against risking her neck over a CD, she clutched the steering wheel with both hands and stared at the dark highway ahead. And the stars. Lots of them twinkled in the clear inky sky. So different from Houston with its pricey high-rise condos and gleaming skyscrapers blazing with lights. Not exactly a star-friendly place.

So Wallace was dead.

Okay, Nikki had known his end was coming, but she hadn’t seriously considered what life would look and feel like after he was gone. Matt planned on easing out of the rodeo circuit and running the Lone Wolf. He insisted half the ranch was hers, but she didn’t give a crap about inheritance. The place belonged to Matt, period. She had no interest, no investment in the Lone Wolf, emotional or otherwise. She was only here in Montana because...

Her breathing stalled again, and she forced herself to pay attention to what her body was telling her. She was in major stress mode.

With Wallace alive, she’d been coasting. Any decision regarding her future she’d easily shelved for later. Matt had been busy with his care, and she’d scrambled to make herself unavailable. A tiny part of her had hoped by the time Wallace was gone she’d have grown attached to the ranch and Blackfoot Falls. She liked her job and most of the people she’d met, but enough to make this her home? She couldn’t say. So where did that leave her? Aside from feeling utterly confused.

Startled, she saw the turnoff to the Lone Wolf up ahead. Of all the nights for the drive to seem short... She slowed to make the turn and, yep, Trace was still right behind her. Maybe it was best he’d be there with her. He’d be a distraction and Matt wouldn’t fuss over her so much in front of Trace.

She forced herself to concentrate on the narrow private road, looking out for deer that liked to come bounding out of nowhere and dash in front of the truck this time of night. Her hands were cold again, actually freezing and stiff, and she let go of the wheel to shake the circulation back into her fingers.

She hadn’t made it far when the lights became visible. Normally she wouldn’t see the Lone Wolf for another half a mile. But tonight, God, so many lights were ablaze they lit the sky. Had someone flipped every single switch on the property? How many people were there? And why? Had they come to see her father in his last hour?