He bit into it again, and slowly chewed it. Tibbles came up to him, sat down on the kitchen floor, and looked up at him with undisguised resentment, as if to say:
why can't you ever let me live a normal life, like every other cat, filling my belly with Instinctive Choice Shrimp Dinner and then allowing me to sprawl on the balcony in the afternoon sun, without some shadowy spirit appearing out of nowhere and making my fur stand on end
?
Jim finished the apple and dropped the core into the trash can under the sink. He closed his eyes for a moment, but he still couldn't think what memory it had evoked. He thought he could sense a warm wind, and a woman talking to him, and maybe some faraway music, like a calliope, but that was all.
He spent the rest of the afternoon sketching out his lesson on Rachel X. Speed, and her poem
Street Life
.
âWherever I walk, whoever I meet
They turn their back and won't catch my eye.
Love on the street? No such thing.
It's all suspicion. It's all mistrust.
It's all graffiti and wrecks and rust.'
He hardly noticed the sun going down, but suddenly his doorbell jangled and he realized that it was almost dark. Tibbles raised his head and looked at him with his eyes narrowed.
Don't answer that. It might be a shadowy specter
.
He went through to the hallway, switching on the light. Through the hammered-glass porthole in his front door he could see a heap of blonde hair, with two pink ribbons in it, so he knew at once who it was.
He opened the door and said, âSummer â come on in. You're early.'
âI know, Jimmy. But I was bored. Life is so boring sometimes. I blame God.'
âYou blame
God
?'
âWell â He didn't think of enough things to keep us entertained, did He? He was resting on the seventh day when he should of been making up stuff like different funny animals and upside-down rainbows and birds that flew backward.'
âEven if He'd done that, Summer, you would have grown used to them by now, and you'd still be bored. Nice outfit, though. Very unboring. We're only going to Barney's Beanery, though. Not space.'
Summer was wearing a silver short-sleeved jacket with a high collar and a zipper down the front that was open as far as her navel. She also wore tight silver pants and little silver boots with turned-down tops and very high heels.
âThat's what I love about you, Jimmy. You're so iconic.'
âLaconic, sweetheart. But, good try.'
He spooned out the last of Tibbles' shrimp dinner, and refilled his bowl of milk. Then he shrugged on his tan leather coat and he and Summer left his apartment and went down the steps to his car. The evening was unusually humid, and over the Santa Monica Mountains they could see flickers of lightning, like snakes' tongues.
âI had such a scary nightmare last night,' said Summer, as they drove southward on North Gower Street. She shifted herself closer to Jim and her silver pants made a squeaky noise on the vinyl seat. âI dreamed that I was standing in line with all of these hundreds of people and it was all dark all around us. Up ahead, though, I could see this orange light, like a bonfire? And it was
hot
, too, like a bonfire. Well, more like a furnace. I said to the guy in front of me, why are we all standing in line like this? I don't want to be here. I want to be home in bed.'
âSo what did he say?'
âHe said, “We have to be here. It's the end.” So I said, “The end of what?” And he said, “It's the end of all of us. It's arrived.”'
Jim looked at her for about two seconds too long, and almost rear-ended a Toyota Prius at the intersection with Hollywood Boulevard.
âThat was some nightmare,' he told her. âMaybe you saw something on TV that triggered it off? Or it could have been something you ate? I always have nightmares when I eat fajitas.'
Summer shook her head. âIt was more like,
Biblical
, if you know what I mean.'
âYes, I think I do. Like Armageddon, the end of the world as we know it.'
As if to emphasize what he was saying, the lightning flickered again, much closer this time, and they heard the indigestive rumbling of thunder.
They parked outside Barney's Beanery on Santa Monica Boulevard and pushed their way in through the double doors. Although it was only 7.30, the bar was crowded and the music was playing at top volume. They made their way through to the big room at the back and found themselves a seat in the corner. Heads turned as Summer walked past, and there was an appreciative chorus of whoops and whistles.
Every inch of the inside of Barney's Beanery was covered in beer advertisements and license plates and Route 66 signs and newspaper cuttings, even on the ceiling. The two pool tables were already taken, so that their conversation was punctuated by the intermittent clacking of balls.
Jim ordered a mimosa for Summer and a Fat Tire beer for himself, and asked to see the eight-page newspaper-sized menu, which boasted that âIf we don't have it, you don't want it.'
âListen â I wouldn't worry about that nightmare,' Jim said to Summer. âI don't think the end of the world is coming any time soon. Not in our lifetime, anyhow.'
âI don't know,' said Summer. âI
never
have nightmares like that. All I dream about is sex, mostly. And dancing.'
Whenever Jim came to Barney's, he usually chose the Fireman's Chili, but this evening for some reason he didn't feel at all hungry. In fact he felt completely full, and slightly nauseous, too, as if he had been eating and drinking too much all day, and needed to go to the men's room and stick his finger down his throat.
Summer asked for the Mediterranean Salad, but with seasoned fries on the side. She cupped both breasts with her hands and said, âI can't give up the carbs altogether. I don't want to get flat chested.'
âSummer, the Mojave Desert will freeze over before you get flat chested.'
âSo what are you eating?'
âI don't know. Nothing for now.'
It seemed to Jim that the talking and laughing and music was growing progressively louder. He found himself having to shout at Summer to make himself heard, and he could hardly hear what she was saying back to him. He began to feel more and more nauseous, and when he took his first swallow of beer out of the bottle, it immediately came back up again and filled up his mouth, so that he had to swallow it a second time, flat and warm and far too sweet.
A large balding man in a horn-rimmed eyeglasses and a pea-green suit was sitting on his left, and talking very loudly with his friends. âThis script is shit, that's what I told him.
The Second Coming
? Jesus is working as a mechanic for American Brake and Muffler? If that had been Satan, working for Century Twenty-One, then I could have believed it!'
Summer was frowning at him. âAre you OK, Jimmy? You're looking kind of bloopy.'
âI'll be all right. My stomach's a little upset, that's all.'
As he said that, however, something drew his eye toward the long wooden bar at the front of the restaurant. All of the twelve red-leather bucket seats were filled with drinkers, most of them laughing and leaning on the counter. But almost at the far end, one of them had turned his seat around so that he was staring directly in Jim's direction.
Jim stared back at him. There was no question about it â he was the same man whose face kept appearing in Ricky's painting. He was blond, and very pale, and dressed entirely in white. White linen shirt, white linen pants, and sandals. He looked very much like Simon Silence, except that he was older, like The Storyteller. He was smiling at Jim as if he were taunting him.
The waitress came up with Summer's salad and her bowl of seasoned fries. Jim said, âGive me a moment, Summer, would you? There's somebody here I have to talk to.'
âJimmy â are you
sure
you're OK? You're acting so antsy.'
âI'm fine. I really am. I have to talk to this guy, that's all.'
As he got up from the table, however, he knew that he wasn't fine at all. He felt suddenly hot, and very angry. He had never felt so angry in his life about anything. He elbowed two customers out of the way as he made his way through to the bar, and one of them said, âHey â watch who you're pushing, dude!' Jim ignored him and headed straight for the man in white.
The man in white stayed where he was, still smiling that calm, taunting smile. Jim went right up to him and said, â
What
?'
âI'm sorry, my friend,' the man replied. âIs something troubling you?' His accent, like Simon Silence's, was distinctly Southern. The pupils of his eyes were so pale that they were like blue glass pebbles that had been washed for years in the ocean. Jim noticed that around his neck he wore several gold chains, with medallions and stars attached to them. The largest medallion had the face of a woman on it, with staring eyes.
Jim could hardly catch his breath, as if he had run all the way to the restaurant. He didn't know this man at all, except that he looked like Simon Silence, and could well have been his father, the Reverend John Silence. Yet for some reason he had provoked him into such a boiling fury that, when he spoke, he was almost incoherent.
âYou were looking at me,' he panted. He turned around and pointed to the table where Summer was just starting to eat her salad. She smiled at him and give him a little finger-wave. âI was sitting over there, right? â and you â you were
looking
at me.'
The man ran his fingers through his thinning blond curls. âI think you're mistaken, my friend. I was miles away. I was looking into the future, not at you.'
Jim grasped the man's shirt and twisted it, pulling him closer. âYou â were â fucking â
looking
â at me.'
The man said, âAll right. Supposing I was. This is a restaurant, open to the public. There's no law that says the customers can't look at each other.'
â
You were looking at me
!' Jim screamed at him, right into his face. â
Don't pretend you weren't
!
You were looking at me and I want to know why
!'
The barman said, âHey, buddy. That's enough. Go back to your seat and shut up or I'll throw you out.'
Jim turned to the barman and screamed at him, too. âWhat the
fuck
do you know? This man â this man here â he's in a painting! My friend wants to paint The Storyteller and what happens every time he tries to paint this jolly old man? He gets
him
! Him and his creepy white face! And now I come in here for a drink and here he is again â looking at me! How did he know I was coming here? Ask him that! And ask him why he's looking at me!
Ask him
!'
A dark-haired, smooth-looking man in a red shirt came up behind Jim and gripped his arm, very hard. âOK, sir, let's head for the exit, shall we?'
Jim tried to twist himself free, but the smooth-looking man was extremely strong.
âAsk him,' Jim insisted. His chest was heaving with rage and breathlessness. âAsk him why he was looking at me, go on!'
âI'm sorry, sir, I don't know who you're talking about. Now, let's go quietly, OK? I'm sure you don't want me to call the cops.'
Jim turned back to the man in white, but there was no man in white, only an empty barstool. He looked around the bar in bewilderment, and then toward the exit, to see if the man in white was walking away down the street. But the sidewalk was deserted, apart from a woman with an undulating bottom walking her over-clipped poodle.
âYou didn't see him?' said Jim. âHe was sitting right here, and you didn't see him?'
âLet's go, sir. Please.'
Conversation and laughter in the restaurant had completely died, with curious customers craning their necks to see what was going on. There was only the music playing,
Werewolves of London
. Summer had obviously heard Jim shouting and now left her seat and came tripping up to him in her little silver boots. âJimmy, what's
wrong
? Jimmy?'
âThis gentleman is just leaving, ma'am,' said the smooth-looking man. His grip on Jim's arm was unrelenting.
âI
told
him he looked bloopy,' said Summer.
The smooth-looking man escorted Jim outside. âWhatever you ordered, it's on the house,' he said. âJust one thing, though. Don't ever come back. Either you or your girlfriend
or
your imaginary enemy.'
Jim and Summer walked back to his car. Jim didn't start the engine at first, but sat behind the wheel with his head bowed, trying to make some sense of what had just happened to him. Summer stroked and tugged his hair at the back of his neck.
âYou'll be OK, Jimmy. It's stress, that's all. Starting a new semester and everything. You're a very sensitive man, that's what I love about you. You can't help it if you go nuts now and again.'
âOh, thanks,' said Jim. âSo you didn't see him, either? That man in white, sitting at the bar?'
âI saw you there, but nobody else. I wasn't really looking, to tell you the truth. I dropped an olive down the front of my jacket and I was trying to hook it out.'
Jim drove back to Briarcliff Road, and walked Summer back up to her apartment. Thunder was still banging away, over the mountains, but it was further east now.
âI'm sorry I spoiled your evening,' he said. âMaybe you're right, and I am going nuts.'
âI could always come up for a drink,' Summer suggested.
Jim kissed her cheek and said, âNot tonight, sweetheart. Tonight, I think I need Pepto-Bismol and Pachelbel's “Canon in D”, in that order.'
Summer put her arms around him and kissed him on the lips. âOne day,' she whispered, in his ear.
Jim trudged up the last flight of steps. He felt exhausted, as if he had been teaching a rowdy class all day. He didn't turn around as he unlocked his front door, or else he would have seen the man in white standing on the opposite side of the road, his linen pants flapping in the evening breeze, smiling at him still.