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from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Finn Bartlett
date: Thursday, August 21 5:51 PM
subject: AHHHHH

OH DEAR LORD SWEET INTERNET.

i have all these scheduling emails from producers to answer jesus christ but I will read your email and answer in JUST A SEC <3333

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Monday, August 18 3:16 PM
subject: :D

Hey Gena.

I told Jack and Janet you were getting settled in to school so you probably didn't have internet right away but you were still planning to do the show and yes you'll be able to take a few days off in October to come film and blah blah blah. You're welcome ;)

Hopefully if you're reading this though it means you're a step towards actually being settled in? Hope things are going well. Get in touch when you have the chance. Do you have my number?

-Z

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Thursday, August 21 6:03 PM
subject: RE: :D

hey zack.

thanks so much for taking care of the grunt work. i know you're hella (as you would say--seriously, you're STILL saying that?) busy. i'll send out the proper emails now.

stuff's going really

no, fuck it, stuff's actually going really badly. i haven't been able to talk to my best friend in about a week and i'm going crazy from it and...i'm scared that going crazy might actually mean going crazy. and you're the only person i even kind of...can i still say i know you? who knows what that really means.

and i can tell from the way you played crazy-jake last season that you remember.

i don't have a phone right now so just answer this if you want to talk? or don't if i'm being too weird and we'll do a nice friendly hug when i come to set and that'll be it.

gena

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Finn Bartlett
date: Thursday, August 21 6:32 PM
subject: RE: Charlie issues

holy shit i just read your email. fuck fuck fuck i am SUCH a fuck up. are you online? chatting you right now.

--g

Genevieve:
Finn???

Finn:
Oh my god.

Genevieve:
oh my god shit hi

were you getting my texts did i have your number right

eli said you tried to call

Finn:
Yeah, I felt stupid

Genevieve:
for what??

Finn:
I don't know. I shouldn't have called his phone. tell him I'm sorry

Genevieve:
he's a douchebag

not gonna be telling him anything

Finn:
uh oh, what'd he do?

Genevieve:
it's stupid, doesn't matter

are you okay?

Finn:
not really

Genevieve:
tell me

Finn:
everything's going to hell. Charlie's barely talking to me

Genevieve:
fuck.

this is all my fault.

Finn:
it's really not

Genevieve:
how is it possibly not

Finn:
because you're not the one who's been stringing him along about wanting to get married

we got into it because of the job thing, but that was just...the catalyst, you know?

if everything else had been fine that wouldn't have mattered

Genevieve:
he thinks there's something between us, doesn't he

Finn:
he didn't say that

exactly

Genevieve:
fuck

Finn:
you didn't do anything wrong

Genevieve:
i mean, is there something between us?

there's...not not something between us.

Shit.

Finn:
should there not be anything?

I'm allowed to fucking do...whatever this is

Genevieve:
are you sure though

what if you're not

Finn:
it's not like I'm married.

Genevieve:
if it would be different if you were then... maybe that means something

Finn:
oh.

Genevieve:
i mean to him

Finn:
yeah

Genevieve:
shit.

Finn:
this is bullshit, I'm allowed to have a fucking friend

Genevieve:
i do this, don't i. i think this is a thing that i do.

Finn:
what?

Genevieve:
talk people into loving me

four years of debate team and this is how i use it.

Sent at 7:12 PM on Thursday

Finn:
I'm...pretty fucking stubborn, kid

Genevieve:
you're literally all i have

how is he not supposed to feel threatened by that

Finn:
wait, what's going on?

Genevieve:
what?

Finn:
what about, um....joanie?

Genevieve:
joanne?

Finn:
yeah, that one

Genevieve:
no

just no, really.

guess what her major is

Sent at 7:15 PM on Tuesday

Finn:
ummm...i have no idea. Pre-med?

Genevieve:
theater

wish i'd known that before i started my acting class

Finn:
yeah how's that going?

Genevieve:
fine

Finn:
good!

Genevieve:
got an A- on my monologue

Finn:
no surprise there

Genevieve:
ha. yeah.

how's the job?

Finn:
the job is actually great

Genevieve:
good!

Finn:
I have a savings account!

Genevieve:
haha awesome

Sent at 7:20 PM on Thursday

Finn:
listen, don't worry about Charlie, okay?

Genevieve:
are you guys gonna break up?

Finn:
I don't know

I don't want to

Genevieve:
if you do you can come live with me in my awful dorm

Finn:
I bet oakmoor has totally swanky dorms

Genevieve:
one building does. they have sinks in the rooms

Finn:
nice!

Genevieve:
ha, not my building

Sent at 7:26 PM on Thursday

Finn:
is your roommate cool?

Genevieve:
that's joanne

Finn:
ohhh.

Genevieve:
yep.

Finn:
you'll meet some people. took me a couple weeks.

Genevieve:
her friends are always over

Finn:
oh

Genevieve:
they're all legacies

she's double major theater pre-law

they're all pre-somethings

they have arguments over who had the most reading this week

Finn:
is that supposed to be a good thing?

Genevieve:
whoever's the most miserable wins

Finn:
fuck, my friends and I used to argue over who blew off the most reading

Genevieve:
i've been working five hours a night since monday and it's the first week

and they have so much more work than i do and they're always here laughing and being loud and complaining and laughing while they complain

this is such stupid shit to whine about, i'm sorry.

this just isn't how i pictured it.

Finn:
it's gonna get better

it's culture shock. it'll settle down

in a couple of weeks this is all gonna feel normal

Genevieve:
okay

Finn:
love you

Genevieve:
love you

i should write another fic or something

all i'm doing is poetry

Sent at 7:33 PM on Thursday

Genevieve:
now that i have internet things will be better

they all think i'm a weird loner anyway

Finn:
yeah, but my weird loner

Genevieve:
finn/

?

Finn:
yeah?

Genevieve:
are we doing something bad?

Sent at 7:36 PM on Thursday

Finn:
no

Genevieve:
okay

Finn:
we're amazing

Genevieve:
you make me happy

why does that have to be so fucked up.

Finn:
other people don't get it, that's all

Genevieve:
do you want me to talk to charlie?

Sent at 7:39 PM on Thursday

Finn:
that's probably not the best idea

Genevieve:
yeah

ugh okay i've got to go

i told this girl on my hall i'd go to the diner with her

Finn:
good

Genevieve:
meaning i begged her and she said okay

Finn:
well, that's a start

Genevieve:
yeah

start of what is the question

Finn:
hang in there, okay?

Genevieve:
i will. now that i have internet i can get this phone thing sorted out

i'll let you know as soon as i have service again. but i'll try to get online tonight

Finn:
do

Genevieve:
internet's really slow sometimes. perhaps there are more creepy weirdos in this dorm than just me

Finn:
now all you have to do is find them!

...but don't forget me.

Genevieve:
as if

Finn:
go eat. love you

Genevieve:
love you.

Happy Labor Day, or something.

The good news is, this means it's September. The bad news is that our show doesn't come back until
October
, and this is the longest, most painful hiatus I've ever been through.

I'm getting
philosophical
, you guys. Or maybe brooding. I don't know what you'd call it.

I'm thinking a lot about Nicola, of all things.

I remember, my first time through season one, before I'd gotten involved in fandom at ALL, disliking her. And it was kind of validating to find out later that other people felt the same way and didn't want Tyler to end up with her. Some of you were downright offended by the possibility, I think, and even though that wasn't me, I kind of get it. There was something...disconcerting about that relationship.

But looking back now...why'd we all hate her so much? She wasn't a bad person. I think if I'd met her in real life, I'd have liked her okay. She was smart and dedicated and good to Ty. The time she grilled steaks on his birthday? That was actually really nice! Why'd we all get so mad about that?

I mean, I know why. It was because Ty had to miss his birthday tradition with Jake, and that was awful, and it was the first time in six years they hadn't spent their birthdays together. But Nicola wasn't a bitch for wanting to make her boyfriend dinner.

Maybe she was right in the season 1 finale.

Maybe he's too close to Jake, and it doesn't leave room for anyone else.

No fic recs today.

>>>>mmmZack reblogged this from finnblueline

>>>>Tylergirl93 reblogged this and added: Don't be a Nicola apologist. This misses the point entirely. She WAS a bitch for trying to change him.

>>>>finnblueline: She wasn't trying to change him. She was trying to be a part of his life.

>>>>Tylergirl93: That IS changing him. His life is his work and Jake.

>>>>DanniRice reblogged this and added: No fic recs? ?

>>>>finnblueline: sorry.

Text with Charlie

where are you?

work

early shift?

picked up a double

oh

okay.

from: Finn Bartlett
to: Charlie Thomas
date: None. Saved to Drafts.
subject: This sucks

I know you're pissed. Can we talk?

We can't keep avoiding each other. It's starting to freak me out, being here alone with no one else I know and you drifting around like we're strangers.

I was going to tell you about the job. It's just been so much lately. Everything's changing, and it's really overwhelming, and...I thought you'd be proud of me, though. I thought the fact that I finally got a real job would matter more than...

And you put too much pressure on me. I'm twenty-two, Charlie. Is it so hard to believe that I'm not ready to talk about marriage yet? That maybe that's nothing personal?

The shit you said about Eve last night was way out of line and uncalled for. She's a good person, and she's allowed to get along well with people. If you have a problem with our friendship, your problem's with me, not with her. And anyway, I'm allowed to

Text with Charlie

staying at nick's tonight,
I'll see you tomorrow

Sept 7, 5:57 pm

okay have fun

from: Finn Bartlett
to: Charlie Thomas
date:
None. Saved to Drafts.
subject: You suck

You're an asshole. Fuck off until you're ready to grow up.

from: Finn Bartlett
to: Joan Bartlett
date:
None.
Saved to Drafts
.
subject: Relationships

Things aren't going so well here. I'm starting to think I made a huge mistake. Maybe you were right. Maybe I should never have come.

How did you know when you wanted to marry Dad? Did you ever feel like you guys weren't as close as you should be, or maybe you

were closer to someone else? And would he have been okay with that? These are the things they should be teaching in college. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be feeling. I can't even figure out how to sort the people in my life into categories that make sense. I feel like...shouldn't I be allowed to just love people? Why does it have to be so complicated?

I can't believe I'm saying this. I'm never going to live this down.

I think I want to come home.

from: Finn Bartlett
to: Joan Bartlett
date: Sunday, September 7 9:40 PM
subject: Hey

Hey

Just checking in. How's everything at home?

Work is great. Charlie and I are great. California is great.

Love you!
Finn

Interdepartmental Memo
Windsor Publishing

To All Employees:

Please remember that personal email is not to be checked on company time. Doing so may result in disciplinary action.

DISCIPLINARY WRITE-UP

Employee Name: Stephanie Bartlett

Manager: Jean Parker

Infraction: Using company computers for personal communication; tardiness on two occasions; negative attitude

Employee was receptive to criticism and showed understanding of inappropriate actions taken. This constitutes the first written warning for Ms. Bartlett.

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