Episcopalian church in nearby Cocoa Beach, Florida. There he spent a silent hour, finding solace and calm before the coming journey. Though he had the utmost confidence in his equipment and knew he had done all that was humanly possible to make sure everything would work, he felt a need to pray to God.
|
Then he went back to his room to call his wife one last time before the launch. Like Valerie Anders, Susan Borman had decided against seeing the launch live, and now waited at home in Houston with their two sons, Fred, seventeen, and Ed, fifteen.
|
They talked of the mission, and in his typical hardnosed test pilot manner, Frank reassured her that everything possible had been done to make the spacecraft and rocket flawless. He wouldn't be going if he didn't believe that. 5 Though Susan Borman immediately agreed with her husband, expressing confidence and encouragement for the man she loved, she actually did not believe him. For her, the risks surrounding the Apollo 8 mission seemed so obvious and incomprehensible that she no longer had faith in the success of the flight. She truly expected him to die in orbit around the moon.
|
She did not let Frank know of her conviction. He had chosen to risk his life for his country, and for eighteen years it had been her job to support him, regardless of the danger. As he had once said, and she had accepted, ''There's more to life than just living." 6
|
Frank did suspect that Susan was more frightened than usual. Christopher Kraft, Director of NASA Flight Operations, had come to visit her one night several weeks earlier, and they had talked about the flight and risks and dangers Frank faced. Normally, the astronaut wives never expressed their fears and doubts to anyone. For a wife to admit apprehension might lower her husband's standing in the eyes of NASA.
|
With Chris Kraft, however, Susan could be honest. He was a dear and close friend, and she trusted him. She also knew that he would tell her the truth.
|
She told him her fears. To her, it would be a miracle if NASA got them back alive.
|
Chris listened, and tried to give her some hope. He explained that the chances of success were probably fifty-fifty, not zero. He described the incredible effort that had gone into making the flight as safe as possible. He
|
|