Authors: Johanna Nicholls
That was the year Garnet hired him as my tutor. Did he suspect they became lovers? Will he refuse to destroy the myth of the love he shared with my mother?
Garnet was seated in the smoking room when Marmaduke burst into the room and flung down the diary like a gauntlet.
âIsn't it high time to face the truth? We've been living a lie all my life.'
Garnet seemed to be prepared for the confrontation. He answered with a degree of calm that belied the fact the colour had drained from his ruddy complexion.
âThe truth is you are Marmaduke Gamble, my only son and heir. And your mother was the only woman I have ever loved. If that isn't the truth, what is?'
Marmaduke turned to see Isabel enter the room. Although trembling she stood defiantly with her back pressed against the wall of books.
Garnet said quietly, âSit down, m'dear, this family conference involves you.'
Garnet's attempt to diffuse Marmaduke's anger only increased it. He studied his father's face, trying to evaluate the man he had loved and feared as a small child but who had become as much his enemy as the villain he had murdered. That macabre death mask was such an uncanny replica Marmaduke felt as if Klaus von Starbold had returned from the grave.
Mother ordered Queenie to make that death mask from his corpse but her diary doesn't mention it. How much does Garnet know? How much will he admit?
Marmaduke made a conscious effort to control his anger, aware he must not antagonise Garnet until he had extracted the truth. Piece by piece.
âLet's begin with my grandfather, Colonel McAlpine. Why did he commit suicide?'
Garnet glanced at him then at Isabel. âTo a military man like Colonel McAlpine, Honour is next to Godliness. To him it was a terrible social stigma for Miranda, the jewel in his crown, to marry me, an illiterate ticket-of-leaver squatting on a few hundred acres.'
âSo why did he give his consent and attend your wedding?'
âHe discovered we were lovers and Miranda was with child. You!'
âSo I'm to blame for your shotgun wedding. Her diary states my actual birth date was four months earlier than the date I've been told. Her diary describes you as young and nutty about her â and you'd already begun to amass your fortune. You built this mansion before the ink had dried on the parish register. Yet the Colonel killed himself two years later. Why
then
?'
Marmaduke realised he'd at last asked the important question.
Damn it all. I'll kill Garnet if he fobs me off with another pack of lies.
Garnet looked cornered. âTwo years after your birth Miranda discovered her father had intercepted letters written to her and destroyed them without her knowledge. Miranda swore that because her father
had manipulated her life he would never see his grandson again. That was the price he must pay for burning her letters.'
Garnet's hand curled into the shape of a pistol. He inserted the index finger in his mouth and fired it.
Marmaduke snapped, âWhat letters?' He knew the answer before Garnet said the words. â
Love
letters, written by another man before our marriage.'
Garnet's voice rasped out in his defense. âThe scoundrel had abandoned her!'
Marmaduke's voice was soft, without mercy. âNot quite. It's all here in Mother's diary. The young soldier she met on the voyage out. That they intended to marry, but when their ship reached Cape Town the Colonel contrived to have the soldier imprisoned on a trumped-up charge that led to his court-martial. Miranda was forced to continue the voyage to Port Jackson, heartbroken in the belief her lover had abandoned her â unaware the Colonel had destroyed the soldier's letters begging her to wait for him.'
Marmaduke tapped the diary cover. âMother only married you in desperation to give her fiancé's unborn babe a name â Marmaduke Gamble.'
Garnet's lips turned white with rage. âI didn't damn well care! I would have married Miranda at any price. And I loved you like my own son.'
Marmaduke leant across and said softly. âMother was too much the born lady to name her child's true father in her diary. But we both know him, don't we, Garnet? And then, she describes twelve years later, their accidental reunion in Sydney. How she tricked you into hiring Klaus von Starbold as my tutor.'
âThat's a lie, pure coincidence!' Garnet roared.
In answer Marmaduke opened his watch. âKlaus von Starbold gave me this before he died. I read the inscription to mean it was his father's gift to him. Now I know the truth.
For my son in all but name â Klaus von Starbold.
This was
my father's
gift to
me
.'
Garnet's eyes were glassy. Marmaduke jumped to his feet, unable to restrain his anger.
âYou used me as a hostage to bind mother to you.' He stabbed his finger at the diary. âRead it! Mother's lover might have been a
scoundrel but he was no coward. He confronted you with the truth. You told him he was welcome to take Mother with him but you refused to relinquish me. You were the second wealthiest man in the Colony. You knew when a woman commits adultery the law grants custody to the
legal
father.'
âWhy not? That was the only time the law was ever on
my
side,' Garnet said acidly. âWhen I discovered von Starbold's identity I knew I'd lost Miranda's love forever. But I was damned if I was going to let them drag my son around the world, living like a pack of gypsies. Playing in barns when he couldn't find work in a theatre.'
Marmaduke was stunned. âYou mean Klaus von Starbold was an
actor
?'
âAn
actor
?' Isabel gasped in admiration.
âAn actor!' Garnet said contemptuously. âWhat else but an actor? Von Starbold â or whatever his true name was â probably gave the best performance of his life in the role of your tutor. Had
me
fooled. All I ever knew about Miranda's first love was he was some
soldier
who ended up in gaol. When I advertised for a tutor for you, a German turned up who spoke four languages and quoted Shakespeare and that Goethe bloke at the drop of a hat. I had no reason to suspect who he was. Why should I? He came armed with a glowing letter from some Weimar court claiming he'd tutored some duke or prince's sons. No doubt the cunning bastard wrote the damned reference himself.'
Marmaduke had a sudden painful flash of memory of an afternoon in the garden, reading aloud to his tutor Goethe's
Wilhelm Meister
in the original German. Marmaduke had finished the passage and asked anxiously, âIs my accent all right, sir?'
His tutor nodded approvingly then asked, âBut do you understand what Goethe is telling us? I had the great good fortune to meet the genius when he was producing a play. I was overcome with nerves but Herr von Goethe kindly discussed with me the answer to my question, “What does a man do if he does
not
die when his love is unrequited?”'
Von Starbold's words were now alive with fresh significance. Marmaduke turned his anger on Garnet.
âSo my foolish duel of honour solved your problem of Mother's love triangle. By then you knew the truth. Why in hell didn't you stop the duel?'
âBecause you needed to believe in your mother's honour! Von Starbold was a trained soldier, you a raw novice he'd given a few duelling lessons. He'd never have fired at
you.
The shot that killed him was a fluke.'
âFluke! It was murder! I meant to kill him.' Marmaduke lost control, grabbed hold of Garnet's shoulders and shook him like a terrier with a rag doll.
Isabel cried out, begging them to stop but Marmaduke was beyond all reason.
âYou manipulative bastard! I'm twenty-five years old and I only found out tonight I'm the cuckoo in Mother's love nest. For my whole life, you, Mother, Queenie, you all knew the truth â yet you trapped me in a conspiracy of silence.'
Garnet offered no resistance. âWhat else could I do? You were a miserable little sod who wanted to be a hero. Would it have made you happy to grow up knowing you'd murdered
your own father
?'
Confronted by the truth Marmaduke was shocked into silence.
Garnet combed his fingers through his hair, his eyes wild with despair. âDon't you understand? I never stopped loving Miranda but after I knew I'd never win her love I rogered every piece of skirt I could lay my hands on. In all these years I never managed to plant one of them with child, except your mother. Even you were courtesy of that Hessian bastard's seed!'
Marmaduke stared into space, his mind flooded with fragmented memories of the two men he had hated for years but until this moment had never really known.
Garnet's ragged words rasped out breaking the silence. âYou've always hated my guts, Marmaduke, but I'm the man who loved your mother. I'm the man who gave
you
your name. You are...the only son...I will ever have!'
Marmaduke's voice was cold. âSo that's why you refused to send for a physician and let Mother die. To punish her for bearing a second bastard to Klaus von Starbold.'
Garnet was defeated. âBelieve what you will. You can't hate me more than I hate myself.'
âNo? Just watch me, Garnet, I haven't even
begun
to hate you!'
Marmaduke brushed past Isabel and stormed out, hoping to lose himself in the anonymity of the darkness of night.
He ran blindly through the bush, only halting when he reached the graveyard.
Moonlight etched the outlines of the tombstones. Marmaduke made straight for the stone slab in the far corner where he rested his hand on the name Klaus von Starbold.
Forgive me, my Father, I didn't understand what I was doing.
He spoke the words in anguish, in German. â
Verzeih mir, mein Vater, ich verstand nicht, was ich tat!
'
The terrible, guttural cry that seemed to be ripped from his throat echoed across Mingaletta to the Ghost Gum Valley.
The end of her first long Australian summer brought Isabel conflicting feelings of elation and acute anxiety. She knew this imbalance was partly a symptom of her condition as she was only a few months away from giving birth.
The world around her was a thing of beauty. The eternal blue of the sky, the golden orb of the sun, the hot sunlight that drenched the terraced gardens and filtered through the canopies of eucalypts. The blend of perfumes of the native plants with those from English gardens. Her ears had sung with the high-pitched buzz of cicadas and the choirs of excited birdsong that seemed to Isabel to be the epitome of the bush's voice in summer â heat translated into sound waves.
Though its beauty comforted her it could not wipe out the anxiety that stemmed from Marmaduke. Not once had he returned to the house since that shattering night he had discovered his true identity. He had totally withdrawn to work on the final stages of Mingaletta. She knew he was too proud to admit he was fast running out of money to finance it, so he worked seven days a week, alone when no assigned men were available.
Although Isabel's sleepwalking pattern had not returned, the Other was again making its presence felt. She tried to dismiss her fear of it as an irrational symptom of pre-natal imagination, that it was the babe kicking inside her that was causing her emotions to swing like a metronome, but she sensed it was far more than that. Signs of the Other increased to become a daily occurrence. She remembered how Silas had frightened her when she was a child, telling her that because they were so close in blood as double cousins they shared a strange gift â they attracted dark beings that ordinary mortals could not see or hear. Silas was in residence barely ten miles distant. Was this the reason the dead were drawing psychic energy from her body?
Silas had not openly contacted her since his appearance in the graveyard but every week she received another of the anonymous
âletters' that made her shiver with dread: a blank page wrapped around a pressed rose. The white Rose Alba, the white rose of York.
Today as she hurried down the staircase en route to the kitchen in search of Bridget, she faltered at the sight of the plain white envelope lying on the console, addressed simply to âIsabel'. It was identical to all the others. She did not need to open it to know what it contained. Who brought these letters here? They never came by mail. She always found them lying around, on a table, once in the summerhouse. The servants when questioned looked blank and she had no right to accuse anyone. The letters unnerved her. Silas was mentally stalking her.
Take hold of yourself, girl. How can anonymous white roses hurt you? Don't allow Silas to get inside your mind again.
Isabel hurriedly retraced her steps to the nursery, opened the drawer and placed the pressed rose with the others beneath her undergarments. She wanted to destroy them but felt if she did it would attract bad luck to her own little Rose Alba.
As she took the servants' back stairs to the kitchen her thoughts returned to Marmaduke.
Although Davey rode to Mingaletta daily to deliver stores and Murray Robertson in his new role as overseer kept Marmaduke informed, Isabel was forbidden to go to the site.
Marmaduke has cut himself off from us all like an animal licking its wounds. Queenie warned me this would happen but it's time I broke through the barrier.
In the kitchen she found Bridget packing up the boxes of stores for Davey to deliver.
Since Elise's dramatic exit Isabel was on alert for signs of the return of Garnet's mood swings, suspecting that Bridget had inherited the role of his scourger.
Although her father-in-law remained unfailingly kind in his dealings with her, Isabel was afraid that since the break with Marmaduke, his burden of guilt was building towards a peak of self-loathing that only physical pain could alleviate.