Giant's Bread (19 page)

‘You mustn't be unhappy, my dear,' she said. ‘I can see you are. It's some girl, I suppose? Ah well, well, Sebastian is just the same about Joe. I tell him he must be patient. Joe's just kicking up her heels at present. She'll settle down soon and begin to find out what it is she really does want.'

‘It would be awfully jolly if she married Sebastian. I wish she would. It would keep us all together.'

‘Yes – I'm very fond of Joe myself. Not that I think she's really the wife for Sebastian – they'd be too far away to understand each other. I'm old-fashioned, my dear. I'd like my boy to marry one of our own people. It always works out best. The same interests, and the same instincts, and Jewish women are good mothers. Well, well, it may come, if Joe is really in earnest about not marrying him. And the same thing with you, Vernon. There are worse things than marrying a cousin.'

‘Me? Marry Joe?'

Vernon stared at her in utter astonishment. Mrs Levinne laughed, a fat, good-natured chuckle that shook her various chins.

‘Joe? No, indeed. It's your cousin Enid I'm talking about. That's the idea at Birmingham, isn't it?'

‘Oh, no – at least – I'm sure it isn't.'

Mrs Levinne laughed again.

‘I can see that you at any rate have never thought of it till this minute. But it would be a wise plan, you know – that is, if the other girl won't have you. Keeps the money in the family.'

Vernon went away with his brain tingling. All sorts of things fell into line. Uncle Sydney's chaff and hints. The way Enid was always being thrust at him. That, of course, was what Mrs Vereker had been hinting at. They wanted him to marry Enid! Enid!

Another memory came back to him. His mother and some old friend of hers whispering together. Something about first cousins. A sudden idea occurred to him. That was why Joe had been allowed to go to London. His mother had thought that he and Joe might –

He gave a sudden shout of laughter. He and Joe! It showed how little his mother had ever understood. He could never, under any circumstances, imagine himself falling in love with Joe. They were exactly like brother and sister and always would be. They had the same sympathies, the same sharp divergences and differences of opinion. They were cast in the same mould, devoid of any glamour and romance for each other.

Enid! So this was what Uncle Sydney was after. Poor old Uncle Sydney, doomed to disappointment – but he shouldn't have been such an ass.

Perhaps, though, he was jumping to conclusions. Perhaps it wasn't Uncle Sydney – only his mother. Women were always marrying you to someone in their minds. Anyway, Uncle Sydney would soon know the truth.

The interview between Vernon and his uncle wasn't very satisfactory. Uncle Sydney was both annoyed and upset though he tried to conceal the fact from Vernon. He was uncertain at first which line to take, and made one or two vague sallies in different directions.

‘Nonsense, all nonsense, much too young to marry. Packet of nonsense.'

Vernon reminded his uncle of his own words.

‘Pooh – I didn't mean this kind of marriage. Society girl – I know what they are.'

Vernon broke out hotly.

‘Sorry, my boy, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. But that kind of girl wants to marry money. You'll be no use to her for many years to come.'

‘I thought perhaps –'

Vernon paused. He felt ashamed, uncomfortable.

‘That I'd set you up with a large income, hey? Is that what the young lady suggested? Now, I put it to you, my boy, would that be business? No, I see that you know it isn't.'

‘I don't feel that I'm even worth what you give me, Uncle Sydney.'

‘Pooh, pooh, I wasn't saying that. You're doing very well for a start. I'm sorry about this affair – it will upset you. My advice to you is, give the whole thing up. Much the best thing to do.'

‘I can't do that, Uncle Sydney.'

‘Well, it's not my business. By the way, have you talked it over with your mother? No? Well, you have a good talk with her. See if she doesn't say the same as I do. I bet she will. And remember the old saying, a boy's best friend is his mother – hey?'

Why did Uncle Sydney say such idiotic things? He always had as far back as Vernon could remember. And yet he was a shrewd and clever business man.

Well, there was nothing for it. He must buckle to – and wait. The first misty enchantment of love was wearing off. It could be hell as well as heaven. He wanted Nell so badly – so badly.

He wrote to her:–

‘Darling, – There is nothing for it. We must be patient and wait. At any rate we'll see each other often. Your mother was really very decent about it – much more so than I thought she'd be. I do quite see the force of all she said. It's only fair that you should be free to see if you like anyone better than me. But you won't, will you, darling? I know you won't. We're going to love each other for ever and ever. And it won't matter how poor we are … the tiniest place with you …'

Nell was relieved by her mother's attitude. She had feared recriminations, reproaches. Insensibly she always shrank from harsh words or any kind of scene. Sometimes she thought to herself bitterly, ‘I'm a coward. I can't stand up to things.'

She was definitely afraid of her mother. She had been dominated by her always from the first moment she could remember. Mrs Vereker had the hard, imperious character which can rule most weaker natures with whom it comes in contact. And Nell was the more easily subdued because she understood well enough that her mother loved her and that it was because of that love that she was so determined that Nell should have the happiness out of life that she herself had failed to get.

So Nell was immeasurably relieved when her mother uttered no reproaches, merely observed:

‘If you're determined to be foolish, well, there it is. Most girls have some little love affair or other which comes to nothing in the end. I haven't much patience with this sentimental nonsense myself. The boy can't possibly afford to marry for years to come and you'll only make yourself very unhappy. But you must please yourself.'

In spite of herself, Nell was influenced by this contemptuous attitude. She hoped against hope that Vernon's uncle might perhaps do something. Vernon's letter dashed her hopes.

They must wait – and perhaps wait a very long time.

In the meantime Mrs Vereker had her own methods. One day she asked Nell to go and see an old friend – a girl who had married some few years ago. Amelie King had been a brilliant dashing creature whom Nell, as a schoolgirl, had admired enviously. She might have made a very good marriage, but to everyone's surprise she had married a struggling young man and had disappeared from her own particular gay world.

‘It seems unkind to drop old friends,' said Mrs Vereker. ‘I'm sure Amelie would be pleased if you went to see her, and you're not doing anything this afternoon.'

So Nell went off obediently to call on Mrs Horton at 35 Glenster Gardens, Ealing.

It was a hot day. Nell took the District Railway and inquired her way from Ealing Broadway station when she got there.

Glenster Gardens proved to be about a mile from the station – a long depressing road of little houses, all exactly alike. The door of No. 35 was opened by a frowsy-looking maid with a dirty apron and Nell was shown into a small drawing-room. There were one or two nice old pieces of furniture in it and the cretonnes and curtains were of an attractive pattern though very faded, but the place was very untidy and littered with children's toys and odd bits of mending. A child's fretful wail rose from somewhere in the house as the door opened and Amelie came in.

‘Nell, why how nice of you! I haven't seen you for years.'

Nell had quite a shock on seeing her. Could this be the well turned out attractive Amelie? Her figure had got sloppy, her blouse was shapeless and evidently home-made, and her face was tired and worried with all the old dash and sparkle gone out of it.

She sat down and they talked. Presently Nell was taken to see the two children, a boy and a girl, the younger a baby in a cot.

‘I ought to take them out now,' said Amelie, ‘but really I'm too tired this afternoon. You don't know how tired one can get pushing a perambulator all the way up from the shops as I did this morning.'

The boy was an attractive child, the baby girl looked sickly and peevish.

‘It's partly her teeth,' said Amelie. ‘And then her digestion is weak, the doctor says. I do wish she wouldn't cry so at night. It's annoying for Jack, who needs his sleep after working all day.'

‘You don't have a nurse?'

‘Can't afford it, my dear. We have the half-wit – that's what we call the girl who opened the door to you. She's a complete idiot, but she comes cheap and she really will set to and do some work which is more than most of them will do. A general servant hates coming anywhere where there are children.'

She called out: ‘Mary, bring some tea,' and led the way back to the drawing-room.

‘Oh, dear Nell, do you know I almost wish you hadn't come to see me. You look so smart and cool – you remind me of all the fun one used to have in the old days. Tennis and dancing and golf and parties.'

Nell said timidly: ‘But you're happy …'

‘Oh, of course. I'm only enjoying a grumble. Jack's a dear, and then there are the children, only sometimes – well, one is really too tired to care for anyone or anything. I feel I'd sell my nearest and dearest for a tiled bathroom and bath salts and a maid to brush my hair and lovely silken garments to slip into. And then you hear some rich idiot holding forth on how money doesn't bring happiness. Fools!'

She laughed.

‘Tell me some news, Nell. I'm so out of things nowadays. You can't keep up if you have no money. I never see any of the old crowd.'

They gossiped a little, so-and-so was married, so-and-so had had a row with her husband, so-and-so had got a new baby, and about so-and-so there was the most terrible scandal.

Tea was brought, rather untidily, with smeary silver and thick bread and butter. As they were finishing, the front door was opened with a key and a man's voice sounded from the hall fretful and irritable.

‘Amelie – I say, it is too bad. I only ask you to do one thing and you go and forget it. This parcel has never been taken down to Jones's. You said you would.'

Amelie ran out to him in the hall. There was a quick interchange of whispers. She brought him into the drawing-room where he greeted Nell. The child in the nursery began to wail again.

‘I must go to her,' said Amelie, and hurried away.

‘What a life!' said Jack Horton. He was still very good-looking, though his clothes were distinctly shabby and there were bad-tempered lines coming round his mouth. He laughed as though it were a great joke. ‘You've found us at sixes and sevens, Miss Vereker. We always are. Travelling to and fro in trains this weather is very trying and no peace in the home when you get there!'

He laughed again, and Nell laughed too, politely. Amelie came back holding the child in her arms. Nell rose to go. They came with her to the door, Amelie sent messages to Mrs Vereker, and waved her hand.

At the gate Nell looked back and caught the expression on Amelie's face. A hungry, envious look.

In spite of herself Nell's heart sank. Was this the inevitable end? Did poverty kill love?

She reached the main road and was walking along it in the direction of the station when an unexpected voice made her start.

‘Miss Nell, by all that's wonderful!'

A big Rolls-Royce had drawn up to the kerb, George Chetwynd sat behind the wheel smiling at her.

‘If this isn't too good to be true! I thought I saw a girl who was mighty like you – from the back view anyhow – so I slowed down to have a look at her face, and it was your very self. Are you going back to town? Because, if so, step in.'

Nell stepped in obediently and settled herself contentedly beside the driver. The car glided forward smoothly, gathering power. A heavenly sensation, Nell thought – effortless, delightful.

‘And what are you doing in Ealing?'

‘I've been to see some friends.'

Moved by some obscure prompting, she described her visit. Chetwynd listened sympathetically, nodding his head from side to side, all the while driving the car with the perfection of a master.

‘If that isn't too bad,' he said sympathetically. ‘You know, I hate to think of that poor girl. Women ought to be taken care of – to have their lives made easy for them. They ought to be surrounded with everything they want.'

He looked at Nell and said kindly:

‘It's upset you, I can see. You must have a very soft heart, Miss Nell.'

Nell looked at him with a sudden warming of her heart. She did like George Chetwynd. There was something so kind and reliable and strong about him. She liked his rather wooden face, and the way his greying hair grew back from his temples. She liked the square, upright way he sat, and the firm precision of his hands on the wheel. He looked the kind of man who could deal with any emergency, a man on whom you could
depend
. The brunt of things would always be on his shoulders, not on yours. Oh, yes, she liked George. He was a nice person to meet when you were tired at the end of a bothering day.

‘Is my tie crooked?' he asked suddenly, without looking round.

Nell laughed.

‘Was I staring? I'm afraid I was.'

‘I felt the glance. What were you doing – sizing me up?'

‘I believe I was.'

‘And I suppose I've been found utterly wanting.'

‘No, very much the other way about.'

‘Don't say these nice things – which I'm sure you don't mean. You excited me so much that I nearly collided with a tram then.'