Goddess of the Hunt (12 page)

“Precisely. Old Fensworth held my ballocks over a flame all fifth form. Always hated me, the miserable, arthritic cur. To this day, I can’t think about geometry without breaking into a cold sweat.

That’s why it’s the perfect cure for ardor.”

Jeremy considered whether this geometry cure might work for his own situation. The trouble was, he’d always been rather good at geometry. Latin, on the other hand …

“And we’re always together, and too frequently alone,” Toby continued, ruffling his hair with one hand. “If Miss Hathaway knew the thoughts running through my head, she’d be … terrified, I imagine. Sophia is a delicate flower. Innocent. Refined. I can’t very well drag her off into the bushes for a tumble.” He shot Jeremy an accusatory glance over his glass.

It was the orchard, not the bushes
, Jeremy longed to retort, but he didn’t think it wise. Neither would it be wise to point out that he had not
tumbled
Lucy, when without Toby’s well-timed interruption he might have done just that.

“A lady of her breeding doesn’t allow such liberties,” Toby continued. “Nor should she. Sophia Hathaway is an angel. Pure as the driven snow, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I don’t dare even kiss her before we are engaged.” His lips curved in a sly smile.

“And therefore we may become engaged quite soon.”

“That tempting, is she?” Miss Hathaway met every accepted standard of beauty, but Jeremy failed to see the attraction beyond aesthetic admiration. But then, he and Toby had never shared the same taste in women. And suddenly, Jeremy found himself exceedingly grateful for that fact. “What about the sport?” he asked.

“I thought you were determined to exhaust every covey in Henry’s

“I thought you were determined to exhaust every covey in Henry’s woods before you would even contemplate bending a knee.”

Toby frowned. “It was never about that, Jem. It’s just that becoming betrothed is quite a step, you realize. A rather momentous decision, as decisions go. And for once, it’s actually my decision to make.” He swirled the brandy in his glass thoughtfully. “Consider our lives. We didn’t choose to be born. Our titles were destined for us before we could utter our Christian names. We certainly didn’t select the time or manner in which we inherited them, or we wouldn’t have done so yet.”

Jeremy tipped his brandy. Toby didn’t know the half of it. His title had been destined for someone else entirely. Jeremy ought to have been an earl’s second son. Instead of reading up on crop rotation, he should have been deflecting bayonets at Waterloo. Or chasing an opera singer around the Continent, squandering the family fortune along the way.

Toby continued, “We’ll have precious little to say about when our children are born, or even how many we’ll have. We won’t choose the hour or day that we die.” He drained his glass and set it down.

“We have this choice to us, though—whom we marry, and when. I’ve a mother and three older sisters, each more unnaturally competent than the last. They’ve never needed me to carry any burden besides the title. This may very well be the first choice in my life of any import, and considering the nature of marriage, it’s like to be my last for a goodly length of time. My engagement is my decision to make. And it may be damned selfish of me, Jem, but I’m not going to make that decision for anyone else’s convenience. Not Lucy’s, or yours, or even Miss Hathaway’s. There will come a moment—and perhaps rather soon—when I simply know it’s time. When I can’t live another hour without securing Sophia’s hand. That’s when I’ll propose, and not a blasted minute before.”

propose, and not a blasted minute before.”

Jeremy stared at his friend. There must be something in the brandy, he thought. For a moment there—almost a solid minute—Toby had sounded
thoughtful
. “You’re right,” he said finally, taking a slow sip from his own glass. “That is damned selfish of you.”

Toby’s face cracked into a wide grin. He picked up his billiard cue and reset the balls. “You know, being in love isn’t half bad, Jem. I can’t imagine why I avoided it so assiduously all those years.” He took a wild shot that missed both balls completely.

“Can’t you?”

“Must be the brandy,” Toby replied with a sheepish smile. The smile faded, and his gaze sharpened. “You never answered my question.

About this afternoon. What do I tell Henry?”

Blast
. Jeremy had hoped he’d forgotten that question.

“You tell Henry nothing.” He picked up his cue and chalked it, trying to keep his tone light. “There’s nothing to tell. Lucy’s not infatuated with me, she’s furious with me. That’s why we’re not speaking. The little game is over.”

“Gave you a swift kick in the shins, did she?” Toby chuckled. “Or perhaps a few feet higher? Good for Lucy. Good for you, too, I suppose. Lucy’s had her taste of romance. I’ll propose to Sophia soon. You’re off the hook.”

Off the hook
. Toby was right. He ought to feel relieved. No more ribbing from his friends. No more “besotted suitor” nonsense. Lucy said it herself.
We’re through playing games
.

“And I must admit, I’m relieved as well,” said Toby. “I wasn’t at all looking forward to discussing that scene with Henry.”

looking forward to discussing that scene with Henry.”

“Discussing what scene with Henry?” Henry strolled into the room and crossed immediately to the brandy. Toby looked to Jeremy, eyebrows raised.

Jeremy gave Toby a slight shake of the head. The game was over.

There was nothing to be gained from upsetting Henry over a few kisses. Jeremy leaned over the table and focused his gaze on the ivory cue ball. “He’s talking about your Aunt Matilda,” he said.

“You’ve got to put a stop to her wandering, Henry. Toby woke up last night to find her standing over his bed in her shift.”

Toby turned away from the table and coughed violently into his sleeve. Jeremy held his shot.

“Really?” Henry asked.

His outburst subdued, Toby turned back with a solemn face. He shuddered dramatically. “Gave me nightmares.”

Henry laughed. “I suppose you’d better bolt your door tonight, man.”

“Better yet,” said Jeremy, “you should station a footman in the corridor. Be certain she stays put.” He plunged his arm forward, his thoughts focused on an entirely different
she
. His cue ball banked off the far side of the table, then banked again to the left; glanced off the red object ball, sinking it into a corner; then connected with Toby’s cue ball and chased it spiraling into a side pocket.

Henry gave a low whistle of appreciation. “Well played,” he said, sipping his drink. “And a footman it is.”

“Oh, well done!” Sophia gasped, breaking into applause.

“There’s nothing to it,” Lucy said, fitting another arrow to her bow. It was highly satisfying to finally have the better of Miss Hathaway in some acceptable, ladylike occupation. Sophia might hold the advantage in painting, embroidery, cards, and writing letters, but Lucy had her bested when it came to archery. There weren’t many people Lucy couldn’t best at archery. Come to think of it, there weren’t any that she knew.

Lucy raised the bow to her shoulder and drew back the string. “If you want to hit the target, it’s as simple as that—wanting it. Some people will go on and on about proper technique. They will analyze the line of your arm, the way you hold the bow, the length of time you take to release. Absolute rot, all of it. I simply look at the center of the target, and I
want
it. I focus and I wait and I want it. I wait until the rest of the world falls away, and all that’s left are my arrow and the target and the wanting.” Her gaze narrowed, and her speech slowed. “And when I want them to collide so desperately that I can feel the arrow want it, too …
then
, I release.” She let go the string and watched the arrow zing home.

Sophia applauded again. “Magnificent! Shall we have another go?”

“If you like. I’ll just retrieve the arrows.”

“I’ll walk with you.” Sophia linked her arm in Lucy’s, and Lucy regarded her warily. The two set out across the green toward the target—a fat punchinello, its clownish colors playing against a curtain of dark forest.

“I’m terribly envious of you, you know,” Sophia said as they walked.

The morning was gray and cloudy, and traces of the previous night’s frost still lingered on the ground. Damp sucked at Lucy’s toes through her boots.

“It’s only archery,” she replied.

“Oh, no,” Sophia giggled. “You’re brilliant with a bow, to be sure. But it isn’t that skill I envy.”

“Then what?”

Sophia lowered her voice to a whisper, although there was no one to hear. “Yesterday. In the orchard. We saw you.”

“Oh. That.”

“Was it terribly thrilling? How did it feel? How did he
taste?
Did he touch you
… all over?”

Lucy gaped at her companion. She thought surely Miss Hathaway must be teasing—but no. Sophia’s expression was all honest, eager inquiry. She wasn’t even blushing.

She briefly considered answering the questions frankly. It was powerfully tempting. She had been furious with Jeremy the day before, when he insisted they be seen. Now she reviled him thoroughly—because he’d been right. Toby would finally look at her not as a girl, but as a woman. And Lucy could finally discuss the churning tempest of sensation a kiss could unleash with some one

… even if that someone was the enemy.

Was it terribly thrilling?
Yes, devil take it. Devil take
him
. Yes.

How did it feel?
Wicked and wonderful. Like a swarm of bees humming under her skin, tickling the nape of her neck and the humming under her skin, tickling the nape of her neck and the backs of her knees. A few straggling stings pricked her memory even now.

How did he taste?
Like hot rolls straight from the oven, washed down with whiskey.

Did he touch you all over?
No. But Lord, had she wanted him to.

Lucy considered it a great tragedy that she had let nearly twenty years of her life go by without kissing anyone. She was greatly impatient to try it with the man she actually loved. It had been tempting the previous night to set her original plan in motion, but she wouldn’t give Jeremy the satisfaction. She could win Toby’s heart without trickery or temptation. She needed only the opportunity, a few minutes alone with him. And, evidently, she needed to find that opportunity before Sophia found hers.

“If only I were so fortunate,” Sophia was saying. “I’ve been waiting and waiting for a passionate moment, but Sir Toby is a model of propriety.” She said this with such obvious distaste, Lucy thought she might as well have said,
Sir Toby has the pox
.

“You haven’t let him kiss you?” she asked, almost afraid of the answer.

“I would have,” Sophia replied with annoyance, “but he hasn’t even tried.”

Lucy felt a little thrill burn down her neck, and she squeezed it between her shoulder blades, standing taller as a result. Toby couldn’t possibly be in love with Sophia. He hadn’t even tried to kiss her. Why, she and Jeremy felt nearly nothing for each other save animosity, and they had shared five kisses now. Each one better than the last.

“Sometimes he looks as though he might,” Sophia continued. “His eyes go all glassy, and he stares at my lips.” She screwed her features into a cross-eyed mask, and Lucy laughed despite herself.

“But then—nothing. He clears his throat, gives his neck a little quirk, and then changes the topic of conversation entirely. To geometry, of all things!”

“Geometry?” Lucy was baffled. What Toby knew about mathematics could fit on the head of his stickpin. She tried to imagine him holding an actual conversation on the topic. She failed utterly.

“Absurd, isn’t it? He’ll have to kiss me someday. I suppose he is waiting for our betrothal.”

The hot little thrill between her shoulder blades turned to ice. “Do you expect him to propose soon?”

“Any day now, Kitty says.”

“You don’t sound overly excited about the idea.”

They reached the painted bull’s-eye, and Lucy began plucking arrows from the straw-filled target. She closed her hand around a shaft that had landed dead center. She froze. But of course. How had she not thought of it before? All this time she had been trying to prevent Toby and Sophia’s engagement, she had been aiming at the wrong target. Even if Toby was determined to propose marriage to Miss Hathaway, it did not necessarily follow that Sophia was wedded to the notion of accepting him. She turned to Sophia. “You don’t want to marry him, do you?”

Sophia shrugged. “Oh, I expect I do. At least, everyone else expects me to. Kitty goes on and on about what a splendid couple we make.

Sir Toby
is
very handsome, and most affable. We converse on all manner of subjects and never disagree. And there is the title. When we marry, I shall be Lady Aldridge—that will satisfy.”

“Will it?”

Sophia bit her lip and stared off toward the horizon. “Oh, Lucy, I fear it won’t. Sir Toby admires me, I know. But I don’t wish to be merely admired.” She looked back at Lucy, eyes lit with mischief. “I want to be desired. I want true passion. I want what you have with Lord Kendall.”