Going Down Fast (47 page)

Harlan chuckled. “Well, Paul can always get a message to me, you know. If there's a good reason. Take care.”

“You too. Don't let them bust you.”

“I'm trying.” Harlan hung up.

That was all there was and there might never be more. He went back to Annie who lay spilled on the floor. “Come on. We might as well go to bed.”

She got up. “I'm not crying because I'm with you. I really am with you. But they've got him, Rowley, and it's such a rotten waste!”

She lay in his arms damp with tears, tears that dripped slowly over his shoulder. He thought they lay at the bottom of a shaft of dim light and in the dark about them many circled. Not Paul who had cut her on the street but spoken to him, not Sam who lay with her love in their own pool of amber light. Through the dark drifted the ashlight bodies of burned Vera and Black Jack and Leon bound and Yente and his old man with a suitcase almost as old hiking into the past, and the thousands in the city burning with a stench more suffocating than the soft coal favored by its landlords, burning in poverty, in powerlessness, in blindness, in thousands of deadend graverooms where the smoke of their angry flesh and charred nerves rose in their nostrils and choked them. A sweet fetid odor of slow decay sweated from thousands of other rooms where in the aquarium of the TV objects pirouetted, objects glossier than any body in a shimmer of blurred lust and status and money-purr, while in the twilight contempt and desperation and cancer burgeoned like house plants. There were light high rooms where Nina's teak body banged toward some apotheosis of the nerves, some release from the spiral of golden sawdust, where Caroline sweated her odorless fears and reacted, reacted like a clean sleek white lab rat, where Asher sought the rational world that would reward his observance of the rules and found his new Olds and his living stomach betraying him.

All his life he had been dodging. He had opted for his comfort. Now he had planted his feet and from this point must begin. In the morning he would see Cal and resign. He'd keep only his own program. He could no longer live in interstices. He did not want to make a gesture or express his moral fiber: he wanted to act but could only push from where he stood and recognize that hardly anyone was going to feel the pressure for a long while.

Harlan had seen one thing: defeated you gave up and died or fought from a new base. You began by recognizing your own oppression and once you tasted that, you could not go back to sleep.

He thought that he was lucky to have something he wanted in the dark, only lucky, for all things come down in the dark and the light, come down like ash upon the sleeping and those who stretch and rock with pain, and on him too who held in his arms the woman he wanted, though crying tediously, with patience through the long polluted night.

About the Author

Marge Piercy (b. 1936) is the author of nineteen poetry collections, including
The Hunger Moon
and
Made in Detroit
, and seventeen novels, including the
New York Times
bestseller
Gone to Soldiers
and
He, She and It
, winner of the Arthur C. Clarke Award for science fiction. She has also written a memoir,
Sleeping with Cats
; a collection of short stories,
The Cost of Lunch, Etc.
; and five nonfiction books. A champion of feminism, antiwar, and ecological movements, Piercy often includes political themes in her work and features strong female characters who challenge traditional gender roles. Her book of poetry
The Moon Is Always Female
is considered a seminal feminist text. Piercy's other works include
Woman on the Edge of Time
,
The Longings of Women
, and
City of Darkness, City of Light
. She lives in Massachusetts with her husband, radio personality and author Ira Wood, with whom she cowrote the novel
Storm Tide
.

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Copyright © 1969 by Marge Piercy

“Barnyards of Delgaty,” by Pat Clancy, Tom Clancy, Liam Clancy, and Tommy Makem. Copyright 1962 by Tiparm Music Publishers Inc. Used by permission.

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ISBN: 978-1-5040-3339-8

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