Authors: Laura Lee Guhrke
Guilty Series (65 page)
“I do not. I have never lied to you before.”
“Isabel does, and she smiles just the same way you did when you said you weren't trying to sweeten me up and get me back. Like daughter, like father. That's how I knew.”
“I was right about you all along. Army general. With you in charge of me, I shall never be able to get away with anything.”
Grace laughed at that and brushed back a long, black lock of his hair. “As if I could ever be in charge of England's most notorious rakehell. You're the one in charge, because with every smile of yours I see, with every kiss you give me, you make me love you more.”
He pulled her even closer. His hands slid along her hips, stopped, and he became serious again. He hoped she was right about that smile thing, because he wasn't smiling now. This was important. “From now on, every smile and every kiss and every symphony is for you. Only you. For the rest of my life. I swear it.”
He resumed kissing her ear and began to pull at her skirt, but instead of giving in, she put her hands on his wrists. “Wait,” she said with a little frown, trying to sound severe. “What about all the sonatas, the concertos, and the operas? What woman gets those?”
Dylan pulled his hands free of her grasp, gave up on the skirts, and tried an alternate route. He reached for the top button of her dress. “Isabel, of course. Oh, and I have to save some of my kisses for her, too.”
“Well,” she murmured, giving in at last, “you did write me a symphony.”
“Yes, I did.” He pulled the neckline of her dress back and kissed her soft, white skin. Then he lifted his head, looking at her in wonder, fully appreciating for the first time just what a miracle that was. “Damn. I really did. And you told me muses don't exist.” His lips grazed her mouth. “They do. I'm going to marry mine and spend the rest of my life hearing music because of her.”
My thanks to Ms. Terry Rogers for all her help during the writing of this book. Ms. Rogers, who holds a Bachelor of Arts in Music Education and has taught piano for ten years, gave me valuable assistance on the musical aspects of this story. Terry, you have my heartfelt gratitude.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
HIS EVERY KISS
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For Cathie Patcheck Wilson
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Your chair at critique group is empty,
and it hurts.
I miss you.
London, 1833
W
hen those in society talked about Lord and Lady Hammond, there was one conclusion about the viscount and his wife no one bothered to dispute: They couldn't stand each other.
This dictum was mentioned in drawing room conversations with the same unquestioning certainty given to English rain and Irish trouble. Gossips could only speculate about the reasons that had divided the couple only six months after their wedding, but eight years later, Lady Hammond had not provided her husband with the customary heir, the pair lived thoroughly separate lives, and even the greenest hostess alive knew
never
to invite them to the same dinner party.
Despite the lack of a direct heir to the viscountcy, the marital estrangement of Lord and Lady Hammond showed no signs of being breached by either
party. Until the fifteenth of March 1833. That was the day a letter changed everything, at least as far as the viscount was concerned.
The missive came by express, reaching Hammond's London residence about eleven o'clock in the evening. The viscount, however, was not at home. Since it was the midst of the London season, John Hammond, like most men of his social position, was out about town, engaged in the unholy trinity of male excess: drinking, gambling, and skirt-chasing.
His friends, Lord Damon Hewitt and Sir Robert Jamison, were happily assisting him in these endeavors. After several hours at their favorite gaming hell, they arrived at Brooks's just before midnight. Once there, they proceeded to empty their sixth bottle of port as they discussed where to spend the remainder of their night.
“I say, Hammond, at some point during the evening we have to go to Kettering's ball,” Sir Robert said. “Just for an hour or two. Lord Damon and I both promised Lady Kettering we would be there, and you know how she is if you don't show. Makes a terrible fuss. We have to make an appearance at least.”
“Then I shall be forced to take leave of you before then,” John replied and poured himself a glass of port from the decanter on the table. “Viola was invited to Kettering's ball and accepted the invitation. Therefore, I was impelled to decline.
You know my wife and I never appear at the same functions.”
“No gentleman appears at the same functions as his own wife, Sir Robert,” Lord Damon explained to their younger companion. “Besides, it would be wise if Hammond steered clear. Emma Rawlins will be there, and the fur would surely fly.”
John almost wanted to laugh at that. His last mistress was not likely to create any emotion in his wife other than more of the same disdain she had displayed toward him for years. A sad end, given the adoring young woman he'd married. But marriages were seldom happy, and he had long ago given up any stupid notions that his would be one of the few to beat the odds.
“Mrs. Rawlins is a pretty creature,” Sir Robert added. “You might see her and regret putting an end to that amour.”
John thought of Emma's possessiveness, the smothering possessiveness no mistress had the right to claim, and which had caused him to terminate their arrangement two months before and pay off her contract. “I doubt it. The end was not amicable.” He swirled his glass and took a swallow of port. “I believe I am done with women for a while.”
“You always say that!” Damon laughed. “It never lasts for long. When it comes to women, you are a Turk, Hammond. You should have a harem.”
“One woman at a time is enough, Lord Damon!
My last two mistresses have given me reason enough to be soured on romance.”
His mistress prior to Emma, the opera singer Maria Allen, had gotten him shot in a duel two years earlier by her husband. Allen, after years of neglecting his wife, had suddenly decided her affairs with other men bothered him. The two men had each put a bullet into the shoulder of the other and honor had been satisfied. The reconciliation of the Allens had not been happy. He had eventually taken off for America, and she was now Lord Dewhurst's mistress.
Emma Rawlins, however, did not seem inclined to finding herself a new protector. She had been writing to him at weekly intervals from the cottage he had given her in Sussex, letters chiding him, scolding him, and begging him to come back to her. His replies of polite refusal had not satisfied her, however, and she had followed him to London, but he had no intention of seeing her.
In fact, since breaking from Emma, John found himself at loose ends. He was not inclined toward a new mistress, and his reason was difficult to define. A man's relationship with his mistress, to his way of thinking, ought to be simple, straightforward, and purely physical. It so seldom turned out that way, and perhaps that was the reason for his reluctance. He had no desire to become involved in another imbroglio, for he hated emotional scenes. Always had.
John did not express these feelings to his friends, however, and his friends, being gentlemen, did not inquire. If they had, he would have sidestepped their questions with a witty remark or a change of subject.
“No, my friends,” he said, shaking his head. “Women are charming, intriguing creatures, but they are also expensive in many different ways. I intend to go without a mistress this year.”
“The entire year?” Lord Damon made a sound of disbelief. “And it is only March. This has to be another one of your jokes. You love the ladies too much to do without a mistress for the entire year.”
John leaned back in his chair and lifted his glass. “Just because a man doesn't have a mistress, it doesn't mean he isn't loving the ladies.”
His companions got a good laugh out of that comment and deemed it worthy of his toast. The three charged their glasses, then decided anything less than several toasts to the loving of ladies was a disservice to the fair sex. Within five minutes the bottle was empty.
“Look you, Hammond,” Lord Damon said, his voice suddenly serious, quieting their merriment. “Isn't that footman at the door one of yours?”
John looked up, following his friend's glance. Sure enough, framed in the doorway and scanning the crowded room with an anxious expression was one of his own servants. Catching sight of him, the
lad hurried forward and held out a letter. “Come from the north, my lord. It being an express, Mr. Pershing sent me out at once to find you.”
Correspondence sent by express almost always conveyed bad news, and John thought at once of Hammond Park, his Northumberland estate. But when he glanced at his own name and direction written on the outside of the folded sheet of paper, he was startled to discover that the handwriting was not that of his steward. It was from Constance, his cousin's wife, and that meant whatever bad news was contained in the letter was a family matter. His apprehension deepened as he broke the seal and unfolded the single sheet.
It contained only four lines, the ink smudged with tears. The news was even more disastrous than he could have imagined. Yet as he stared at the words, reading them again and again, he was unable to quite grasp their meaning. He felt numb, dazed, unable to accept what he read. It simply could not be.
Percy. Oh, God. Percy.
Pain sliced through the numbness. He tried to focus on what this news meant, what he had to do, but all he could think about was that he had let an entire year slip away without seeing his cousin and best friend, and now it was too late.
“Hammond?” Lord Damon's concerned voice broke into his reverie, and John came to his senses. He folded the letter and put it in his
pocket. Fighting to keep his countenance neutral, he looked at the footman waiting anxiously by his elbow. “Have my carriage brought 'round at once.”
“Yes, my lord.”
The footman departed, and his friends continued to study him with concern. Neither asked him what the problem was, but the question hung in the air. John did not enlighten them. He picked up his glass and downed the last of his port, fighting hard to regain the numbness of a moment before.
Later
, he told himself, shoving pain aside. He would grieve later. Just now, he had to think of the effect this news would have on his estates. The estates had to come first. They always came first. He shoved back his chair and rose. “Gentlemen, I fear I must leave you. Urgent business calls me away. Forgive me.”
Without waiting for either man to reply, John bowed, turned away from the table, and left the room. By the time he reached the street, his carriage was waiting, and he instructed his driver to journey first to his town house in Bloomsbury Square.
Half an hour later his valet, Stephens, was packing his things for the journey to Shropshire, and John was on his way to Kettering's ball. Viola had to be told of this news.
The encounter was likely to be a difficult one. His wife had always been a woman of deep pas
sions, and her strongest passion was her loathing for him. It was a feeling she made abundantly clear at every infrequent encounter they had, her demeanor toward him as frigid as the depths of the sea. Her life would be affected by the news he had just received in a way she was sure to abhor.
He knew that his arrival at Kettering's ball would no doubt cause a stir, for he and Viola did not even bother to pretend their marriage had meaning. It was an empty union, and had been for over eight years. That was all about to change, he vowed as he paused in the doorway of Lord Kettering's ballroom.
Despite the crowd that filled the glittering room and the fact that his wife was a small woman, John caught sight of her easily. She had on a ball gown of deep pink silk, but had she not been wearing her favorite color, he would still have spied her almost at once. Even after so many years of separate beds and separate lives, he could always find Viola in any crowd.
It was her hair, of course. It gleamed in the candlelight of the chandeliers overhead, and as always, its brilliant, golden color made him think of sunlight.
She was turned away from him, and he could not see her face, but that did not matter. He knew every inch of itâthe heart shape, the wide hazel eyes and thick brown lashes, the pretty mouth with that tiny mole at the corner, the dimple in her
right cheek when she smiled. He didn't know why he should remember that, since it had been many, many years since she had last smiled at him, but he did remember it. Viola had a smile that could make the heavens open. She also had a frown of such scorn, it could send a man straight to hell. John had been to both destinations more than once.
All the guests were engaged in the dancing or in observing of it, and it took a bit of time for his arrival to be noticed. When it was, the quadrille turned into something of a mess, for the dancers became too occupied with staring at him to pay attention to the intricate steps, and after a few moments the musicians gave up playing. Conversation faded to an awkward silence, then murmurs of shocked speculation began to circulate the room. All inevitable reactions, John supposed, for it had been years since Lord and Lady Hammond had appeared at the same social event.
He watched as his wife turned in his direction, and he caught his breath, stunned as always by the sheer beauty of her face and the perfection of her figure. Though it was nearly a year since he had last laid eyes on her, she looked exactly as he remembered.
He watched the delicate color in her cheeks fade to a chalky white at the sight of him, and though schooled in social graces all her life, she was appalled by his arrival and unable to conceal it.
When he started in her direction, however, she had no choice but to recover her poise and play her part as his viscountess in front of all these people. He paused in front of her, and she greeted him with the scrupulous, icy politeness characteristic of their infrequent meetings over the years.
“Hammond,” she said with a curtsy.
He bowed in return. “Lady Hammond,” he answered, taking the gloved hand she held out. He touched his lips to her knuckles through the fabric, then released her hand and turned so she might take his arm.
She hesitated, but after a moment, placed her hand on his arm. It was the barest touch, but enough. In view of society, she had to play the compliant wife, and both of them knew it, but in private Viola was seldom compliant. One of the privileges of being a duke's sister.
Her brother stood nearby, and John could feel the hostile gaze of the Duke of Tremore on him like the blasting heat of a coal furnace. But when he greeted the other man, his brother-in-law's demeanor was as cold as Viola's had been. No wonder. Tremore viewed his baby sister as an angel. John was in a position to know better. Viola might look as if she should have a halo over her head, but her nature was a very human one indeed.
Tremore, in John's opinion, had been most fortunate in his own choice of wife. Though not the most beautiful of women, the duchess was one of
the most placid, tactful ladies of his acquaintance, and her demeanor was far less hostile than her husband's. “Hammond,” she said, holding out her hand.
“Duchess.” He bowed over her gloved fingers. “You look well,” he added as he straightened. “I was gratified to hear your son came into this world healthy and strong.”
“Yes, and that was nearly ten months ago,” Tremore answered for her through clenched teeth, underlining the fact that since the child's birth, John had never once come to see his nephew. He had not even gone to the christening.
John, being a man possessed of both his common sense and his sanity, never put himself through visits with his brother-in-law if he could help it. “A strong, healthy child is a blessing for any man,” he said. “And a son ensures that your estates are secure. Duke, you are a most fortunate man.”
John's own lack of an heir was a point not lost on Tremore, who looked away. Feeling Viola's hand tighten on his arm, John allowed her to pull him away from the duke and duchess.
“Why are you here?” she demanded in an angry whisper as they walked arm in arm along one side of the room.
“For a reason that cannot be explained in whispers at a crowded ball. Smile, Viola, or if you cannot manage it, at least be polite. Everyone is staring at us.”
