Harrison Squared (2 page)

“Shut the door!” she yelled without looking at us. “You're letting them in!” Then
thwack!
She brought a swatter down on the desk. Her nameplate said M
ISS
P
EARL,
S
CHOOL
S
ECRETARY
.

“Excuse me,” Mom said. “We're looking for Principal—”

“Ha!” Miss Pearl slapped her own arm. Her platinum hair shifted an inch out of kilter. She blew at the pink waffle print on her arm, then sat down in satisfaction. I still could not see any bugs. The air smelled of thick floral perfume.

She looked up at us. “Who are you?”

“I'm Rosa Harrison,” Mom said. “This is my son, Harrison.”

“And his first name?” She stared at me with tiny black eyes under fanlike eyelashes.

“Harrison,” I said. Sometimes—like now, for example—I regretted that my father's family had decided that generations of boys would have that double name. Technically, I was Harrison Harrison the Fifth. H
2x5
. But that was more information than I ever wanted to explain.

“He's a new student,” Mom explained.

“Oh, I can see that.”

“Principal Montooth is expecting him.”

“
Now?
” Miss Pearl said. “It's already fourth period.”

“We're running late.”

“Did you bring his transcripts?” Miss Pearl asked. “Test scores? Medical records? Proof of residency?”

“No, we just—”

“Not even proof of
citizenship
?”

Uh-oh.

Mom is Terena, one of the indigenous peoples of Brazil. Which means that her people—
my
people—were nearly wiped out in
A.D.
1500 by Europeans who looked a lot like Dad. He was Presbyterian white (like “eggshell” and “ivory,” “Presbyterian” is a particular shade of pale). I'm a Photoshopped version somewhere between the two, with Dad's blue eyes but skin a lot darker than your typical hospital waiting room. You grow up in southern California looking like me, a lot of people assume you're Mexican. Some of those people assume you're undocumented, and let their biases spool out from there. Mom got annoyed when people said racist stuff about her, but when somebody started talking stupid about me, her only begotten?

Jaguar claws, my friend.

Mom leaned over the desk. “Does he look like he doesn't belong here?”

Miss Pearl blinked up at her, finally found her voice. “It's standard,” she said.

“Look, Miss … Pearl, is it?” Classic Mom. “I'm in a bit of a rush. Let's take care of the paperwork later and get my son into class.”

It was then I realized that she'd forgotten all the forms I'd filled out back in San Diego. When she was deep into a research project—which was pretty much all the time—she was prone to falling into Absent-Minded Professor mode. When Mom was AMPing, mundane details fell through the cracks.

Miss Pearl was confused. “Are you telling me you don't have any documentation for this child whatsoever?” The cloud of perfume surrounding the woman seemed to expand. My nose itched madly.

“Of course I have
documentation
,” Mom said. “Just not with me. If you could just give us some sort of class schedule, we can—”

I sneezed, and Miss Pearl glared at me. “He's what, fifteen years old?”

“I'm sixteen,” I said. “A junior.”

Miss Pearl sighed. “Why don't you start in Mrs. Velloc's class, then. Practical skills. Room 212.”

“
Thank
you,” Mom said. It was the “thank you” of a sheriff putting the gun back in the holster after the desperados had decided to move along. Miss Pearl, however, had already returned to fly-swatting. “Close the door behind you!” she called.

Out in the hallway, Mom looked left, then right. She seemed to have already forgotten Miss Pearl. She was like that: Her mind moved fast, and she didn't let anger fester.

“Two-twelve,” she said, and glanced at her watch.

“Just go, Mom,” I said. “I can find it.”

She heard something in my voice and looked up into my eyes. About a year ago I'd passed her in height.

“You're mad,” she said. She was worried.

I didn't let things go as quick as she did. And when I was little, I was the King of All Tantrums. Do you know how wild you have to be to be kicked out of elementary school? The answer is: very.

“A little bit,” I said.

“Is it about this school?”

“I thought you were taking care of the forms.”

“Paperwork is for small minds,” she said. But she was smiling as she said it.

“Okay, okay,” I said. “I'll take care of it tomorrow.”

“Your mind's too big for paperwork too,” she said. “How's the leg?”

First the question about being mad, and now the leg. She hardly ever asked about it. When I was little she'd checked in with me all the time, making sure the socket was fitting, and that my skin was okay. But she'd stopped the constant questioning when I became a teenager. I hadn't told her that the leg had started acting up last night. It wasn't socket pain; it was a weird coldness in my phantom limb. I'd chalked it up to the long trip and hadn't mentioned it to her. Had she noticed me limping?

“You're being parental,” I said. “Go find that squid.”

My mom specialized in finding big things swimming in places they didn't belong. She'd studied whale sharks, sperm whales—the biggest of the toothed whales—and all varieties of squids. Her latest obsession was
Mesonychoteuthis hamiltoni
, the colossal squid. Forty-five feet long, with the largest eyes in the animal kingdom, whose suckers are ringed not only by teeth but sharp, swiveling hooks. It's never supposed to come north of Brazil—but she was sure it did, based on, among other evidence, the beaks found in the guts of certain whales. Down in the abyss it's a dog-eat-dog world, where some of the dogs are the size of city buses.

“
Fique com Deus, querido
,” she said, and kissed me on the cheek. “
Até depois
.”

She ran for the exit. She didn't run in that straight-backed, floor-skimming, not-really-running way adults did—she ran like a kid, all out. She hit the big doors and escaped into daylight.

Science Mom flying off to her next adventure.

*   *   *

… while I was left with this: a dark hallway in a school that didn't want me here.

The doors nearest the office were all in the 100s. The doors were all closed, though from some of them I heard voices. Then I found the stairs and went up.

On the landing was a huge aquarium, eight feet long and five feet high. The water inside was green and silt-filled. Something moved within it, but I couldn't make it out. Maybe it was a thresher, and they kept their mascot on the premises.

I reached the second floor to find another row of closed doors. The light seemed even dimmer than downstairs. I bent to look at the number plate next to a door and was relieved to find that at least now I was in the ballpark: 209, 210 …

Room 212. I put my hand on the doorknob—and then it swung open, pushed from the inside. A very tall white woman in a very long black dress looked down at me. She seemed to be constructed of nothing but straight edges and hard angles, like the prow of an icebreaker ship. Her black hair, shot with gray, was pulled back tight against her head. Her nose was sharp as a hatchet, her fingers like a clutch of knives.

“Mr. Harrison,” she said. “I am Mrs. Velloc.” Her lips barely moved.

Behind her, kids my age sat in four rows. Lengths of rope were draped from one desk to another, and the students were tying them together. Or had been, until they'd all stopped to look at me.

They all seemed to be related to each other. Black hair, pale skin, dark eyes. Every one of them Caucasian. I fought the urge to back away.

I said, “The woman in the office—”

“Miss Pearl.”

“Right. She told me to come here.”

“And you followed directions. Perhaps you'd like a commendation.”

Mrs. Velloc made a small gesture, and I found myself walking into the room.

“Class,” she said. “This is Harrison. He is from
California
.” She enunciated the word carefully, as if it were an exotic country. I wondered how she knew where I was from. Had Miss Pearl buzzed her while I was on my way up?

“Hello, Harrison,” the students said in unison. Not just generally at the same time, but in perfect synchrony, like a choir. A choir that had been rehearsing.

I lifted a hand in greeting. They stared at me. They were dressed in blacks and grays, not quite a uniform, but definitely a
look
, as if they all did their shopping at clinicaldepression.com. My tie-dye shirt was like a loud laugh at a funeral.

I let my hand drop.

“It's Practical Skills hour,” Mrs. Velloc said. “We're learning how to make a proper net. Do you know your knots, or do you not?”

“Pardon?”

She already seemed put out with me. “This way.” She led me to an empty seat in the first row. On the desk was a flat stick almost two feet long with notches at each end. Its middle was wound with rope.

“Lydia will show you the sheet bend. Miss Palwick?”

The girl to my right—Lydia Palwick, I presumed, since I'm smart like that—looked at me with a slightly surprised expression, though that was probably because her eyes were so large. Her long black hair shined as if oiled.

Mrs. Velloc turned and walked back to her desk. She picked up a tiny book and began to read to herself.

I looked down at the section of rope that lay across my desk. Then I picked up the tail end of the rope that was spooled around the big stick. Okay, I thought. Tie this thing to that thing and make a net. No problem.

Except I didn't know any sailor knots. Mom did; she was great at that stuff. But I never went on boats. I didn't know anything about nets or ropes or sheet bends.

Lydia watched me fumble around, then took the stick out of my hands. She moved it in and out of the net, over and around, the rope spooling behind it. Suddenly there was a new diamond in the net.

“Wait, how did you—?”

“Left, loop, right, loop, over, and through,” she said. Her voice was flat, bored.

I leaned closer to her and whispered, “Can I ask you a question?”

She glanced to the side but didn't pull away from me.

I said, “How much of Practical Skills hour is left?”

*   *   *

Forty minutes later the class showed no sign of ending, and my fingers prickled from what felt like microscopic needles. I didn't know that rope could get under your skin like that. Also? I was bored bored bored. My phone was getting zero reception, so there was no one I could text to back home, and no one here was passing notes or even whispering. They simply worked, fingers busy as spiders.

I finally leaned over to Lydia and whispered, “Why is everybody so quiet?”

She frowned. “Why are you always talking?”

“I've said like five words since I got here.”

Mrs. Velloc's head whipped around at the noise. I shut up. A few seconds later, Lydia whispered, “Chatterbox.”

Somewhere far away, a gong sounded. The students stood as one, and then packed the piles of rope into large wooden trunks lined up at the back of the room. I'd managed to connect three or four lengths of rope. In the same amount of time, Lydia had created a net the size of a queen-sized blanket.

The students began to file out of the room. I walked to Mrs. Velloc's desk. Eventually she looked up from her book.

“I don't know where to go next,” I said. “They didn't give me a schedule.”

She looked at me as if I were a moron. “Follow Lydia,” she said.

“To where? The office? Because I can—”

“Do what she does. Go where she goes. Your schedule is her schedule.”

I glanced toward the door. Lydia had already left the room.

“Is that too
complicated
for you, Mr. Harrison?”

I didn't know where my temper came from. Mom didn't suffer fools gladly, but her anger never lasted longer than a minute. My dad supposedly never hurt a fly. But me … Calm did not come naturally. Sometimes—like, say, when somebody treats me like I'm an idiot—I could clearly picture my hands around their neck. I could almost feel myself squeezing.

When I was little I didn't know what to do with all that emotion, and I actually did try to strangle people. I punched other kids. Bit teachers. Screamed at, well, everybody, but mostly my mother. Gradually I learned to control myself. My main technique, and still my go-to move when I was feeling the rush, was to simply observe myself. Catalog what was going on in my body and my head. Hey there, look at that fist clenching! Feel that heart beating! Take a gander at that violent movie playing in your head—got any film music to go with that?

I didn't actually step out of my body. I wasn't that crazy. But watching myself did get me to settle down. Rage makes little sense from the outside.

I relaxed my hand and smiled at Mrs. Velloc. “I think I got it,” I said.

I walked out, and my right leg was throbbing, right down to my invisible toes. I made sure not to limp.

*   *   *

Students streamed out of the rooms, but it was an orderly stream, without pushing or shoving. Nobody yelled or even raised their voice. Most of them looked younger than me, but they all had that same dark-haired, pale, fishy look as the kids in Velloc's class. From behind I had no idea which one was Lydia, but I finally spotted her as the streams converged on the stairway down.

“Hey, Lydia!”

Scores of faces turned to look at me. The flow of traffic stuttered, then resumed.

Lydia looked up at me. Then she closed her eyes and slowly opened them again, as if hoping she'd imagined me. Nope. Still here. She backed out of the line of students and waited for me on the first landing with her back to the aquarium.