Hawk's Way Grooms (14 page)

She had died a little inside when she opened the Dallas newspaper the day after Mac had left and found a picture of Mac and Eve Latham smiling at each other at a Fort Worth charity function. If Eve was the woman Mac wanted, Jewel had to accept that and move on. She had to find the courage to start living again—without Mac's help.

The same way Brad had to keep on living, despite the fact he might be dying. “Do you think he ever took the trip?” Jewel asked softly.

Brad shook his head, and a tear spilled on his cheek. He knuckled it away with his fist. “He waited too late,” Brad whispered.

Jewel took a step closer and enfolded Brad in her arms. Her chin quivered, and she gritted her teeth to keep from making any sound. How could she have been working here all these years and not have seen what Brad could see so clearly? How could she have let so many years go by not living life when it was so precious? How could she have given fear such a stranglehold on her future?

“It's never too late, Brad,” she said fiercely. “All you have to do is take that first step, and then another, and another.” She rubbed his shoulders soothingly, then pushed him back and tipped up his chin so she could see his eyes beneath the baseball cap. “Just one step, Brad. And the adventure begins.”

“Everything all right here?” Gavin had brought the homesick child with him in his arms.

Jewel swallowed back the knot in her throat and turned to Gavin with a smile. “Sure. I think Brad is ready to do some drawing. Right, Brad?”

“Yeah,” he mumbled.

“This one is about ready to go back,” Gavin said, gesturing to the little girl with his chin. She looked happy and comfortable in Gavin's arms. He really was a great guy, Jewel thought, just not the guy for her.

“Tell you what,” Jewel said. “Why don't you and Patty gather up everyone else and get them started back. I'll stay here a little while longer with Brad.”

“You sure?” Gavin asked doubtfully. “It's pretty isolated out here.”

Jewel laughed. “Hawk's Pride is safer than most big cities. Brad and I will be fine.”

“Okay,” Gavin said with a smile. “See you later.”

“Thanks, Gavin.”

“You're welcome, Boss,” he said over his shoulder. “Come on, guys. Let's get you all mounted up,” he called to the campers. “Day's wastin'.”

Jewel helped Gavin and Patty make sure all the campers were comfortable for the horseback ride up out of the canyon. Then she crossed back to where Brad was industriously working on his drawing.

“That's looking pretty good,” Jewel said, admiring his sketch.

“I've had a lot of time to practice,” Brad said, his lips curling wryly.

“What do you want to be when you grow up?” Jewel asked.

“I wanted to be a football player,” Brad said, changing it to the past tense. “Like Mac Macready.”

“Let's get some practice, then,” Mac said.

Jewel and Brad both jerked their heads toward the sound of Mac's voice. He dismounted from his horse, a football tucked into his elbow.

Jewel was surprised Mac had returned, especially after seeing the photo of him with his arm around Eve Latham. Her first impulse was to rail at him, but she had no claims on Mac Macready. What “business” he did in his free time was up to him. She just wished he hadn't lied to her about why he had gone to Dallas. That wasn't something friends did to friends.

“What are you doing here?” Jewel said, her voice sharp despite her wish to keep it level.

“I brought a football, figuring I'd throw a few passes to the kids, but I passed them on the way down, headed back for lunch. Gavin told me you'd stayed behind with Brad, so I thought I'd join you.”

“Hi, Mac,” Brad said shyly.

“Hi, Brad,” Mac said, tossing him the football. “I need to talk with Jewel for a minute. Why don't you go find us a place where you can throw me a few?”

“You want me to throw to you?”

“You want to be a football player someday, don't you? No time like the present to start practicing.”

Brad shot Jewel a questioning look.
Should I let myself hope? Should I take him up on his offer?

“One step, Brad,” she said softly. “And the adventure begins.”

The boy smiled broadly and turned back to Mac. “Okay, Mac. I'll go find us a good spot.” He turned and headed on the run toward a sandy stretch that extended around a curve in the canyon wall.

Jewel compared the Mac in the newspaper photo to the Mac standing before her. He had looked impressively handsome in a tuxedo. But he was just as impressive dressed in a cutoff T-shirt that showed off a washboard midriff and rippling biceps. Cutoff jeans revealed his scarred leg, but emphasized his height. Tennis shoes and a Texas Rangers baseball cap with his blond hair sticking out every whichaway made him look like one of the kids.

She was quite aware he was not.

Jewel forced herself to stand still as Mac eyed her up and down in return. She was wearing a T-shirt with the neck cut out that was also cut off at midriff, exposing her narrow waist, and very short, fringed cutoffs that showed off her long legs. She might as well have been naked. The look in his eyes made her skin feel prickly all over.

Now that he was back, his gaze seemed to say, they could pick up where they had left off, kissing and touching.

But she could not forget the possessive look in Eve's eyes, or the way Mac's arm reached snugly around her. She was very well aware of how long he had been gone and who he had been with, but she couldn't very well confront him with Brad nearby.

“I missed you,” he said softly.

“From the picture in the newspaper I wouldn't have said you were too lonely.”

He frowned. “What picture?”

“The one of you with your arm around Eve Latham at a charity ball.”

Mac groaned. “I can explain—”

“Later,” she said, turning to walk away from him. “Brad is waiting for you.”

He caught her arm. “I want this cleared up now. It was nothing, Jewel. Publicity my agent set up.”

“With Eve Latham?” she said, raising a doubtful brow.

“With her father, actually. He's a big fan of the Tornadoes.”

“I suppose Eve just happened to be there?”

“Believe me, I didn't set that up. In fact, I'd planned to come right back the next morning, but Eve's father arranged a golf game the next morning with the manager of the Tornadoes that I couldn't very well get out of, and my agent snuck a few more appearances into the mix. Believe me, I only wanted to get back here as quickly as I could.”

“Why?” she said, staring him in the eye. “So you could throw footballs to adoring campers?”

For the first time he looked angry. “You know better,” he said through clenched teeth.

“Do I? I have no claim on you, Mac. If you'd rather not follow through on what you promised, all you have to do is say so. It isn't necessary to make excuses.”

An instant later, he was kissing her hard on the mouth. It was as much a kiss of anger as of passion. Jewel felt both angry and passionate in return. Mac let her go abruptly, his breathing erratic, and said, “I have no intention of backing out on my promise to you. It's up to you whether you choose to take advantage of my offer.”

Jewel stared at Mac, appalled at how easily he had aroused her, how easily he had made her want him. She was afraid to let Mac back in. “I thought you'd lied to me about why you went to Dallas,” she admitted.

“I would never lie to you, Jewel. That's not something friends do.”

She wanted to believe him. She wanted to go back to trusting him. Fear made her cautious. Fear made her reluctant to let him back into her life. Fear could keep her stuck in the same rut forever.

Jewel glanced at the etching on the stone wall. She took a deep breath and let it out. “All right, Mac. You've got yourself a deal.”

She held out her hand for him to shake, and Mac raised it to his mouth, kissing it like a courtier of old. His grin reappeared, and she felt her insides flip-flop.

“Very well, my little hyacinth,” he said.

“That's a flower.”

“And a precious stone,” he assured her. “See you in a little while.” He let go of her and loped across the sand, calling out to Brad to throw him the ball.

Jewel stared at her hand where Mac had kissed it, then raised her fingertips to her recently kissed lips. Mac had plainly thrown down the gauntlet. She had a chance to grab for life with both hands. She had a chance to practice kissing and touching with him. And she had a chance to explore a relationship with him beyond the friendship they had shared for so many years. She could take it, or reject it. The choice was hers.

What she must not do was make no choice at all.

If she hadn't spent the past half hour in Brad Templeton's company, she might have chickened out. But Jewel couldn't very well demand Brad reach out for life, if she wasn't going to do it herself.

Brad threw Mac the ball and came racing back to her holding out his notepad and pencil.

Jewel exchanged a glance with Mac that was the closest she had ever come to flirting with him. It promised everything…later. She was rewarded with a look that made her body curl inside and her breasts feel achy and swollen.

Jewel felt a tug on her T-shirt and looked down at Brad, who stood beside her again, his eyes gleaming with delight. Oh, yes. Football. And hope.

“I'll take those things,” she said, reaching out for Brad's notepad and pencil.

Brad turned and trotted right back to Mac. She saw the boy swallow hard as he reached out for the football Mac was handing him. Jewel thanked Mac with her eyes and got a wink that flustered her in return.

She knew better than to tell either male not to overdo it. But Jewel was concerned as the sun rose higher and Brad continued to throw the ball and Mac continued to run for it. They were both drenched with sweat. Brad looked flushed. And Mac was starting to limp.

“Hey, you two. How about a break?”

She caught Mac's eye and gave him a warning look. He glanced at Brad and said, “I'm whipped, partner. How about a tall, cold glass? Of water, that is,” he said, slapping Brad on the shoulder as they started back toward where Jewel sat in the shade of the canyon wall.

Jewel stood up with the canteens ready and handed one to each of them. She lifted Brad's hat as though to rearrange it on his head and surreptitiously checked for a fever. He seemed warm, but the sun was hot. “How are you feeling?” she asked, unable to keep the concern from her voice.

“Fantastic,” Brad said, grinning for the first time since he had arrived at camp. “That was fun, Mac. Thanks.”

“Tell you what I'm going to do, partner. I'm going to autograph this football to you with thanks for a strong throwing arm, so you can take it home with you.”

“Wow! That would be neat,” Brad said, sounding more like a kid his age every minute. He flopped down onto the sand, looking exhausted but happy.

Jewel was aware of Mac's wince as he settled onto the ground beside Brad.

“I've got some snacks that'll keep us until we can get some lunch,” she said, dropping to her knees and opening what was left of the graham crackers and peanut butter and celery she had brought for the campers. “That'll also give you two a chance to cool off before we make the ride home.”

As they munched, Mac and Brad talked. Jewel watched them closely. Brad had a smile on his face and talked a mile a minute, as though someone had turned up the rpms on a record. Mac listened. He didn't look at her often, but often enough to remind her that he was ready and willing whenever she wanted to take that final leap of faith. “Are you ready to head back now?” Jewel asked, when Brad had wound down a little.

“I guess,” Brad said. “Can we do this again?” he asked Mac as he shoved himself to his feet.

“As often as you want before you leave,” Mac said.

Jewel noticed Mac wincing again as he straightened his scarred leg.

He caught her watching him and grinned, as though he hadn't just been in pain. “Don't worry. Everything important is working just fine.” He leered at her, making it clear exactly what he meant.

Jewel felt flustered and excited. And anxious. Mac looked exhausted. He was using humor—and sexual tension—to distract her and doing a pretty good job. She was also concerned about Brad. He seemed awfully red-faced even after his rest. “Are you sure you're both feeling all right?” she asked.

“I'm doing great!” Brad said.

“I'm just fine,” Mac said.

Jewel pursed her lips. Typical males. Everything was fine until they keeled over. She decided to keep a close eye on both of them.

Mac was still grinning as he ushered Brad past her and headed for the horses, whispering for her ears only, “You look beautiful, Amethyst. And very, very desirable. I can't wait for…later.”