Authors: C. J. Cherryh
Then the whole chamber went red and a blinking white light on the panel said internal contaminant alert.
“Shit,” Ben groaned.
“You got that right.”
“Bad joke, Bird. That stuff got past the filters!”
“Just override. Tell it we’re sorry, we can’t help it.”
Ben was already punching at the button. Ben said, “We don’t need any damn corpse fouling up our air, howsoever long he takes to get that way.—God, Bird, we
own
that ship!”
“Just let’s not worry about it here.” Bird felt the slight movement in his arms.
Hugged the man tight, thinking, Poor sod. Hold on. Hold on awhile. We got you.
You’re all right. He said to Ben, “He’s moving.”
Ben drew an audible breath. “You know, we could put him back in there. Who’s to know?”
“Bad joke, Ben.” The pressure equalized lit up. “Hatch button. Come on, give me a hand, huh? I can’t turn around.”
“We can’t damn well afford this!” Ben said. “We’re into the bank as far as—”
“Ben, for God’s sake, just punch the damn button!”
Ben punched it. The hatch opened, relieved the pressure at Bird’s back, gave him room to turn and haul their rescuee inside. He carefully let the man go and let him drift while he sailed back into the lock and secured the leech into its housing. Then he drifted back through and shut the inside hatch.
Ben was lifting his helmet off—Ben was making a disgusted face and swearing.
Their air quality alarm had the warning siren going and the overhead lights flashing—it was that bad. Ben grabbed their guest by the collar and started peeling him out of his clothes.
Bird got his own helmet off and let it float, stripped off his gloves and helped Ben peel the unconscious man to the skin, trying not to breathe, bunching the coveralls and stimsuit continually as they peeled them off, trying not to let them touch the air.
He hesitated whether to go for a containment bag or shove them in the washer and maybe foul the cleaning fluid for the rest of the trip. The washer was closer. He crammed them in, slippers and all, levered the small door shut and pushed the button. The stench clung to his bare hands. His suit was splotched with yellow and red stains.
He heard a faint voice not Ben’s, protesting incoherently, turned and saw Ben pulling the shower door open, the young man trying to resist Ben’s pulling him around. Ben pushed the man inside and pulled the door to—a knee was in the way and Ben shoved it, while their uninvited passenger, drifting behind clear plastic, slammed a weak fist against the clear plex door.
“Be a little damn careful, Ben.”
Ben pulled the outside seal lever down, flung up the service panel beside the door, pushed the Test Cycle button, holding the shower door shut the while. The shower started. Their guest slammed the door with his fist again, drifted back against the wall as the water hit him.
“What’s the water temp?”
“Whatever you left it.”
“I don’t remember what I left it.—Cut it, Ben, he’s passed out.”
“He’s all right, dammit! We’ve spent enough on this fool, I’m not living with that stink! It’s my money too, Bird, in case you forget! It’s my money right along with yours we spent running after this guy, it’s my money pays for those filters, and that smell makes me sick to my stomach, Bird!”
“All right, all right. Take it easy.”
“It’s all over us!”
“Ben,—shut up. Just shut up. Hear me?”
The air quality siren was still going. It was enough to drive a man crazy. They were having a zero run, hardly anything in the sling. They’d spent nerve-wracking hours getting the ship linked and now Ben had gotten so close to money he could taste it. Ben got a little breath, looked as if control was still coming hard for him, as if he was somewhere between breaking down and breaking something.
Bird shoved over to the lifesupport control panel and cut the siren. The silence after was deafening. Just the shower going and their own hard breathing.
Ben was a hard worker, sometimes too hard. Bird told himself that, told himself Ben was a damned fine partner, and the Belt was lonely and tempers got raw. Two men jammed into a five by three can for months on end had to give each other room—had to, that was all.
Ben said, thin-lipped, but sanely, “Bird, we got to wipe down these suits. We have to get this stink off. It’s going to break down our filters, dammit.”
“It won’t break down our filters,” Bird assured him quietly, but he went and got the case of towel wipes out of the locker. The shower entered its drying cycle. The guy was floating there, eyes shut, maybe resting, maybe unconscious. Bird reached for the door.
Ben held the latch down and pushed the Test Cycle a second time.
“Ben,” Bird protested, “Ben, for God’s sake, the guy’s had enough. Are you trying to drown him?”
“I won’t live with that stink!”
The man—kid, really, he looked younger than Ben was—had drifted against the shower wall and hung there. He was moving again, however feebly—and maybe it was cowardly not to insist Ben listen to reason, but a small ship was nowhere to have a fight start, over what was likely doing the kid no harm, and maybe some good. You could breathe the mist, you could drink the detergent straight and not suffer from it. Dehydrated as he was, he could do with a little clean water; and cold as he’d been, maybe it was a fast way to warm him through.
So he said, “All right, all right, Ben,” and opened the box of disinfectant towels, wiped his hands and chest and arms and worked down.
“I can still smell it,” Ben said in a shaky voice, wiping his own suit off. “Even after you scrub it I can still smell it.”
“That’s just the disinfectant.”
“Hell if it is.”
Ben was not doing well, Bird thought. He had insisted Ben go over there with him and maybe that had been a mistake: Ben wasn’t far into his twenties himself; and Ben might never have been in a truly lonely, scary situation in his whole stationbound life.
Ben had spooked himself about this business for days, with all this talk about hijackers.
On the other hand maybe an old dirtsider from Earth and a Belter brat four years out of school weren’t ever going to understand each other on all levels.
They shed the suits. They’d used up three quarters of their supply of wipes. “Just as well our guy stays in the shower,” Bird said, now that he thought calmly about it,
“until we have something to put him in. His clothes’ll be dry in a bit.” He cycled the shower again himself, stowed his suit and floated over to the dryer as it finished its cycle. The clothes were a little damp about the seams, and smelled of disinfectant: the dryer’s humidity sensor needed replacing, among a dozen other things at the bottom of his roundtoit list. He read the stenciled tag on the coveralls. “Our guy’s got a name. Tag says Dekker. P.”
“That’s fine. So he’s got a name. What happened to his partner, that’s what I want to know.”
Maybe that was after all what was bothering Ben—too many stories about Nouri and the hijackers.
“He wasn’t doing so well himself, was he?” Dekker, P was drifting in the shower compartment, occasionally moving, not much. Bird opened the door, without interference from Ben this time, and said, quietly, before he took the man’s arm:
“Dekker, my name’s Bird, Morrie Bird. My partner’s Ben. You’re all right. We’re going to get you dressed now. Don’t want you to chill.”
Dekker half opened his eyes, maybe at the cold air, maybe at the voice. He jerked his arm when Bird pulled him toward the outside. “Cory?” he asked. And in panic, bracing a knee and a hand against the shower door rim: “Cory?”
“Watch him!” Ben cried; but it was Ben who caught a loose backhand in the face.
Dekker jabbed with his elbow on the recoil, made a move to shove past them, but he had nothing left, neither leverage nor strength. Bird blocked his escape and threw an arm around him, after which Dekker seemed to gray out, all but limp, saying,
“Cory…”
“Must be the partner,” Bird said.
“God only. I want a shower, Bird.” Ben snatched the half-dry coveralls from him and grabbed Dekker’s arm. “Hell with the stimsuit, let’s just wrap this guy up before he bashes a panel or something.”
“Just hold on to him,” Bird said. Bird caught the stimsuit that was drifting nearby, shook the elastic out, got the legs and sleeves untangled and got hold of Dekker’s arm. “Left leg, come on, son. Clean clothes. Come on, give us some help here. Left leg.”
Dekker tried to help, then, much as a man could who kept passing out on them.
His skin had been heated from the shower. It was rapidly cooling in the cabin air and Ben was right: it was hard enough to get a stimsuit on oneself, nearly impossible to put one on a fainting man. He was chilling too fast. They gave that up. By the time they got him into the coveralls and zipped him up he was moving only feebly, half-conscious.
“Not doing real well, is he?” Ben said. “Damn waste of effort. The guy’s going to sign off—”
“He’s all right,” Bird said, “God, Ben, mind your mouth.”
“I just want my bath. Let’s just get this guy to bed, all right? We get a shower, we call Mama and tell her we got ourselves a ship!”
“Shut up about the ship, Ben.”
A long, careful breath. “Look, I’m tired, you’re tired, let’s just forget it til we get squared away, all right?”
“All right.” Bird shoved off in a temper of his own, drifted toward the spinner cylinders overhead, taking Dekker with him—carefully turned and caught a hold, pulling Dekker toward the open end. “Come on, son, we’re putting you to bed, easy does it.”
Dekker said, “Cory,—”
“Cory’s your partner?”
Dekker’s eyes opened, hazed and vague. Dekker grabbed the spinner rim, shaking his head, refusing to be put inside.
“Dekker? What happened to you, son?”
“Cory,—” Dekker said, and shoved. “I don’t want to.
No
!”
Ben sailed up, grabbed Dekker’s collar on the way and carried him half into the cylinder, Dekker fighting and kicking. Bird rolled and pushed off, got Dekker by a leg, Dekker screaming for Cory all the while and fighting them.
“Hold on to him!” Ben said, and Bird did that, holding Dekker from behind until Ben could unhook a safety tether from the bulkhead, held on while Ben sailed back to grab Dekker’s arm and tie it to a pipe.
“Damn crazy,” Ben said, panting. “Just keep him there. I’ll get another line.”
“That’s rough, Ben.”
“Rougher on all of us if this fool hits the panels. Just hold him, dammit!”
Ben somersaulted off to the supply lockers, while Bird caught his breath and kept Dekker’s free arm pinned, patting his shoulder, saying, “It’s all right, son, it’s all right, we’re trying to get you home. My name’s Bird. That’s Ben. What do you go by?”
Several shallow breaths. Struggles turned to shivers. “Dek.”
“That’s good.” He patted Dekker’s shoulder. Dekker’s eyes were open but Bird was far from sure Dekker knew where he was or what had happened to him. “Just hold on, son.” A locker door banged, forward. Ben came sailing up with a roll of tape.
“I’m not sure we need that,” Bird said. “Guy’s just a little spooked.”
Ben ignored him, grabbed Dekker’s other arm and began wrapping it to the pipe.
“Guy’s totally off his head.” Dekker tried to kick him, Dekker kept saying, “My partner—where’s my partner?”
“Afraid there was an accident,” Bird said, holding Dekker’s shoulder. “Suit’s gone. We looked. There wasn’t anybody else on that ship.”
“No!”
“You remember what happened?”
Dekker shook his head, teeth chattering. “Cory.”
“Was Cory your partner?”
“Cory!”
“Shit,” Ben said, and shook Dekker, slapped his face gently. “Your partner’s dead, man. The suit was gone. You got picked up, my partner and I picked you up.
Hear?”
It did no good. Dekker kept mumbling about Cory, and Ben said, “I’m going down after a shower. Or you can.”
“I’m scared we left somebody in that ship.”
“You didn’t leave anybody in that ship, dammit, Bird, we’re not opening that lock again!”
“I’m not that sure.”
“You looked, Bird, you
looked
. If there was a Cory he’s gone, that’s all. Suit and all. We’ve done all we can for this guy. We’ve spent days on this guy. We’ve spent our fuel on this guy, we’ve risked our necks for this guy—”
“His name’s Dekker.”
“His name’s Dekker or Cory or Buddha for all I care. He’s out of his head, we got nowhere safe to put him, we don’t know what happened to his partner, we don’t know why Mama doesn’t know him, and that worries me, Bird, it seriously does!”
It made sense. Everything Ben was saying made sense. The other suit was gone.
They had searched the lockers and the spinners. There were no hiding places left.
But nothing about this affair was making sense.
“Hear me?” Ben asked.
“All right, all right,” Bird said, “just go get your shower and let’s get our numbers comped. We have to call in. Have to. Regulations. We got to do this all by the book.”
“Don’t you feel sorry for him. You hear me, Bird? Don’t you even think about going back into that ship.”
“I won’t. I don’t. It’s all right.”
Ben looked at him distressedly, then rolled and kicked off for the shower.
Bird floated down to the galley beside it, opened the fridge and got a packet of Citrisal, lime, lemon, what the hell, it was all ghastly awful, but it had the trace elements and salts and simple sugars.
It was the best he knew to do for the man. He drifted over to Dekker, extracted the tube and held it to Dekker’s lips.
“Come on. Drink up. It’s the green stuff.”
Dekker took a sip, made a face, ducked his head aside.
“Come on. Another.”
Dekker shook his head.
Couldn’t blame him for that, Bird thought. And you damn sure didn’t want anybody sick at his stomach in null-g. He tested whether the cord and the tape were too tight, decided Dekker was all right for a while. “Well let you loose when your head clears. You’re all right. Hear me? We’re going to get you back to Base. Get you to the meds. Hear me?”
Dekker nodded slightly, eyes shut.