Her Daughter's Dream (26 page)

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“You have mail.” Mom came into Dawn’s room and handed her two envelopes. Dawn set Jane Austen’s
Pride and Prejudice
aside and tore open the large envelope first. Members of the CCC youth group had sent a condolence card with wishes she would return to meetings soon. Even Pastor Daniel had signed it. The second envelope held a note from Jason Steward.

Dear Dawn,

Kim told me about your great-grandmother passing on. I’m sorry for your family’s loss and hope you take comfort in the Lord Jesus. I hope to see you when school starts again. If you’d like to talk, I’d listen.

Sincerely yours,

Jason Steward

She spent the rest of the afternoon obsessing about Jason’s note. Did he want her to call? Was he inviting her into a relationship? If so, what sort? friendship only or something more?

It took all night and most of the next day to gather enough courage to look up his telephone number. Her heart pounded in her ears as she pushed the numbers. Losing her nerve, she hung up after two rings. She picked up her portable phone half a dozen times before she finally had the nerve to try again.

A woman answered. Stammering, Dawn asked if she could please speak to Jason Steward. The woman’s voice became cold. “Who’s calling?”

“Dawn Arundel.”

“Just a moment.” Dawn could hear muffled voices. Time stretched and with it Dawn’s nerves. Had she made a mistake calling Jason? Maybe he’d sent the note only to be polite.

“Dawn?” His voice made her pulse skyrocket. She hadn’t talked to him in weeks.

“Hi.” She winced at the high-pitched tension she heard in that one word. She let out her breath and tried to calm down. “I just called to thank you for your note.” When he didn’t say anything, she wondered if they’d been cut off. “Jason?”

“I’m here. Hang on a second.” Again, the muffled receiver, the indistinct voices. Then he came back on. “How are you doing?”

“So-so, I guess. Better than my mother. Oma’s death has hit her hard. They were extremely close.”

“Was it expected? Her death, I mean. Your grandmother’s. I mean your great-grandmother.” He let out a tense breath.

He sounded more nervous than she was. That pleased her, for some odd reason. “She was in her nineties. It wasn’t exactly unexpected.”

“Oh. Yeah. Dumb question.”

“I didn’t mean that. My mom and I spent a week with Oma this summer. She was really, really cool.” Dawn rolled her eyes, thinking she sounded really, really dumb.

Jason’s mother said something. He told Dawn to hang on a second again.

“Dawn?”

“Yes?”

“I have to go. I have something I have to do before I go to work tonight.”

“Okay.” Dawn felt heat flood her entire body. “Bye.” She clicked the phone off and tossed it on the bed. She shouldn’t have called. How would she face him when school started?

Kim called later that evening. “Did Jason call you?”

“No,” Dawn drawled cautiously. “Why would he?”

“Well, I don’t know, but he called me an hour ago and asked for your number.”

“He did?”

Kim giggled. “Dad thought Jason wanted to ask me out. I didn’t dare tell him he wanted your number.”

“I guess your dad doesn’t like me very much.”

“Oh, it’s not that,” Kim said quickly. “It’s just that Jason is exactly the sort of guy my father wants me to marry. Are you coming back to youth group? Jason said he had Wednesday night off this week.”

When Jason didn’t show up, Kim shrugged. “I guess he had something else he had to do.”

* * *

Dawn took special care getting ready for the first day of school. She wanted to catch Jason’s attention and make a lasting impression. When she came out for breakfast, Mitch leaned back in his chair and gave her a wry grin. “Who’s your prey?”

She blushed. Angry, she pulled her chair out and sat down. “I don’t know what you mean.”

“Ah, Pita. I see trouble ahead.” Mitch tossed his napkin on the table and stood. He kissed Mom on the cheek. “I’ll buy a shotgun on the way home.” Laughing, he headed out of the kitchen.

Mom raised her brows at Dawn.

Dawn stared back at her. “What?” She had chosen jeans that fit her like a second skin and a pink scoop-neck T-shirt that showed off her tan. She’d left her hair down and put on touches of eye shadow and glossy pink lipstick. It wasn’t that big a deal, was it?

“You look very nice. That’s all I was going to say.”

As the bus turned off Prince Street into the school driveway, Dawn caught a glimpse of Jason in the student parking lot with Tom Barrett and Kim Archer. Slinging her backpack over her shoulder, Dawn got off the bus.

“Dawn! Wait up!” Kim caught up with her. Jason held back with Tom, talking while looking at Dawn. Did he like how she looked? His expression showed nothing. He didn’t even wave at her. “He bought a car!”

Dawn pulled her gaze from Jason. “Who?”

“Jason! Who else? He gave me and Tom a ride to school.” She kept talking as they went inside together to their lockers. Dawn wished she lived in Windsor instead of Alexander Valley. Then, maybe, he would offer her a ride.

Jason and Tom came in the door after them. She stood with her back to them as she opened her locker. Every nerve quivered when Jason came closer. “Hi, Dawn.” He spoke quietly. She gave a quick glance over her shoulder without meeting his eyes and gave what she hoped was an equally nonchalant greeting.

After that, she didn’t see Jason until the lunch hour. He was with Kim and Tom again, sitting at a table in the cafeteria. Matt Cavanaugh came over and blocked her view. “I don’t think I’ve seen you around school. My name’s Matt. And you’re . . . ?” He left the question hanging.

“Dawn Arundel. I was here last year.”

He grinned at her. “How did I miss you?”

“Maybe you were too busy getting dents in your football helmet.”

He laughed easily. “Where are you sitting for lunch?”

She peered around and saw the seats at Jason’s table had already filled up. Sharon glanced toward her in question. “Outside, I guess.” She headed for the door, not expecting Matt to follow.

He got to the door ahead of her and opened it. “You can sit with me in the senior court.”

Joe Hernandez and two other seniors joined them. They flirted outrageously, each trying to outdo the other, which gave her a feeling of power and made her laugh. She finished her lunch quickly and excused herself, going back inside the cafeteria. Sharon, Steven Dial, Pam Preston, Linda Doile, and Amy King still sat at the table. Kim, Tom, and Jason had left.

“Where have you been?” Sharon asked.

“Sitting with Matt in the senior court.”

“If you’re looking for Jason, he and Kim and Tom went to do a Bible study in one of the courts. I’m not sure which one.”

Dawn spotted Jason in the hallway as she headed for her Spanish class. He barely looked at her as he passed by.

The next few days were no different, other than she managed to avoid Matt and his friends. Jason hung out with Tom and Steven Dial, and sometimes Kim. He made no effort to single Dawn out or even speak to her. When she sat down, he got up and left the lunch table. She wasn’t the only one who noticed.

“What’s with you and Jason?” Sharon kept pace on the way to class. Dawn had just spent another miserable lunch hour of wondering why Jason seemed so determined to avoid her.

She shrugged off Sharon’s question. “I’ve got to get my books.”

Spanish passed slowly, Dawn struggling to concentrate on conjugating verbs. She kept glancing at the clock. She wouldn’t see Jason until tomorrow, and he’d probably ignore her again. When the bell rang, she headed for biology and then realized she’d forgotten her textbook. She hurried to her locker and grabbed the book she needed. Turning, she bumped into Jason. Her heart jumped and she stepped back, embarrassed. “Sorry. I didn’t see you.”

“My fault. Can we talk?”

Now he wanted to talk? After almost a month of acting as though she didn’t even exist? “I’m going to be late.” She stepped around him, but he moved to block her.

“I tried calling you.”

“When?”

“This summer. After you called me.”

“Thanks for reminding me.”

“Once I stayed on the line long enough to hear your voice on the answering machine. I didn’t leave a message.”

She looked at him. “Why not?”

“I chickened out.” A muscle tensed in his jaw.

“Your note said if I wanted to talk, you’d listen. I guess I know now that was bull.” She stepped around him and raced to class, slipping into the room just as the bell rang.

She didn’t expect to see Jason waiting for her when she came out.

“Would you like to go for a soda after school? We could talk then. I have a car. I could drive you home.”

After so many weeks of nothing from him, she couldn’t quite take in his sudden warmth. False hope and wrong conclusions would just add to the hurt. “I know you have a car. Kim told me you’ve been picking her up every day.”

His eyes flickered, and then he smiled, looking relieved. “I’ve been picking up Tom Barrett, too. But she and Tom decided to ride the bus together instead. It takes longer to get home.”

She blinked, not sure what he meant. “Are you saying they like each other?”

“Yeah. Is that so surprising? Tom’s a great guy.”

“I know he is, but Kim is Pastor Daniel’s daughter, and Tom is barely a Christian.”

“The three of us have been doing a Bible study every lunch hour. Tom is talking to Pastor Daniel about getting baptized.”

A Bible study every lunch hour? Was that why Jason had been leaving the table? Maybe his departure had nothing to do with her.

The warning bell rang. Jason took her books. “I’ll walk you to class.”

Bemused, she fell into step beside him. “You don’t know where I’m going.”

“You’re going to algebra, which is just down the hall from my trigonometry class.” He saw her to the door. “Do you want to go have a Coke after school?”

“Yes.”

His eyes warmed. “Wait for me after class. We’ll get your stuff and go.” He headed back in the other direction.

Dawn couldn’t wait for class to end. Every minute felt like torture. When the bell finally rang, she slapped her book closed, gathered her things, and headed for the door. A few minutes later, she spotted Jason weaving his way through the throng of students. When he smiled at her, Dawn went hot all over.

“How was algebra?”

“Agony.”

On the way to student parking, Dawn spotted Kim and Tom walking hand in hand. “How did I miss that?”

Jason laughed as he opened the car door for Dawn. “I guess you had other things on your mind.”

Jason. That’s what she had on her mind. Every day, all day, and nighttime, too. She slid into the white Honda, admiring the pristine, beige interior. Jason tossed his backpack into the trunk and slid into the driver’s seat. She smiled. “It’s so neat and clean.”

“I bought it from a lady in the trailer park. She’s in her eighties and can’t drive anymore.” He started the engine. “She only put seven thousand miles on it and had records on oil changes and services.” He put his arm on the seat behind her, backed out of the parking space, and pulled into line behind others waiting to exit the cyclone-fenced lot. “My mother is less than happy about it.”

“Why?”

“I dipped into my college savings.” He pulled out onto Prince Street. “She was pretty ticked off. But I’m still working five to nine as a bagger five days a week. It’s good pay.”

“What about a Doyle Scholarship and Santa Rosa Junior College? That would give you two extra years to save.” She didn’t want to think about him leaving the area in less than a year.

“My mother has her heart set on me going to the University of California.”

“Which UC campus? Berkeley? Davis?” Both were close enough that Jason could come home on weekends.

“Berkeley. The hotbed of radicals.” He pulled into McDonald’s and asked if she wanted something to eat. She was hungry, but said no. She didn’t want him spending what little money he had buying her junk food. He bought two sodas and a large order of French fries.

Jason drove to Memorial Beach. They walked across the grass and sat on the beach above the Russian River. He insisted she share the fries. They talked about their classes and teachers’ expectations. He asked about her summer, and she talked about Oma.

“You’re blessed.” He looked at the river, expression wistful. “I’ve never met my grandparents.”

“Do they live far away?”

He wadded up his empty bag and pitched it into a garbage can. “San Diego.” He rested his forearms on his raised knees. “They don’t speak to my mother.”

“Why not?”

Jason turned his head and looked at her solemnly. “She had me.” When her mouth fell open in surprise, he stood abruptly and walked down to the water’s edge. Dawn got up, dusted off her jeans, and followed him. Jason shoved his hands in his pockets. “I thought you ought to know.”

Dawn moved closer, her hand brushing his arm. “My mother came home from Haight-Ashbury and found out a month later she’d brought an unexpected package with her. Arundel is Mom’s maiden name.”

Jason stared at her. “I wouldn’t have guessed.”

“It’s not something to advertise, is it? Have you met your father?”

“Once, when I was five or six. We ran into him at a park. He kept staring at me, and I asked why. Mom told me he was my father. I ran over to him and asked. His friends laughed.” He gave a bleak laugh. “He told me to get lost. We moved a few weeks later. I haven’t heard of or seen him since.” He tilted his head. “What about you?”

She shook her head. “I have no idea who my father is.”

“Have you asked?”

“Once or twice. My mother won’t tell me anything.”

“Maybe the memories are too painful.”

“Or she doesn’t know who he is.”

He winced. “Ouch.”

“Well, she was a hippy. Free love and all that. . . .” She lifted her shoulders. She wondered why she was telling Jason. It wasn’t something she’d ever wanted to discuss with anyone.