Her Only Desire (9 page)

Boone’s stomach roiled. They’d been here before. Waiting for a deal that wasn’t going to happen because the kidnappers wanted to make a big splash, reinforcing a brutal reputation for the lengths they would go to ensure the biggest payoffs.

And this cartel was particularly frightening. Composed of ex–Mexican Army commandoes, they had skills only his own men could rival.

Yes, he’d been here before. Images of headless bodies left in front of a mosque in Afghanistan made his body tight.

“It’s not Kabul, Boone.”

“These bastards are studying terrorists’ playbooks. It could happen. You see what they do to their own people when they cross them. We need to find these guys. If there is someone on the inside helping them, it’s our fault for not finding the link. I want more assets on this.”

“How long are we staying here?”

Boone raked a hand through his hair. “Alejandro’s perfectly capable of running this op.”

Serge gave him a one-sided smile. “Hard being the big kahuna. But you have to be willing to let go of the details. Maybe now wasn’t the best time to return to the ole hometown. It’s—”

“Distracting. I know.”

“So’s she.” Serge arched a dark brow. “Enjoy your dessert?”

“Didn’t touch mine.”

“Wasn’t talking about the flan.”

Boone grunted, annoyed his friend had witnessed so much.

“She’s not into the scene. You sure you want to lead her there?”

Boone aimed a deadly glare at his friend. “I could just tell you to mind your own damn business.”

“I have your back. Always will.” Serge shook his head. “But she’s not part of your revenge. You drag her through it, she might get hurt. You like to think you’re always on target. That you don’t feel. But she’s getting to you.”

The memory of Tilly, opening her mouth so obediently, flashed through his mind. Turning her reluctance to eager enjoyment had given him an erotic thrill he hadn’t experienced in a long, long time. He could still feel the moist pressure of her lips closing around his fingers. “Maybe it’s time I let someone get to me.”

Serge glanced back at the monitor. “Thinking about settling down?”

Boone grunted again. “Fuck, I don’t know. But when I look at her, I don’t see Celeste. Her murder has haunted me for so long, you’d think that’s all I’d be thinking about when I look at Tilly. Instead, I’m racking my brain for ways to seduce her. To please her.”

Serge chuckled. “If you want, I’ll butt out.”

“No, I need you to be my conscience. Sometimes, when I want something, I don’t know when to stop.”

Serge’s expression sharpened, and he held up his finger to alert Boone that he was receiving news. He tapped his Bluetooth. “No wire. A physical drop?”

His gaze went to Boone, who shook his head. Too many things could go wrong, but then again, they might find a way to tag the cash and follow it back to the enemy. Up to this point, the kidnappers had shown remarkable sophistication. They were due to make a mistake. “No more than a quarter of the total payout,” he said.

Serge relayed their agreement to Alejandro, who was manning the burn phone from the Tex-Oil building. When he removed the phone from his ear, he raised a brow. “Don’t guess anyone’s getting any sleep tonight. The drop’s happening at three a.m.”

“Peterson Group has the cash?”

“Alejandro had them primed for the possibility. He figured since we changed the amount, the Omegas were obligated to make the delivery harder for us.” Serge pushed up from the desk. “I’m heading over there. How ’bout you?”

Boone nodded. “I won’t sleep anyway.” Another kind of excitement stirred in his blood. Adrenaline. Something he’d gotten addicted to from his years in the service, something he desperately missed after he’d concentrated on the managerial aspects of his business. “Radio Bear to ready three cars.”

They never left the compound without ensuring necessary firepower. But it was also designed to confuse anyone watching as to which vehicle he might be inside.

Serge slipped the phone over his ear and relayed the message, then called for a replacement to monitor the cameras at the house. Tilly and his staff would remain safe within these walls while they were gone. Then they left the house through the garage door.

Bear met them at the cars. Not only was he Boone’s personal pilot, he was also his preferred driver, having undergone extensive training in defensive driving tactics. Bear had earned his nickname due to his burly, rugged appearance. Although Boone had offered him positions with more authority, even his own region to manage, Bear refused, preferring to “keep it personal.”

Boone rewarded his loyalty with a generous salary and certain perks, including his own membership at The Platform.

Bear took the Glock from his holster and handed it to Boone.

Boone made a quick inspection of the half-dozen men who’d be accompanying them on their run to the Tex-Oil offices. All were dressed in black military cargo pants, long-sleeved uniform shirts, and Kevlar vests. Each man carried a military assault weapon—AK-47 or M4.

Boone lifted the back hatch of the Esplanade and reached inside for a vest, and then gave the signal to roll out. The men loaded into the vehicles, with Boone seated beside Bear in the front. When Boone became part of a mission, he no longer wanted to be the one protected. Like his brothers in action, he was just another soldier prepared to enter the fray to save a few of his own.

The next morning, Tilly bathed and dressed, making use of the cosmetics and toiletries that somehow reflected the exact items she used at home, down to her brand of perfume. The thought of some burly ex-military buddy of Boone’s pawing through her bathroom to make a list of her needs was unsettling.

Remembering the fact her every move might be watched, she wrapped a towel around her body before heading to the closet. Her own blue sundress hung there, newly washed and pressed. Her fingers fanned the silky confections in a rainbow of colors beside it, but since she was suffering a major case of morning-after regrets, she firmly pushed them down the rack and donned her simple blue dress.

Tilly was determined to keep her feet firmly on the ground. No matter how hard Boone worked to turn her head, she’d resist. His way led to heartache, and she’d had enough sorrow in her life.

At least that’s what she told herself as she followed her growling stomach to the kitchen. The house was dead silent. She poked her head into the living room, but found no Boone or Beatrice lurking inside, so she skimmed through to the kitchen, grateful for a little alone time to settle her jumbled emotions and shore up her determination to keep Boone at a distance.

Fixing herself a breakfast of leftover tortillas, which she nuked in the microwave, and slices of avocado, lightly salted, she poured fresh orange juice and took her plate outside to the patio.

With sunlight only starting to creep over the edge of the walled patio, the heat was pleasant rather than oppressive, the air filled with the fragrance of roses. She gobbled up her simple tacos and rested on a chaise, enjoying the sight of the mountains. Especially without the distraction of Boone or any of his minions to interrupt.

She hadn’t rested long when in the distance she heard the roar of engines. She closed her eyes, deciding to ignore the sounds. But tires bit gravel, engines revved. Curiosity got the better of her, and she swung her legs to the ground. Letting herself out the garden gate, she circled the house to the garage.

The doors were open. Three black vehicles, likely the same that had comprised the caravan from the airport, were parked inside. Large men dressed in black and bearing a frightening array of weaponry spilled from the doors.

She held back, hiding behind the corner of the building to watch, fascinated to find Boone among them. He was every bit as built as the soldiers around him, every bit as fierce. And apparently vulnerable, since he needed the extra protection. The thought of him facing dangers that required this much firepower and security made her a little weak at the knees. At the same time as she feared for him, arousal stirred. Odd, but the thought he could hold his own among men like these turned her on. As did his expression. His features were set in hard, determined lines. Velcro scratched as he opened his armored vest and dropped it into the back of the vehicle.

One of the men spun on his heel, raised his weapon, and pointed it in her direction. The rest reacted, crouching, rifles and handguns rising.

Her breath stilling, Tilly raised her hands and waved them as she stepped around the corner. “Sorry to alarm you.”

Boone’s expression didn’t change.

Was he irritated to find her spying? She walked toward the group as weapons lowered. Where she found the courage to approach such a well-armed assembly of men, she didn’t know. But she refused to betray the fact butterflies flitted in her belly and her pulse thudded hard in her ears.

“Looks like you’ve been busy,” she said as she drew closer.

Eyes narrowing, Boone didn’t crack a smile. His arms crossed his chest. “I should have laid down some more ground rules. Wandering outside alone isn’t safe.”

“There wasn’t anyone around. I took advantage of it.” She pressed her lips together and dropped her gaze to her toes, heat filling her cheeks.

Boone’s breath eased out in slow exhale. “We were longer than I expected.”

She peeked up from beneath her lashes. “I had no idea you were so hands-on with the operations.”

One corner of his firm mouth twitched.

A flush at her word choice heated her cheeks. “It was the ‘hands-on’ part, right?” she whispered.

He didn’t answer, instead sweeping her body with a hard gaze. “You’re not happy with the clothing I provided?”

“Oh, I love it, but I haven’t earned it,” she said, frowning at her deplorable choice of words.

He grunted. “Seeing as you’re ready, we’ll leave now.”

“Going home?” she asked, raising her head.

Ice-chip eyes narrowed. “Disappointed we’re leaving so soon?”

Tilly tipped up her chin. “Not at all. I’m not used to lazing poolside. I’d just as soon get started at the new job.”

Boone opened the door to the backseat of the Esplanade, indicating with a sweep of his hand that she should slide inside.

“My purse?”

Serge tapped his Bluetooth and asked Marta to retrieve her purse from her room.

She stared at Serge. “When do I get one of those?”

“Do you really want to be wired in,” Boone murmured, shockingly close to her ear, “at my beck and call?”

Tilly wrinkled her nose. “Guess I can wait.” She slid into the backseat, surprised when he slid in beside her.

He shut the door. “Serge will ride in the lead vehicle.”

As the remaining doors slammed, she shook her head. “This must be like driving in a presidential motorcade.”

“It’s necessary,” Boone said, patting her knee. “My profile was raised when my team rescued a diplomat’s daughter last year. The cartel would love nothing better than to get their hands on me or one of my men, just to prove I’m not invulnerable.”

Her stomach knotted. “So there’s a good reason, other than being a control freak, why you didn’t like me wandering around alone.”

His gaze held steady. “I promised to keep you safe.”

She studied his face, the deeper lines bracketing his mouth, the redness of his eyes. “Did you get any sleep at all last night?”

He shook his head.

“You push yourself as hard as your staff.”

“I won’t ask them to do anything I’m not willing to do.” A shoulder lifted and dropped. “They respect me. For all that display you witnessed, the night was pretty boring—hovering near a cell phone while we waited for instructions on where to drop the first payment.”

“Isn’t that dangerous? This business of dealing with kidnappers and extortion drops?”

He shrugged like it was ordinary. “One man on a motorcycle dropped a satchel in a park. We had him covered, and then pulled back, as per instructions. Nothing exciting. No one hurt.”

When she opened her mouth to ask another question, he pressed a finger over her mouth. “No, I won’t tell you any more. Details are revealed on a need-to-know basis. You don’t need to know.”

Tilly sighed and sat back. “This is definitely more exciting than I’d anticipated,” she muttered, jumping when his hand closed around hers.

She swung her head toward him, but his eyes were closed, his head resting against the seat. Definitely more exciting.

* * *

They set down on the lawn at Maison Plaisir in the late afternoon. Neither Serge nor Boone had rested, but their grimly set faces didn’t betray their exhaustion.

On the other hand, Tilly was drooping.

Boone took her hand as they strode toward the gate, something she didn’t think she’d ever get used to but didn’t bother to fight. Any workers watching their arrival would know something had changed between them.

The thought made her a little uneasy, but she shoved it aside. She liked the feel of his hand around hers. Liked the fact he seemed to do it naturally. Her morning resolution to keep her feet firmly planted had evaporated the moment she’d spied him in Kevlar and toting a weapon.

Never would she have guessed that some super-alpha macho man would excite her, but she couldn’t fight the warm glowy feeling that always overtook her in his presence. As they approached the house, she drew a deep breath and tugged her hand away. “I’ll need a ride home.”

“You are home.”

Her step faltered. “Then they moved my things?” At his nod, she gave him a smile. “I’m not sure where the foreman’s cottage is.”

“About that…” His head bent toward hers. “I made some changes.”

At the narrowing of his eyes, she knew he had changed the arrangement they’d made. She frowned, a show of defiance, and braced herself for what was coming.

“You’ll be staying in the main house.”

What?
She drew a sharp breath. “No, I won’t.”

“We’ve reached an understanding.”

“No, we haven’t.” She shook her head. “You’ve made pronouncements and bullied your way around me, but I’m not moving in with you.”

“You’ll have your own rooms.”

“Where? Across the hall from yours?” At the arch of his brow, she fumed. “This is moving way too fast. You’re taking for granted that I’m willing to fall in line. I’m not some soldier taking orders. The cottage was already too much, but I agreed, and you know why I did. But moving into your house, especially considering the type of entertaining you’ll be doing—” She waved a finger in the air between them. “Not happening.”

“Think of this arrangement as temporary.”

Exactly as she’d thought. She jerked up her chin. “And that makes it better? This lasts for as long as you remain interested in me?”

As he leaned closer, his brows furrowed. “The arrangement lasts for as long as it takes to convince you to move into my rooms.”

Her eyes widened, and she glanced around to see who else might have heard his bold pronouncement.

Serge was looking elsewhere, no doubt
pretending
he was speaking into his Bluetooth.

Tilly stepped close and dropped her voice to an angry whisper. “You don’t have any respect for me or my reputation. Working for you is bad enough. Most of my friends won’t understand that choice, but to live under the same roof?”

His back stiffened. “Because I’m a murderer?”

She huffed. “Don’t be ridiculous—because you’re a man and I’m not married to you.”

His eyebrows shot up. “You’d rather we were married?”

“No!” Her eyes bugged and her hands jammed on her hips. “I’d rather you treated me like your employee, not your mistress,” she hissed.

“That’s an old-fashioned word.”

She rolled her eyes. “Seems appropriate given the arrangements you’ve likely already made. When did you decide this?”

“After our dinner.”

“Because I let you kiss me? You’re unbelievably arrogant.”

Boone’s cheeks billowed around a gusting huff. “You’d really rather live in the cottage when you could have the cook prepare your meals, maids clean your rooms—”

She balled her fists, glaring upward. “I want some privacy,” she said, enunciating every word. “Someplace you’re
not
when I need to breathe.”

“I smother you?” he said more quietly, his forehead wrinkled.

“Yes. No. You’re just a little…overwhelming.”

Boone stepped closer. His hands lifted to clasp her upper arms; his thumbs rubbed her bare skin. “The cottage is ready. Your things are there. If you’d agreed, I’d have had them moved during dinner.”

“You didn’t think I’d agree?” she asked, irritated he’d been toying with her.

“I’d have been a little disappointed if you’d fallen right in line.” He crooked a finger and tucked it under her chin, lifting it. “I don’t want a soldier taking orders,” he said, his gaze boring into hers. “I want you choosing me. Trusting me enough to place your well-being in my hands.”

His words took her breath away. He wanted her willing submission, and for the first time, she had an inkling what that might mean. She was helplessly intrigued. “This…thing you want me to learn to be…Will I have no choices beyond accepting your…dominion?”

“Baby, I don’t want some Stepford wife in my life. Our relationship would be equal. We both have choices, both have things to learn about each other. Me learning how to please you, you learning what I need.”

She bit her lip. “I won’t say yes—no matter how much I want to. I won’t move in with you.”

“Will you let me try to convince you?”

As she studied his face, she narrowed her eyes and pursed her lips. “And if I do?”

He came closer, his head dipped, his breath brushed her ear. “From that moment, don’t expect me to
ask
you for something ever again. It’s not how it works. Just know, you do have choices even if they aren’t spoken. You can tell me no. You can decide to take a step back.”

Liking the sound of that more than she was willing to admit, she shivered. If she were asked to do every little sexy thing he might want, she’d feel obliged, for pride’s sake, to object. This way, she imagined she could follow his lead without any embarrassing drama. Simply living in the moment. Inside, she felt a fluttering of happiness. A raw surge of quietly blossoming need. How had he known she needed that when she never would have imagined she’d respond this way? She dropped her head, not wanting to meet his gaze as he pulled away.

“What’s your answer, Tilly?” he whispered. “Will you let me seduce you?”

The low rumbling tenor of his voice was like a caress. She moaned. “So not fair. You’re standing too close. I can’t breathe without taking you in.” She licked her lips.

His mouth curved, and he bent deeper, taking a kiss, his mouth scooping at her lips.

She leaned into him, her breasts flattening against his hard chest. The finger under her chin moved to stroke her cheek. A hand fit into the arch of her back, giving the barest pressure, but she rubbed against his front, feeling the swell of his sex, her knees weakening. As she sagged, that hand pressed harder, holding her upright and mashing her against his front.

He ended the kiss with a crooked smile. “Can I take that as a yes?”

Because she didn’t trust her voice, she nodded.

Boone’s smile became harder. His eyes glinted with satisfaction.

Her throat tightened. Lord, what precisely had she agreed to?

“Serge will take you to the cottage. Rest. I’ll see you in the morning.”

When he released her and stepped back, she found herself swaying.