Authors: Phil Redmond
âYou here because of that?' Joey asked as he nodded over to where the police and paramedic vehicles were congregating.
She nodded. Then the smile faded. âYoung lad.'
âDruggie?' He was close enough to feel the warmth of her breath.
âWe don't know yet. Probably.'
âSounds a bit matter-of-fact, Hilary. Common event, is it?'
âBetter to say not uncommon.'
âOh yeah?'
âYeah. Like fights in the Lion.'
Joey let out a sigh. âBit below your pay grade, isn't it?'
She nodded. âBut spotting patterns isn't.'
âLike?'
âLike, we're getting too many of these tragedies.' She nodded over to the congregated vehicles where a forensic tent was being set up and the area cordoned off. âAnd like,' she continued, but turned to face him. Close enough to indicate that she felt safe with Joey. Close enough to betray a past intimacy.
â⦠you seeing more of Luke Carlton. Like Matt O'Connor being home at the same time. Bit like the old gang. Fighting at the weekends. And then I see you and McBain in a huddle?'
Joey didn't respond. He just stared at her and waited. But she was giving nothing back.
Eventually he smiled. âYou used to do that as head girl, you know.'
âDo what?'
âWiden those big hazel eyes. Pretending you knew more than you did, until someone told you what you needed to know.'
She turned away, slightly embarrassed but amused by his recollection of their past. But the professionalism returned quickly. âAnd is there anything I need to know?'
âYou asking officially, or as a friend?'
âCan I say, both?'
Joey nodded. Then, âBut there isn't much to know.' He turned away and looked at the now emptying car park as the last of the frozen footballers were being rescued. âYou probably know that Luke has been brilliant at holding me together after what happened to Janey.'
âI do, and I don't know how often I can say it, but we are still trying to find â¦'
Joey waved it away. âHe's also been good at making me accept the shit happens thing. Christ, some of the things he's told me. Or, like that.' He nodded across to the now officially designated crime scene. âBut, that fight. It started in the Co-op car park where some, some ⦠idiot was pissing against the wall where Janey died. Not just that. But it was the anniversary. Did you know that?'
She shook her head. Then waited for him to continue.
âAnyway, Luke had put some flowers there earlier. And â¦' Joey didn't have to finish. She nodded, now getting it.
âIt spilt over into the Lion?' she asked.
Joey nodded. âIt was just verbals in the car park, but when we went in the pub later he was there. Few mates. Started sounding off about why we shouldn't be intervening overseas. Creating psychos like Luke coming back. And, well, he just lost it. I was actually fighting to stop Luke killing the guy more than anything else. So, if you came to warn me about it, Hilary, it's done.' He turned and leaned forward to make eye contact. âWe've got a lid on it. OK?'
She stood, considering it for a moment or two. âAnd Matt being back is no more than a coincidence, is it?'
Joey shrugged. âThey do happen, you know.'
She nodded. Considered it for a moment before saying, âOK. But keep the lid on, eh?'
She touched his arm briefly. âPlease'. Then she headed off to her assembled troops. She still had it, Joey thought as he flopped into the Jag. He watched her stride across the playing fields, remembering how her chest bounced and her hockey skirt flounced as she ran rings round the others on those same pitches. Christ, he thought, with a last look back. Coincidences? How come one of my schoolmates is the top cop and another is the top gangster who tells me it'll only cost five hundred quid to have someone topped? Properly.
Luke, now wearing a Berghaus Ulvetanna parka, was half a mile away from the hide before he switched on his phone. It vibrated as soon as he did. Damn. Same old security issue. What was the point of them going dark to make sure the cell data couldn't put them close to the hide if Joey sent stupid texts like that. Right then, though, his immediate concern was the weather. If it kept up like this nothing would happen this weekend, Luke thought as he saw Joey heading up the road towards him.
âYou know, most of the people we take down is not because of surveillance, but because they can't help broadcasting what they are doing.' He waved his phone at Joey.
âI know, I know. I didn't mean to send it but ⦠Sorry.'
âOK. So, who am I supposed to be “doing” then?'
âWhat?'
Luke waved the phone again. âIt's deleted off here, as I hope it is off yours?' He saw Joey nod. Apologetically again. âAnd although I very much doubt our chums at GCHQ have us tagged, if it ever comes to someone wanting to take a peek at our data, who am I supposed to be “doing”?'
Joey looked at a loss. But Luke turned to the cottage. âWell, as the cops have a log of our anti-social behaviour the other week, I suggest we need to have a reason why we are in each other's pockets at the moment.'
Joey finally nodded. Then added, âHilary Jardine cornered me earlier.'
Luke returned a vindicated, but wary, look. âWhat's she guessing?'
âJust thinks we are up to something. Because Matt's back. And I was talking to Bobby McBain.'
Luke's expression changed to one of amusement. âTypical. Too busy looking for the conspiracy that they miss the obvious. It's true, you know.'
âWhat is?' Joey asked as he followed Luke up the cottage path.
âHide in plain sight. Can't see what you don't know you're looking for.'
Joey twisted that round in his head and thought he got it, as Luke carried on.
âAll the more reason we need to have ourselves covered. Got to be something to do with the electrics on this place. What do you reckon?'
âEr, yeah, but â¦'
âWhat's the usual way you get done in your game, Joe?'
âSome prick undercuts me.'
âExactly. So, if I give you the estimate I've just had from that guy on the industrial estate to rewire this place, we â¦' it was emphasised, âWe ⦠could “do him”, couldn't we?'
âEr, yeah, I suppose â¦'
âAnd that look and sound of your voice makes me think you are uncomfortable with such, what, unethical practice? Which is exactly what your text meant to me. Oh, Luke, surely you couldn't “do that” to a fellow tradesman?'
Joey nodded. He used to run with Luke and Matt. He could handle the clowns on any building site. Or stand up to guys like Bobby McBain, or that skag bag on the train, but when he brushed up against Luke and his world he always felt like some gawky kid.
Luke recognised the look. âIt's OK, mate. Our game's about mindset. It takes years to get into it. Then you never lose it. Someone's always watching.'
Joey nodded, then turned to the cottage. âYou really got a quote for the electrics?'
Luke nodded in return as he opened the front door. âPromised Janey I'd do a bit every time I came home. Just want to finish it now.'
âWhy? It must, well it must do your head coming back all the time?'
Luke gave a wry smile. âMy head's well done in, Joe. And what else am I supposed to do? Move on? That's what Matt's always banging on about. Get on with my life? She was it, Joe. Besides, what else would I do with the cash? Put it in a zero-rate savings account? Or spend it? On what?' He didn't wait for an answer. There wasn't one. He just headed for the cottage door. âDo you want a coffee, while you give me a quote to undercut the other fella?'
âIs it Colombian?'
âMost of the good stuff is.'
As Joey followed Luke into the living room, straight off the street, as all good artisan cottagers used to do, he saw nothing much had happened since Luke had hacked back to the brickwork and exposed the floor boarding. The old rubber-sheathed cables hung from the exposed first-floor joists.
The kitchen was the only room in the house that not only looked like part of a house, but was actually fully fitted and fully working, as Luke demonstrated by taking a couple of clean mugs from the Neff dishwasher that was colour co-ordinated with the combination oven, hob and microwave.
Joey was already compiling a mental estimate. He couldn't help it. âDo you want sockets in each corner. Lights switched from either side?'
âWhatever. So long as it's cheaper than that.' Luke offered him the estimate he had stuck behind a fridge magnet on a brand new Smeg fridge. He then went over to rinse out the cafetiere, tapping the head of a nodding Buddha on the windowsill as he did. A Buddha that matched the one Janey had on her dashboard. It had gone when they eventually found her car. Something that added to Luke's sense of loss. Sense of violation.
They had bought them on a trip to Thailand, after she flew out to meet him on a 72. All that way for three days together before he was deployed again. He thought it was precious at the time. For three days they lived the dream. Then it became priceless. Three weeks later she was dead. Crushed with her own car by some druggie looking for the next score.
After all this time. After all the verbiage he had spent and wasted, the questions were still always there. Especially at night. Lurking in the dark. Refusing to be dislodged by the cold light of day. Why? The question. The one he and everyone else kept coming back to. Why did it happen? And why her? Why did she go out that night? Why didn't someone help? Why didn't the police catch him? Why, why, why? And the biggest why always came back to why wasn't he there to protect her? Why was he even in Afghanistan supporting the Yanks? What was that all about, anyway? What's changed? He knew it was irrational. Shit happens. None of it made any sense. It never would.
âYou still do that?' Joey asked, having noticed Luke tap the Buddha.
âYeah,' Luke smiled. âWe used to say if Buddha was laughing, so were we. Been everywhere with me, this fella. This, and her voicemail on my real phone. Which is backed up to a USB in my lock-up. She was so excited about this kitchen, Joe. We'd just been on a two-week search and destroy. The Yanks lost a couple of guys and that voicemail ⦠The sound of her being so happy ⦠Better than all the debriefs and shrink stuff. Makes you realise ⦠Well, did at the time. Thought I was doing it to protect, what, our way of life? Keep her safe ⦠Then she gets killed back here.'
Luke turned and handed Joey his coffee. âThere you go. One dose of Colombian. We drink this drug. And another killed Janey. One farmer may have provided both. What do we make of that then, eh?'
The following day, the question still hung over Joey as he pulled the Q7 into the Old Mill car park, stopping right by the restaurant door so Natasha and the kids didn't have to fight the driving wind and rain. Another druggies' den that had been socialised and formalised over time but at its heart was one of history's greatest killers, alcohol.
âDon't start, Dad,' Tanya said as she slowly, delicately, started to climb out of the back seat.
âStart what?' Joey asked, looking at her in the rear-view mirror.
âYour sermon about drinking. It's all over your face.'
âDon't have to. Looks like you've got the hangover that proves my point.' Tanya just threw him another teenage lip curl of death. âAt least I'm here, aren't I?' It was her parting shot and, as if to illustrate the point, she slammed the door and then swung her bag at her two annoying brothers, while protectively escorting her younger sister towards the restaurant door.
Joey turned back to a grinning Natasha. âAye, at least she is. Heavy night up at T'House was it?'
âHeavy date more like.'
âNot surprised after what she was nearly wearing when she went out. Or is that a typical dad-like comment?'
âYes. Especially thinking about what you'd have me wearing, given your own way.'
âAh â and you were, are, someone's daughter?'
Natasha grinned and leaned over to kiss him. âAnd remember whose daughter she is. If she goes off the rails it's â¦'
But he'd been through this one before. âNo. It's your fault. You seduced me, remember. Laid a trap for me with that see-through chiffony blouse â¦'
âIt was not see-through. That was the wind, but if that's what makes your memories better. So don't go on about it over lunch and don't get your Sean started.'
Joey followed her look to see Sean's Mercedes 500S indicating to turn into the car park. âBut ask him when he's delivering those panels for the back fence.' She jumped out and hurried in against the rain to join the kids.
Joey moved the Q7 to park up and let Sean stop by the door. As he walked back Sandra was already out trying to shield her hair from the wind, as she dashed inside followed by the new teenage queen, daughter Megan.
âWhy couldn't I have come with Noah?' Megan was back on another familiar item.
âYou know why,' Sandra responded.
But Megan pointed at Joey. âUncle Joe lets Alex and Ross go with him.'
As Sandra guided Megan towards the door she smiled back at Joey, but remained focused on Megan. âUncle Joe allows a lot of things that your father and I don't agree with. So for the last time: you are not travelling in your brother's car until he has done twelve months on the road without killing himself. Especially in weather like this.'
âShe off on one today then?' Joey asked Sean as he made his way back from the car.
âMy fault. Jumping ahead of myself again, with an idea for sprucing up the restaurant â sorry, café â at the garden centre.'
âOh. Fence panels.'
âWhat?'
âNat told me not to forget to mention them.'
âRight.' The two brothers hugged and stepped under the entrance porch out of the rain.