His Unbearable Desire 1

His Unbearable Desire

His Desires Series

Book 1

Elena Stone

Copyright © 2015 Elena Stone

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Chapter 1

The crisp morning light broke softly through the thin curtains. Ana Stone rubbed her sleepy eyes; she yawned and stretched her arms then settled back into the comforting warmth of her own bed. Her long brown hair appeared tousled and some of it was matted to the side of her face. She reached her arm across the bed but found only an empty space where once a warm body used to lie.

It had been a few months since Evan had broken up with her. Even though their relationship had been rocky for a long time she was still missing him, or maybe she was just missing someone. Her life had seemed so perfect for a while, but then again when things seemed too good to be true they usually were. The last few years had been such a rollercoaster that sometimes Ana wondered how she managed to remain sane through it all.

She could still remember that day starkly in her mind. She had come downstairs hoping for another good day to begin when she saw Evan sitting at the table with a grim look on his face. Instantly she knew something was wrong, but she wanted to deny the truth for as long as possible.

“We have to talk,” he said, his voice sounding hollow.

“No, no you don’t get to do this,” she pleaded, retreating from the room. He turned to her and pursed his lips.

“Ana, I’m not happy anymore. This isn’t working.”

“What do you mean it isn’t working? We’re doing well, we’ve been through too much to just throw everything away!”

“Yeah, it’s been hard, and we’ve been through a lot. I’m not saying we haven’t. It just feels like we’re going through the same things over and over again. When you got back from college I thought that we were building up to something, but we never seem to get anywhere.”

After college she had struggled to find a job and had to move back home to the sleepy town of Trinity Falls. She thought she had escaped that place forever but she was forced to return with her tail between her legs. The town had been much different than she had remembered from her youth.

Leaving home and going away to college had made her grow into her own skin. Over time Ana had learned how to value herself; she finally believed in her own worth and wasn’t going to be looked down on by anyone ever again. She knew what she had to offer and college was something of an awakening for her, so much so that she dreaded returning home. Mainly because she was afraid that she would allow herself to slip back into the old routine of things.

Her heart froze when she had first encountered the popular girls from school, but they looked different somehow. Where their eyes had once sparkled with life glowing with the magnetic pulse of popularity, they now seemed hollow and gaunt, as if their energy had been sapped away from them.

Shaking her head, attempting to clear her mind… it was time to face Evan.

“You’re right, we are. I’m sorry that it isn’t going as quickly as you’d like it to, but that’s not my fault. I’m just trying to eke out a living in this dead town. It hasn’t been easy for me coming back home. You know how much I hated it here during high school.”

“We’re not in high school anymore though are we? You need to let go of the past Ana. That stuff is long gone and it doesn’t matter anymore.”

“I know it doesn’t matter, that’s why I’m trying to move on; but it’s pretty hard when everyone around here only knows the person I was, not the person I am. They don’t know anything about me yet they want to judge me and I’m not standing for it. What is this even about? Why now?”

“Because I want more than this. We had a plan but nothing is changing. It doesn’t seem like anything is going to change anytime soon.” He sighed and slumped down on the table. After the initial shock wore off Ana sat down opposite him and leaned her elbows on the wooden surface.

“It’s hardly my fault that the job situation in this place is dire. I need to get back to Newtown. That’s where the opportunities are.”

“But I don’t think I want to go back to Newtown. I like it here. This is my home. I’m happy, I know the area and the people. There are good people here. You work from home, you don’t need to be in Newtown; you just think you do because it’s someplace other than here.”

Ana shot him back an annoyed glare. She hated being told what she thought. She knew very well what she thought without him chiming in.

“If I’m going to make this a success I need to be able to expand. I’m already running out of space here. Do you not want me to be successful?”

Evan threw up his hands in frustration.

“I’m not saying that. I’m not saying that at all. I’m just saying that there are different types of success. Life isn’t all about living in a big city. You can be happy here. We can be, if you just let go of this fantasy you have.”

“Fantasy?! So you don’t think I can make it? Well it’s nice to know that my boyfriend has been so supportive of me all this time,” she spat out, rolling her eyes.

“I just don’t think you should be so single-minded. I have to think about what I want as well. I want to get married and have a family, but that doesn’t even seem to be on the agenda with you.”

“Maybe in the future…” she said in a small voice, but both of them knew that it was true. It wasn’t that she didn’t want that stuff, but her business was her main priority. Everything else came second to that. She leaned back in the chair and exhaled deeply.

“I see your point,” she continued, “it still sucks though. I know I haven’t been the best girlfriend but do you really want things to end?” She looked at him and saw the pain in his eyes.

“I hated to do this, to have this conversation, but I haven’t been happy for a long time. It just hasn’t been as good as it used to be. I don’t know if I’ve changed or if you have, or maybe it’s both of us, but it just isn’t working like it used to. I think we both want different things. I’ve been thinking a lot and I want to be with someone that is heading in the same direction as me, and I don’t think that’s us anymore. I don’t want to go to Newtown. I don’t want to slave over a business. I’m quite content where I am and this is enough for me. But I know it’s not for you and that’s fine.”

“I guess you’re right,” she said. And with that they had broken up.

It was a calm ending to a relationship that had meant a lot to Ana, but when they had both admitted it was over it was something of a relief. It was then that she realized that she too had been in the relationship for the sake of being in a relationship for a long time. She had always told herself that she didn’t want that and yet that was how her life had turned out.  In reality, it was meandering along like a stream in a forest without much direction or force, and she despised that about herself.

She had always imagined her future as somewhere, anywhere away from Trinity Falls. It just made sense to leave at some point, to go out into the wide world and make her own way. She had experienced a brief taste of it at college and was hooked. She loved the independence of it all and really craved that feeling of excitement and believing that anything could happen.

Sometimes she couldn’t believe how far she had come in the last few years. After college it felt as though she was going to have to languish in her old room forever. Jobs were hard to come by and the only thing she could get was bar work at the local tavern. To make matters worse, the boss was a sleaze and she hated working there. That would have only ever been a temporary measure anyway.

She wanted to do something with her life, to make something of herself, and that’s why she had started an online clothing and accessory store. It had only started as a hobby as she had always enjoyed crafting small bracelets and things but it had taken off at a fast rate. Soon enough she had expanded to include clothing, which she received from another supplier. It was all online so she was able to work from home, which was great because in her eyes there was no greater mark of success than being her own boss. Better yet to be able to work in her pajamas, but it didn’t lend itself to expanding her social circle.

Even though the business was going well, she always had a grim fear that at some point the customers would dry up and she’d be left behind by some new website that came along. She tried hard to keep her site relevant and the products fresh. She knew she had to be positive and look at the bright side, but that little voice was always in the back of her mind just nagging her. It was a voice that had grown softer over the years. She had learned to ignore it most of the time, but other times it came back with a vengeance and tried to bring her down. She hated that voice.

So far her business had allowed her to move out of her parent’s place and into this small apartment. It was cozy. The lounge area was small. She barely was able to fit in one two-seater sofa, a few bookcases, and a television, along with the coffee table. A small kitchen led off in one direction, and the bathroom adjoined it.  In the other direction was her bedroom, which no visitors were ever allowed to enter. She was incredibly messy and didn’t need anyone to see that side of her.

It still made her laugh to this day; her roommate at college was the complete opposite of her. So their room was immaculate on one half, and then a bombsite on the other. It had gotten so bad that eventually her roommate had broken down and cleaned her half of the room. Ana sighed as she thought fondly of days gone by, and she made a point to call her old friend later on that day.

She ate breakfast and placed the last piece of toast in her mouth. Enjoying the smooth honey that smothered it slide down her throat. She leaned back and savored the sweet taste before she rose up from her chair and hopped in the shower.

The warm water made her skin tingle as she ran her soapy hands all over her voluptuous curves. Her mind wandered as she started to fantasize about a perfect man opening the shower door and climbing in beside her. Wrapping his big strong arms around her soft curves, tilting her head up and the two of them drowning in a long, passionate kiss as the water cascaded all over their bodies.

Steam rose in the shower as heat rose in her mind and Ana gave herself over to lust. She was a passionate woman, although not many people would have thought it to look at her. She had a heart-shaped, cherubic face and looked much younger than her years…almost innocent. She was the quintessential small town girl but she had big dreams, and she was determined to achieve them.

As the tendrils of steam engulfed her, she lost herself to the moment and let pleasure ripple through her body. Her full lips curled into a smile as her hands became the hands of her fantasy, exploring every part of her body deeply. The hot water swam over her face and mouth, adding to the feeling of detachment from the world. She was entering another realm as the heat rose and pleasure surged within her.

Her entire body felt alive and at one with the universe. The vague figure in her hazy fantasy was tall and masculine, and it wasn’t anyone she had ever met. Rather he was patched together from an image in a long-ago dream. It was a picture that had been with her for as long as she could remember. All she knew is that she felt safe with him, and loved, and satisfied beyond words.

A long, guttural moan filled the shower as she shuddered. All too soon it was time to return to reality, she turned the faucet in the shower off, the steam dissipated and the fantasy went along with it. She wrapped a comforting towel around herself but she wanted to be wrapped in his embrace…whoever he was. She didn’t even know if he existed but she had a feeling that somewhere out there he was waiting for her.