Authors: Catrin Collier
âI wish Judy would stop joking about that. I never think of myself as your and Joe's stepmother. I'm two years younger than him for a start and we've been friends for ever.'
âShe is only teasing.' Helen closed the curtains against the night.
âYou don't mind?'
âNot any more.' Helen walked back to her chair. âI've been meaning to say this to you for some time but somehow there's never been the right moment. I've never seen Dad as happy as he's been since he married you.'
âYou're not just saying that,' Katie blurted uneasily.
âNo.'
âHe worries about me and the baby so much and he's not well. You know what he's like. He never complains about the scars he got in that fire, or his damaged leg and arm, but I know he's in pain â'
âKatie, he's had those scars since before I was born. And as for worrying, if he worries, it's good worry about someone he loves very much. And now that Joe and I are off his hands, it's just as well he has someone else to fuss over.'
âHave you heard from your brother lately?'
âHasn't Dad?'
âHe had a letter last month. Joe seems to be doing well at the BBC and we listened to his last radio play.'
âSo did I.' Helen glanced sideways at Katie and they both burst out laughing. âDid you understand it?'
âTo be honest, I preferred the ghost story and thriller he wrote.'
âSo did I. Perhaps it's just as well he's living with all the other intellectuals in London and not with us.' Helen sat back and stared into the fire. âI've been wondering if Jack will find Swansea and me boring after all the excitement of Cyprus.'
âI should think after being shot at, blown up and spending two months in hospital he'll welcome a little peace and quiet.' Katie closed her eyes against the memory of the telegram that had caused so much upset and worry.
âI wish I could have visited Jack then. His letters were strange around that time.'
âIs it surprising when three of the men he was with were killed?'
As the coal began to glow, Helen knelt on the hearthrug, removed the guard again and layered small coal over the lumps she'd put on earlier. âI tried asking Jack about it but it was as though we were writing in different languages. There was me going into the warehouse six days a week, coming home every evening, hardly ever going out except to visit you and Dad, or Lily and Martin, or going to the pictures with Judy. And there was him, fighting terrorists, having bombs thrown at him â¦' She bit her lip and hooked back the guard. âHe's bound to have changed. We were both so young, so crazy â¦'
âWe all were.'
âNot you,' Helen contradicted. âYou were born sensible.'
âThat's not what people said when I married your father.'
âBut you didn't take any notice of them and you can't get any more sensible than that.' Helen glanced at her hands to check that they were clean, as she rose to her feet. âI'm sorry, I shouldn't be dumping my worries on you, especially now with the baby due next week. It's just that I can't help thinking that if Jack had come home six months ago when he should have, instead of having his term extended because of a shortage of troops, everything would have been so much better. He was expecting to come home. I had everything ready. It was just so unfair that he had to stay on and get caught up in that attack â'
âHe's fine now,' Katie reminded, âand he'll be home in a couple of hours.'
âYes, he will.' Helen hesitated. âI don't suppose you'd like to look over the bedroom and the rest of the house and tell me if I've done anything Jack will hate?'
âBearing in mind that you know him better than me, I'm flattered you asked.'
âYou grew up with him.'
âAnd you married him.' Katie took the hand Helen offered to help her up.
âNot a word to Judy,' Helen pleaded.
âI promise.'
âYou sure you don't want to unpack this lot?' Lily carried the last box up the stairs and into the lounge of Judy's flat above her Mumbles salon. âWe've plenty of time before Jack's train gets in.'
âI'm sure.' Judy dropped her suitcase and vanity case on to the floor of her bedroom and closed the door. âSam's coming over later, he can help me. Besides don't you and Katie want to get home to your husbands?'
âKatie has a casserole all ready to go in the oven for John and, as Martin won't be home until after he's picked Jack up from the station and dropped him off at Helen's, I've plenty of time to prepare something.'
âI'm surprised Helen didn't want to meet the train.' Judy picked up a box marked âKitchen' and carried it through to the narrow galley.
âAccording to Martin, it was Jack's idea he meet him alone.'
âSo Helen isn't the only one who's nervous.'
âWouldn't you be nervous if you were in Helen's position?' Lily asked, as Judy returned to the living room.
âI can't imagine having a husband, let alone seeing him after a long absence.'
âYou haven't given a thought as to what it will be like to have a husband after you and Sam have been engaged for eighteen months?' Lily questioned incredulously.
âI've been too busy opening the new salons and building up trade to think about weddings and marriage. Mam did what she could to help, but frankly it wasn't much. Not that I'm complaining. She didn't expect Billy's arrival, not at forty.' Judy referred to her twenty-month-old half-brother who had been born nine months to the day after her mother's wedding to Lily's Uncle Roy.
âBilly's gorgeous and worth any number of salons, and considering you and your mother now have eleven â¦'
âAh hah.' Judy gave Lily a knowing look, as she heaved a box of books on to the table.
âAh hah, what?'
âI detect a hint of broodiness in the bank manager's high-flying secretary.'
âI am not broody.' Lily opened the box and lifted out half a dozen books.
âThen you don't envy your uncle and my mother Billy, or Katie and Mr Griffiths' “forthcoming happy event” as Mrs Lannon and the rest of the Carlton Terrace “gossips” so coyly put it. And you never go all gooey over Billy and buy him toys â¦'
âAnd you, of course, hate Billy.'
âI adore him.' Judy took the books from Lily and stacked them on to an empty bookshelf. âBut that doesn't mean I want a baby of my own.'
âYou and Sam don't want children?'
âI told you I haven't had time to think about anything other than the salons for the last couple of years.'
âThere's nothing wrong between you and Sam, is there?' Lily asked perceptively.
Judy couldn't remember a time when she hadn't known Lily, Helen and Katie. Even in the babies' class in primary school, Helen had been the wild one, always up to her neck in trouble, Katie the quiet one and Lily the one who could be trusted never to betray a confidence.
âWe're fine,' she answered slowly, âbut ⦠well, you know how it is. You almost got engaged to Joe before you married Martin.'
âI almost got engaged to Joe because I didn't know the difference between wanting to be in love and being in love.'
âWasn't it more exciting with Joe?'
âWhat?' Lily questioned, genuinely bewildered by Judy's train of thought.
âJoe was your first boyfriend, he took you on your first date, gave you your first real kiss â¦'
âEvery minute I spend with Martin is a million times more exciting than the time I spent with Joe and that's without bringing kisses into it.'
âCome on, don't try telling me that your heart still turns cartwheels every time you see Martin when you've been married to the man for almost two years?'
âCartwheels and handstands.' Lily had fallen in with Judy's flippant mood but there was an underlying gravity to her voice.
âAnd you never think about Joe?'
âOnly when Helen, Katie or his father mentions him and, when they do, I thank my lucky stars that I married Martin.'
âYou're serious, aren't you?'
âVery.' Lily handed Judy another pile of books. âThis conversation wouldn't have anything to do with you and Brian Powell by any chance, would it?'
âI haven't seen Brian in almost three years.'
âThe fact that you remember how long it's been says a lot.'
âAll it says is that I remember my first boyfriend,' Judy retorted. âAnd you know what people say about first love.'
âTell me.' Lily dropped the empty box to the floor and lifted another on to the table.
âIt's like your first party dress, better remembered than kept.'
âAnd Sam?' Lily queried. âDo you love him?'
âOf course I do,' Judy asserted, âin a seeing him every day kind of way.'
âBut not in a breathless, heart-pounding, floating on air â¦'
âWe just agreed those kind of feelings can't last.'
âYou said they can't, not me.' Lily ripped the box open and handed her another half a dozen books.
âThen you don't think I'm in love with Sam.'
âYou just said you were.'
âI am.' Judy paused thoughtfully. âIt could be that we're just different people â¦'
âOf course we are, you've auburn hair for a start,' Lily joked.
âYou really never wonder what Joe is like now or what you'd do if you bumped into him?'
âNever. Do you wonder about Brian?'
âSometimes.' Judy gave a wicked smile. âI picture him fat, bald, toothless â¦'
âSounds as if the poor man's aged eighty years in three.'
âLondon's not the healthiest place to live.' Judy pushed the last few books on the shelf. âThat's enough. I'm not sure why we started this when I had no intention of unpacking. Let's go and get Katie.'
âThanks for coming round and helping.' Helen opened her front door.
âI'm not sure how me sitting on your sofa and chatting helped, but thanks for the invitation.' Katie kissed Helen's cheek.
âIt helped by keeping me sane.' Helen squeezed Katie's hand as she climbed into the front seat of Judy's car.
âAnd thanks for clearing out your things, Judy.'
âThere's no way I could have allowed my rubbish to clutter up Jack's homecoming.'
âIs there anything I can do for the party tomorrow?' Lily asked, as Judy slotted the keys into the ignition.
âJust bring yourself and Martin around about seven.'
âAnd some beer, sherry and food.'
âI won't refuse any contributions.' Helen closed the car door and Judy started the engine. She turned and looked back at the house when Judy drove off. Would it be better to open the shutters and curtains and switch on all the lights so Jack could see the home she had created for both of them the moment Martin drove up to it? Deciding it would, she checked her watch and ran back inside.
âLily, are you there?' Sam called, as he walked up the internal stairs that led from the basement flat he and his fellow policeman, Mike, rented from Lily and Martin.
âNo,' she shouted.
Ignoring her denial, he walked down the passage and into her kitchen. âWe've run out of tea. I don't suppose you've a quarter you can spare?'
She shook her head despairingly but went to the cupboard where she kept her dry goods. âIt's getting to the stage where I buy double rations every week to cater for you and Mike. The only wonder is Swansea's streets are safe, the way you two organise your lives.'
âWe make better policemen than housewives.'
âI hope you're right.'
âThanks, Lily.' He took the packet of Barbers tea she handed him. âYou know we'll give it back.'
âOnly until the next time you want to borrow it.'
Sensing exasperation behind her flippant comment, he sniffed the air and looked from the saucepan simmering on the stove to the table where she was rolling pastry. âIf that's one of your meat and potato pies, lucky Martin.'
âJudy told me you're going over to her new flat tonight.'
âSo?' He looked quizzically at her.
âI'm sure she'll make something for you.'
âYou don't know Judy, I'll get fish and chips, and only if I go to the fish shop to fetch them.' He watched as she opened the oven and took out an apple flan. âYou enjoy torturing me, don't you? You know that's my favourite dessert. If your husband doesn't appreciate you â¦'
âHe does.' She set the flan on a rack to cool.
âI'd give a week's wages for a slice of that. And,' he opened the fridge door, âI just knew it, real clotted cream.'
âDon't you dare touch that bowl. And that flan is staying in one piece until Martin gets home.'
âYou hard-hearted woman.'
âThat's me.'
âCan I at least smell it?' He stood over the flan and sniffed theatrically.
Relenting, she reached for a cake tin. âThere are some rock buns in there that I made yesterday.'
âWith sultanas and currants?'
âAnd candied peel.'
âIf I get Judy to give me back my engagement ring, will you take it?'
âNo.'
âThat's what I was afraid of.' He opened the tin and took out a bun. âAny tea going?'
She picked up the rolling pin and dusted it off with flour. âOnly if you make it.'
He lifted the kettle from the stove and carried it to the sink. âHas Judy taken everything from Helen's to the flat?'
âYes, but it's not unpacked. She said you were going to help her do that tonight.'
âIt's not my idea of a perfect way to spend an evening but,' he paused as he lit the gas hob and put the kettle on to boil, âwhat else can a man do when his woman gives him orders but obey?'
âYou make it sound as though you're Judy's slave.'