I Broke My Heart (4 page)

I didn’t know what to say. I simply left and drove toward home, grief and heartache overwhelming me. I had lost a dear friend, Max, and I had also lost the man I fell in love with, Cleve. I feared that because I had lost everything, I had nothing to live for.

However, my life was not finished, it only seemed that way. I tried to console myself. Yet as I tried, I felt an empty void inside of me.

I had only known Cleve for a little while, but even though it was a short time, it was… I lacked the word to express how it felt.

I couldn’t blame either Max or Cleve for any of their actions. It was my fault. I should have known that Max loved me all this time. I should have seen it, but I didn’t. Love stood in front of me the whole time and I didn’t see it. And Cleve, I should have known better than to fall cheaply for him. It was my entire fault and I broke my heart.

As I continued to drive toward my house, I rea
l
ized it was my actions that caused my grief and depre
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sion.  I made up my mind, right then and there, that I would choose the men to give my love to with greater care and I would never settle again, just because I was lonely.

First, I would learn to love myself. Once that happened, I would find the man of my dreams and he would be there to love me in the way that I deserved. If that meant being alone for a while, then so be it.

Watch out for Volume 2 titled, I Broke His Heart.