In Love with My Brother's Best Friend: Complete Box Set (19 page)

“
Memorable
isn't the word for it. You have been etched into every single part of
my brain for over ten years. Every single second of that night has
played in my mind over and over this entire time. I know it was your
first time, but not a single woman has compared to that night since
then. Believe me, I've tried to get it out of my head. I did make
your brother a promise that I would never touch you. It was the night
of your thirteenth birthday party. Tim wasn't as bad as you think
about you dating. There was only one guy he knew positively that he
didn't want to touch you. I was that guy. He knew you were better
than me. He knew you deserved a man I would never be. He reminded me
more times than I can count of that promise I made.”

I
felt the weight of my body move her against the door harder. My free
hand went to the door next to her head. I needed to finish what I was
saying without touching her more than I already was. She smelled
amazing. I never knew what it was, but it was the same smell from
that night on the beach. There was a vanilla scent mixed with
something else. Whatever it was had my dick twitching in my boxers.

“
I
went to college to get away from you. Did you know that?”

She
shook her head in my hand lightly but never moved her eyes from mine.
I let her tears hit my wrist on the way down her cheeks. Neither of
us moved to dry them. We were both frozen in place.

“
It
didn't help. Tim would tell me about guys he knew that were trying to
talk to you. He told me about that asshole from the wedding. The
fucker wanted to ask you to a dance, but I wasn't having that shit. I
came home just to see his ass. He wasn't the only one. While Tim was
busy keeping me away, I was taking care of everyone else. I don't
care if you're mad about it either. You go right ahead and be mad.
There was no way any of those fuckers were touching you. If I would
have found out they did, it wouldn't have happened twice. It didn't
help going that far away. You were still in my damn head. Are you mad
at me, Tiny?”

She
nodded slightly, and I laughed.

“
I
stayed away as much as I could. I was pretty sure when I went by your
room that night that you had a guy in there with you too. There was
so much noise coming from that door. When your friend told me you had
left a long time before and she didn't know where you went, I knew I
had to find you. I had to know that you were okay. It pissed me off
that they had let you leave by yourself. I saw you sitting on the
beach and couldn't help but notice every little change since I had
seen you last. When we sat there talking, I couldn't help but get
caught up in the moment. I knew I could have sat there all night
talking about your plans for college and what you wanted in life. You
were the first girl I actually wanted to know everything about. I
wanted to know what you wanted for your life. I knew you were going
to make an amazing life for yourself.”

I
stood silent for a moment looking into her eyes before saying
anything else.

“
I
have never regretted being with you that night. It was an honor to be
the man you were with for the first time. Me being with you had
nothing to do with anything other than wanting you more than anything
in that moment. The reason I left that night had nothing to do with
you and everything to do with your brother. I walked you back and
then went back out to the beach to think. I'd broken my promise to my
best friend. We'd been friends for so long, and I felt a horrible
guilt for going against him. You have to understand that your parents
cared about me when mine never did. They were very important to me.
The thought of disappointing them stung me deep inside. If they knew
I had been with their baby, they would have thought of me like my own
parents did. I know it sounds stupid, but at that time it felt awful
knowing they would be disappointed. Tim would have done anything for
me. That was the only thing he had ever asked of me in all those
years of friendship, and I had went against that. He knew I didn't
deserve you, and he was right. That was why I left that night. I knew
I couldn't be anywhere near you and not want to be with you again,
and I knew I couldn't hurt your family. I tried to stay away as much
as I could. That doesn't mean that I haven't thought about you every
single day since then.”

She
moved to open her mouth, but I put my finger over her lips.

“
I
liked my quiet and shy Tiny. I have to admit I like the mouthy one
too. It took all I had not to throw you over my shoulder for fucking
with me. I need you to know that you are amazing. You deserve a great
man that is worthy of you. You are the most caring and loving person
I know. I bet you're an amazing teacher and treat those kids so damn
good. You are memorable. Please don't think you're not. I can't
believe you thought about that night and felt like I didn't care. You
have no idea how hard it was for me to walk away from you, Tiny.”

I
leaned forward so our foreheads were touching, and I could still see
her eyes. Her tears were hitting my hand a little more than before.

“
Jackie,”
she whispered.

“
I'm
sorry about my actions with Chris this weekend. It was killing me
knowing he didn't care and had cheated on you. That wasn't who you
were supposed to be with. You were supposed to be with someone so
much better than him,” I whispered back.

“
Like
who?” she asked a little louder.

I
felt her body stiffen against mine. Something was changing. She was
going to push me away. I could feel it.

“
Tiny,”
I warned.

“
No,
Jackson?” she said in a hurt but challenging tone. “Who
is it? Who do you actually feel I deserve to be with? What man is
good enough for Tim's sister? Tell me right now.”

Her
hands went up to my chest to push me. I wasn't having that shit. She
wasn't going to run on me. I knew I'd never see her again if I let
her go.

“
Who
the fuck is it that I'm supposed to be with, Jackson?”

She
was shooting daggers at me. Her eyes were dark and full of emotion. I
had two choices. Did I let her leave and fix my relationship with her
brother and parents, or did I put it all out there and risk losing
the only family I would ever care about?

Her
hands pushed hard against my chest. I grabbed her wrists and put them
against the door above her head.

“
Me,”
I growled. “You're supposed to be with me, Tina.”

Her
eyes widened, and I heard her breath catch. I wasn't going to give
her one minute to think about the situation. If I did, she'd fight
everything she wanted in that moment. I knew her too well. Her body
was reacting to me, just like it did that night. There was no way she
was going to lie to me.

I
moved forward and crashed my mouth against hers. My tongue moved
softly across her lips. She looked into my eyes and finally opened
for me. When my tongue found hers, I felt her pull at her hands and
shook my head. Our tongues each fought for control, as she kept her
eyes on me. I wasn't breaking the contact. She was going to learn who
was in control. My hands moved so that both of hers were in one of
mine. When my free hand held the back of her head and pulled her
against me, she moaned into my mouth. With my body pressing hers
against the door, she could barely move. My knee moved between her
legs and spread them. She was grinding against it in seconds. I could
feel her heat through my pants and let out a moan of my own. When she
tugged her hands again, I laughed into her mouth.

My
free hand wrapped around her hair and pulled. She didn't resist, as
she let her head fall back. I pulled away from our kiss, and she
gasped into the air. My lips found her neck. It was so much better
than I remembered. The taste of her skin would be with me for the
rest of my life. I continued kissing, licking, and sucking toward the
front of her neck. Her head was back and her eyes were closed. She
was so damn perfect. I don't know why she'd think any less of
herself. I released my hold on her hair, but she didn't move her
head. My hand slid slowly up her t-shirt. When I reached her bra, I
shoved it up and held her breast in my hand. My thumb and finger
found her nipple and began rolling it.

“
Jackson,”
she whispered.

My
name sounded so good rolling off of her tongue. I wanted to hear it
over and over. I wanted her to scream it. She needed to know what I
could do to her. There was no way she was going to walk away from me.
I was going to prove how memorable she was. She needed to know I
wasn't too good for her. She was the one that was too good for me.

“
Yes,”
I said.

I
pulled her nipple between my fingers, and she arched her back. The
way she ground her clothed pussy against my knee, I knew my pants
would be wet if I looked down at them.

“
I
bet if I slid my hand down your shorts, you'd be so damn wet for me,”
I said, as I pulled back and looked at her face.

She
opened her eyes and lifted her head. I held her hands up against the
door and watched her face.

“
I'm
going to let go of your hands, and you're going to leave them up
there. I need both hands to do what I want to you,” I whispered
into her ear.

She
nodded without making a sound. I moved my hand down her arm slowly as
I looked into her eyes. I continued moving it down until I reached
the bottom of her shirt. With the hem in my hands, I lifted it up and
over her head, leaving it on her arms. She looked at me nervously, as
I undid her bra and lifted it up to rest with her shirt. She pulled
her bottom lip between her teeth. I leaned in, pulled her lip into my
mouth, and let it go after dragging it through my teeth.

“
Fucking
beautiful,” I growled.

My
hands went to her breasts and my mouth followed. I took one nipple
into my mouth and the other between my fingers. She let out the
sweetest sounding moan that had my dick twitching in my pants. I
licked, sucked, and pinched until she was crying out my name.

“
Do
you have any idea how good my name sounds coming from those lips?”
I asked.

She
looked into my eyes but didn't speak. My mouth kissed a soft trail
down her stomach. When I dropped to my knees in front of her, her
eyes widened and her mouth opened.

“
Not
a word, woman,” I said. “Do you hear me?”

She
made a slight nod with her head and kept her eyes on me the entire
time. I pulled her shorts down her legs, and she stepped out of them.
My tongue moved across my lips, as I looked up at her. Keeping my
eyes connected with hers, I began kissing and licking up her thigh.
Her legs were shaking under my mouth. Just as I reached her panties,
I moved to the other side and began kissing the same path there. She
took a deep breath in, and I knew she was fighting her thoughts.

“
Feel,”
I said. “Just feel, Tiny.”

When
my lips reached her panties, I looked into her eyes and slid my
tongue beneath them. Her whole body shook when my tongue hit that
perfect spot.

“
Jackson,”
she moaned, as she moved her hands off the door.

I
stopped and pulled away from her. She let out a growl, and I laughed.

“
Put
your hands back where they were,” I said sternly.

She
narrowed her eyes, and I sat back on my legs. I let my tongue move
slowly across my lips, and she whimpered.

“
I've
got all night,” I said. “Hands back up, beautiful.”

I
ran my hands up her thighs and stopped at the top of her panties.
Then I narrowed my eyes at her and stilled with my fingers just
inside the waist of them.

“
Jackson,”
she scolded.

“
Yes,
baby,” I said with a smile.

She
let out a breath and put her hands back where they were. I smiled
wide and ripped her panties from her.

“
Fuck,”
she whimpered.

“
Legs
apart,” I said.