Judged By You (Judge Me Series) (9 page)

“Sometimes the best plans are the ones that aren’t planned at all
.” She replied.

We sat in silence the rest of the way. My phone was buzzing in my bag
, but I didn’t want to answer it. At times like this, I wanted my mother. She would tell me what to do, and what I needed to hear. It also made me wish I had family here that I was close too, but I wasn’t close to anyone in the family I had left, apart from my brother.

“If you need me just call
.” Nicole said as I was getting out.

“Thank you so much Nic
, I owe you one”. I replied as I closed the car door.

I walked inside the house and put my bag on the counter. I turned the coffee machine on; because god knows I needed one. I jumped as the house phone rang.

“Hello.”

“What was with you tonight
?” That familiar voice rattled me, it was him.

“
How did you get my house number?” I sat in shock. It must have been him calling my phone before.

“Doesn’t matter, what is wrong Savannah, you looked upset.
” He voice lingered around that last word. Wow, you think?

“Who was that girl?” I just had to ask. I waited to hear the news.

He hesitated before he answered.

“She’s a client of mine. Hey… is that what this is about?” He started to sound pissed off.

“Do you always go on dates with your clients Damon?”

“It wasn’t a date, and no I don’t. What’s your problem Savannah?” His voice was starting to annoy me more than anything.

“I have to go.” I hung up before he could say anything else.

Tears streamed down my face, and I felt hot. I decided I would shower and then watch TV to settle my head and my stomach. I felt violently ill. With coffee in hand
, I sat on the couch with a blanket. It was till cold at night. I picked up my phone and saw several missed calls from Damon, and three messages. Two were from him and one from Derek.

Hey sav, what’s doing? How’s that assignment comi
ng along? I have missed you lately. We should catch up soon.

Right now I missed Derek too. I must remember to tell him about
Stephen. I didn’t bother to reply because if he was asleep I didn’t want to wake him. The other two were from Damon.

What was wrong with you tonight? You seem distracted and upset. D

Are you not talking to me? D

“Yes
, I was fucking upset you asshole.” I all but shouted. This is why I have stayed away from men for a long time. They make life suck! I lay on the couch and closed my eyes, begging my body to shut down. I just wanted sleep. I couldn’t bring myself to do anything else but sleep. As much as I begged my brain it wouldn’t stop. Was I wrong to jump to conclusions? Maybe she was just a client, but she was extremely close to him. All of those old feelings came flooding back to me at that point. “You’re so stupid Savannah,” I told myself. I often spoke to myself out loud. Nicole always told me “You’re only crazy if you reply to yourself”. That made me laugh, at that point, I wished Nicole was here to keep me company. I flicked through the channels on the TV and ended up with Law and Order reruns. I loved this show.

I picked up my phone and saw it was one in the morning. I still couldn’t go to sleep. I decided another coffee was in order. I switched the machine on and heard a knock at the door. I jumped as it scared the shit out of me. Who
would be coming here at this hour? I opened the door and froze.

“Wh
at the fuck are you doing here?”

“I nee
ded to see you, please Savannah.” Damon stood with his arm holding the door open.

“It’s one in the morning Damon,
Go home.”

“I’m not leaving
until you tell me what’s wrong.” He said stepping into the doorway closer to me.

“Please, just go. I’m
OK.” I lied. Jealously certainly is a curse.

“You saw me there with another woman and thought I was on a date with her? Is that it? Obviously that
wasn’t the case.” He said with a nervous smile.

“That’s what it looked like yes. But I don’t need you to explain. We are only friends or whatever. It doesn’t matte
r anyway. We aren’t a good idea.” I felt like I was going to be sick.

“Bullshit! And friends, is that all you think this is or all you want it to be? You have been so clamped
close since we met. Why is that? Trying to get an insight in your life is like pulling teeth Savannah.” He said with a bite.

“My life is none of your business, now please
leave.” I grabbed the door and tried to shut it, but his body was in the way.

He grabbed my face with his hands and kissed me forcefully. His kiss was rough
but sweet at the same time. My body reacted as I grabbed his shirt with my hands, fisting at it. He stepped further inside and kicked the door closed behind him. Our tongues stroked each other’s, over and over. It was mesmerizing, and hard to pull away and stop it. He pulled away first and searched my face. His thumb was stroking my lips, which felt swollen and full.

“Stop running from me
.” He breathed out before kissing me again. His hands moved from my face, he put one on the middle of my back to forced me closer and the other at the back of my neck. His lips parted from mine and he started kissing the soft skin between my neck and my ear.

“Oh
, god.” I moaned

Of course
, he had found the most sensitive part of my body. It made my hairs stand on end. And the nerve ending through my body woke up. I got brave and slide my hands down his chest until I could find the top of his belt to pull his shirt out and untucked it. I had this urge to feel his stomach under my hand. His mouth moved from my neck to my cheek and back down again. I untucked his shirt and slid my hands under it. The feel of his taut muscles under my hand was hot. I counted his defined six pack as I ran my hands over it. His lips returned to my mouth, and he forced me around, so I was flat against the door.

His hand from my back moved to under my shirt. And he ran his fingers down my stomach. I went weak at the knees.

“I’ve got you.” He said between kisses. He dipped down, picked me up and walked me into the kitchen to sit me on the kitchen bench.

He was positioned between my knees; I leaned forward and kissed him again. In that moment
, I couldn’t get enough. My hands either side of his handsome face, I pulled him closer. His hands went to my back, but he slipped both of them under my shirt. I felt his fingertips digging into my skin. I couldn’t help but moan. I forgot this feeling, and in that moment I needed something more.

“What are you really here for Damon?” I breathed

“You.” He didn’t even think about his answer.

“What happened to self-control?” I said with a giggle.

“Fuck it.” He moved his hands from the back to the front. And they moved upwards towards each of my breast. I tilted my head back trying to hold back the moans that kept creeping up my throat. My hands moved to his buttons, and I undid them one at a time. He moved his fingers over each nipple and held them in his fingers. Before I could release any more buttons, he removed his hands so fast and lifted my shirt over my head. I was sitting on my kitchen counter shirtless. Instinct kicked in and I covered them with my arms, hiding myself from him.

“Hey
, don’t hide. I want to see you.” He grabbed my arms and tried to move them.

“I haven’t…..
Done this….. In a long time.” I felt the heat in my cheeks.

“Well I want t
o see you. Now move those hands.” He said prying my hands away from my covered chest.

I released my hands from my chest. I couldn’t look at him
, so I looked away. He caressed each of them slowly. Then his mouth found one of my nipples while he played with the other. He bit and sucked on my nipple, then moved on the other. The feeling went straight from my nipples to between my legs. He pulled his lips from my breasts and looked at me with fire in his eyes. I worked up the courage to finish unbuttoning his shirt, once I had all the buttons undone I slowly slid the shirt over his shoulders and it dropped to the floor. His tight body was the sexiest thing I have ever seen. “Wow.”

“Wow yourself
.” He said reaching up and pulling my face to his.

If this was going to happen, it wasn’t happening on the bench. I pushed him away. And got off the bench, picking up my shirt and his, I grabbed his hand and led him upstairs to my room. I was grateful that I had washed my sheets this morning. I stepped inside, Damon snaked his hands around me from the back. I moved my head to the side
, and he kissed me from behind my ear to my clavicle. I reached one of my hands behind me and felt his immense erection. I was in shock at how big it felt. I started to tug at the end of his belt so it would come out, when suddenly his phone rang.

“Shit
.” He moaned.

He reached into his pant pocket to grab it out; I let my arms
embrace my body until I could put my shirt back on.

“Yes, hello….
Not at all. Why? Oh….. Can it wait…? Okay…. I will be there in fifteen.” He hung up and looked at me with an apologetic look.

“You have to go?” I said picking his shirt up on the floor and handing it to him.

“I’m sorry, work is….. Busy.” He said taking his shirt from me.

I felt so embarrassed right now, I was about to have sex with this man. Well part of me hoped anyway. I stood rubbing my arms with my hands, it was getting cold
, and I was shivering, probably from the fact that I was tired and strung out.

“I’ll see you out then”. What else do you say in this situation? Thanks for the major turn on and leaving me soaking? Fuck I needed an orgasm.

“I’m sorry, it wasn’t meant to be like this.” He said throwing me an apologetic smile.

We walked down stairs and to the front door. I held it open and was lost for what to say. So I just thanked him for stopping by. It was out before I could stop it, and it sounded ridiculous.

“I’m sorry I have to run, I will call you ok?” He said as he walked outside.

“Okay
.” I gave him a small reassuring smile.

He turned and kissed me on the cheek. “Bye
.” He said as he was running to his car.

Things just went from crazy to crazier. I needed to go to church and ask for forgiveness cause I was about to lose my shit. God help anyone in my path today. I was suddenly
shattered. I wanted to sleep all day and not wake up until I had to work. And that is what I did.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I woke at four that afternoon. I missed a day of lectures, I was so thankful for the sleep. I didn’t even dream. I went to work that afternoon to find out that our cafe was being bought out by another and that I wouldn’t have a job after today. It was a last minute decision the owners made, and we all suffered. The new owners had their own staff and didn’t want to keep any of us. I was disappointed. But lucky I had enough money saved that I could get by for a little while until I found something else. I thought it might be a blessing in disguise because I had exams in less than 4 weeks and I needed to study.

Once my shift had finished
, the owners gave us a check with two weeks’ worth of wages inside and apologised continuously. I bid them farewell and wished them luck on their new adventures. I arrived home and found Nicole sitting out the front.

“Hey what you doing out here in the cold?” She looked
terrible

“I think
I may have stuffed up Savannah.” She spoke so softly. She looked devastated. And ready to ball her eyes out at any moment.

“What’s goi
ng on? You’re scaring me Nicole.” I sat next to her placing my arm around her.

“I think I’m pregnant
.” Nicole said it so quietly I had to lean in to hear. I even asked her to repeat it.

“I didn’t hear you
.” I said in shock.

“You did hear me. What the fuck am I going to do?” Nicole put her head in her hands and started to cry. Out of everyone I knew she was the strongest. I had no idea what to say to make it any better.

“What did Stan say?”

“He doesn’t know yet. I can’t keep it Savannah. My parents would kill me, I’m not married. It was an accident. I forgot to take my pill for a few days and didn’t think anything of it; I have been on the pill for like….. Ten years. And we only had sex once that month
, so I thought it was impossible. You know what people say about being on the pill long term.” She wiped the tears from her cheeks as she spoke.

“You have to think about what Stan wants to. Do you think he will want it?” Surely Stan wouldn’t make her get rid it, he wanted marriage and kids.

“I don’t know Savannah. I just… I….. I’m scared.” She grabbed my hand, holding it so tight her knuckles went white.

“I’m here, always. We will work this out. Please, just
talk to Stan. He needs to know.” I said giving her a reassuring squeeze with my hand.