Khirbet Khizeh (4 page)

But we were already tired of seeing things like this, we had no more interest in such things. One glance, a step or two were enough for the courtyard, the house, the well, the past and the present, and their attentive silence. And although there might be an abandoned pitchfork or a fine-looking hoe, or a good, and valuable, pipe wrench, momentarily enticing you to pick it up and weigh it in your hand, as one might in a market or a farmyard, and things that ought to be in their place, and even stirring an urge, incidentally, to take the motor from the well and the pipes, five inch, and the beams from above, and the bricks from below, and the wooden boards (we could always find a use for them in our yard) and send them home, there was such a tickling pleasure in getting such easy benefit, in getting rich quick, in picking up ownerless property and making it your own, and conquering it for yourself, and plans were already being made, right away, and it was already decided what was going to be done with almost all of these things at home, and how it would be done—except that we had been in so many villages already, and picked things up and thrown them away, taken them and destroyed them, and we were too used to it—so we picked up the fine-looking ownerless hoe, or pitchfork, and hurled it down to the ground, if possible aiming it at something that would shatter at once, so as to relieve it of the shame of not being of use—with real destruction, once and for all, putting an end to its silence.

On the other hand, when we moved on and arrived at the cultivated land near the village, there were clear signs that the yards and houses had been abandoned only a short time before. The mattresses were still laid out, the fire among the cooking-stones was still smoldering, one moment the chickens were pecking in the rubbish as usual and the next they were running away screeching as though they were about to be slaughtered. Dogs were sniffing suspiciously, half-approaching, half-barking. And the implements in the yard were still—it was clear—in active use. And silence had not yet settled except as a kind of wonderment and stupefaction, as though the outcome hadn't yet been determined, and it was still possible that things would be straightened out and restored to the way they had been before. In one yard a donkey was standing, with mattresses and colorful blankets piled on its back, falling on their sides and collapsing on the ground, because while they were being hastily loaded, the throb of fear, “They're-here-already!” had overcome the people, and they'd shouted: “To hell with it, just run!” And in the next-door courtyard, which contained a kitchen garden, with a well-tended patch of potatoes, the fine tilth of its soil and the bright green of the leaves calling to you and telling you to go straight home and do nothing but cultivate beautiful potatoes—in this next-door courtyard, two witless ewes were huddled in a panic near the corner of the fence (later I saw them again bleating on our truck), and the huge water jar was lying across the threshold, calmly dripping the last drops of its water in a puddle, half in the room and half out of it. Immediately after this yard there was a plowed field close by and beyond it the outskirts of the village.

We had just reached the track when a swaying camel came toward us piled high with objects and bedding, its rope halter tied to the saddle of a donkey in front of it, which was also laden with household effects, great sieves and piles of clothing; it was standing and chewing the grass beneath the acacia bushes with exaggerated enjoyment, plunging deeper in pursuit of their juiciness with total disdain for its rope-partner that was anxiously lifting its small head to the full extent of its neck, leaning it backward as far as possible, as if to avoid a collision, expelling diabolical gurgles and fearful grunts, emitting a stench of greasy camel sweat. At the sight of the jeep it tried to break free and run, but its halter, tied to the donkey's saddle, held it back; it tugged and shook it with mounting force, but the donkey paid no heed to this camelious panic, it didn't allow itself to be distracted and just went on feeding lustily. At once our Sha'ul jumped down and grunted at the camel with a grunt that would make any knee bend, and tapped it reassuringly on its upraised backward-straining neck with the barrel of his rifle, and the camel, caught by a language it understood, was gurgling and arguing and spewing bitter speech, and already intending to kneel on its forelegs, amidst anger and wailing and complaint—except that just then an Arab emerged from the thick hedge ahead of us and came toward us with outstretched arms.

“
Ya khawaja
,” said the Arab, who had a short white beard, talking while he was still walking.

Immediately Sha'ul raised his rifle at him and shouted to us: “Look who's coming!”

“
Ya khawaja
,” repeated the old man in the voice of one who has decided come-what-may, “
Allah ya'atik, ya khawaja
,” God grant you favor, Sir …

“
Yallah!
” said Sha'ul, slipping a bullet into his rifle.

“
Ya khawaja
,” wailed the old man, alternately spreading his hands and pointing to the camel, breathing heavily, from fear not from frailty. “The camel,
ya khawaja
, let us take the camel and go,” and while he spoke he was already next to his beast, holding on to its girth with his wrinkled brown hand.

“What's he mumbling,” said Sha'ul to Moishe, who was sitting in the back of the jeep. Immediately the jeep reversed and approached the camel in a single movement that so agitated the beast that it pulled the rope free from the donkey's saddle (the latter gave a momentary start, as the bundles fell off its back, and immediately returned to chewing the succulent grass in the recesses of the hedge with equanimity) and shook the old man from his place with a sudden blow; terrified, he turned toward the camel and said a single word to it, a word it deserved, and how, and then he turned and clung so hard to the saddle that he became part of it, staring in alarm at the jeep that was pressing right up against him.

“Who are you, what are you, where are you from, and what do you want?” all these questions were somehow bound up in the single word that Moishe spoke to him: “
Esh
?”—What?—in a singsong with a gesture of his thumb and two fingers.

“The camel,
ya khawaja
, the belongings, let us take them and we'll go away, may blessing come upon you, let us take the camel and go…”

“
Isma
,
ya khtiar
!” Moishe said to him—listen old man!

“
Hai na'am, ya khawaja
,
Allah ya'atik, ya khawaja
.” The old man, sensing a turn for the better, became submissive and yielding, hoping and praying and ready for anything.

“Choose for yourself,” said Moishe. “Your life or the camel.”

“
Khawaja
,” said the old man in alarm.

“
Ya nafsak ya jamal
,” Moishe insisted, drawing out his syllables and furrowing his brow: “Just be happy we're not killing you.”

“
Khawaja
,” the old man was close to tears, he placed his hand on his heart. “
Allah
,” he tried to say. “
Bihyat Allah
, by the life of God,” he suddenly swore, striking his gray-haired chest, it was evident that he lacked one single great compelling word that might explain. “We're going—going,” the old man said. “We have nothing, we're leaving everything behind,” he pointed to the ground all around or to a particular house, “only a few clothes and some bedding,” his tongue ran fast, so as to compress a lot of explanation into a little time, and his hands spread, like a man before his god.

“
Yallah
,” Moishe decreed, “
imshi yallah
—get going.”

“All right,” the old man said, “all right we're going,” with a slight bow of submission that was close to a shudder, and took a few steps backward, “we're going,
ya khawaja
.” He stopped again and tried to say something more.

Aryeh fired over his head. The man was emptied of his breath and his knees trembled. He turned and groped in the air after a moment with his hands and started trudging along again. We all, it seemed, were sharing a certain unease, or else various thoughts were stirring. But then Aryeh said:

“Let me, Moishe, best to let me finish him off here. What do you want with this scum? Let them learn once and for all that there's no fooling around with us.”

“You sit here quietly,” said Moishe.

Hearing the voices, the old man turned his head, thinking that doubts were awakening that might be an opportunity to be taken advantage of, and he swiveled toward us with his little skullcap on his head, his short white beard, and his striped caftan open on his white-haired chest, and as he turned he stretched out his hands and murmured, “
Ya khawaja
.”

“
Imshi
—go,” barked Moishe in a voice not his own.

The old man went. When he reached the turn in the track he disappeared. For a moment there was a sense of relief.

“Did you ever see anything like it?” said Gaby, wiping his nose.

“I wouldn't have let him go like that … some nerve, even to come and ask,” said Aryeh. “Imagine if he'd been a Jew and we'd been Arabs!… No way! They'd have slaughtered him just like that.” You could see he had plenty more to say, but instead he uttered a single insult with a viper's hiss.

“What are we gonna do with this camel and the donkey?” I said.

“To hell with the camel and the donkey,” said Moishe, and we moved on.

We were circling the village to the south and climbing the hill when suddenly to our right the valley appeared bathed in the early light of the wintry day that was, finally, clear, blue-gold, sweeping like a wild wind or like the ocean waves crashing on the shore, shedding upon it green-brown-yellow, splashes of joy and generosity, a patchwork of fields, pathways, and their course—a tapestry of peasant wisdom, the weave of generations. We went on.

“I'm telling you it's not okay,” murmured Aryeh.

“What?” said Moishe.

“That we let that old man go.”

“Enough with that old man,” they replied.

“Enough, enough,” grumbled Aryeh, “that's the way it always is with you, but I'm telling you it's not okay, and some day you'll remember what I said!”

When we stopped in the shade of a mighty thick-canopied sycamore, whose circumference wasn't round but jagged like a star with unequal points and whose fallen leaves were rotting beneath it, dappling the ground with small patches of damp, with little rings of light, and with a sweetish smell of decay, the village was already partly visible beneath us, courtyard upon courtyard, some of them stone-built but most of them with mud huts, an absorbent abyss of enormous silence in which both our voices and shots here and there and the occasional braying of a donkey, which was broken up into a series of shrieks, along with the crackling of our wireless, sank like little crumbs that were immediately swallowed without trace. We started to peel off our warm winter clothing and to arrange ourselves comfortably, while Moishe surveyed the valley in front of us through the binoculars, not to examine its beauty. We lit cigarettes, ate oranges, and murmured words about this and that. I still had a strong feeling of being a stranger here, of being totally out of place.

“They're running, they're running,” said Moishe, “they've harnessed their carts, they've loaded their camels, and they're running.”

“The scum!” said Shmulik. “They don't have the balls to fight.”

“Oh yeah,” said Yehuda, a young cock, who fancied himself the cock of the roost, and preened himself with his knowledge of farming techniques, of seed drills and disc plows, and diesel oil, so self-confident that he didn't bother to pronounce his
r
's but said them like
h
's. “It's cleah,” Yehuda said, without a hint of speechifying, sticking out his lips and projecting his chin, “they have no staying powah!”

Suddenly we were startled by the loud sound of a shell, and a column of white smoke erupted confusedly from the bottom of the village (the silence immediately dulled the noise, but not the surprise). When we fixed our eyes on Moishe, he explained that the sappers had simply begun their work. In which case it was time for us to finish our task.

“That's all? What the hell—we haven't done anything today!” said Gaby, sniffling and releasing the machine gun.

Immediately a pair of mighty shells exploded in swift succession, looking like balloons that were inflated to enormous size with incredible speed and burst, as a world of resounding silence streamed back into the great crater that was opened up. But like water pouring into an ants' nest was the sound of the shells to those who were fleeing, and you could see them even without the binoculars, running around desperately, sounds could be heard in the distance and other sounds from the hitherto silent village, screams, frightened sounds, and several shots.

Now that we had settled so comfortably in the shade of the sycamore tree, Moishe reflected and decided that it would be better for us to pull back from this spot, and make our way to a small track bordered with half-eaten, heavily pruned jujubes whose surviving branches were strangely twisted and thrust into space with many thorns and few leaves. We reached the beginning of the track where we found a little trench dug across the way, with an abandoned position dug in its side, a discovery that aroused laughter and disparaging remarks about the naïveté, the military capabilities, and the entire idiotic existence of those who had made it. While we were still scoffing, we looked a little farther on, by the side of the wide road, along which apparently the fleeing villagers had passed, and beyond which on one side there was a vegetable garden hedged with heads of prickly pear stuck into soil mixed with rotting fruit, and on the other side, the deep gully of a wadi with grassy banks, and saw two strange figures sitting on its edge, like two owls on a branch, dark, huddled, a single piece, head and body.