Kiss of Midnight (30 page)

“And you need to address them.”

“What I need is to get some clothes on and go take a look at those pictures Gideon is uploading. If they give us enough info on the asylum’s layout, we can hit the place tonight.”

“What do you mean, hit it tonight?”

“Take it out. Shut it down. Blow the fucking thing sky-high.”

“You can’t be serious. You said yourself it’s probably full of Rogues. Do you honestly think that you and three other guys will survive going up against unknown numbers?”

“We’ve done it before. And there will be five of us,” he said, as if that should make a difference. “Gideon has said he wants in on whatever we do. He’ll be taking Rio’s place.”

Gabrielle scoffed, disbelieving. “And what about you? You’re barely on your feet.”

“I’m walking. I’m well enough. They won’t be expecting a retaliation so soon, which makes it the best time for us to strike.”

“You must be out of your mind. You need rest, Lucan. You can’t do anything until you get your strength back. You need to heal.” She watched a muscle work in his jaw, a tendon ticking beneath the sallow, drawn slope of his cheek. His features were harder than normal, too lean. “You can’t go out there the way you are.”

“I said, I’m fine.”

The words rushed out of him, a coarse rasp in his throat. When he looked at her again, his silver irises were shot with bright amber flecks of color, like fire licking through ice.

“You’re not. Not by a long shot. You need nourishment. Your body’s been through too much recently. You need to feed.”

She felt a surge of coldness sweep the room and knew it came from him. She was provoking his anger. She’d seen him at his worst before and lived to tell of it, but maybe she was pushing too hard right now. She could sense he’d been itchy and uptight, his temper on a short leash ever since he’d brought her to the compound. Now he was dangerously on edge; did she really want to be the one to shove him past his threshold of control?

Screw it
. Maybe that was just what was needed.

“Your body is beaten down, Lucan, not just from your injuries. You’re weak. And you’re afraid.”

“Afraid.” He swung an icy look at her, sneered with arctic sarcasm. “Of what?”

“Yourself, for starters. But I think you’re even more afraid of me.”

She waited for an instant rebuttal, something cold and nasty to match the wintry rage that was rolling off of him like frost. But he didn’t say anything. He glared at her for a long moment, then turned away and strode, a bit stiffly, toward a tall bureau on the other side of the room.

Gabrielle sat there on the floor, watching as he yanked open drawers, pulled out clothing and tossed it onto the bed.

“What are you doing?”

“I don’t have time to debate this with you. It’s pointless.”

A cabinet of weapons opened before he reached it, the doors swinging on their hinges with an invisible, violent jerk. He stalked over and pulled out a retractable shelf. At least a dozen daggers and other lethal-looking blades lay in orderly rows on the shelf’s velvet liner. With a careless grab, Lucan swiped two large knives in black leather sheaths. He slid open another shelf and selected a big, brushed stainless steel handgun that looked like something out of an action movie nightmare.

“You don’t like what I’m saying, so you’re going to run away from me instead?” He didn’t look at her, or even curse in reply. No, he completely ignored her, and that really pissed her off. “Go ahead, then. Pretend you’re invincible, that you’re not scared to death of letting someone care for you. Run away from me, Lucan. You’re only proving my point.”

Gabrielle felt a keen sense of hopelessness as Lucan retrieved an ammunition clip from the cabinet and shoved it into the pistol’s hollow grip. Nothing she said would stop him. She felt helpless, like she was trying to wrap her arms around a storm.

She glanced away from him, her eyes straying back to the table where she sat, at the plates and silverware in front of her. She saw the unused knife lying there, the polished blade gleaming.

She couldn’t hold him back with words, but there was something else….

She pushed back the long sleeve of her robe. Very calmly, with the same fearless resolve that had served her a hundred times before, Gabrielle picked up the knife and pressed the edge of it to the fleshy part of her forearm. A small pressure, the barest slice of the blade through her skin.

She didn’t know which of Lucan’s senses responded first, but the roar he let loose when his head came up and he saw what she had done rattled every piece of furniture in the room.

“Goddamn it—Gabrielle!”

The blade flew out of her grasp and across the length of the bedroom, embedding to the hilt in the far wall.

Lucan moved so fast she could hardly track him. One second he was standing several feet away at the foot of the bed, the next he had his large hand clamped down hard around her fingers, hauling her up to her feet. Blood rose from the thin line of her cut, juicy, deep crimson, trickling down her arm. Her hand was still caught in Lucan’s crushing grip.

He towered over her, a wall of dark, seething fury.

His chest was heaving, the nostrils flaring as his breath sawed in and out of his lungs. His handsome face was contorted with anguish and outrage, and his eyes burned with the unmistakable heat of his hunger. Not a trace of gray remained, his pupils narrowed down to the barest slivers of black. His fangs were stretched long, their sharp white tips gleaming behind the vicious curl of his lip.

“Now, try to tell me that you don’t need what I’m offering,” she whispered fiercely.

Sweat glistened on his brow as he stared at her fresh, bleeding wound. He licked his lips and ground out a word from another language.

It didn’t sound friendly.

“Why?” he demanded, accusing. “Why would you do this to me?”

“You really don’t know?” She held his feral gaze, weathering his anger as droplets of blood splattered a crimson trail across the snowy white of her robe. “Because I love you, Lucan. And this is all I have to give you.”

CHAPTER
Twenty-nine

L
ucan thought he knew hunger. He thought he knew fury and desperation—desire, too—but every paltry emotion he’d ever felt in all his ageless life fell away like dust as he stared into Gabrielle’s defiant brown eyes.

His senses were swamped, drowning in the sweet jasmine scent of her blood, its source so dangerously close to his mouth. Glossy red, thick as honey, the crimson rivulet pulsed from the small wound she had inflicted on herself.

“I love you, Lucan.” Her soft voice broke through the pounding of his own heart and the driving need that now engulfed him. “With or without blood to bind us, I love you.”

He couldn’t speak, didn’t even know what he might have said if his parched throat could form words. With a vicious growl, he thrust her away from him, too weak to be near her when all the darkness in him urged him to make her his in this final irrevocable way.

Gabrielle fell back onto the bed, the loosely tied robe barely covering her nakedness. Bright stains dotted the white sleeve and lapel. There was a red smear on her bare thigh, vivid scarlet on peaches-and-cream skin.

God, how he wanted to put his mouth on that silky wedge of flesh, all over her. Only her.

“No.”

The command came out of him, dry as ash. His gut was clenched in a vise of pain, knotted and twisting. It pulled him down. His knees collapsed beneath him when he tried to turn away from the tempting sight of her, sprawled and bleeding like a sacrifice laid out before him.

He dropped to the carpeted floor in a slump of bone and muscle, fighting back a need like he had never known before. She was killing him. This yearning for her—the shattering in his chest when he thought of her ever being with another male.

And then there was his hunger.

Never more intense than when Gabrielle was near, now that his lungs were filled with the perfume of her blood, he was ravenous.

“Lucan…”

He sensed her moving off the bed. Her feet crushed softly on the carpet and then came slowly into his view, pink-lacquered toenails like smooth little shells. She knelt down next to him. Gentle hands sank into his hair, then cupped his tense jaw as she slowly brought his head up to face her.

“Drink from me.”

He squeezed his eyes shut, but it was a weak attempt to deny what she was saying. He didn’t have the strength to fight the tender, yet unrelenting pull of her arms as she lifted him toward her.

He could smell the blood on her wrist; this close it sent a furious rush of adrenaline coursing through him. His mouth watered, fangs stretched longer, tearing his gums. She coaxed him higher, bringing his torso up off the floor. With one hand, she moved aside her long hair, baring her neck to him.

He flinched, but she held him firmly. Guided him closer.

“Drink, Lucan. Take what you need.”

She leaned forward until there was only a breath of space between his slack mouth and the delicate pulse that fluttered beneath the pale skin below her ear.

“Do it,” she whispered, and brought him to her.

Pressed his lips forcibly against her neck.

She held him there for an anguished eternity. Then again, maybe it took only a slim fraction of a second for the hook to set. Lucan couldn’t be sure. All he knew was the warm crush of her skin against his tongue, the beat of her heart, the rapid panting of her breath. All he knew was the longing he felt for her.

No more denial.

He wanted her—
all of her
—and the beast was too far gone to be merciful now.

He opened his mouth…and sank his fangs into the yielding flesh of her throat.

She gasped at the sudden penetration of his bite, but she didn’t release her hold on him, not even when he gulped in the first greedy pull from her open vein.

Blood rushed into his mouth, hot and earthy-sweet, exquisite. Beyond anything he could ever have imagined.

After nine hundred years of living, he was finally tasting heaven.

He drank urgently, deeply, need overwhelming him as Gabrielle’s quenching blood surged down his throat, into flesh and bone and cell. His pulse hammered with renewal, pumping blood into fatigued limbs and healing his recent wounds.

His sex had come alive with the first taste; now it throbbed heavy and hard between his legs. Demanding even more possession.

Gabrielle was stroking his hair, holding him close as he drank from her. She moaned with each hard tug of his mouth, her body melting, her scent going dark and humid with desire.

“Lucan,” she gasped, shuddering around him. “Oh, God…”

With a wordless snarl, he pressed her down beneath him on the floor. He drank deeper, losing himself to the erotic heat of the moment and to a frantic desperation that terrified him.

Mine
, he thought, selfish and utterly savage with the idea.

It was too late to stop now.

This kiss had damned them both.

While the initial bite had been a shock, the sharp nick of pain had quickly dissipated into something lush and intoxicating. Pleasure bloomed all over her body from the inside out, as if each long pull of Lucan’s mouth at her neck sent a shaft of warm light back into her, reaching down through her core to stroke her soul.

He covered her with his naked weight, their robes askew as he took her to the floor with him. His hands were rough as they sank into her hair, holding her head to the side as he drank from her. Heedless of any pain his injuries might be causing him, he pressed his bare chest against her breasts. His lips never broke contact with her neck even for a second. She could feel the intensity of his need in every hard draw.

But she felt his strength, too. It was coming back, bit by bit, renewing because of her.

“Don’t stop,” she murmured, speech slowed for the mounting ecstasy that was building in her with each pulsating movement of his mouth. “You won’t hurt me, Lucan. I trust you.”

The wet, succulent sounds of his hunger was the most erotic thing she’d ever heard. She loved the heat of his lips on her skin. The ungentle graze of his fangs as he drew her blood into his mouth was a sensation that was both dangerous and exciting.

She was already soaring toward a splintering orgasm when she felt the thick head of Lucan’s erection nudging against her sex. She was wet, aching for him. He drove in deep with one thrust, filling her completely with rigid, volcanic heat. Detonating her in an instant. Gabrielle cried out as he plunged hard and fast, his arms like a cage around her, clutching her tightly. He was mindless in his rhythm, a force of raw, magnificent desire.

And still he remained fastened at her neck, pulling her into a blissful, creamy darkness.

She closed her eyes and let herself float away, toward a beautiful obsidian fog.

From someplace distant, she felt Lucan buck and pound above her, his strokes urgent, his large body vibrating with the power of his own release. He shouted something harsh and went completely still.

The delicious pressure at her neck abruptly eased, then vanished, leaving coldness in its wake.

Still drifting, still awash in the heady feel of Lucan sheathed inside her, Gabrielle lifted her heavy lids. Lucan was poised over her on his knees, staring down at her as though frozen. His lips were bright red, his hair wild around his head. His feral eyes were throwing off amber sparks, they were so bright. His skin color was healthier, the network of markings on his shoulders and torso glowing a deep crimson-black.

“What is it?” she asked him, worried. “Are you okay?”

He didn’t speak for a long moment.

“Jesus Christ.” The rough growl of his voice was tremulous, a pitch she’d never heard in him before. His chest was heaving. “I thought you were…I thought I had—”

“No,” she said, giving a lazy, sated shake of her head. “No, Lucan. I’m fine.”

She couldn’t read his intense expression, but then he didn’t give her a chance. He recoiled, sliding out of her. There was a stricken look in his transformed eyes.

Her body felt cold and empty without his warmth. She sat up, rubbing off her sudden chill. “It’s okay,” she assured him. “Everything’s okay.”

“No.” He shook his head and vaulted to his feet. “No. This was a mistake.”

“Lucan…”

“I never should have let this happen!” he bellowed.

With a furious roar, he stalked to the foot of the bed to retrieve his clothes. He yanked the black camo pants and nylon shirt on, then grabbed his weapons and boots, and left the room in a tempest of seething rage.

Lucan could hardly catch his breath for the way his heart was banging in his chest.

When he’d felt Gabrielle go slack beneath him as he drank from her, a stark fear had torn through him, shredding him from the inside out.

She trusted him, she had said while he had been drinking feverishly at her neck. He’d felt the spurs of Bloodlust jabbing into him as Gabrielle’s blood flowed into him. Her voice had eased some of the pain. She was tender and caring, her touch, her naked emotion—her presence itself—grounding him when the animal part of him might have slipped its reins.

She trusted him not to harm her, and that trust gave him strength.

But then he’d felt her drifting away from him and he feared…God, in that instant, how he’d feared.

It still gripped him, the black, cold terror that he might have harmed her—could have killed her—if he’d let things go any further than they had.

Because, for all his pushing her away, all his denial, he belonged to her. Gabrielle owned him, down to his soul, and not simply for the fact that her blood was nourishing him now, healing his wounds and strengthening his body. He had bonded to her, long before now. But the irrefutable proof of it had come in that bleak instant a moment ago when he feared he might have lost her.

He loved her.

Down to the darkest, loneliest part of him, he loved Gabrielle.

And he wanted her in his life. Selfishly, dangerously, he wanted nothing more than to keep her with him for all the rest of his days.

The realization made him weave in the corridor outside the tech lab. In truth, it nearly sent him to his knees.

“Whoa, easy there.” Dante came up to Lucan almost without warning and grabbed him under the arm. “Damn. You look like holy hell.”

Lucan couldn’t speak. Words were beyond him.

But Dante didn’t need an explanation. He took one look at Lucan’s face and fangs and Dante’s nostrils flared as they picked up the obvious scents of blood and sex. He blew out a low whistle, a gleam of wry amusement flashing in the warrior’s eyes.

“You gotta be kidding me—a Breedmate, Lucan?” He chuckled, shaking his head as he clapped Lucan on the shoulder. “Shit. Better you than me, brother. Better you than me.”