Authors: Mary Ellis
Thomas stretched out his calf muscles under the warm quilt, wiggled his toes, and worked the kinks from his spine one vertebra at a time. Despite being the one at the gathering who wanted to talk until dawn, Sally had fallen asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow. Thomas thought it had been a successful socialâAmish and English coming together to celebrate a good harvest and talk of their plans for next spring. The logic many had presented for obtaining organic certification convinced him to submit the necessary paperwork over the winter. God was good. He had blessed Harmony with fine weather this day so they could enjoy one last outdoor event. Thomas was about to surrender to sleep himself when a tap at his bedroom door jarred him alert.
“Thomas, are you still awake? I'd like a word with you.”
He bolted upright at the sound of his brother's voice, and then he jumped out of bed before a second knock awoke Sally. Opening the door quietly, he peered into John's deeply lined eyes. “What is it? Can't it wait until morning?” He stepped into the hallway and closed the door behind him.
“
Nein
, it won't.” John spoke in a harsh, exaggerated whisper. “I smelled beer on Nora's breath on the drive home. She had been
drinking at the Stolls' cookout, and the only person Amy saw her with was our brother.” He crossed his arms, tucking his hands beneath his braces.
“Elam? Are you sure?” Thomas tried to clear the cobwebs from his tired brain.
“Who else in the district would do such a thing? I saw him there with my own eyes, slinking in the shadows like a fox near the henhouse. He wanted to get supper without interacting with folks.” John met his gaze and held it, expecting him to say or do something as the eldest Detweiler and a minister of the district.
Something I probably should have done a long time ago.
“Give me a moment.” Thomas crept back into the room to retrieve his robe and slippers. Then he marched down to the first floor as determination and ire rose with each step. John followed close on his heels.
How many casual conversations had he had with Elam? How many times had he gently corrected infractions of the rules without anger or judgment? He had bent over backward to tolerate Elam's continued fence-sitting while others would have been given an ultimatumâjoin us and abide by the
Ordnung
or leave to make a life elsewhere. He provided a home for his wayward
bruder
without asking for a dime from his paycheck toward food or shelter. At long last, Thomas's blood began to boil.
In the kitchen he grabbed a flashlight from atop the refrigerator and handed John the battery lantern from the peg. “Let's check his quarters before he returns from the party,” he said, heading down the cellar stairs. He had every right to discover what went on inside his houseâa house paid for with his life savings and restored by the sweat of his brow. Thomas hung the lantern from an overhead hook, and the two brothers began rummaging around the austere room.
It didn't take long to find snack food, several packs of soda pop, an assortment of car magazines, a battery-powered radio, and a
charger for a cell phone. But where Elam would plug in the thing was a mystery to them. John also discovered a pint of whiskey under the mattress and a carton of filtered cigarettes on the ledge above the washtub. He tossed those two items on the bed with the outdated library publications.
“Under my nose, in my own home,” moaned Thomas. “This is how he repays my patience and continued indulgence.” The words tasted bitter on his tongue, like grapes left too long on the vine. He swallowed hard as they heard approaching footsteps from the outside entrance.
Elam appeared in the doorway, hatless and disheveled, as if he'd run all the way back from the Stoll farm. “Looking for something specific?” he sneered. “Or are you just invading my privacy for no particular reason?”
Thomas closed the short distance between them. “You aren't entitled to privacy in my homeânot anymore, not after tonight.” He pointed at the whiskey bottle and carton of cigarettes. “You get liquored up and smoke in my house while my
fraa
and
kinner
sleep?” He didn't hide his revulsion.
Elam's brown eyes darkened to almost black. “I've never smoked in the house or enjoyed an evening nip indoors. I give in to my weaknesses away from your precious abode.”
Thomas felt no relief whatsoever. “Tonight you shared your weakness with Nora King. Is it not so?” He couldn't control the anger in his voice.
“I didn't offer it to her. She came upon me eating supper in my buggy and saw a six-pack of beer under the seat.” He shrugged with defiance. “She took a can of her own accord.”
“I suspect she drank more than one.” John spat rather than spoke the words. “I smelled it strong on her breath.”
“Like I said, it wasn't my idea she partake in the first place.” Elam moved from the doorway to the bed to assess his magazines.
Thomas narrowed his focus. “It's time you looked for another
logging job. And in the meantime, you will not bring forbidden alcohol or tobacco into my home again.”
Elam glared first at John and then at Thomas, thinning his mouth into a hard line. Yet he remained silent.
After several uncomfortable moments, Thomas demanded, “Do you understand?”
The two brothers engaged in a stare-down before Elam glanced away. “I understand,” he mumbled.
Thomas and John stomped up the steps to their beds, yet both would suffer restless sleep despite their fatigue.
Nora finally found a Sunday school lesson that didn't put her to sleep during the first five minutes. Thomas had spoken about the parable of the mustard seed. It was the smallest of all seeds, but it became the largest of all garden plants, providing long branches for birds to make their nests. She loved how Jesus taught in parables but explained what He meant to the disciples so there would be no confusion.
Now, if only they would replace these hard, uncomfortable benches in the meetinghouse.
Why couldn't this district meet in people's homes or outbuildings the way every other Amish community in America did? She'd read that Plain folk lived in twenty-eight different states, including Colorado, Texas, and Florida. Couldn't John have picked some place warm to move to instead of this wilderness?
“Are you going to slice those loaves of bread? Or do you expect people to tear off a chunk to make their sandwich?” asked Sally, studying her with interest.
The sarcasm jarred Nora back to her present circumstancesâhelping to set out the noon meal. Sally arranged meats and cheeses on a platter while Amy scooped pickled eggs and beets into bowls wearing an equally hawkish expression. Amy had watched her
every move since they returned from the pig roast, as though if she turned her back for a second, Nora might pull out a bottle of beer.
Nora giggled with the mental picture of guzzling a Budweiser in plain sight. Now the other women might fear her mad, besides a reckless drunkard. But if she admitted the truth, she didn't much care for the taste of beer. She would rather drink a Pepsi or cherry soda. It was Elam Detweiler who caused her to do crazy thingsânot by suggestion but by example. She'd never met anyone who lived by his own rules, not caring what others said or thought about him.
“Do you think your brother-in-law will show up for lunch like he did at the pig roast?” asked Nora of Sally. She sliced the whole wheat loaves uniformly and arranged the slices artfully on the tray.
“Who, John?” asked Sally. “He's standing over there by the cider barrel with Thomas.” Sally bustled around directing the ladies where to put their contributions, glowing with the success of her food lists.
Why she hadn't thought of it sooner was a mystery to Nora. “No, not John. I mean Elam.” Nora dropped the carving knife into the tub of soapy water.
Amy looked as though she might faint dead away, but Sally closed the distance between them in a heartbeat. She stood practically nose to nose and hissed under her breath, “You're in enough trouble, young lady. I strongly recommend you forget about Elam. A walk down that road will only lead to certain ruin.”
Nora opened her mouth to remind Sally of Scriptures such as: “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged.” And “Let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone.” But men suddenly formed a sandwich line, thwarting the opportunity. By the time everyone had been served, Nora had lost her appetite. She grabbed an apple and sat alone on the meetinghouse steps. No one joined her to chitchat or offer a sample of their secret recipe brownies or walnut tarts. No one liked her. She was as much an outcast
in Harmony as Elam. But at least Elam would find another job to take him away from the ceaseless boredom.
Nora bit into her apple as movement caught her eye. Lewis from the store waved and pointed at the empty spot next to him on the bench. He was eating lunch with several of his sisters. They motioned for her to join them. How the sight of him stung. He was so kind and gentle, so attentive to her. Yet one glance at his dull, drab sisters indicated exactly what lay down that roadâ¦to paraphrase Sally Detweiler. Nora grinned, held up her apple, and gestured it was all she desired. Then she left to find her sister in case Lewis decided to become persistent.
She found Amy and John with four people she didn't know. “Join us,” said Amy. “Where's the rest of your lunch? Do you want half my sandwich?” She scooted over to make room.
Nora shook her head. “No, I'm not hungry. If it's okay with you, I'll start for home.”
“Walking?” Amy looked suspicious.
“
Jah
, I'm just going home to rest. Please don't worry so much.” Nora headed toward the road. For the remainder of the day, she stayed in her room napping and praying to be released from her Harmony incarceration. She ventured downstairs only long enough to eat a tuna fish sandwich and a hard-boiled egg. No one had called her to supper. In the living room Amy sewed by the fire while the Detweilers read. Their sons played with toys on the braided carpet. Dejected and filled with self-pity, Nora climbed into her bed fully dressed and fell asleep. When she awoke a few hours later, Amy was sleeping in the other bed while a bright-yellow moon beckoned her to the window. Nora sat on the straight-backed chair daydreaming of home until something in the yard drew her nose to the glass.
Elam hauled the open pony cart from the shed into the barnyard. From her vantage point she watched him hitch the sleek, black stallion he'd been grooming the first day they met. Where
was he going in the middle of the night? It took her less than a moment to decide to find out.
Creeping silently downstairs, Nora grabbed her cloak from the peg and closed the door behind her. A mouse couldn't have made less noise.
Elam looked up as she approached, but his expression remained bland. “Aren't you already in enough hot water because of me, Miss King?”
“You haven't done anything. I only have myself to blame, if I were to blame someoneâ¦which I don't choose to do.” She stepped closer.
“That's a lot of words when a simple
jah
or
nein
would have sufficed.” He finished attaching the bit to the bridle and then faced her. “What exactly do you want out here tonight? Couldn't sleep, so you wondered what the family black sheep was up to?”
She didn't flinch or look away. “I wanted to know where you were going at midnight on the Sabbath.”
He ran a hand down the horse's mane to calm his eagerness. “It's not the Sabbath anymore. If the Harmony bishop or his ministers cared to consult Scripture, the Sabbath ended at sundown. So folks should be allowed to sow by moonlight or take a late night buggy ride if they choose. At this time of day the roads are empty of Amish buggies or English carsânothing to worry about.” Elam climbed into the pony cart as the stallion pranced. Apparently, he wasn't the only one eager to feel the wind in his hair. Elam studied her face long enough for her to grow uncomfortable from the perusal. Then he stretched out his hand. “Want to join me on the fastest ride of your life?”
Without hesitation, without consideration for the consequences, Nora looked him in the eye and replied, “You bet I would.”