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Authors: Stephanie Perkins

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“Of course I’m not!” And I’m not. I’m definitely not.
“Because he broke your heart. We’ve spent two good years hating him. Remember that sixteen-page letter you buried in my backyard? And the ceremonial tossing of the pink bottle cap into the surf at Ocean Beach?”
Yeah. I remember.
“And your boyfriend? You do remember your boyfriend? Max?”
I frown at his picture beside my bed. His picture frowns back. “Who’s leaving me to go on tour.”
“He’s not leaving you. Stop being such a drama queen, Ned.”
Except he is. Max announced at brunch this morning that Johnny had already secured a show in Southern California. The miracle is that it’s for next Saturday night, so he couldn’t have made it to our next brunch anyway. So there was no need to invent an excuse for canceling it.
“I don’t wanna talk about guys anymore,” I say. “Can’t we just rehash
Alias
instead?”
There’s only one type of television show that Lindsey and I agree on: shows that involve solving crimes while wearing cool disguises.
Alias, Pushing Daisies, Dollhouse, Charlie’s Angels,
and
The Avengers
are our favorites. My best friend is happy to comply, so we don’t talk about ANY guy for the rest of the week. But they’re on my mind.
My boyfriend. Cricket. My boyfriend. Cricket.
How could Andy put me in this position? How could he make up a dumb family outing on the spot like that? And I’m frustrated because since the Bells moved back, every important event seems to happen on weekends. School has always dragged, but it’s nothing compared to now. Endless.
And work? Forget it. I lose count of how many wrong tickets I print, wrong soft drinks I pour, wrong theaters I sweep. Even Anna—my most good-natured supervisor, someone I’ve begun to consider one of my few friends—finally loses it on Saturday when I come back from my dinner break twenty minutes late.
“Where have you been? I’m dying out here.” She gestures with her head toward the packed box-office lobby as she hands someone their change and takes the ticket order of the person behind them.
“I’m sorry, I lost track of time.There’s this thing tomorrow—”
“You did it yesterday, too. You left me hanging. There were, like, sixty people in the lobby with these screaming children and bad hair, and this one lady projectile sneezed all over my window, and it was totally on purpose, and—”
“I’m so sorry, Anna.”
She holds up a hand in panicked frustration, like she doesn’t want to hear any more, and I feel terrible. I went to a Turkish coffee shop down the block for a pick-me-up and ended up lost in my thoughts. I don’t feel picked up at all.
By the time my shift ends and Andy brings me home, the Bell house is dark. Did Cricket come home? His curtains haven’t moved. If he doesn’t show up tomorrow, will I be relieved? Or disappointed?
I plan my outfit. If this is going to happen, I need to look better than the last time I saw him, but I can’t look
too
interesting. I don’t want to encourage him. I choose a red-and-white checked top (cute) with jeans (boring). But by morning I’ve decided it’s hopelessly lame, and I change my shirt twice and my pants three times.
I settle on a similarly checked red-and-white halter dress, which I made from an actual picnic blanket for the last Fourth of July. I add bright red lipstick and tiny ant-shaped earrings for theme, and my big black platform boots because walking will be involved. They’re the sportiest shoes I own. I smooth my dress, erect my posture, and parade downstairs.
No one is there.
“Hello?”
No reply.
My shoulders sag. “What’s the point of a staircase if no one is here to watch my entrance?”
Behind me, a slightly breathless “hi
.
”
I spin around to find Cricket Bell sitting in my kitchen, and for some reason, the sight of him makes me slightly breathless, too. “I—I didn’t know you were there.”
Cricket stands, almost knocking over his chair in a rare moment of clumsiness. “I was having some tea. Your parents are loading the car. They were giving you three more minutes.” He glances at his watch. “You had thirty seconds left.”
“Oh.”
“It was good entrance,” he says.
Nathan bursts into the room. “There you are! With twenty seconds to spare.” He wraps me in a hug, but quickly pulls away and looks me up and down. “I thought you understood we were going into
nature
today.”
“Ha ha.”
“A dress? Those boots? Don’t you think you should change into something less—”
“It’s not worth the fight.” Andy pops in his head. “Come on. Let’s go.”
I follow him outside to avoid further chastising from Nathan. Cricket walks several steps behind me. It’s a careful distance.
I wonder if he’s looking at my butt.
WHY DID I JUST THINK THAT? Now my butt feels COLOSSAL. Maybe he’s looking at my legs. Is that better? Or worse? Do I want him looking at me? I hold on to the bottom of my dress as I climb into the backseat and crawl to the other side. I’m sure he’s looking at my butt. He has to be. It’s huge, and it’s right there, and it’s huge.
No. I’m acting crazy.
I glance over, and he smiles at me as he buckles his seat belt. My cheeks grow warm.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
As always, he chats easily with my parents. The more relaxed everyone else gets, the more worked up I am. We’re already approaching the Golden Gate Bridge, so we’ve been driving for . . . fifteen minutes? How can that be?
“Lola, you’re awfully quiet,” Nathan says. “Do you feel okay?”
“Is it motion sickness?” Andy asks. “Because you haven’t had that in years.”
“WE AREN’T EVEN OUT OF THE CITY. IT’S NOT MOTION SICKNESS.”
There’s a shocked silence.
“Maybe it’s motion sickness,” I lie. “Sorry. I have ... a headache, too.” I cannot believe I’m screaming about motion sickness a foot away from Cricket Bell.
Deep breaths. Take deep breaths.
I adjust my dress, but the fabric sticks to my leg, and I accidentally flash Cricket my thigh. This time, I catch him looking. His fingers are messing with his bracelets and rubber bands. Our eyes lock.
A rubber band snaps and shoots into the windshield.
Nathan’s and Andy’s heads jolt back in fright, but they laugh when they realize what happened.
Cricket’s body shrinks up in his seat. “Sorry! Sorry.”
And I’m strangely relieved to know that I’m not the only one freaking out.
chapter thirteen
 
I
t’s been years since I’ve been here, but Muir Woods still makes me feel as if I’ve stepped into a fairy tale. It’s an enchanted forest, I’m sure of it. Amid the trees are devilish wood sprites and red mushroom caps with white spots and faeries tempting mortals with golden fruit. The redwoods have the same soothing effect on me as the moon. They seem as old as the moon. Ancient and beautiful and wise.
And I need that right now.
The remainder of the drive was restless, but at least it passed quickly. The park is only forty minutes from home. After strolling the trail for a while, we split up. Nathan and Andy, Cricket and me. We’ll meet back at the car in a few hours, and because it’s not Max, my parents don’t ask me to check in with them. If I didn’t know any better, I’d swear they’re trying to set me up.
Wait. Are my parents trying to set me up?
No, they know I have a boyfriend. And Nathan hates the idea of me dating
anyone
. They must see Cricket as the trustworthy friend he is. Right?
“Is it okay if I eat this in front of you?” Cricket sounds hesitant.
We’re sitting beside the creek that runs through the park, half of the picnic spread before us. He holds up the sandwich Andy made for him. It’s smoked salmon with cream cheese and sliced avocado.
“Of course. Why wouldn’t it be?”
He points at my hummus wrap. “You’re still a vegetarian, right?”
“Oh. Yeah. But it doesn’t bother me to see other people eating meat, I just can’t stomach the thought for myself.” I pause. “Thanks for asking. Most people don’t ask.”
Cricket turns toward the bubbling creek and stretches out his legs. His pants are well-worn, faded pinstripes and frayed hems. It’s appropriate for the outdoors as far as his wardrobe is concerned, and once again, I find myself admiring his sense of style.
God, he has good taste.
“I just don’t want to offend you.” He sets down his sandwich but picks at the poppy seeds on the bread. “I mean, any more than I already have.”
A lump forms in my throat. “Cricket.You’ve never
offended
me.”
“But I hurt you.” His voice grows quiet. “I wish that I hadn’t.”
The words are tumbling out before I can stop them. “We were so close, and then you just dropped me. I felt like such an idiot. I don’t understand what happened.”
He stops flicking poppy seeds. “Lola. There’s something I need to tell you.”
The acceleration of my heartbeat is sudden and painful. “What is it?”
Cricket faces me with his entire body. “When we talked at our windows that last night,” he says, “I knew something was wrong. I could tell you were hurt, when I thought
I
was the one who was supposed to be hurt. But I was so upset about the moving thing that it took me weeks to put the pieces together.”
I draw back from him. Why should he be the hurt one?
He’d
excluded
me.
There’s an excruciating pause as his fingers tense and flex. “My sister lied. I didn’t know about the party until we got home and a crowd of people jumped out and yelled ‘surprise.’ Cal told me that she’d invited you, and that you’d turned her down. I believed her. It wasn’t until later that I realized you were hurt because she hadn’t.”
Anger swells inside of me. “Why would she do that?”
He looks ashamed. “She dodged the question, but it’s obvious, isn’t it? She claimed she was trying to do something nice—throw a party for me, not for her or for the both of us. Sometimes . . . I get overlooked. But she did it out of fear, because she thought she was losing me.”
“You mean, she did it out of spite, because she’s a bitch.” My own fury startles me.
“I know it seems that way, but it’s not. And it is.” Cricket shakes his head. “It’s been the two of us for so long. Her career hasn’t given her much of an outside life. She was scared of being left behind. And I’m just as guilty; I let her get away with acting like that, because she was all I had, too.”
No. She wasn’t.
He stares at his hands. Whatever word he wrote there, it’s been crossed off. There’s only a black box. “Lola, you were the
only
person I wanted there that night. I was crazy about you, but I didn’t know what to do. It was paralyzing. There were so many times when I wanted to take your hand, but . . . I couldn’t. That one small move felt impossible.”
Now I’m staring at my hands, too. “I would have let you take it.”
“I know.” His voice cracks.
“I had a present for you and everything.”
“I’m sure I would have loved it. Whatever it was.” He sounds heartbroken, and the sound breaks mine. “I had something for you, too.”
“On
your
birthday?” That’s so like him. There’s another sharp pain in my chest.
“I made this mechanism that could run between our windows, and I thought we could use it to send each other letters or gifts. Or whatever. It sounds stupid now, I know. Something a little kid would think up.”
No. It doesn’t sound stupid.
“It was supposed to be ready on your birthday, but I wanted it to be perfect. At least, that’s what I kept telling myself. But I was stalling. I blew it. I messed up everything.”
I rip off the end of my hummus wrap. “
Calliope
messed up everything.”
“No. She never would have been a problem if I’d told you how I felt. But I didn’t, not even when I knew we were moving—”
“You knew you were moving?” I’m shocked. For some reason, this news is worse than Calliope’s betrayal. How could he keep that from me?
“I couldn’t tell you.” His body twists in misery. “I thought you’d give up on me. And I kept hoping the move wouldn’t actually happen, but it was confirmed that night.”
He waits for me to look at him. Somehow, I do. I’m overwhelmed by sadness and confusion. I can’t take any more. I want him to stop, but he doesn’t. “I’ll only say this once more. Clearly, so there’s no chance of misinterpretation.” His eyes darken into mine. “I like you. I’ve always liked you. It would be wrong for me to come back into your life and act otherwise.”
I’m crying now. “Cricket . . . I have a boyfriend.”

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