Long Lost (Myron Bolitar) (38 page)
What else, I wondered, had been passed down?
“Please understand why I had to run,” Terese says. “She’s my daughter.”
“I know.”
“I had to save her.”
I nod. “She gave you her phone number the first time she called.”
“Yes.”
“You could have told me.”
“I know. But I heard Berleand. She isn’t worth thousands of lives to anyone but me.”
The mention of Berleand causes a sharp pang. I wonder what to say next. I shade my eyes and look back toward Carrie. “Do you understand what her life has been like?”
Terese does not look, does not blink. “She was raised by terrorists.”
“It’s worse than that. Mohammad Matar did his medical residency at Columbia-Presbyterian, right when in vitro fertilization and embryonic storage were becoming big. He saw an opportunity for a crushing blow—patience and the sword. Save the Angels was a radical terrorist group disguising itself as right-wing Christians. He used coercion and lies to get embryos. He didn’t give them to infertile couples. He used Muslim women sympathetic to his cause as surrogates—like a storage facility until the embryos were born. Then he and his followers raised the offspring to be terrorists from day one. Nothing else. Carrie wasn’t allowed to bond with anyone. She never knew love, not even as an infant. Never knew tenderness. No one held her. No one comforted her when she cried in her sleep. She and the others were indoctrinated every day of their lives to kill infidels. That was it. Nothing else. They were raised to be the ultimate weapons, to fit in as one of us and be ready for the ultimate holy war. Imagine. Matar sought out embryos from parents who were blond and blue-eyed. His weapons could go anywhere because who would suspect them?”
I wait for Terese to react, to wince. She does not. “Did you capture them all?”
“Not me. I broke up the main group in Connecticut. Jones found more information inside that house—and, I assume, some of the surviving terrorists were interrogated.” I didn’t want to think about how—or maybe I did, I don’t know anymore. “Green Death had another camp outside of Paris. It was raided within hours. Mossad and the Israelis air-raided a larger training compound on the Syrian-Iranian border.”
“What happened to the children?”
“Some were killed. Others are in custody.”
She began to walk back down the hill. “You think because Carrie never knew love before that she should never know love now?”
“That’s not what I’m saying.”
“Sounds like it.”
“I’m telling you the reality.”
“You have friends who raised children, don’t you?” she asked.
“Of course.”
“What is the first thing they’ll tell you? That their children come out a certain way. Hardwired. Nature over nurture. Parents can steer them and try to keep them on the right road, but in the end, they are little more than caregivers. Some children will end up being sweet no matter what. Others will end up psychotic. You know friends who have raised their kids identically. One kid is outgoing, one is quiet, one is miserable, one is generous. Parents quickly learn that their influence is limited.”
“She’s never known any love at all, Terese.”
“And now she will.”
“You don’t know what’s she capable of.”
“I don’t know what anyone is capable of.”
“That’s not an answer,” I said.
“What else do you expect me to do? She’s my daughter. I will watch her. Because that’s what a parent does. I will also protect her. And you’re wrong. You met Ken Borman, right? The prep school kid?”
I nod.
“Carrie was drawn to him. Despite the unspeakable hell she lived with every single day, she somehow still felt a connection. She tried to break away. That’s why she was with Matar in Paris. To be retrained.”
“Was she there when Rick was murdered?”
“Yes.”
“Her blood was on the scene.”
“She said she tried to defend him.”
“Do you believe that?”
Terese smiles at me. “I lost a daughter. I would do anything, anything, to get her back. Do you get that? You could tell me, for example, that Miriam had survived and was now a horrible monster. It wouldn’t change that.”
“Carrie is not Miriam.”
“But she’s still my daughter. I’m not giving up on her.”
Behind Terese, her daughter rises and starts down the hill. She stops and looks toward us. Terese smiles and waves. Carrie waves back. She might be smiling too, but I can’t say for sure. And I can’t say for sure that Terese is wrong here. But I wonder. I wonder about that blond teenager coming down the stairs to shoot me, about why I hesitated. Nature versus nurture. If the girl up on that hill had been genetically Matar’s, if a child conceived and then raised by crazy extremists becomes a crazy extremist, we will kill him or her without thought. Is it different because of genetics? Because of blond hair and blue eyes?
I don’t know. I’m too damn tired to think about it.
Carrie had never known any love. Now she would. Suppose you and I had been raised like Carrie. Would it be best if we were simply destroyed like so much damaged goods? Or would some of that basic humanity win out in the end?
“Myron?”
I look at Terese’s beautiful face.
“I wouldn’t give up on your child. Please don’t give up on mine.”
I say nothing. I take her beautiful face in my hands, pull her to me, kiss her forehead, hold my lips there, close my eyes. I feel her arms around me.
“Take care of yourself,” I say.
I pull back. There are tears in her eyes. I start back toward the path.
“I didn’t have to come back to Angola,” she says.
I stop and turn toward her.
“I could have gotten to Myanmar or Laos or someplace where you would have never found me.”
“So why did you choose here?”
“Because I wanted you to find me.”
Now the tears are in my eyes too.
“Please don’t leave,” she says.
I am so very tired. I don’t sleep anymore. The faces of the dead are there when I close my eyes. The ice blue eyes stare at me. Nightmares haunt my dreams, and when I wake up, I am alone.
Terese walks toward me. “Please stay with me. Just for tonight, okay?”
I want to say something, but I can’t. The tears come faster now. She pulls me to her, and I try so very hard not to break down. My head falls onto her shoulder. She strokes my hair and shushes me.
“It’s okay,” Terese whispers. “It’s over now.”
And as long as she holds me in her arms, I believe it.
BUT on this same day, somewhere in the United States, a chartered bus pulls up to a crowded national monument. The bus is carrying a group of sixteen-year-olds on a cross-country teen tour. Today is day three of their journey. The sun is shining. The skies are clear.
The bus door swings open. The giggling, gum-chewing teens spill out.
The last teen to get off the bus is a boy with blond hair.
He has blue eyes with a gold ring around each pupil.
And though he wears a heavy backpack, he walks into the crowd with his head held high, his shoulders back, and his posture perfect.
Acknowledgments
Okay, let’s start the thanks with the officials from 36 quai des Orfèvres because they are in law enforcement and I don’t want any of them angry with me: Monsieur le Directeur de la Police Judiciaire, Christian Flaesch; Monsieur Jean-Jacques Herlem, Directeur-Adjoint chargé des Brigades Centrales; Madame Nicole Tricart, Inspectrice Générale, conseiller auprès du Directeur Général de la Police Nationale; Monsieur Loïc Garnier, Commissaire Divisionnaire, Chef de la Brigade Criminelle; Mademoiselle Frédérique Conri, Commmissaire Principal, Chef-Adjoint de la Brigade Criminelle.
In no particular order but with tons of gratitude: Marie-Anne Cantin, Eliane Benisti, Lisa Erbach Vance, Ben Sevier, Melissa Miller, Françoise Triffaux, Jon Wood, Malcolm Edwards, Susan Lamb, Angela McMahon, Ali Nasseri, David Gold, Bob Hadden, Aaron Priest, Craig Coben, Charlotte Coben, Anne Armstrong-Coben, Brian Tart, Mona Zaki, and Dany Cheij.
Certain characters in this book came out of something akin to various prisms. Years ago I created them, others cast them in a different light, then still others interpreted them—and then I recreated them as entirely different beings here. That’s why I also need to thank Guillaume Canet, Philippe Lefebvre (twice), and François Berleand.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Winner of the Edgar Award, the Shamus Award, and the Anthony Award, Harlan Coben is the #1
New York Times
bestselling author of fourteen previous novels, including
Hold Tight
,
The Woods
,
Promise Me
,
The Innocent
,
Just One Look
,
No Second Chance
,
Gone for Good,
and
Tell No One
, as well as the popular Myron Bolitar novels. His books are published around the world in more than thirty-seven languages. He lives in New Jersey with his wife and four children.
New York Times
bestselling author of fourteen previous novels, including
Hold Tight
,
The Woods
,
Promise Me
,
The Innocent
,
Just One Look
,
No Second Chance
,
Gone for Good,
and
Tell No One
, as well as the popular Myron Bolitar novels. His books are published around the world in more than thirty-seven languages. He lives in New Jersey with his wife and four children.
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