Authors: Hanna Martine
His knees were wedged under her legs, lifting up her body, crunching her into the tiny space, completely at his mercy. No room to twist away or do what she wanted. No room to be anything but his.
You are you, and I am me.
And I am yours,
she thought.
Tremors started inside her vagina, and slowly, achingly radiated out through her body. She wanted to speak, to tell him what he was doing was magic, but she couldn’t find her voice. It had flown straight up into the stars.
“Don’t . . . stop,” she finally got out.
“That’s my girl.”
“Don’t stop,” she said again. And again, and again.
He obeyed, timing his thrusts to her words, until a brand new kind of orgasm, born of a secret place, stole her body and replaced it with a quivering, hot mass of skin and bone. She could feel sweat break out all over her skin, the warm night air sweeping over it, and Leith touching her everywhere. She was flying, her body weightless and sensitive. When she came down, he was still holding her, still moving urgently inside her, and it created a new fear—that this night, what he’d made her feel, had splintered her veins with cracks, and any move away from him would make her shatter.
She was still pulsing when she opened her eyes. Leith was still looking at her, but he wasn’t smiling. There was a beautiful animal inside him, a man of such strength whom she’d reduced to this driving need. Forget throwing giant weights around a field;
this
was power.
“Oh, my
God
.” He shuddered, grinding out her name between his teeth. Then he, too, disappeared into orgasm. She could feel him through the condom, and then his whole body turned shaky and unstable. She watched it all in a strange kind of wonder.
As he pulled out, wedged his arms underneath her back, and collapsed on top of her, she welcomed the weight. They clung so tightly to one another, she didn’t know if she’d ever be able to unhook her legs from around his hips, or her arms from around his neck. He crushed her, combined with her, and it was the most sacred feeling.
She felt blindsided by her emotions. She’d driven up to Gleann two weeks ago to put on a good party to help her sister and to honor the memory of her aunt, and instead she’d found . . . him. Leith. Never in a million years had she expected this. It certainly wasn’t something she’d been looking for. As Leith had put it, she had that “crazy job” that had long prevented her from even considering a relationship with serious undertones. Or maybe that had been her just making excuses.
The more she thought about it, the more she realized that how she felt now had everything to do with him. This never would have happened with another man, at any other time in her life. The timing, his presence, who they both were now—everything had aligned. It had nothing to do with orgasms and everything to do with her heart.
Ten years ago—or three years ago, or five and a half years ago—they might have tried to fit back together and found that the teeth and grooves in their respective gears didn’t quite match up. But somehow, being the people they were today, and finding each other again under these specific circumstances, the machine snapped together and ran way too smoothly.
Leith drew a deep breath as if to say something, but Jen cut him off. “If you want to live, do not say ‘I told you so.’”
As he lifted his head, the moonlight showed his feline grin. “I told you so.”
“Argh!” She futilely pressed at his shoulders. “Get off.”
“No.” He kissed away her protest, and she tried to hate that it worked. “I believe you were the one who got off. With me inside you. Just like I said you would.”
Involuntarily, her arms went around him again, the low rumble of his laugh against her chest.
He helped her dress in silence, passing her articles of clothing. All he had to do was pull up his underwear and smooth down his kilt. But she loved how it had gotten wrinkled, that his T-shirt was now crooked and untucked.
As he drove her back to Maple Avenue, she worried he might veer off the road, he kept looking over at her so much. He pulled the car into Mildred’s garage and as they got out, the sound of the Cadillac’s car door slamming brought back a forceful memory. Her, getting out of the Cadillac in front of the Thistle, then running around back to the garage apartment before Aunt Bev would wake up.
Jen turned to Leith, only to find he was already watching her from where he stood on the other side of the car, arms folded across his chest.
She knew full well what she’d told him back in New York, that they would try to make this work again, but was that a fantasy? A delusion? Had they been swept up by something way too quickly? They were two adults, standing in the small town in which they’d formed their friendship twenty years ago, so very far away from their current realities. The second they left this valley for good, would the glistening, sparkling bubble pop?
“Come on.” He walked to the trunk of the big, beautiful car, holding out his hand to her. “Now you’re allowed to sleep.”
She went to him willingly, because that’s what her heart demanded. As he folded her into his body in an embrace she could only describe as loving, she thought:
I am in deep, deep shit
.
Chapter
22
“
I
f my event next March goes off as well as these games,” Bobbie said to Jen at eight the next morning, “I’m going to owe you a whole hell of a lot.”
The last of the 5k runners disappeared down the Hemmertex drive, the Highland cattle watching the group of fifty-four competitors stream by. Bobbie, Jen’s race assistant, clutched her tablet computer in which she’d list the finishers after they wound through Gleann, struggled up the hill overlooking the lake, and then made their way back down to the games grounds. The Kid Sprint, which would circle the grounds once and award prizes in different age groups, would go off in a moment. Tons of excited kids and camera-wielding parents milled about in the sunshine.
“You won’t owe me a thing,” Jen told Bobbie. “It was my pleasure.”
And it was. Perhaps more so than planning any number of city events for big-time clients who would never display such honest happiness or personal satisfaction. Besides, Bobbie’s new convention would benefit people she cared about . . . and Gleann.
The games were such a small thing in the grand scheme of this town. Sue McCurdy and Aimee and many others had wanted to believe that just putting on the games again this year—opening the gates to the same-old, same-old—would’ve magically saved the town from falling into ruin, but Jen knew better. This was one weekend out of the entire year. What Gleann had asked her for—without even really knowing it—was long-term help. And Jen was ecstatic that she’d been able to give it, especially now that her sister and Sue and, yes, even Melissa were moving forward on new business opportunities.
Change was in the air, and it smelled wonderful. It filled her with a new sense of accomplishment she couldn’t recall ever experiencing before.
She skirted around the music pavilion—the garbage volunteers had done their job after last night, excellent—and passed the tent where the heritage researchers and kilt makers were rolling back the flaps and setting up their wares.
“Testing, testing.” Leith’s voice crackled across the athletics field, coming through the PA system she’d begged off the local high school. “What do you do with an elephant who has three balls?”
Jen cringed, throwing a wary glance at the families gathering for the foot races. She hurried for the field, intent on stopping Leith short of saying
penis.
“Walk him,” Leith mugged into the PA with an exaggerated flair, “and pitch to the giraffe. Ba dum dum.”
Low, scattered laughter came from the corner of the field where a group of fourteen men in kilts were doing squats and lunges, or stretching themselves out on the ground. Leith pointed to them, clapped for himself, and set down the mike.
“Sounds good,” she said, coming up to him. “Although I was a bit afraid where you were going to take that one. I never asked, but have you announced before?”
“Nah, but they love me. I’ll just wing it.” He winked.
They did love him, and she was positive his winging it for no charge would be far better than the drone who demanded money, whom Gleann had hired in the past.
He began to rotate his arms in big circles, mimicking what a few other guys were doing on the opposite end of the field.
Her eyes bulged. “Are you . . . warming up?”
He blinked at her, then turned in stupefication toward the place where two bulked-up athletes were launching into a slow jog around the field. “Wow. Old habit coming back, I guess.”
She didn’t say anything more, just let him process whatever was going on in his mind. He gazed at the towers to be used for the sheaf toss and the weight throw for height—two tall poles with a horizontal crossbeam rigged on ropes, able to be raised and lowered for the different events. In the sheaf toss, throwers used a pitchfork to get a stuffed burlap sack up and over the bar. In weight for height, throwers used a single arm to get a fifty-six-pound weight over the bar.
His eyes then trailed off to the side where a long white board in the grass marked the “trig,” or the front border of the throwing box for the weight for distance, and the open and Braemar stone puts. If Gleann was doing the hammer throw, they’d used that trig, too, but they weren’t. They were throwing two weights for distance that day: the twenty-eight pound and the fifty-six. The open and Braemar stone puts both used a heavy river stone, the main difference being that throwers could use any style to throw the open stone—like the classic shot put—and had to stay in a standing position to throw the Braemar.
The cabers would be thrown last, once the field had been cleared of all other equipment, and since it seemed to be the biggest audience draw.
Fifty feet away, Duncan backed a large Suburban up to the edge of the field, three cabers roped to the roof. Six high school students came running over to help him take them down and also unload the sheaves and pitchforks from the back of the cab. Getting younger volunteers—especially interested athletes—had been Leith’s idea, and it seemed to be working out splendidly.
“Duncan brought some great sticks,” Leith said next to her, breaking out of his reverie. “Excellent shape, light enough to turn so the crowd’ll be happy. None of these guys are pros, but if anyone does really well and wants to try a challenge caber, something longer and heavier, he’s got a sick one.”
She waved to Duncan, who was barking orders to the high school kids like a drill sergeant one second, then making them laugh the next.
“The guys are really excited for this,” Leith added. “A lot of them haven’t thrown together in a long time. Duncan did a great job, bringing them all together here on such short notice. Some old rivalries are heating up again. Lots of side bets. It’s going to be a good day.”
He was staring across the field, hands on his hips. Today he wore his own kilt and hose, the colors bright, the fit perfect. She gave him extra points for a clean, unstained T-shirt, too.
“It is.” She took a deep inhale of the best air she’d ever breathed, feeling it trickle into her lungs.
“Dougall!” Duncan boomed. “Get over here!”
“The boss calls.” A gorgeous smile spread across Leith’s rugged face.
“I’ll check in later,” she said, having to look away before she jumped him right then and there.
“You got it.”
She’d swiveled and was already heading to the whiskey tent to check on Shea, when she heard Leith call her name. She turned to find him jogging back up to her.
“Forgot to tell you something,” he said.
“Oh? Problem?”
“No, not at all. I, uh, I just wanted to tell you that I love you.”
Time stopped. So did the wind and the sounds of the awakening games. The thump of her heart picked up, though. Good and strong and fast.
“What?” she said.
She didn’t think she’d ever seen him smile so widely, and that was saying something. “You heard me.” He opened his arms then let them slap down at his sides. “But I’ll say it again if you want. I love you.” Duncan called him again. “And now I really have to go.”
He held her gaping stare for as long as possible before finally turning and loping over to the AD.
So it was just like that, she thought with her own hidden smile. He loved her. Again.
She could say she loved him again, too, but the warmth that spread through her limbs was not something she’d ever felt before. It was not the same emotion that had existed in their previous lives, their earlier incarnation. It was not the love that she’d spoken over the phone all those years ago. It was something entirely and wonderfully new, and she embraced it with her whole being.
On her way over to the whiskey tent, lost in a delirious haze she didn’t quite know how to navigate, she glimpsed a patch of the old fairgrounds between two cars. Not just any patch, but the center of the field, where the rugby teams were warming up in preparation for their first match. The very spot where, ten years ago, the declarative words Leith had meant as a beginning turned out to be an end.
Not this time, she told herself. Not if she could help it.
Shea came out of her tent to straighten the Amber Lounge signs that had gone crooked overnight. Jen went over to her. “How’s it going?”
“The extra glasses and napkins arrived this morning,” Shea said. “How’d you do that on such short notice and on a weekend?”
“New Hampshire Highland magic.” She winked. “They were local, is all.”
Shea surveyed the grounds in the direction of the athletics field, where a scattered few people had already set up chairs and blankets. Jen’s attention was drawn back to the fairgrounds and that patch of grass, but then someone else caught her eye.
“Don’t look now”—she nudged Shea—“but that hot rugby player from last night is staring at you.”
Shea turned to follow Jen’s line of sight to the dark-haired man who now wore shorts, cleats, and a clean, red rugby shirt. He was sitting on the grass, one well-muscled leg bent inward, the other straight out, as he stretched. But he was definitely looking up toward the whiskey tent on top of the small rise, and it definitely wasn’t at Jen.
“That’s nice,” Shea said in a flat tone. But she looked at the guy for far too long before heading back into her tent. She’d better be careful, because her curiosity was showing.
Down by the ticket entrance, the families of the kids who were about to race had massed into a big group. Aimee was down there, along with Ainsley, the number three pinned on her chest.
In Loughlin’s field, which bordered the games grounds, one of the shaggy orange Highland cattle started to cross the grass toward the crowd. Jen had no idea those things could move any faster than a lazy amble, let alone be capable of the slow jog the giant beast was doing now. It looked like curiosity had gotten the better of the animal, too, only it wasn’t as determined to hide it as Shea. The cow wore a great, clanking bell around its neck, and as it came right up to the fence, the kids got really excited and started to mill around it. That seemed to excite the cow, and it paced back and forth, opening its huge pink mouth, probably looking for food. On the far side of the field, looking only like a black blur from this distance, one of Loughlin’s border collies started to bark.
The parents tried to usher the racers back into position with one hand and take pictures with the other. Once the kids were lined up again, Bobbie shouted directions to them and pulled the trigger on the cheap plastic popgun Jen had picked up at the Gleann gas station. The kids took off in a squealing surge, no concept of pacing themselves, heading out and around the heritage tent, past the field and its lone cow, in a flat-out sprint. Jen watched with a smile as Leith and all the guys on the athletics field turned to applaud and cheer on the smaller ones, some of whom wore kilts as well.
The cow in the pasture let out a bellowing cry and tossed its horns, shaking the fringe from its eyes as it watched the kids run away. It looked like it wanted to run with them, dancing back and forth, getting closer to the fence, leaning into the posts that were already a little tilted and loose.
And then one post tilted too much, grinding up the dirt at its base. The cow hit it again as it strained to race with the kids. The post fell over in slow motion, dragging the connecting wires with it . . . and the next two posts on either side. The middle one landed completely flat, hollowing out a space in the fence big enough for even a great hairy cow with a four-foot horn span to get through. Which it did.
The freed cow trotted happily out of its field, its orange coat bouncing, heading for the route around the athletics field. Maybe it thought it was part of the kid herd. Maybe it wanted the candy and money first prize.
No no no no no, Jen screamed silently, already running down the hill, not really thinking how stupid it was to go charging
toward
an animal that had gotten loose from its pen. Then someone screamed for real—one of the moms standing at the finish line. As everyone finally realized what had happened, there started a chain reaction of panic. Even Jen, a country-turned-city girl, knew that shouting and running about with a loose animal was the wrong thing to do, but it didn’t deter anyone.
A mass of parents, arms flailing, started to run for their kids, who were still gleefully and ignorantly chugging around the athletics field.
The cow got spooked and changed course, away from the crowd and in the opposite direction. Toward the tents.
Across the field, way back by Loughlin’s house and barn, the barking of the border collie drew closer and closer. The dog was a black-and-white bullet, streaking across the scrubby grass. Out hobbled Loughlin from his barn, holding a whistle to his lips and then calling herding orders to his dog, but the smart little thing was well on it.
The cow wasn’t running, not stampeding, but it was huge and loose and panicking, and in an unfamiliar setting. It hit the heritage tent, its hooves uprooting the ropes, its horn ripping at the sidewalls. The white tent came down. Tables collapsed inside. The proprietors had already left, thank God, having come out to see why forty adults were shouting as they ran for their kids.
The cow snorted, mooed, kept going farther into the grounds. The dog barreled down on it, leaping gracefully over the downed fence, yapping its head off. The cow recognized its herder, and turned its head as the dog circled around, crouching low, pushing it back the way it had come. The dog wove back and forth, keeping the cow on track, but in its rotating path stood Shea’s whiskey tent. It went down, too, with a trip of rope and good sweep of massive orange hindquarters. From underneath the billowing pile of white came the distinct shatter of glass and a wet gurgle.