Lord of the White Hell Book One lotwh-1 (28 page)

Kiram was silent, just watching and dreading the moment Lunaluz approached the last stone wall. He didn't want to look and at the same time he couldn't pull his gaze away. A red smear colored the gray stones. He tried to convince himself that it was just mud.

Then Lunaluz leapt and soared over the wall. Javier came charging towards the finish line. His expression was set in that arrogant smile, as it often was in duels. But for an instant he glanced to Kiram and Kiram saw his entire countenance slip like a mask. He looked overwhelmed with sorrow. Then he glanced away and his satisfied smirk returned.

He and Lunaluz tore through the ribbons of the finish line a full length ahead of Hierro Fuere. The last five riders came through the line in quick succession. Kiram watched them, feeling both numb and raw. He wanted to be able to roar Javier's name in triumph, but he couldn't stop thinking of the terrible heavy thud of the roan stallion's body breaking over that stone wall and how little it seemed to have impacted anyone else. It disturbed him that a living creature could have suffered so terribly so recently and that the crowd of Cadeleonians would already be cheering and hooting.

Prince Sevanyo presented medals to the winning riders. Javier took a silver and a gold with a fixed smile. Hierro Fueres accepted his gold and two silvers with a grin that reminded Kiram a little of Fedeles in the grip of near madness. Cocuyo Helio received his gold, and a bronze medal in his brother's stead. He managed a thin smile for the prince. The remaining medals, two bronzes, were presented to a Yllar student who Kiram didn't know, but he wore a bright orange ribbon on his sleeve.

Kiram suddenly wondered what it took for a Cadeleonian to admit weakness or to express open sorrow. Did they always force a confident smile and charge thoughtlessly ahead like brave soldiers? Maybe that's what made them such great warriors, but also such terrible intellectuals.

"Are you needed for anything else?" Alizadeh once again ducked under the rope barricade and stood beside Firaj. He wasn't smiling and Kiram found it relieving to know that at least he hadn't forgotten the fallen horse.

"No," Kiram said. "Master Ignacio just signaled our dismissal. One of the grooms is already on his way to take Firaj back to the stables. After that I'm free until sixth bell."

"Good." Alizadeh said nothing more as the groom drew closer, but the tension that Kiram had noticed the first day he'd seen Alizadeh had returned to his bearing. He glanced up at the blue jays circling overhead. Kiram stroked Firaj's jaw for a few moments before handing his reins over to a young groom. The entire time Alizadeh's disquiet seemed to increase.

Alizadeh stepped closer to Kiram. "Do you know what it is that your friend Javier did to that fallen horse?"

"He opened the white hell and…killed it." Kiram glanced quickly to the bloodstained wall and then back to Alizadeh. "He had to, it was suffering."

"I have no doubt that it was a merciful killing. That is not what concerns me," Alizadeh said. His gaze flickered to the throng of Hellions surrounding Javier and he lowered his voice to a whisper. "It wasn't a hell he opened. That was a shajdi. The same one that opened this morning."

"That's what I was trying to tell you before the race," Kiram said. "I think that the white hell is actually a shajdi."

"This changes things," Alizadeh said. He turned his attention back to Kiram. "We have to go now."

Alizadeh caught his hand in a tight grip.

"But I haven't gotten a chance to talk to Javier or Nestor," Kiram protested. "I should at least tell them where I'm going."

"I'm sorry Kiram, but we do not have time to argue. Not now and not here." Alizadeh hissed a word that Kiram didn't recognize. Suddenly a throbbing sensation shot through Kiram's arm, as if he'd been stung by a bee. Kiram tried to pull his arm back from Alizadeh but a wave of numb surged through him. He stepped forward in a daze.

Kiram was aware that he walked beside Alizadeh. His body moved like some mechanism, striding ahead regardless of Kiram's will to stop. He recognized banners and bright tents as he passed them. He even heard Javier call his name. But sounds, sights and sensations came to him as if he were in the midst of another man's dream-he marched onward, little more than a mute puppet in Alizadeh's grip.

Soon he and Alizadeh reached the Irabiim camp. Horses were already hitched to wagons. Only embers and thin trails of smoke remained from the cooking fires. They were leaving.

K
iram resisted with all his will. He concentrated on flexing the muscles of his legs and digging his heels into the wet ground. Focusing all his strength, he managed to slow the strides of his body to clumsy stumbling steps.

"You willful Kir-Zakis never make it easy, do you?" Alizadeh grumbled as he dragged Kiram forward into the Irabiim camp. Irabiim women watched them with curious expressions. Young men looked away as Kiram staggered past. Rafie met them a few feet from the wagon where they had slept the night before. He glanced briefly between Alizadeh and Kiram and then scowled.

"Kiram, you swore you wouldn't try to run away," Rafie said.

"He didn't," Alizadeh replied. "At least he hasn't yet."

"Then why are you're holding him in a thrall?"

"Bait to trap for a certain duke," Alizadeh replied. Kiram had expected a different answer and clearly so had Rafie.

"What do you want with the Cadeleonian duke?"

"He opened the shajdi this morning." Alizadeh didn't release his grip on Kiram's wrist as he sagged back against the wall of the wagon. Sweat beaded his brow.

"That's not possible, is it?" Rafie asked and then he lowered his voice to a whisper. "You told me yourself that the craft of forging portals was locked away by the Bahiim."

"It was and it remains so." Alizadeh's voice was equally low. "Somehow Calixto Tornesal discovered the secret, found a sacrifice, and forged a portal. That's what the Tornesal's white hell is."

"So that's what the man on the hill is after," Rafie said quietly. "Not just a dukedom but the power of a shajdi as well."

Alizadeh nodded. "We can't allow a shajdi to fall into the hands of the Cadeleonian church, especially not the royal bishop."

Hope surged in Kiram's heart. Maybe Alizadeh would intercede on Javier's behalf after all.

"Hopefully the duke is young enough that his link with the shajdi is weak and I'll be able to break it," Alizadeh said.

Hope turned to horror. The white hell-the shajdi that powered it-was all that protected Javier from the curse. If Alizadeh broke that then Javier would die just as his mother and father had.

Kiram concentrated on jerking his arm back from Alizadeh's grasp. He felt his forearm flex. A shudder passed through Alizadeh.

"Something wrong?" Rafie asked Alizadeh.

"Ybur nephew's not any easier to enthrall than you were when we were in Hidras," Alizadeh said to Rafie.

"We're a stubborn family." Rafie glanced to Kiram. "You shouldn't fight Alizadeh. He's doing what's right."

"N…no." Kiram's lips felt like lead slabs as he struggled to form words that eventually emerged as a groan. "You'll. kill.. Javier."

"Should I fetch Nakiesh or Liahn?" Rafie asked.

"No…" Alizadeh frowned out at the distant groups of Irabiim. "They really might kill the duke. It would be the easiest way to close the portal and the Irabiim could flee to other lands before the Cadeleonians mounted a reprisal. No, we need to keep this among ourselves."

"So, what can I do?" Rafie asked.

"A draught to put your nephew to sleep would help me greatly." Alizadeh looked out past Kiram. "I don't think I'm going to have much time to prepare before the duke arrives and I'm going to need my strength."

"I'll mix a few drams of duera. That should take Kiram off your hands."

"Thank you, my dear." Alizadeh smiled and Rafie leaned close to kiss his cheek.

"Don't scowl like that, Kiram," Rafie said gently. "This is for the best, and honestly you look like you could use the sleep." Then Rafie turned and bounded into the wagon.

Kiram struggled to pull out of Alizadeh's grasp. He didn't have much time if he was going to make his escape. Alizadeh's grip tightened around his wrist and his fingers suddenly felt like brands of fire.

Be calm, Kiram. I will not harm you or your young duke. Alizadeh's voice filtered through Kiram's thoughts.

Yes, you will! Kiram could only think the words. He trembled with the frustration at his numb, mute body. He wanted to scream at Alizadeh. You'll strip Javier of the only protection he has against the curse and he'll die. He'll die in agony!

"If he no longer possesses the white hell then the man on the hill may not bother to maintain the curse," Alizadeh answered though Kiram had said nothing aloud.

You don't believe that. Kiram concentrated on Alizadeh, and the burning sensation of Alizadeh' grasp seemed to roll up from his arm to engulf his entire body. He had felt something like this, when Javier had opened the white hell for him. Javier's presence in his mind had been hot as well, but sensual and inviting. Alizadeh was a scouring flame, searing into Kiram's thoughts.

Despite the discomfort, Kiram pushed his consciousness into the scorching presence and thought hard.

I can tell from your expression. You know you're condemning Javier. You're condemning him the same way that Nazario Sagrada condemned innocent Haldiim to their deaths. You're as bad as him.

"Perhaps, but Kiram," Alizadeh looked suddenly deeply tired and Kiram was glad to have affected him, "there is more at stake here than one man's life. A shajdi is not some plaything. It is a locus where all death becomes life. It is power, pure and formless. The very soul of creation. When a shajdi comes under the dominion of humanity it changes. Over time it takes form, becoming what they will it to be. The shajdi that your friend possesses is probably already deeply corrupted by the generations of Tornesals. It is becoming the hell they have imagined it to be. If it remains in your friend's control it will bring forth the devils of his religion. He will give them form and the shajdi will give them life. They will enter our world. They will be a plague upon all living things. That must not happen. Do you understand?"

Kiram did understand, but he still couldn't accept the sacrifice of Javier's life.

Alizadeh seemed to see Kiram's resistance. His green eyes narrowed in anger.

"Do you know why King Nazario Sagrada tortured and murdered so many Haldiim, Kiram?" Alizadeh didn't wait for Kiram's response. "He and his bishops wanted to possess a shajdi. Had they succeeded in their quest they would have brought the tortures of the Cadeleonian church out into this world and conquered all nations. Countless Bahiim died to keep that from happening. We endured his tortures and we destroyed our own writings. At the very last we locked the knowledge away, depriving even our own people of the shajdi's healing powers rather than allowing them to become perverted. All those deaths, all that sacrifice can't have been for nothing. This shajdi must not become a Cadeleonian hell."

Kiram thought: But you're condemning Javier for something that he hasn't done. You don't know how he sees the white hell. I do. It isn't full of devils. It's light and beautiful. I saw a Bahiim tree there and words but nothing else. Javier isn't creating some terrible Cadeleonian hell with the shajdi. It's a refuge for him. If anything, that's what he'll make it into. A place of peace. Please, Alizadeh, you have to believe me.

For the first time Alizadeh looked uncertain.

"You have been inside the shajdi?"

Yes, Javier shielded me while I read a script that could only be seen in the shajdi's light.

Alizadeh nodded, apparently familiar with such script. Again, the burning sensation seemed to surge through Kiram's body. Unwillingly, Kiram's memory of that afternoon arose. Kiram felt Alizadeh searching through them as one might leaf through a book. Kiram struggled to escape Alizadeh's grasp before the sensations of that day-the feel and taste of Javier's body-rushed over him again. His resistance made no impact. In seconds, Kiram basked in the light of the white hell and read Calixto's words. Then he felt Javier's warm lips and insistent tongue and flushed with embarrassment, knowing that Alizadeh could see his pleasure in the sensations.

Then suddenly a chill swept through Kiram and he was once again standing in front of an Irabiim wagon. Alizadeh still held his wrist, but not with the enthralling grasp he had used earlier.

Alizadeh released Kiram very deliberately.

"All right, Kiram. I believe you," Alizadeh said after a moment. "But I still need to see the shajdi for myself. I'll need your help."

"The duera is prepared." Rafie stepped out of the wagon with a porcelain vial in his hands.

"There's been a change of plan," Alizadeh called to Rafie.

"Oh?" Rafie asked. "Well you'd better tell me about it quickly because I think I just caught sight of the duke and he looks like he has a few friends with him."

Across the open field Kiram spotted Javier in the midst of cleared the stone wall that surrounded the fairgrounds with Elezar close on his heels. Nestor followed behind them a little more clumsily. The three of them strode across the open field, heading towards the remains of the Irabiim camp.

"I'm putting a great deal of trust in you, Kiram," Alizadeh said.

Kiram nodded, overwhelmed with relief. He thought he might agree to anything if it meant that Javier would be safe. "I know and I can't thank you-"

"Just listen." Alizadeh caught the lotus medallion that Kiram wore. "Rafie and I will ask the duke to take you home with him-a little duera will ensure that you look worn out. Once you have the duke alone you'll need to convince him to allow you into the shajdi again. I'll be able to see the extent of the shajdi's corruption through you."

"And if you decide that the shadji is contaminated, then what?" Kiram asked.

"Then I'll have to strip the shajdi from the duke by any means possible." Alizadeh glanced to Javier briefly. Then he returned his attention to Kiram. "I don't want to harm your duke-"

"He has a name," Kiram said.

"Javier, then," Alizadeh conceded. '1 don't want to harm him. If I find that the shajdi is still intact, then there may even be a way that I can help him to destroy the shadow curse. But I must see the shajdi myself to know."

"If you're lying-if you're using me to hurt him, I won't ever forgive you."

"No, I can't imagine that you would." Alizadeh smiled for the first time since they'd left the fairgrounds. "Fortunately for us both I'm telling you the truth. So, will you help me or not?"

"Yes," Kiram said.

"Good." Alizadeh suddenly leaned close and lifted the lotus medallion to his lips. He whispered a strange word and a shudder passed through his body. Then he let the medallion fall back against Kiram's chest.

Alizadeh swayed and then caught himself. His face paled but his expression was calm. Rafie came to his side, placing a supporting hand casually on Alizadeh's back.

"Drink a just a little of the duera," Alizadeh told Kiram. He gazed up into the sky.

Kiram hesitated only an instant before he accepted the vial from Rafie and took a quick sip. "Now what?"

"Sit down," Rafie said. "Before you fall down."

Kiram took his advice and leaned back against the wagon as the familiar, lightheaded feeling of the duera came over Kiram. He didn't try to fight it. Instead, he watched Javier approach. He strode past groups of heavily bangled Irabiim youths and they averted their gazes. In the trees overhead crows took flight. Javier's dark eyes scanned the camp and in an instant Kiram found him staring straight at him. His intense expression softened and a slight smile curved his mouth.

Kiram lazily lifted his hand and waved. Nestor waved back at him enthusiastically and then rushed ahead of both Javier and Elezar.

"Kiram!" Nestor shouted. "We've been looking all over for you." Nestor bounded out of the way of a sleeping dog and then skidded to a stop in front of Rafie and Alizadeh. He bowed to them.

"It's good to see you again, young Master Grunito," Rafie said in flawless Cadeleonian. Alizadeh smiled at Nestor but said nothing.

"Good to see you as well, sirs." Nestor beamed at them but frowned when he turned his attention to Kiram. "You look done in."

"His arm was hurting him," Rafie said. "I gave him a little duera for the pain but I think he may need to rest as well."

"What's this? Kiram's injured his arm?" Elezar asked. He and Javier had just reached the edge of the cooking fire. Thin trails of smoke drifted from the dying embers. Elezar waved them away from his face. Javier simply stepped past. Even in the squalor of the half-abandoned Irabiim camp, an air of elegance seemed to surround Javier. Kiram tried to remind himself that this giddy enchantment was just an effect of the drug.

Javier offered Rafie and Alizadeh a cursory half bow and Elezar followed his example. Kiram found his gaze drifting back to Javier's lips and remembering the soft heat of them against his skin.

"Now what's happened to your arm, Kiram?" Elezar demanded. Kiram opened his mouth but didn't quite trust himself to reply.

"He was wounded the first day of the tournament fighting Ariz Plunado. You lost three crowns to me in the wager, remember?" Javier glanced at Kiram with a slightly worried expression.

"I remember losing the money," came Elezar's sulky response.

"My arm started to act up again this afternoon," Kiram explained.

"You should have mentioned it," Nestor chided him.

"I didn't want to be a bother."

"It's not a bother," Nestor said. "Except that we had no idea why you vanished so suddenly. I was worried that. something.had happened to you. So were Javier and Elezar."

"I'm feeling better already," Kiram said though he thought the words came out a little slurred. He straightened and addressed his uncle. "Do you think it would be all right if I went to look around the fairgrounds with my friends?"

Rafie nodded, his expression one of quiet concern.

Alizadeh turned his attention to Javier. "You are his guardian, Lord Tornesal, so I would ask you to please look after him. You must not leave him alone while he's in this state."

Javier stepped closer to Kiram. "Of course, I'll stay beside him."

"We had planned to lodge with the Irabiim this evening but obviously that will not be possible." Rafie waved his hand at the three remaining travel wagons of the dismantled Irabiim camp. "Kiram will need somewhere to spend the night."