Love Songs From a Shallow Grave (7 page)

“He did try it on with one of the Lao girls,” Sihot said. “She wasn’t interested. Or so she told me.”

“And they didn’t share a common language,” Civilai reminded them. “He wouldn’t have been able to pile on the charm. But with Dew he could communicate directly.”

“Do we know anything about Dew’s marriage?” Dtui asked. “Was it a happy one?”

Again Phosy jumped in. “She’d left him with two kids for four years. A man might take objection to being treated like a babysitter while his wife went off to play in Europe. What do you – ”

He was interrupted by a loud crunch. Sergeant Sihot had bitten into a chocolate chip and a corner of one tooth had snapped off. The policeman retrieved it from the debris and held it up proudly. His smile revealed that this wasn’t the first time his teeth hadn’t been up to a challenge.

“No worries,” he said. “Happens all the time. Teeth like chalk, my wife says.”

“Sue the bastard, Sihot,” Siri laughed. “Comrade Civilai shouldn’t be allowed in a kitchen. His wife would be only too glad to get her oven back, isn’t that right, old brother?”

Civilai blushed slightly but ignored the question and continued to gather the threads of the investigation.

“As I see it,” he said, “we already have two suspects. Not bad after only one cup of coffee and one injury. We have the playboy Vietnamese major who sweeps Dew off her feet and causes her to risk her career for an hour or two of lust. And we have the husband, torn with jealousy, who watches his wife sneak off for her tryst and then, when she’s alone, steals in to kill her.”

“I don’t think we should narrow the field so soon,” Dtui decided. “A smart young woman has lots of opportunities for an affair in this day and age.”

Only Siri caught Phosy’s expression at that moment but it was one of unmistakable fury.

“You’re right,” Civilai decided. “I think we need to focus on the fencing connection. This is Laos. We are a small country at the edge of the world. Your average Lao wouldn’t know an épée from an eggplant. I say we find anyone with a fencing background and we’ll have our murderer. He can’t be that hard to find.”

“I wouldn’t rule out foreigners either,” said Siri. “I noticed one or two fair heads strolling around K6 yesterday. We should find out which European advisors have permission to be out there.”

“Chief Phoumi has made interviewing at K6 very difficult,” Inspector Phosy conceded. “They don’t want us out there.”

“Hmm.” Civilai scratched his chin stubble. “Now
that
I think I might be able to help with. I’m having dinner with the president this evening, just the two of us. And I’ll be taking a couple of bottles of very good wine from my secret cache. I wouldn’t be at all surprised if we could wrangle the security chief’s full cooperation.”

Siri frowned. “Brother, I’ve known the president for thirty years. He’s never once invited me for dinner. What’s your secret?”

“I’m an agreeable person, Siri,” Civilai boasted. “And I know when to keep my mouth shut.”

∗

I emerge from a shallow sleep surrounded by the same type of inky darkness in which Daeng and I had awoken a few weeks earlier. A few weeks that have stretched into an infinite number of years. That night still full of hope and love. That night long before I arrived in hell. But, unlike that night with my wife’s hand in mine, this dark surrounding me holds no promise. It’s murky and hangs in the air with menace, like a vampire’s cape. I’ve endured the endless hours of brightly burning strip lights and not known whether it was day or night. I’ve begun to babble to myself. To count seconds and minutes. To recite
The Prisoner of Zenda
aloud in French, hoping it will all stave off the inevitable disorientation. It worked briefly. But now they’re screwing with my confused mind by introducing a never-ending night. Cunning bastards. Or could it be a power failure? Have the captors’ evil plans been thwarted by an unpaid electricity bill?

“
Keep it to yourself, Siri
.”

They’ve already punished me for my flippancy. ‘The Three Little Pigs’ seems to have pushed them to their limits. They haven’t beaten me or cut me with their thin bamboo canes. I have already endured those horrors alongside my unseen neighbours. It’s as if I can feel as well as hear their punishment. But my minders are depriving me even of the sensation of pain. Instead they’ve removed gruel from the menu. And, as gruel was the only thing on that menu, I am now surviving on an occasional cup of water. And my sense of smell tells me what they’ve done to that water. But, didn’t fakirs in India drink their own…?

“
Sustain, Siri. Take whatever they give you for sustenance
.”

When the lights were still burning I was able to add the modest nutrition of cockroaches to my cocktail. Steve McQueen taught me that trick
. Papillon.

“
Your time will come soon enough, Siri,” Steve tells me. “Your opportunity to die heroically. Take down six of the blackguards with you as you fight for your life
.”

Perforated postage stamps with my face peering out. Primary school textbooks telling of the day Siri took down twelve, no, fifteen armed guards as he fought for his freedom. Siri the hero. A band around his head. “Fifteen in one blow.” The year 2010. “Yes, my grandfather knew Dr Siri Paiboun. He massacred entire armies with his bare hands. They finally finished him with a poisoned épée through the heart. It was the only way you could bring down a Siri
.”

I have been catching myself more frequently engaged in such prattle, but I can only blame that Siri fellow. No self-control. Showing weakness. I’m open to attack. My protection against the
phibob
is gone but they haven’t yet come. They haven’t begun to torment me into harming myself, or stopped my heart from beating as they do to the day labourers in their sleep. Busy, no doubt, troubling the souls of all those who are dying in this school building. This rotten school building
.

“
A school? Surely a school is a place for growing…for acquiring. Surely a school should be a step forward, not a step back. A place for giving life a kick-start, a push, a roll. Surely a school shouldn’t be the last place you see in your life?
”

“
I was a teacher,” the smiley man said in his neat but unexpressive French
.

Surely not here. Surely not in this ‘end of everything’ high school
.

“
I learned more as a teacher than I ever did as a pupil,” he said. “I learned that students need guidance and sometimes that guidance has to be cruel in order for it to be effective
.”

“
I’m not your student,” I told him. “I’m your superior
.”

Yes, I’m the grand emperor of knowing when to keep my independent mouth shut
.

“
If that’s true,” said the man. “Why are you in chains while I am free to walk out?
”

“
Because you’re a despot,” I told him, “and despots act out of panic. History shows us that a tyrant’s reign is short because it’s conducted in an atmosphere of fear. You’ll always be looking over your shoulder. You’ll always make mistakes. Despots invariably end up with a burning poker up their rear ends
.”

The smile on the face of the smiling man sagged momentarily. Then, from the cloth bag over his shoulder he produced another sheet of paper and another pencil. He held them out to me
.

“
My student,” he said, “you would be surprised how few people in here get a second chance. But I believe that even the most naive student wouldn’t fail to learn from a mistake. And so I am giving you a second chance. If you get it right this time it will make your passage to freedom very simple. I can even give you the answers to your examination questions and you can walk from the room with a degree and honours
.”

I had to laugh at that. I said, “Great master, tell me the answers. Show me the light
.”

The last of the unconvincing compassion drained from the man’s eyes
.

“
You are a foreigner,” he said. “And we don’t want to involve you in our struggle. All you need to do is write what my superiors want to read and you are free to return to your country
.”

I took the pencil and paper and sat poised to write
.

“
I’m ready, oh masterful one,” I said
.

“
All I expect is that you tell us your real name and describe in detail when the Vietnamese first recruited you as a spy. Tell us the name of your coordinator in Hanoi and what information he told you to gather. As simple as that. You write it. We file it. You go home
.”

I did my best to match the man’s smile tooth for tooth. And, yes, I did, I considered writing his confession. I wondered what the odds were of being released if I made up a story and names and places. But, deep in my soul, I knew there was no point. They could either execute me as a confessed spy or just shoot me or torture me to death as the fancy took them. I’ve heard and seen too much of what they’re doing here. I will never see the outside of this school
.

“
Any chance of a bit of lunch before I start?” I asked. “Writing fiction can really take it out of a person
.”

The man sighed and carried his heavy smile to the door. He stood there and watched me tear off strips of paper and put them into my mouth
.

“
It has no nutritional value, of course,” I told him between mouthfuls. “And all that glue and chemicals won’t do me a lot of good. But it should quiet the grumbling in my gut for an hour or two. If I close my eyes it’s just like eating noodles
.”

The smiling man slammed the door behind him
.

It’s dark now and I feel an ache in my stomach. I wonder whether it’s dark because I ate my homework and I’m being punished, or because the world has come to an end and there’s nobody to turn on the power. And as I lie back contemplating being the last person on earth, starving to death in a classroom, something moves in the darkness and takes hold of my hand
.

∗

“…and he was dead.”

“He was dead?”

“Completely.”

“He was dead?”

“Is your needle stuck?”

“What happened to the Hollywood ending?”

Siri and Daeng lay on their mattress. It was one a.m. Whatever bribes needed to be paid to whomever on the Thai side of the river had been paid and the street lamps burned yellow there. The glow shimmied across the Mekhong and crawled up the Lao bank. Despite the drizzly clouds that masked the starry sky, there were no longer any completely black nights. Even by the dim light that filtered through the rose-patterned cotton curtains Siri could see his wife clearly and she could see him. There would be no mistaken identity on that bed.

“It wasn’t a Hollywood film, dear husband,” she reminded him. “It was pure Chinese propaganda and Wei Loo was dead as a beefsteak by the end of it.”

“But Ming Zi had spent two hours looking for him.”

“Tough! It epitomised the futility of false hope.”

Siri sat up on his elbows and was starting to wish he hadn’t chosen this time to have Daeng tell him the story of the movie he’d missed,
The Train from the Xiang Wu Irrigation Plant
. He couldn’t hide his devastation.

“But what’s the message?” he asked. “Struggle, struggle, struggle and you’ll end up with a dead boyfriend?”

“All right. I’m not quite at the end of the film yet. Wei Loo had died constructing a dam. We get this in flashback through sepia lenses. There’d been a freak flash flood and he’d rushed to the site, rescued all his colleagues, and sacrificed his own life to prevent the dam being washed away. Once she’d recovered from the shock, Ming Zi understood there was more to life than personal relationships. She realised that love for a mega-project and the development of the country was more satisfying than mere love for another human being.”

“Rot.”

“She found solace. As, coincidentally, she was also a qualified hydroelectric engineer, she applied for the position of project coordinator on her fiancé’s dam. Of course she didn’t play the sympathy card. She didn’t tell anyone who she was. She was appointed purely on her qualifications and experience. She was a conscientious worker, very popular with the men and women under her. But on the eve of the grand opening of the new dam…”

“Oh, don’t tell me.”

“…there’s another storm and another unprecedented flash flood.”

“Which had been precedented.”

“Exactly.”

“And Ming Zi saves the planet.”

“Just the dam and twenty comrades.”

“Of course she dies?”

“Penultimate scene.”

“Holding a red flag?”

“She was underwater but she held on to it.”

“And the closing scene?”

“The grand opening of the Xiang Wu Irrigation Plant with the lovers’ photographs displayed on easels on either side of the starter button.”

“Reunited in death. Oh, I wish I’d seen it.”

“Everyone was in tears.”

“I bet.”

“Even the Chinese ambassador and he’d seen it twice.”

Siri sighed and rolled off the bed.

“If only life were a film,” he said. “Birth, life, love, adventure and death in under two hours. Nothing superfluous. Succinct, simple dialogue. Nothing boring. No roles for characters outside the main plot.”

The window was open and rain dribbled down from the top awning in strings of pearl droplets. Through them he could see Rajid sitting on a stool under the umbrella on the river bank.

“He still there?” Daeng asked.

“At least he’s under the umbrella now.”

“Did he eat his supper?”

“I can’t see the plate. Do you think he ever sleeps?”

“What’s he doing?”

“It’s dark but if he’s doing what I think he’s doing, I don’t think you’d want to know.”

“Virile young man, isn’t he?”

“Very.”

He was about to make a comment like, “Perhaps we should find him a girlfriend,” but it occurred to him he was slowly sliding into the role of auntie to the masses since he’d married Daeng. He wanted to help everyone; Mr Geung, Phosy and Dtui, the Hmong, the starving people in Bangladesh, whales, and now here he was fretting over a street Indian. How would he ever find a mate for a non-speaking, self-abusing flasher from Delhi? Not even beautiful Ming Zi with her perfect skin could find true love. Siri started to wonder whether he was the only lucky romantic on the planet. No, he couldn’t find romance for Rajid but he could attempt to replace the blown fuse in the relationship with his father. A young man shouldn’t go through life hating someone who loves him. Siri had attempted to talk to Rajid before but not with any great belief in his own ability. Now, after several evenings with Sartre he was beginning to believe anything was possible, or at least, that if he didn’t solve problems himself, nobody else was going to solve them for him.