Love To Luv (11 page)

             
To be
fa’real
, I wouldn’t mind being your friend. Me, myself, I am looking for a little more but I can accept what you have to offer a
nigga
. I see you said in your letter that you don’t have
a sexuality
. I’m cool with that. Who knows maybe when I get out me and you could hook up and I could show you what type of
nigga
I am for real.

             
If you ever seen me on the street, you would swear I wasn’t bi cause I’m something like a street
nigga
when I am out there. You said in your letter that as we keep writing there is another side to you. Well I want to try to see that other side.

             
You said that you have giving dick as well as taken dick. You sound like an animal in the bed. I am not a slouch. I have an eight inch penis that is four inches thick. I don’t know if you are man enough to take that from a person that has been locked up for six years. That could cause damage if use right and I never had any complaints yet. You know what they say about a Virgo. We are very good in love making.

             
Yes, I am 26 years old. My birthday is 9-7-80. I will be 27 next month. But this is something I must ask you. I’m saying this, if we continue to write one another for a minute and say if we happen to lose touch is there anywhere possible that I could come see you when I touch them street. I am moving back to Mississippi once I am released.

             
Every sense I saw your picture, it is like it did something to me. I have to get up with once I am out. I know you think something might be wrong with me but what could be wrong with
a 
nigga
that just need to see you.
If anything, a
nigga
crazy for not wanting to fuck with you.

             
So to let you know I have 21 more months to go before I am free. Plus to let you know, I am doing
a
18 year sentence for trafficking drugs and robbery. I have been lock down for 6 years. I had to do 43 months on 18 years but they gave me a 36 month flop. So the next time I see the parole board they are going to let me go I’m not mad at them doe cause you have to pay for what you do so that’s what I’m doing. It all comes with the life you live. You just took the right turn in life. Not saying that you’re not hip but my life was rough. I had to get it how I live and don’t anyone
wants
to go without. You feel me?

             
             
             
             
             
             
             
Well until next time.

             
What’s happening with you? Sorry for not hitting your right back. My job in here only pays me $8.00 a month. So I have to choose carefully how I spend it. One month I have to spend it on hygiene then I have a month where I try to treat myself to a box of chicken or can ham. This month was that time to do that. You have nothing to worry about because I am always going to find a way to respond to your letters.
Ya
Dig?!

             
You say I act like I don’t want to be around. That shit you can save. If it was up to me we wouldn’t have to go through a friendship stage first. We would already be a couple. I am saying that this, don’t mix me up with them
niggas
you use to fuck with. I am not trying to play with your feelings. That’s what’s wrong with you. You are scared to open up to a
nigga
because in your eyes we are all the same. But we both know that’s not true. See I look at life totally different from most people. I see is like this, life is a chance. That’s why I’m not scared to take a chance. See like you said in your letter, you talking about dropping a
nigga
and not thinking anything about it. So you look at this as being a hobby. I take this shit to the heart. If I don’t want anything to do with you, do you think I would be asking a
nigga
for stamps so I could write you
back.
That’s going against what I believe. I hate asking a motherfucker for anything. So miss me with that.

             
Now back to this about me getting out and getting my first piece of you. Right – that’s what I’m hoping that it cause some damage because that’s what I am going to cause. So don’t let that be you to catch what I’m going to bring.
That thug passion to.

             
Thank you for telling me happy
b’day
.

             
So you are planning to move again. I hope not because you can believe I’m coming to see you for sure. To be honest to you about your picture, it just showed me your sexy eyes and face. I would love to see more with you standing up from the back and some more of your sexy face plus my dick is getting hard thinking about you sending me a picture of your backside. It look like the way you are squatting, you have a nice ass too. Don’t worry, them 21 months going to fly because you going to feel me. You can mark that in your book.

             
Well that something you don’t have to worry about. Once I fuck you I am going to continue to do just that, hopefully forever.

             
Yes, it was armed. But that me I am going to leave behind me. This is no place for anyone.

             
You know what, I can say this to you, I am going to keep the dick to myself but I don’t know if I can keep my hand off of it. But to feel your tight pussy, I just may do that. Why you teasing me like that. You make me want to play with it now.

             
Well I’m sending you this
pic
of me. What do you think about me with dreads? Don’t be mad if this is not a good
pic
cause I was going through my “don’t give a fuck stage” in it.

             
Also, miss me with that dude shit. Save that for them white boys. Oh and if it is not a problem I would love to hear you voice sometime.

Your friend for now

Joe

             
What’s going on with
you
baby boy? For me myself, just sitting here reading your letter and enjoying every minute of it. Baby, it’s no need to apologize.
Especially when you are doing something to benefit you.
So I can accept that from time to time. Just don’t forget me. I really want to get to know you a little bit better.

             
But as far as all that partying you need to slow your role on that. You trying to say that grad school
is
kicking your ass.
N’all
that’s you trying to do too much.
If you let one of them go, you wouldn’t be so tired.
Ya
feel me?

             
I feel you when you say you need to know what I want out of a relationship. Well first I want you but I also want someone I can love and be able to come home to after a long day of work. Someone I can grow old with and every morning when I wake up and roll over to look into my mate’s eyes to tell him or her how much I love them and how special you are to me and thank the Lord for sending you into my life. That is what I want in my relationship.

             
Plus, I respect where you are coming from – meaning you are not ready at this point of time to jump into another relationship after being in one for so long. But I am also saying don’t let a good thing slip between your fingers because you not willing to open up at this time. I can say I’m not here to bring pain into your life. I am just trying to being the love back. I am a man of word baby. I’m not going to ever do anything to hurt you because when you hurt that only make me feel the same. So why do something to bring pain into my heart.

             
In your letter you ask me how I want it. Well I want it in all position possible. You kind of got me afraid. You sound like you are an animal in the sheets. I can’t wait to find out then we will see who is too much. When I read what you were saying in your letter – that sound good as hell. You really know how to turn a brother on. My dick was so hard I hard to relieve myself on your
pic
.
Especially the one with you going to your slide door.
You look good when you are sleep too.

             
So how long I have to wait before you tell me
your
secret.

             
Baby, I am going to send you another
pic
whenever I get some more money. It’s kind of rough on me right now. When it gets better you will know I am going to send you a card with that
pic
. It seem like sense I been locked up, things are out of sync and out of mind. I don’t like kissing motherfuckers asses because I feel if someone going to do something for you they should do it without you asking them. They know how this place is. You have to have money to make it in here.  

Your friend – soon to be man

             
What’s up with you? For me
myself
trying to maintain and stay focus. Well I hope and pray my letter get to you in the best of health and spirit. I must say you placed a smile on my face when I received you letter tonight.

             
First and foremost let me say don’t be putting me on freeze like that
cause
you made me think I ran you away. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to pick my pen up and drop you a couple of lines but I can’t stand rejection. I care about you enough to let you live your life. Let me tell you that you have my feeling caught up with you. Don’t keep trying to pull them disappearing acts on me. Either you going to be with me through this or you are not. I would love for you to be with me but only you can make that choice.

             
So you
still calling
me that dude shit. You love to get under my skin.

             
Boo you are working with a school full of freaks. They are off the change up in there. But fuck them as long as my
baby don’t
get caught up in any of that shit – I’m straight.

             
So you say that you are ready to be in a relationship again. I am saying this – I’ve been ready to be with you. But I am not trying to rush you into anything either. Know this one thing, I’m going to be here so if you need some more time that’s cool.

             
I just want you to know that you are all I think of and I can’t wait to be released so I can come home to you and show you the love you have been missing. You deserve someone that is going to treat you like you need to be treated and this is with much love, my love.

             
I am going to hold you on your word when you said that you were going to slow down on your partying. Baby I don’t want anything to happen to you especially when you are out there drinking and then driving home and shit. But
you flirting
with other
niggas
and shit, that don’t upset me. Just don’t give up any of “my goods”. Plus when they be trying to send little hint, tell them to miss you with that rap shit. Baby, look why want you send me some pictures of you in some thongs so I can make love to you and hang them on my bed so when I wake up in the morning you will be the first one I see. You said you were going to send me some money, which I would really appreciate. You said you had to pay your car note. Baby always handle your business first cause I don’t want you to think that what I’m writing you for cause I have been roughing it out this long so whatever you do foe m is a blessing from your heart. If you ever do send me some money you have to have a postal money order and you cannot have it in there with your letter.

             
But other than that for you to be partying like you do, you are doing well in grad school. You say you made 1 A and 3 B’s. Wish they all could have been A’s. That is cool. The next time you go back you are going to do better I already know you are. So when I’m I going to hear your voice. At least let me call you once a month if that is not asking too much. But if that is going to being another bill into your life, I’m cool with writing you cause I will hear you voice for sure one day. You can believe that. Might hear it too much sense we are going to grow old together right? I am going to see if you are going to write right back. Don’t have me looking for mail next week and don’t receive any.
             
So do this one thing for me if you do get caught up with your job and school work, ask both of them can I have just 10 minutes of your time.

             
Well I am out – your friend soon to be man

Joe

             
What’s going on with you?
Besides you thinking of me and me thinking of you.
I received your letter tonight and I must say you kept your word. Meaning you wrote me right back. That tells me a lot about your feelings for me. But I feel the same way.