Lynna Banning (6 page)

Jessamyn felt the blood drain from her upper torso. Suddenly dizzy, she dropped the pad and grabbed for the edge of Ben’s desk. “How horrible.”

“Sorry you asked?”

“Yes,” she murmured. “I mean, no! How else am I going to find out what’s happening?”

“Know what my father used to tell me? ‘Keep your eyes and ears open—”’ He leaned toward her and lowered his voice “’—and your mouth shut’” He looked as if he especially relished the last part.

Jessamyn winced. His barb hit home. Very well, she’d do things his way. “Just one more question, Sheriff.” She mustered as steady a tone as she could manage. “What are you finding out about my father’s murderer?”

Ben studied her for what seemed an endless minute. “Damn little that’s for publication.”

“But what are you
doing?”
she persisted.

Goaded by her tone, Ben answered without thinking. “I’m going to talk to Black Eagle.”

Jessamyn gasped. “About my father?”

“Maybe. Don’t know yet.”

“Where does this Black Eagle live?”

Again Ben studied her. “In the mountains. Two days’ ride.” He stood, upending the cat, and scooped her notebook up from the floor. “Now, why don’t you go on down and talk to Mrs. Frieder—find out when her baby’s coming.” He thrust the paper pad into her hand.

“The Frieder baby’s due in July,” Jessamyn retorted. “I’ll go with you to see Black Eagle.”

“Like hell you will.”

“But you said… How can I keep my eyes and ears open if I’m not
there?
No good reporter relies on hearsay.”

“Can you ride?” His voice rang with impatience.

“A horse, you mean? N-not really, but I’m sure I could learn.”

Ben chuckled. “Not damn likely. Not by sunup tomorrow.”

Jessamyn straightened to her full height and looked Ben Kearney straight in the eye. “Try me.”

She’d never been on a horse before in her life, but she’d never admit that to Ben. She was a Whittaker. If she had to fly to the moon to get her story, she wouldn’t give up until she felt the green cheese under her feet.

“I challenge you, Sheriff. I challenge you to try me! Today. This very minute.”

Ben resisted the urge to laugh out loud at her naive suggestion. Learn to ride in one afternoon? Impossible. She was so green she didn’t even know it
was
impossible.

“Mr. Kearney, did you hear me? I said—”

“I heard you,” he said, his voice quiet. On the other hand, he reasoned, maybe it would shut her up for a while. If she tried it, found how difficult it would be for a greenhorn to master a horse, he’d be rid of her. For a few days, anyway.

The idea had definite appeal. The more he considered it, the more sense it made.

“Miss Whittaker, meet me at the livery stable in ten minutes. And better stop by the mercantile on your way. Get yourself a shirt and some denims and a pair of boots. Otherwise, you’re gonna get corral dust all over those fancy starched petticoats of yours.”

Without another word, he grabbed his hat and strolled out the door, leaving it open behind him. When he reached the planked sidewalk he began to whistle.

Bet my money on a bobtail nag…oh, doo dah day.

* * *

“Mr. Freider,” Jessamyn said when she could catch her breath. “I need a shirt—one of those plaid ones on the shelf will do—a pair of denims and some boots. Small ones.”

Otto Frieder’s bushy eyebrows lifted. “For yourself?”

At her nod, the storekeeper’s eyes popped. “Miss Jessamyn, what you going to do?”

Jessamyn took a deep breath and hoped her voice would sound reasonably steady. “Learn to ride a horse.”

Otto stared at her. “Anna-Marie!” he shouted. “Come quick! Miss Jessamyn needs—”

Anna-Marie’s rotund figure appeared beside her husband’s. Obviously she’d been listening from behind the curtained doorway. Jessamyn gave her as much of a smile as she could manage.

“For you, I think maybe small-size shirt, like for older boy. Trousers…” Anna-Marie turned away and pulled a garment off the shelf. “These. And will need a belt. Men are not built so…” With her hands she traced a shape in the air. “So…in and out.”

Jessamyn unfolded the blue denim jeans, fingered the metal buttons that closed the front. They looked complicated. How did men ever…?

Instantly she banished the thought. Heavens, whatever would Miss Bennett say about the direction in which her mind wandered?

“Come.” Anna-Marie beckoned. “You try on. Otto,” she called into the adjoining room, “find some boots for tiny feet. And, please, a belt.”

The shirt—a man’s size, since smaller, boys’ sizes were not in stock—hung off Jessamyn’s shoulders and drooped past her wrists. At least it buttoned decently over her chest

Cinched up with the wide black leather belt Otto handed through the curtain, the jeans hugged her bottom and thighs. The boots he thrust after the belt scrunched her toes together, but the storekeeper insisted the leather would soften and stretch with use.

“Too loose, will make blisters,” he admonished. “These just right.”

Jessamyn took a tentative step and winced. Just right? Maybe for someone who was used to such contraptions. Had she gotten them reversed—the left boot on the right foot? She glanced down. Her boots looked like all the other boots she’d seen in town. She’d bet they didn’t
feel
like all the others, though. Or did people in Wildwood Valley simply smile through their daily suffering?

Otto beamed at her. “I put on your account, Miss Jessamyn. And will send your other clothes over to your home.”

“Thank you, Otto.”

“What now you do?”

Jessamyn smiled at the concern in his eyes. “I—I guess I’ll walk over to the livery stable.”

The storekeeper bobbed his head and headed for the front of the store. Taking a last look at Jessamyn, he disappeared out the door, the bell over the entrance jangling as the sound of his steps receded down the board walkway.

Anna-Marie lumbered to the candy counter and emptied a scoop of ginger drops into Jessamyn’s trembling hand. “For luck,” she whispered.

Jessamyn slipped the candy into her shirt pocket. On impulse, she hugged the bulky young woman. With all her heart, she wished she could trade places with Anna-Marie at that moment. She would gladly waddle about the mercantile with a swollen belly, even endure the pain of labor and childbirth, if only she wouldn’t have to climb up on a horse.

A cold sweat started between her shoulder blades. Horses terrified her. So frightened she could barely swallow, she spun on her heel and clumped out the door in boots that squeezed her toes like pincers.

After a half-block walk toward the stable, she knew why cowboys always rode horseback. They’d do almost anything
to take the weight off their cramped feet! She worked at not limping.

The main street appeared to be deserted. Both the doctor’s and the undertaker’s offices had Closed signs in the front windows. Even the barbershop was empty, the door shut and bolted. How odd, she thought as she strode onward. It was Monday afternoon. Didn’t men usually visit the barber for haircuts and shaves before a night in town?

Oh, Lord, you don’t suppose…

A gangly boy of about ten raced past her. “Hey, mister,” he yelled. “That tenderfoot lady from back East’s gonna try to ride a horse! Everybody’s gonna watch—come on! You’re gonna miss it!”

Jessamyn groaned out loud. Word of mouth spread like wildfire in a town this size. How she longed for the anonymity of civilized, populated Boston.

A vision of the coming ordeal flashed into her mind. A crowd gathered—like the ancient Romans at the Colosseum—to watch a spectacle. Only this wasn’t Rome, it was the livery corral in Wildwood Valley, Oregon, and
she
was the spectacle! She wondered if Ben Kearney had spread the word about town just to make the challenge harder for her. Would he stoop so low?

He would, she decided. She recalled the satisfied grin on his lips when he sauntered out of the sheriff’s office in that maddening, unsettling walk of his. That snake! She’d lambaste him the first chance she got. She’d blister him with words he’d never forget. She’d—

She’d learn to ride a horse, that’s what she’d do! That would show him. She wasn’t going to let Ben Kearney have the last word. Even in jeans and torture-chamber boots, she was still a Whittaker.

And a Whittaker, she reminded herself with a little half sob of fear, never gave up.

B
en eased his back against the split-rail fence around the stable corral and crossed one boot over the other. Satisfied with the private arrangement he’d made with liveryman and blacksmith Dan Gustafsen, he inhaled deeply.

He’d known Gus from his army days in Dakota Territory after the war. The big, quiet Norwegian had fought for the Union, but when hostilities had finally ceased, Gus had set politics aside. When Ben met him in Dakota, he found he could deal with him man-to-man. Both had been officers; both had been wounded. Gus wore a black patch over one eye.

“Pick a horse that’s not mean,” Ben had requested. “Just not too tired, if you take my meaning.” From the looks of the skittish bay dancing at the end of Gus’s rope, the stable owner had indeed taken Ben’s meaning. The horse was a beauty—sixteen, maybe even seventeen hands, a gelding with intelligent eyes and a precise, proud gait.

And, Ben could see at a glance, definitely not tired. He watched Gus pull the cinch tight, then give him a surreptitious nod. Even though he trusted Gus’s judgment, Ben’s gut tightened into a hard knot.

Townspeople began to gather along the perimeter of the fence. Ben nodded to Doc Bartel and the short, nervous undertaker, Zed Marsh, the physician’s constant companion.
He tipped his hat to Addie Rice and, a few yards beyond the seamstress, acknowledged two of the girls from Charlie’s Red Fox Saloon. Addie must have closed her dressmaker’s shop to witness the fun. Ben surmised the girls from Charlie’s were losing money, too.

Silas Appleby heaved his rangy form onto the fence next to Ben and hooked his boot heels over the lower rail. “I hear that newspaper lady’s a looker,” he remarked. “Since I’m in town, I thought I’d just as well check out the rumors.”

“You’re practically a married man, Si,” Ben reminded him.

“Hell, Ben, can’t hurt to look!” Appleby jammed a cigarette between his lips and flicked a match against his thumbnail.

Otto Frieder picked his way through a gaggle of young boys in various sizes and shapes and settled on Ben’s other side. A frown worried his shiny forehead. “You think Miss Jessamyn be all right, Sheriff?”

Ben fought a momentary pang of guilt at Otto’s question. He trusted Gus’s horse savvy. Jessamyn wouldn’t get hurt—not seriously, anyway. Just enough to bruise her backside a bit and open her eyes to the fact that she wasn’t riding into the hills with him tomorrow. Or any other day, for that matter. From what he had observed, hearsay had always been plenty good for most newspaper editors. Why should she be any different?

Because she’s Thad Whittaker’s daughter, that’s why.
Hearsay was never good enough for Thad; that was probably what got him killed.

“She’ll be all right, Otto,” Ben assured the stocky storekeeper. “I’d worry more about the horse if I were you. Miss Whittaker finds it difficult to take
no
for an answer.”

Silas chuckled. “Looks to me like that gelding might have the same trouble!”

Ben watched Gus turn away toward a commotion at the far end of the corral yard, then glance back to catch Ben’s
gaze. The skin around the wrangler’s one good eye crinkled in amusement.

Jessamyn crawled through an opening in the fence and sidled stiff-legged toward Ben, her backside hugging the fence so closely he could have sworn she’d pick up splinters on her rear.

“Sheriff Kearney?” Her words came out in a throaty whisper. “Is—is that the horse?”

“It is. Ready to mount up?”

Jessamyn licked her lips. “Isn’t it awfully big?” She kept her gaze riveted on the animal in the center of the corral yard.

Ben shrugged. “Some are, some aren’t. This one’s about normal.” For some reason, an unexpected pang of sympathy stabbedinto his chest. She looked terrified.

“I want you to know, Mr. Kearney,” she said in that same breathy whisper, “that I am not f-frightened in the least.” Again she ran her tongue over her lips. “Not even a little b-bit.”

She poked her chin into the air and visibly straightened her spine. “But if I—or rather,
when
I live through this, you p-puffed-up, know-it-all snake in the grass, I’m going to make your life so m-miserable you’d wish you were back in that Union prison in Illinois!”

She stomped away toward Gus.

Silas guffawed. “Puffed up? Why, imagine that!” He slapped Ben on the shoulder. “’Makes you sound like one of Ella’s banty roosters. My, that little eastern lady has got some spit and vinegar!” Chuckling, he settled back to watch.

Spit and vinegar wasn’t all she had, Ben noted, watching Jessamyn’s jeans stretch tight over her derriere as she marched up to Gus. The wide black belt pulled the toolarge waistband snug around her middle, and the long sleeves of the red plaid shirt were folded back twice at the cuffs. She looked like a kid masquerading as her big brother.

A scared kid. A twinge wrenched his gut. Her bravado didn’t fool him for a second. He’d seen that same look on new recruits’ faces before their first battle. They fought— and died—because they were ordered to. Jessamyn didn’t have to do this, he told himself. She didn’t have to, but she wasn’t backing out In fact, at this moment she was about as unflinching as any soldier he’d ever commanded in the field. Her courage touched him in some way, as if a finger had been laid upon his heart.

Jessamyn looked up at the tall man holding the towering horse. He tipped his hat with his free hand and smiled down at her. “Daniel Gustafsen, ma’am. Everybody calls me Gus.”

“What’s the horse’s name?”

He hesitated. “Dancer Jack.”

Jessamyn nodded. “Gus, are all those people along the fence here to…to watch me try to—watch me ride this horse?”

Gus’s one blue eye softened. “Yes, ma’am, ‘fraid so. They all come out like grasshoppers on an August morning whenever a tenderfoot like yourself climbs up on a horse the first time. It’s kinda like entertainment for them. The Greenhorn Follies, they call it.”

“Entertainment!” She shut her eyes. She could almost hear the imagined roar of bloodthirsty Romans in her ears.

“Sure am sorry. Miss Whittaker, but it’s true. Things out here in the West aren’t civilized like they are back in the colony states.”

Or even in Rome, Jessamyn thought with a shudder. Still, she wasn’t beaten yet. “Gus, I’m going to ride that horse if it’s the last thing I do. I want you to tell me how.”

The wrangler nodded. “Now, Miss Jessamyn, just keep in mind you’re gonna get this horse to walk. He already knows how to run. First thing you do is talk to him, call him by name.”

Jessamyn moved toward the animal. “H-hello, Dancer Jack,” she breathed.

The horse tossed his head and moved a step away.

“Don’t be afraid, now. I’m not going to hurt you.” She edged forward. “What now, Gus?” she said softly.

“Now you touch him, all over. Let him smell you, get your scent.”

Jessamyn reached one hand toward the gelding’s moist black nose. “Dancer Jack,” she murmured. “It’s me, Jessamyn. Or maybe for you it’ll just be Jess.”

She ran her palm up the front of his face, then spread both hands along his jaw. “Good boy,” she said. “Good horse.” Under her fingers, the warm hide twitched.

The horse stood still. Jessamyn smiled at Gus, who gestured for her to continue.

She drew in a breath and laid her forehead against the gelding’s dark head.
Please, please let this horse like me!
she prayed. When the animal didn’t move away, she slowly smoothed her palm over the neck, then stepped to one side and rubbed its hard, warm shoulder and withers. Next she ran her hands down each leg. The horse’s limbs trembled as violently as Jessamyn’s did.

“You’re doin’ fine, ma’am. Just fine. Here’s his lead now. You hold him while I adjust the stirrups and go get a mounting block for you.”

Frozen, Jessamyn stood motionless as a statue until Gus returned with a portable wooden step. He took the rope from her, tossed the reins over the saddle horn. “Climb up on the step and put your left foot in the stirrup. Grab the saddle horn and swing your other leg up over his rump.”

Jessamyn stood on top of the block, raised her left foot until she thought she’d twist her thigh right out of the hip socket, and jammed her toe into the high stirrup. She reached for the saddle horn and pulled herself up to a nearstanding position. She clutched at the saddle for support and tried to swing her right leg over the horse.

She couldn’t get her leg high enough to clear the gelding’s backside. On her third attempt she slipped out of the
stirrup, breathing hard. Behind her, she could hear the raucous laughter of the crowd.

“Try it again,” Gus urged. “This time, you give a little spring and I’ll boost you on up.”

Jessamyn measured the distance from the mounting block to the saddle. It looked impossible unless you had legs as long as Ben Kearney’s. At the thought of the sheriff, she stiffened her resolve. She was doing this for her newspaper, and nothing—not even a corralful of avid spectators—was going to stop her. In fact, she might turn the situation to her advantage.

“If I make it,” she said through clenched teeth, “will you buy a subscription to the
Wildwood Times?”

Gus blinked. “Why, sure, ma’am. Anything you say.”

Jessamyn again stuck her boot in the stirrup. This time she flexed her knees and gave a little jump. The wrangler put his shoulder under her bottom and heaved, and she sailed up and into the saddle.

“Now, remember, hold the reins steady and don’t move. When he’s used to your weight, I’ll let go of the bridle. Then you’re on your own.”

Too frightened to speak, Jessamyn nodded. She looked down. The ground seemed far, far beneath her. She didn’t have a choice—either she held on, or she died on the spot. Motionless except for her shaking hands, she waited.

“Steady, Dancer,” she murmured. “I don’t like this any more than you do.”

After a moment she grew conscious of the noise from the townspeople gathered along the fence. It sounded like bees buzzing in her head. A child’s voice yelled something that sounded like “go-it.”

Very slowly Jessamyn lifted her head and stared at the crowd. Instinctively she stiffened her spine.

At that instant Gus dropped the rope and stepped away from the horse.

Nothing happened. The horse gusted air out, then in, then out again. Perspiration moistened the reins where they
crossed Jessamyn’s palm. Lord in heaven, maybe she could do it! Maybe she could sit high up on this huge, powerful animal and not die in the process. The thought gave her courage. Realizing she was holding her breath, she opened her mouth to draw in life-sustaining air.

Suddenly the horse arched under her, then plunged forward. Jessamyn slid sideways. She glimpsed the ground rushing up to meet her and closed her eyes tight.

The impact knocked the air out of her lungs and drove her upper teeth into her tongue. Coppery-tasting blood filled her mouth, trickled down her chin.

Frightened, she tried to breathe, but found she couldn’t. Her chest felt as if a steam engine had rolled over it. Flat on her back, she lay still, unable to move.

Two hazy faces appeared above her.

“Is she all right, Doc?”

Ben Kearney’s voice. Jessamyn wondered if he was close enough for her to kick him.

“Dunno yet, Ben. Get out of my way!”

Hands prodded gently, helped her sit up. She spit out a mouthful of blood and blinked back tears.

“She’s okay. Looks like she bit her tongue. Nothing broken, though.”

Jessamyn caught at the man’s shirtsleeve. “Dr. Bartel?” she managed to croak.

“Yes, my dear? I’m Rufus Bartel. Just rest easy now.”

Jessamyn looked up into the freckled face under the thatch of red hair. A completely illogical thought popped into her head. “Congratulations on your twins. Would you—” She coughed out another blob of spit and blood. “Would you like a year’s subscription to the
Wildwood Times?”

“Hah, Ben! You hear that? She’s down, but she’s not out. A born businesswoman.” He grinned down at her. “I sure would. Come on, young lady, let’s get you on your feet.”

“I heard it,” Ben growled. “I just don’t believe it.”

He knelt on her other side and slid his arm under her shoulders. He hated to admit it, but he didn’t want to put her through any more. “Let’s call it a day, Miss Whittaker. I guess now you see my point, and—”

Jessamyn scooted out of his grasp. She saw his point, all right. He didn’t think she could do it.

The truth was, she was beginning to wonder the same thing herself. But if she wanted to go with him to see Black Eagle, on horseback, she had to learn how to ride.

“Don’t you dare touch me! I am not calling it a day.”

She grabbed Rufus Bartel’s arm and hoisted herself upright. Pain shot down her spine, settled in her tailbone. Dizzy, she held on to the doctor while she steadied her legs.

“Listen, Jessamyn,” Ben began.

Hearing him speak her given name made her heart catch.

Ben stepped in close. “It’s good to know when to stop,” he said in a low voice. “It’s better, of course, to know when not to start.” He held her gaze for a moment. As the soft green of her eyes flared to viridian, he realized he’d gone too far.

“A challenge is a challenge, Mr. Kearney. I’m going to ride that horse, so please get out of my way.”

“Come on, Ben,” the doctor said, his voice quiet. “Save your breath. I know a fighter when I see one.”

“Goddamn crazy woman,” Ben breathed.

Inwardly, Jessamyn agreed. Maybe she’d made the wrong decision. She was crazy to do this, crazy not to give up gracefully and wait in town while Ben rode off to Black Eagle’s camp. But she didn’t
want
to sit back and wait! She wanted to see things for herself, wanted to be part of it.

And there was another thing, she acknowledged. She wanted to prove something to Ben Kearney. That in itself was a goal worth struggling for. She didn’t know why it mattered so much, but it did. She wanted Ben to see her as someone who counted. As an equal. Miss Bennett would be horrified! Oh, what was the use of puzzling it out now?
She’d analyze it later. Now she had something else she had to do.

Resolutely, she limped toward the center of the corral where Gus stood holding the still-saddled gelding.