Making a Comeback (20 page)

But her brain kicked into gear. It was a sharp and painful blow.

“Wait. We can’t…” Every nerve ending screamed in protest.

“Right. You’ve got company.” He gave her a wicked grin. “Maybe they’ll be turning in soon.”

“No. That’s not the problem.” Now her heart started to scream in objection.

“Annabelle, what’s wrong?” His voice held a note of concern that made this conversation even harder.

“I just think that maybe we shouldn’t have gotten involved on a physical level.” Even as she said the words, she knew she didn’t mean them.

“I see.” He took a step back and shoved his hands in his pockets. “You regret what happened last night?”

“No. That’s not it.” She hated the look on his face. She’d hurt him. “I just didn’t think things through. I didn’t realize how much our actions would affect my daughters.”

“The whole boyfriend conversation?” He tried to sound like he wasn’t hurt. “I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t sure how you’d want to handle it.”

“I think we should handle it by backing off.” Was it possible to have her heart ripped out of her chest and still be able to breathe? Apparently. She sucked in a breath and, to her surprise, it filled her lungs. “They’ve gotten too attached to you. Not to mention this crazy idea of theirs that we’re all going to be one big happy family.”

“Annabelle.” His voice had less of a singing quality as he said her name, but it was still there. That little melodic sound that tugged her heartstrings “Look at me.”

She lifted her gaze to meet his eyes.

“I’m not going anywhere.” He cupped her cheek. “If you don’t want to sleep with me again, that’s fine.”

She could hear the pain in his voice, but she couldn’t take the words back. Nor could she defend her decision.

“Okay then. I’ll stay out of your bed. But I won’t stay out of your lives.” He raked a hand through his hair. “If you think not sleeping with me will keep things simpler, then fine. Just remember, I’m right next door. I’ll be around. Day after day. Night after night.”

“Until you get a contract and have to leave for spring training.” She hated the sound of disappointment in her voice. “And then who knows where you’ll end up.”

“So you think it will be easier if we stay away from each other?” He reached up to brush her hair back away from her face. He was always doing that. Making her feel so exposed. And so cherished. “I’m through looking for the easy way out.”

Her resolve started to crumble.

“Annabelle.” He caressed her cheek, lightly touching her scars. But instead of recoiling in disgust, he closed his eyes in reverence. “You are so beautiful. So damned beautiful. But you’re so much more than just a pretty face.”

“Please, don’t say things like that. You’re not my boyfriend.” She took a deep breath. “And you’re not going to be their new daddy.”

He looked like she’d just slapped him. He nodded slowly, finally getting what was happening here. “I’ll go. I’ll just walk out of your lives. I’ll keep my curtains closed. Only play my guitar when you’re not home. I’ll make sure we don’t cross paths at the mailbox. Is that what you want?”

“No.” That’s not at all what she wanted. “You don’t have to hide from us. We can still be neighbors. You know, in case you need to borrow a cup of sugar.”

“I don’t eat sugar.” He picked up his guitar and walked away.

* * * *

Three days later Cooper took his early morning run down the beach. He’d done as Annabelle asked and stayed away. He wasn’t going away, just giving her space. Her friends were still there so he didn’t have to worry about her running out of milk. But damn. He missed her. Missed the girls, too.

He was nearing the halfway point when a man came up alongside him. Marco Santiago.

“Annabelle said I might find you out here. Guess she knows your routine.”

“Yeah. I guess she does.”

“Look, I need a favor”

“Is Annabelle okay? The girls?”

“They’re fine.” Marco’s face twisted into a grin. “It’s my wife...”

“What’s the matter with your wife?”

“She’s dying of curiosity.” Marco sounded like someone asking a huge favor. “She wants to know about your arm. If you can still pitch. She sent me to, um, scout you.”

“To scout me?”

“Yeah, she wants me to find a park where we could play a little catch.” He sounded like he was almost embarrassed to ask.

“You got your glove?” Cooper asked. He couldn’t believe he was going to play catch with the man who’d taken his roster spot with the Goliaths.

“Always.” They both slowed their pace. “So you okay with this? I mean, I could tell my wife…”

“Yeah, right.” Cooper laughed. “I have a feeling the only thing you’ll be telling your wife is ‘yes, dear.’”

“What are you suggesting? That I’m whipped?” Marco came to a dead stop. “Because I’m not. I only go along with her when she’s right. She just happens to be right most of the time.”

“Sure. Whatever, man.” Cooper took advantage of the pause to roll his shoulders. It was one thing to play catch with a kid. But an All-star, World Series champion?

“Hey, I’m not a pitcher, but I do know you won’t be satisfied until you’ve given it your all.”

“A philosopher, too? You’re quite the well-rounded guy.”

“I guess I’ll tell Hunter you’re not ready. That there’s a reason you turned down the offers that came your way.” Marco tossed that out there as if it was no big deal. “I’m sure she won’t say anything to Annabelle.”

Cooper knew he was screwed.

“Let’s grab our gloves and head out to my buddy’s training facility.” Might as well get this over with.

“I knew you’d come through.” Marco smiled at him with genuine solidarity.

They took Cooper’s Escalade. Bruce Sanders was waiting for them with a big grin on his face. When Cooper introduced Marco, Sanders took a long look at Marco’s right hand.

“Where’s the ring?”

Marco held up his left hand, a shiny gold band graced his finger.

“Not that one. The World Series ring.” Sanders extended his hand.

“Don’t have it yet. Won’t get it until the first home stand.” Marco shook hands with the man.

“Oh man, I was hoping to see one up close.” Sanders gave a hearty chuckle.

“I guess you’ll just have to come up to San Francisco in a couple of months.” Marco gave a little shrug.

“Yeah, this guy’s never going to bring me the bling.” He clapped Cooper on the shoulder. “Especially when he won’t really push himself.”

“That’s what we’re here for.” Cooper had had enough of the small talk.
Get on with it already.

“Good. Let’s get you in a bullpen to warm up and then you can throw some batting practice.” Sanders led them into the facility. “Bet you’re itching to take a few swings, huh?”

“Spring training will be here before we know it.” Marco followed Sanders, with Cooper bringing up the rear.

Batting practice? He hadn’t thrown a pitch in almost six months. And he was going to throw batting practice? He could refuse. But then they would know he was scared. And it would get back to Hunter. It would get back to Annabelle. Oh, and the rest of the league, too.

Cooper did his warm up stretches, rotating his shoulders, rolling his neck from side to side, and taking a few calming breaths.

They started with a few warm-up tosses, getting into the rhythm of two ballplayers playing catch. Forget that one of them was sitting on the top of his game and the other one had fallen about as low as he could fall. Forget that one of them had a fat new contract, a pretty new wife, and a World Series ring on the way. And Cooper was without a contract, without his pride, and without the woman of his dreams.

Once they were both warm, Marco strapped on the catcher’s gear and crouched behind the plate.

“Hey, maybe I can fill in as emergency catcher,” Marco joked as he tried to get his long limbs into a squat. “I’ll let Javier know I’ve got experience.”

Juan Javier was the Goliaths’ manager. Someone else Cooper had failed.

Sanders stood on the sidelines, chuckling to himself as if this was just the most fun he’d had in a long time.

“Hey Coop, wasn’t he the guy they traded you for?”

“Yeah.” Was Sanders trying to get his goat? Get him all worked up so he would throw harder? Back in the minors, sometimes a little pregame trash talk helped him get his velocity up. Getting a little bit pissed off helped him channel all that energy into his pitching.

Cooper had to shake off the thought that he could have gone a lot farther if he’d had his battery mate in the big leagues.

He stepped up to the pitching mound, toed the rubber, and hoped like hell he wouldn’t make a fool of himself.

His first pitch was a little high and outside. But at least Marco grabbed it before it went to the backstop.

Ball one.

His next two pitches were right over the plate. Sophie or Olivia could have crushed either pitch. But at least he didn’t bounce it two feet in front of the plate.

Which he did on his next throw.

He was in his head. Thinking too much. He stepped off, picked up the rosin bag, and took a few deep breaths to regain his focus.

“So do you think I was wrong to break things off with Cooper?” Annabelle was nervous about going back to the doctor. What if she didn’t pass the cognitive test? Would they take her license? She felt better each day. More aware, alert, and the only confusion she had was about Cooper.

“Do you think you were wrong?” Hunter slipped behind the wheel of Marco’s classic Mustang and pulled her hair back into a quick ponytail. “Because it doesn’t really matter what I think.”

“I don’t know.” Annabelle tied a scarf around her hair. She tucked the loose strands beneath the silk fabric. “I think we rushed into things too quickly. And the girls have this fantasy that we’ll end up one big happy family.”

“They’re six.” Hunter reminded her. “They believe that first comes love, then comes marriage, not to mention the baby in the carriage.”

“I know. They watch way too many princess movies.” Annabelle wondered if she’d overreacted. “They think that it’s perfectly reasonable to fall in love at first sight and live happily ever after, after only a few days.”

“It’s kind of scary when it happens that way.” Hunter turned to Annabelle. “You try to convince yourself you must be crazy. That there is no way you can meet someone and just
know
, you know?”

“Is that how it happened between you and Marco?” Annabelle wondered. “Was it love at first sight?”

“In a way. I knew the moment he stepped into that limo, everything would change. I wanted to believe it was only about the team. But there was definitely something happening between the two of us. Something beyond all logic.” Hunter’s face lit up as she described their first meeting. “I didn’t want to call it love, though. Way too scary.”

“Yeah. Way too scary.” Annabelle just knew that the moment Cooper had walked into her hospital room, she’d felt a click. Like it was a moment that should be captured for all time. Only since that moment, her world had been turned upside down.

“What if I blew it?” Annabelle wondered aloud. “What if he decides I’m just crazy? I threw myself at him, even when he didn’t want to get involved because I’m technically still married. Then after he finally gives in, I kick him out of my life?”

Yeah, she was definitely crazy.

“I wish I knew what to tell you. I only know that you have to decide for yourself if he’s worth fighting for.”

“It would be a whole lot easier if it was just me who had to deal with the consequences.” Annabelle pulled the seatbelt across her lap. “But I can’t let Sophie and Olivia get hurt.”

“They adore him.”

“Yeah. I know. And they miss him.” Annabelle missed him, too. “They think it’s somehow their fault he hasn’t been around these last few days.”

“Would you still be seeing him if you weren’t worried about them?”

“That’s not a fair question.” Especially since the answer would be a definite yes.

“Whoever told you all is fair in love and war hasn’t experienced either.” Hunter jabbed the key into the ignition and started the engine.

They drove to the doctor’s office and Annabelle tried to concentrate on the road. She focused on how she would navigate the streets if she were cleared to drive. She mentally weaved her way through traffic, watching for distractions, obstructions, and frustrations.

She wanted to get back on the road. To get back to freedom. She didn’t want to have to go crawling back to Cooper when she needed a ride somewhere.

If she was going to go crawling back to him, she wanted it to be for something much more satisfying than a gallon of milk.

When she got to the doctor’s office, she tried to avoid the magazines, but front and center was the latest on the FITNatural scandal. The magazine promised the most in-depth coverage from the first suspensions to the current hearings.

Annabelle and Hunter exchanged a look as they both reached for the magazine.

Tears clouded Annabelle’s vision. She handed the magazine to Hunter. The scandal had touched both their lives. Maybe if Annabelle hadn’t been so wrapped up in her own little world, pretending to be too busy with the twins to pay attention to her husband’s affairs, she might have seen it coming. Or maybe she would have been able to warn Hunter.

But she hadn’t even really paid attention to Hunter until Marco joined the team. What an odd way to start a friendship.

“Here.” Hunter reached across the table and picked up a second copy of the magazine. “It’s not like either of us can
not
read it.”

Annabelle took a deep breath, and opened the cover. She scanned the table of contents and found the page where Nathan Cooper’s early suspension was detailed. Seeing him in uniform sent a jolt of pride through her, mixed with sorrow for what he’d had and lost. He looked amazing in the Goliaths’ uniform. So handsome and strong. With an intimidating gaze coming from under his cap. So this was Nathan Cooper the baseball player. A left-handed pitcher who had once been one of the top relievers before injury had driven him to seek the aid of banned substances. The author of the article had made it clear that he was especially disappointed in Cooper since he’d been one of the “so-called good guys.” He gave to charity, signed autographs with a smile, and always had a quote for the media.