Meet Me in Gaza (2 page)

Back in the summer of 2007 I left my home in Scotland to work for a local non-governmental organisation (NGO) in Ramallah, on the Palestinian West Bank. Local Palestinians sometimes joked that they were living under two occupations – one by Israel, the other by international aid organisations. I could see their point. From north to south, the entire West Bank was besieged by Israeli checkpoints … and expat human rights defenders, aid workers and journalists. Between us we documented everything that moved. When Hamas launched its bloody takeover of Gaza in mid-June that year, I watched it bug-eyed on TV. Four months later, in October, I was offered a job in Gaza City as a writer-cum-editor at a local human rights centre. I was ambivalent about staying on in Ramallah and excited but jittery at the prospect of moving to Gaza. So I decided to go as soon as possible, before I lost my nerve.

Gaza is a strip of the East Mediterranean coastline. Measuring approximately 25 miles by 6, the entire Strip is slightly longer than the Isle of Wight, though only half as wide, and home to approximately 1.7 million people. I wanted to see inside its tatty streets for myself, especially now that Hamas was settling down to rule its new roost. But first I had to secure an entry permit from the Israeli military, who control all traffic, human and otherwise, entering and leaving the Strip. They don’t make it easy. After waiting more than six weeks and being screened by Shin Bet, the Israel security agency, I finally got my permit in mid-December of 2007. I drove down to the Erez border crossing that straddles southern Israel and northern Gaza and walked into the Strip.

My motives for coming to Gaza were simple: I wanted to see and experience it for myself, from the inside. The big political picture is infamous, but it wasn’t (and still isn’t) politicians or militants who interested me. I wanted to meet ordinary people living between the shadows of Israel and Hamas and listen to their stories of street life. I wanted to know, for instance, if Gazans ever have fun. What’s the food like? Is the Strip beautiful? And do TV reports actually reflect ordinary life inside ‘the world’s largest open-air prison’?

I spent far longer in Gaza than I expected to because I enjoyed living there much more than I thought possible. Beneath the myths that have stoked this long, slow burn of a conflict, Gaza City is also one of the oldest continually inhabited cities on earth; an ancient citadel soaked in stories. While learning street Arabic and making friends, I also found myself literally stumbling over local histories – of pilgrims, pagans, madmen, sailors, purveyors of lingerie and Bedouin – that still resonate across the Strip. And I learned that water – both salty and sweet – has flowed through Gaza’s torrid history, shaping the land, its peoples and now its very survival. This book is based on the time I spent in Gaza from the tail-end of 2007 until the autumn of 2010. But more than anything, it’s the story of Gaza herself; a place we have all heard of, but one that most people will never see for themselves. This sun-drenched Mediterranean coastal strip is wracked with violence, grief and political self-destruction. But it is awash with extraordinary stories and histories, salty jokes … and the odd acrobat.

these days you don’t kid yourself

in these dodgy alleys

where a house stood one time

domestic like a crock on a shelf

for with neither dusk nor dawnscrake

the night’s twice as dark –

its double darkness

is up to no good

Walid Khazendar, Gaza poet

When I first walk into the Gaza Strip, a man called Hani picks me up at the Palestinian side of the Erez border crossing and drives me to Gaza City. Hani is the accountant at the local human rights centre where I am starting work tomorrow. He looks young and cheerful, and very well fed. Gaza, on the other hand, looks grubby and battered, full of rubble and bullet-smacked buildings, and scraggy donkeys dragging carts along broken streets. Just like I expected. There are green Hamas flags flapping on every corner, women in
hijabs
, or headscarves, and ankle-length black coats, men with thick dark beards, billboards of martyrs and overflowing bins. It’s like I’ve been sucked inside a BBC news report on Gaza and in a bizarre way it feels almost familiar, because I have seen these images so often on TV.

The first surprise is my apartment, or rather the location. Hani turns left into a side street. Suddenly the buildings are not raw, grey, concrete tenements, but pristine white mansions with turrets and balconies, surrounded by wrought-iron gates. Bougainvillea is spilling over the walls like splashed paint and the palm trees have feathery fronds.

‘Wow!’ I say. ‘This is … different.’

Hani has just lit another cigarette. ‘You are very lucky to be living here,’ he says, smoke pouring from his nose and mouth.

‘What’s this area called?’

‘This is al-Rimal and it is just five minutes from the sea.’

He helps me drag my suitcase and bags up four flights of stairs to my new apartment. It’s huge and comfy-looking, with a balcony on either side – and best of all, a red light bulb in the spacious master bedroom. When Hani stops panting we go back downstairs and he takes me to a supermarket called Metro at the top of the street so I can buy some supplies. Most of the goods on sale are in packets, the majority from Israel. I buy coffee, longlife milk, pasta and, at Hani’s suggestion, bottled water. Then we drive back to my apartment.

‘We will see you at the Centre in the morning,’ he says, escorting me to the gate. ‘Put this number in your phone. They are called Lebanon Taxis. Call them when you are ready tomorrow; it is probably better not to walk alone, just to be on the safe side. Oh, and don’t drink the tap water. Buy bottles at the supermarket.’

‘OK,’ I say, and he leaves.

The first evening in my new apartment, there’s a long power cut. I sit shivering in cold candlelight, decide I’d better get used to it and go to bed early under all the blankets I can find in the wardrobe. When I wake up, there’s still no electricity. I boil water for coffee on my gas stove, have a brief wash in cold water and call a Lebanon Taxi in my stilted Arabic. When the driver pulls up at the human rights centre a few minutes later, the Mediterranean Sea is glittering at the bottom of the street. I clamber out of the taxi, then hesitate at the front door, suddenly shy as a kid at the gates of her new school. But I can’t just loiter out here, so I climb the stairs, push the front door open and am immediately greeted by a young woman with loose, shoulder-length black hair.

‘Welcome to Gaza!’ She holds out her hands to clasp mine. ‘You are Louisa?’

Her name is Joumana and she is the Centre secretary. She shows me round with gliding efficiency, introducing me to dozens of people in various offices, as though she’s done this many times before. After saying
marhaba
(hello) to dozens of people, we end up at my new office, at the front of the building, just next door to Joumana’s.

‘You will start work tomorrow,’ she says, ‘take your time today.’ She checks I have the number for Lebanon Taxis, repeats what Hani said about not walking the streets alone and goes back to her desk.

Unsure of what to do now, I start checking my emails. As I’m typing messages home, a man sticks his head round the door. He has messy grey hair, big grey eyes set in a thin grey face and a wide crooked smile. ‘I was out when you arrived,’ he says, offering me a cigarette. His name is Shadi and he invites me to join him for coffee this evening at a hotel called the al-Deira. I have nowhere to be tonight, and appreciate the gesture, so we agree to meet up. After work, I take a taxi back to my apartment. Now there is electricity, so I cook myself a late lunch and have a snooze on the couch before I go to meet Shadi.

It’s dark when the taxi drops me at the al-Deira. The hotel is a surprise too: it is arabesque, filled with graceful archways, lanterns, well-watered plants and tiled stone floors where footsteps echo like memories. Shadi is waiting for me in the café at the back of the hotel, which is huge and freezing. I can hear the sea hissing outside.

‘Six thousand, six hundred and sixty-six welcomes to Gaza!’ Shadi stands up, grins at me like an old friend. Welcoming guests is a big deal in Palestine, and his exaggeration makes me laugh, as does his first question, which is, ‘Did you bring any whisky?’

I reassure him that I had so much booze stuffed inside my suitcase, I could hear myself clinking through the Erez crossing. Shadi laughs, exposing brown, smoke-stained teeth.

‘You know alcohol isn’t illegal here,’ – he scans the few other busy tables – ‘just prohibited. We used to buy it in shops like normal people, but the government closed the shops years ago, long before Hamas. Now because of this fucking siege we can’t buy anything.’

In June 2006 a posse of Gaza fighters tunnelled into Israel and snatched teenage Israel Defense Forces (IDF) conscript, Gilad Shalit. In retaliation, the Israeli government sealed the crossings into Gaza and bombed the only power plant in the Strip. Since the Hamas takeover of Gaza, Israel has steadily tightened the blockade and now, says Shadi, everything, from industrial fuel to children’s hearing aids, even orange juice, is restricted or outright banned. Local supermarkets mostly sell dry goods because they don’t rot or need a refrigerator.
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We sit in the café with our coats on, drinking steaming black tea infused with sage leaves. As we talk, Shadi is constantly checking his phone or lighting another cigarette, shifting and restless like the sea outside. He tells me he is from southern Gaza and spent five years studying economics in Algeria, but he hasn’t been out of the Strip since the summer of 2006.

‘I have been a human rights activist more than fifteen years now, I never stop working. If there is even a whisper in the northern Strip, I still hear it.’ He speaks English like a poet.

I drain my cup and huddle inside my coat, but I don’t want to go back to my cold apartment yet. A man with hollow cheeks and deep-set eyes strides over to greet Shadi, then offers me his hand too. Khalil, his name is. As he is speaking to me, a loud dull blast booms close to us. For a few seconds everything in the café stops; customers freeze in their seats, cups in their hands, cigarettes halfway to their mouths. The waiters halt mid-step … then, just two or three breaths later, they continue bearing trays across the café and conversations bubble up again. I’ve never heard a bomb explode before and look from Shadi to Khalil.

‘That was an air strike,’ says Shadi, his voice calm.

‘We should be safe here,’ says Khalil, ‘but we shouldn’t leave for a while.’ He lights a cigarette and sits down.

Five minutes later, Shadi’s phone bleeps with a message: Majid Harazin, senior commander of the militant group Palestinian Islamic Jihad, has just been blown up by an Israeli rocket while driving his car near the Gaza City beach front.
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‘Hamas has warned people to stay away from the car as there might be more explosions,’ says Khalil. His phone has also just bleeped. ‘But Harazin was carrying $100,000 dollars in cash when Israel hit the car. There are dollar bills on fire all around it and people are out there, chasing the money.’

The two men exchange a glance. I look around, imagining the scene outside: $100 bills burning round a charred car, a hulk of roasted flesh still slumped in the driving seat.

I excuse myself and go to find the bathroom, then wander to the front of the café, where huge sliding windows open onto a terrace. I stand out there, breathing in cold salty air. The Mediterranean is glinting midnight blue like petrol and I can see small lights blinking on the horizon. They must be fishing boats. From here they look like a rope of small lanterns loosely strung together.

I don’t feel frightened. I don’t know what the hell to feel.

An hour or so later, Shadi offers to drive me back to my apartment. It’ll be safe now, he says. His car is parked just outside the hotel. It looks like a square biscuit tin on wheels. When I squeeze inside, the dashboard is held together with brown tape and I can’t shut the passenger door. ‘Don’t worry,’ – Shadi chokes the engine into life – ‘my car is the best-in-the-West!’ He leans over and slams the door on my side shut. The whole vehicle shudders and my window slides wide open. I give him a look. We both start laughing and our laughter reassures me.

Over the next few days, Joumana keeps me busy at work at the Centre, editing documents and press releases that have been translated into English and writing official correspondence. Almost every afternoon there is a press release about one or more Gazans being blown up by the Israeli military, and every night I go to bed to the pounding of bombs striking northern and eastern Gaza. The bombs don’t physically frighten me, they sound far enough away – more like resonant booms than the punching detonation I heard from the al-Deira Hotel. I sleep quite well. But a small knot of anxiety embeds itself inside my guts.

I think it’s probably healthy to be slightly anxious here, like having my own early warning system. I just want to manage my fear, not the other way round.

Shortly before I left the West Bank, a friend of a friend, originally from Gaza, gave me some advice. ‘Worry about your own safety, but not too much – there’s no point,’ he said. ‘Just keep your eyes open, don’t do anything really stupid – and laugh as much as you can.’

After work I either go to the Metro Supermarket or take a Lebanon Taxi straight back to my apartment. From my brief look around al-Rimal, I can see that my new neighbourhood is a posh corner of the city, maybe the only posh corner there is. I need to get out more, but don’t know where to go; an hour after work, dusk is already thickening and the power cuts out every night. My landlord – his name is Abu Ali
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– has given me a little electric bar heater, but even when there
is
electricity it makes little difference. Some evenings I just crawl into bed very early, longing for a hot-water bottle.

It’s almost Christmas. Winter is going to last another two months. Feels like a long time.