MILITARY ROMANCE: The War Within Himself (Alpha Bad Boy Marine Army Seal) (Contemporary Military Suspense & Thriller Romance) (96 page)

Chapter Three

They didn’t come back to do anything with Tessa for three hours. Her only interaction came from the lab techs that brought her food. Sandwiches. She hated sandwiches, but she ate them anyway because she had to be good. Because she was getting out. Ever since that moment in her mirror, she couldn’t shake the intuition. She could do it if she tried.

If she really tried.

She stood up. Her leg had already begun to heal. She could walk on it if she bit her lip and didn’t put too much pressure on it. She had been pacing back and forth in her cage to practice. She made her way to the bars and wrapped her fingers around them. She gazed at the ape. How sad she felt for it. She wondered if it could escape, if it could even know that it could escape.

There was a window just down the hall. They opened it for fresh air every once in a while. Natural ventilation, she heard them whispering to each other. Tessa was confident that she could figure out how that thing worked…and if she couldn’t, she would just have to break right through it.

There were no clocks in her chamber, but she had been counting the seconds since the mirror. When she was a child, she thought it generous of them to teach her how to read, to tell time, math, history. She thought it was a good thing, meant that they were preparing her for the world, that she would one day get out.

She had never been more wrong about anything in her life.

They were just teaching her how to be a human being so that they could test and compare and torture. Never mind all of that, because now she was going to use all that they had taught her to get out. So she kept her head forward and counted those seconds, her own personal clock in the back of her head.

Then, finally, there it was.

The door.

Lexi came in with another tray. No sandwiches because it was dinner time. Mashed potatoes. Beef. Her mouth watered. She wanted the food. But she wanted out more.

So she stepped away from the bars.

Lexi unlocked the door, the sound of her keys mixing in with that of the animals.

Tessa had never touched Lexi of her own accord. All of their contact had been mandatory. It felt wrong,
really
wrong, but she went along with it anyway. She had the element of surprise on her side.

Lexi tried to rip her arm out of her grip, to no avail of course.

Tessa kicked her with her good leg, right in the gut. Then she limped down the hall. By the time she got to the front door, the alarms were already going off. They just barely drowned out Lexi’s overblown screams of pain.

When she wrenched the door open, there were two men standing there with gloves and masks on their hands like they would catch a disease just from looking at her. She let them grab her, turning her around. She put her strength in her head, and she unleashed in it all the power she had spent her whole life trying to deny.

The men stopped. They raised their hands to their heads and the two of them screamed, their roars joining Lexi’s screeches and the animal’s yelps.

Tessa didn’t wait a second longer. She dived into the hall. As soon as she made it halfway to the window, she heard the sound of boots coming at her. They were catching up fast and she was running out of time. She stopped limping and started running. She pushed through the pain, told herself to keep going.

“I’m special,” she said over and over again.

Anything to keep herself moving.

She had to get out of there.

She had to find that something.

She dove through the window without so much as pausing to open it, thrusting all of her strength and energy at the sharp barrier. She knew she wouldn’t have the time. The glass shattered on her head and shoulder. Her right arm scraped the side of the window as she tumbled out onto the dewy, New Mexican grass.

She crawled until she could walk again and made a beeline for the forest. They had taken her on walks there many times, shown her the trees and the small animals. She knew her way around. She could hide…at least for a little while. The forest went on for as long as she could tell. She could stay hidden for a little while, and while they searched for her, she would be searching for the man with the black eyes. The man she had felt beckoning her.

***

“All right. All systems ready?”

Jrym sighed. This was at least the third time he had done this on their journey to the sun. He was starting to get annoyed with his unnecessary concern. Well, it was well-placed concern, but how would he know that?

Jrym nodded to himself before responding with, “Yes, Alec. I’m just gonna take a nap. Is that all right with you?”

There was a pause right before, “Uh yeah. I’m sure that should be fine. We have an hour or so until anything needs to happen.”

Jrym let out a dry laugh. He wished Alec would stop being so frightened about this trip. Nothing bad would happen to him, that is, if he just stuck to his plan and didn’t try to interfere with Jrym’s.

They were so close to the sun at this point that he could feel the heat seeping through the ship. The Kaharan metals could withstand a little more.

He had time.

So he settled back into his chair and let his eyes shut. He was more than ready for his dark night to end, so he didn’t try to fight the madness this time. He let it overcome him. He tried going through it all in his head. In fact, he searched out the offending thoughts. The maze of darkness behind his eyes ended in an office building.

There was a panic room in the basement where he had attempted to hide his family. He ran down the stairs, his eyes rolling back and forth, that deafening whine, that maddening noise, rattling the neurons in his head.

He was ready to be lost, ready to see them again.

He let the whispers in. All those screams. All that pain. He welcomed it until he got to the door, covered in methlyte, the strongest metal known to Kaharans. He unlocked it and stepped inside.

It was like a dead zone for the voices, but definitely not for the pressure. It weighed down on him like five thousand bricks, air so dead the strongest cockroach would wilt. He flipped the switch, a fluorescent light. Part of him thought that he would find some kind of memory of all of his family there, or maybe all of their memories together. That would have been nice.

But instead he saw only one figure. It was a woman, probably no older than twenty years. She had golden hair that flowed down her shoulders and back. She had eyes as big and green as any he had seen in Kahara. Her lips were plump and pink, but her body…goodness. What kind of monster would break her like this?

Chapter Four

Tessa had crawled into the top of a tree. Her legs hurt. They were covered in scabs and scrapes. Her bad leg throbbed with pain. She winced just at the thought of ever moving again. But she had escaped, and she had found a damn good hiding place in the middle of nowhere at the top of a tree. At nineteen feet up, she would be impressed if they even thought to look.

When she was sure a wind strong enough to bring down the Titanic would have to blow for her to find herself tumbling to her death, she shut her eyes and granted herself a moment of rest. But she was so tired from the strain that she fell right asleep and into something else.

She was in a room much like her cage but without the bars or the other animals. Something told her to wait.

Someone was coming.

Her
someone.

There was a sound like the click of a lock right before the door opened, a flood of red light flooding in. There a man stood, his slim, lithe body cloaked in a dark sweater and black pants. Black like his eyes.

Tessa gasped. She only hoped that this was more than just a dream. “You found me.”

He stepped inside.

The door shut on its own, a warm light automatically igniting the room. A smile slipped across his face.

Tessa’s heart fluttered. She clenched her jaw, a visceral need rising in the pit of her belly. She had felt it a couple of times before, but never this strong. She wanted to cross the room right then and there.

He shook his head.

She watched his feet as he moved. “No. You found me. This is my place.”

“How can you be so sure?”

“Because I’ve been here before.” He sat down across from her, crossing his legs just like she had.

Tessa leaned toward him. He was the first living soul to talk to her like that, like something other than a subject. She wanted to know him, about where he came from, about his black eyes. “When? Why?”

He reached out to her, a move she couldn’t predict. That caught her attention. She swerved out of his way, an action that made her head hurt. He cocked his head to the side, the shadow in his eyes growing deeper. “It’s like you’re afraid of me.”

“Of course I am. I have no idea who you are.”

He nodded, glancing around him. “Does it matter?”

Tessa smiled. “I wish this were real.”

He grabbed her hand, quicker than she could move out of the way. She wanted to fight him at first, but then she felt something shoot through her spine. She looked at him again, flooded with intuition. The kind she had when she knew she had another being under her power. Except she didn’t. She was sharing with him in this. The words hopped into her head and out of her lips before she had a chance to even really think about them. “Why do you look so broken?”

He winced as if her words were a cold draft. “Why do
you
look so broken?”

Tessa found herself laughing for the first time in as long as she could remember. “I am broken.” She laughed even harder. As soon as she started talking, she couldn’t stop herself. “They break me as much as they can. They hurt me with machines and tools. But every time I come back. I beat them. I move them. They want me broken. I am broken…”

The man squeezed her hand. Her cunt throbbed, but she kept talking. “But I’m not broken.”

“That’s unbelievable.”

“Tell me what happened to you,” Tessa ordered. “I have to know.” She wished she could use her energy on him, but it didn’t seem to be working.

He lifted both of his eyebrows. “Goodness. Nothing happened to me.”

Tessa jumped up, her head hanging with curiosity. She bounced around the room. “So then what is this place?”

“A panic room.”

His voice was infuriatingly calm.

Tessa cocked her head to the side. “Why would anyone want a room to panic in?”

The man laughed. It was like bells. “No, no. It’s meant for the opposite. When something happens that incites panic, we come here.”

When Tessa looked at him again, he was standing. “So what happened here?”

But for some reason he stiffened up. It was like a wall dropped down between the two of them, like a fire ignited. Tessa could take one look at him and just know that he wasn’t going to tell her what she asked for. And she liked it. She liked being denied entry into someone else’s head. It made her feel less alien.

“Do you know who I am?”

Tessa shook her head.

He huffed. “Oh. I thought you would. You’re in my head and all.”

“You’re in
my
head.”

The both laughed.

He approached her again, his eyes wanting. “Oh how I wish you were real.”

Tessa’s stare widened, pleading. This
was
the someone; there was no doubt left in her mind. So that meant that he had to save her. He was the reason she left the lab in the first place. If he didn’t find her…they would. “I am.”

But he shook his head. “The gods know how I wish I could believe you.”

“Why?” It took everything in Tessa not to jump him right then and there.

“What?”

“Why do you want to believe me so badly when you can’t?”

He let out a dry laugh. “I’m sorry if I find all of this a little outlandish.”

Anger burst into Tessa’s head. She charged at him with red in her eyes before she stopped herself. No. this was not Lexi. She was not being tested. She did not need to perform. She needed to control herself. “Why apologize to a figment of your imagination?”

He gazed at her with wide, wet eyes. “Are you an angel?”

“I’m a…I don’t know what I am, but I’m not some ghost!”

He sighed as if coming to a satisfying conclusion. “You’re a Kaharan.”

Tessa furrowed her brow. She had never heard the word in her life. “A Kaharan?”

“Like me.”

She nodded. “So you believe me?”

A knowing smile stretched across his face. “Sure.”

She wanted to punch him. “Why don’t you just tell me what’s in your head?”

“Are you always this demanding?”

Tessa clamped her jaw shut.

He shook his head. “Besides, you already are in my head.”

She sighed. “I don’t know how many ways to tell you. I am a real…being. I’m not in your head. God knows I want to be.”

“One god?” he scoffed. “The humans are funny.”

“What does that even mean?”

“One god? How wishful.”

“And what about your…gods? Wouldn’t it be more probable to just have the one?”

He chuckled. “Please. There’s nothing probable about any of it. There is nothing out there looking after us.”

“How melancholic.”

“Well, that’s much of my life now. Melancholic.”

Tessa glowered at him. “You say that like you’re the one who’s been tortured your whole life.”

He blinked. “What are you saying?”

Tessa grimaced, that condescension leaving a bad taste in her mouth. “The humans have held me captive my entire life.”

“Only because you believed you could be caged.”

She didn’t like the way those words made her feel: shamed. “Yes, well, at least I’m not denying what’s right in front of me.”

He sat back down. “Stop comparing yourself to me.”

A mischevious smile crossed Tessa’s face. “Why? Does it bother you to know that there are people out there suffering?”

He scoffed. “Please. You’re a shadow of a thought.”

Tessa plopped herself down across from him, determined to prove herself. “My name is Tessa. My mother died the day I was born, and I don’t think I’ll ever see my dad. I’ve been held in a lab ever since before I can remember. I have nothing—no worldly possessions, no clue how to survive out there. But I can get into people’s heads. I can make them do stuff. That’s how I got out. I’ll admit I never tried before because I was terrified of whatever’s out there. But now
I’m
out there, because you called me. I saw your eyes in my mirror. I saw that tear run down your cheek. You told me to come, so now I’m here. And now you’re telling me that you can’t believe in me. I believed in you before I even…before...” She stopped. She wouldn’t let herself confront the possibility that she had just signed her death certificate.

“You left because you were bored.”

Tessa’s chest rose and fell with her fast breaths. Her eyes stung in the way that she hated, but it wasn’t because anyone was hurting her. A cloud covered her, but when she looked up, there was nothing there. She drew her legs up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She rocked back and forth, the fear taking over everything. They were going to find her. They were going to hurt her more. This had been her only chance, and it wasn’t even a real chance.

“Don’t say that.”

He seemed to soften toward her. “I can say whatever I want. You’re not real.”

“I won’t even ask you why you won’t believe me.”

“Because it’s obvious.”

“Because it’s useless.”

“You plan to insult me to get me to your lab?”

Tessa shook her head, letting her legs fall. The light illuminated her ugly, yellow bruises. “I don’t have a plan. I trusted you.”

He snapped up like she had triggered something in the back of his head. “Of course. I should have known. You’re my sister.”

Tessa scoffed. “Sister?”

“Yes. I must have made you out of her.”

Tessa furrowed her brow.  “So you think you’re so creative that you came up with this all on your own? Using your sister?” It made no sense to her.

He shrugged. “I’m a writer. It’s within reason.”