Mindscan (7 page)

" 'Paris the heiress,' " I repeated. "Cute."

"And you were Jake the Rake."

I laughed. "Yeah, I suppose I was. Lots of parties, lots of girls. But…"

"What?"

"Well, it's pretty hard to know if a girl really likes you for
you
, when you're rich."

"Tell me about it. My third husband was like that."

"Really?"

"Absolutely. Thank God for pre-nups." Her tone was light. If she'd been bitter once, enough time had apparently passed to let her now joke about it. "You'll have to only date women who are rich in their own right."

"I suppose. But, you know, even—" Damn it, I hadn't meant to say that aloud.

"What?"

"Well, you never know about people — know what they're really thinking. Even before I was rich, I — there was this girl named Trista, and I thought she … I thought w
e
…"

Karen raised her artificial eyebrows, but said nothing. It was clear I could go on, or not, as I wished.

And, to my great surprise, I did wish. "She seemed to really like me. And I was totally in love with her. This was, like, when I was sixteen. But when I asked her out, she laughed. She actually laughed in my face."

Karen's hand briefly touched my forearm. "You poor thing," she said. "Are you married now?"

"No."

"Ever been?"

"No."

"Never found the right person?"

"It's, um, not exactly like that."

"Oh?"

Again, to my surprise, I went on. "I mean, there was — there
is
— this woman.

Rebecca Chong. But, you know, with my condition, I…"

Karen nodded sympathetically. But then I guess she decided to lighten the tone.

"Still," she said, "you don't necessarily have to wait for the right person to come along. If I'd done that I'd have missed out on my first three husbands."

I wasn't sure if my artificial eyebrows rose spontaneously in surprise; certainly, if I'd still been in my old body, my natural ones would have. "How many times have you been married?"

"Four. My last husband, Ryan, passed away two years ago."

"I'm sorry."

Her voice was full of sadness. "Me, too."

"Do you have any kids?"

"Um—" She paused. "Just one." Another pause. "Just one who lived."

"I'm so sorry," I said.

She nodded, accepting that. "I take it you don't have any children?"

I shook my head and indicated my artificial body. "No, and I guess I never will."

Karen smiled. "I'm sure you would have made a good father."

"We'll never—" Damn these new bodies! I'd thought the obvious, self-pitying thought, but had never intended to actually say it aloud. As before, I didn't manage to kill it until a couple of words were already spoken. "Thanks," I said. "Thank you."

A pair of Immortex employees entered the lounge — a white woman and an Asian man. They looked surprised to see us there.

"Don't let us disturb you," Karen said to them as she stood up. "We were just leaving." She held out a hand to help me get up. I took it without thinking, and was on my feet in a matter of seconds, Karen effortlessly pulling me up. "It's been a long day," Karen said to me. "I'm sure you want to go back to your room." She paused, as if realizing that, of course, I couldn't possibly be tired, then added, "You know, so you can change out of that robe, and so on."

There it was — a perfect out; the escape that I'd been looking for earlier, the polite way to beg off that my lack of the need for sleep or food had denied me. But I didn't want it anymore. "Actually," I said, looking at her, "I'd like to do some more walking practice, if, ah, you're willing to help me."

Karen smiled so broadly it surely would have hurt had her face been flesh. "I'd love to," she said.

"Great," I replied, as we headed out of the lounge. "It'll give us a chance to talk some more."

The spaceplane was still climbing. I'd thought the constant acceleration would be uncomfortable, but it wasn't. Out the window, I could see sunlight glinting off the Atlantic ocean far below. I turned my head to face inside, and the presumably redheaded man sitting next to me seized his chance. "So," he said, "what's your job?"

I looked at him. I didn't really have a job, but I did have a true-enough answer. "I'm in wealth management."

But that caused his freckled forehead to crease. "Immortex wants wealth managers on the moon?"

I realized the source of his confusion. "I'm not an Immortex employee," I said. "I'm a customer."

His light-colored eyes went wide. "Oh. Sorry."

"Nothing to be sorry about," I said.

"It's just that you're the youngest customer I've ever seen."

I smiled a smile that hopefully wasn't an invitation to more questions. "I've always been an early adopter."

"Ah," said the man. He stuck out a hand that was as freckled as his face. "Quentin Ashburn," he said.

I shook his hand. "Jake Sullivan." I didn't really want to continue talking about me, so I added, "What do you do, Quentin?"

"Moonbus maintenance."

"Moonbus?"

"It's a long-distance surface vehicle," Quentin said. "Well, actually, it flies just above the surface. Best way to cover a lot of lunar territory fast. You'll be riding in one when we get to the moon; the ship from Earth will only take us to Nearside."

"Right," I said. "I read about that."

"Oh, moonbuses are fascinating," said Quentin.

"I'm sure they are," I said.

"See, you can't use airplanes on the moon, because—"

"Because there's no air," I said.

Quentin looked a bit miffed at having his thunder stolen, but he went on. "So you need a different kind of vehicle to get from point A to point B."

"So I'd imagine," I said.

"Right. Now, the moonbus — it's rocket-propelled, see? Funny thing, of course is that instead of polluting the atmosphere, we're
giving
the moon an atmosphere — an infinitesimal one, to be sure — and all of it is rocket exhaust. Now, for the Moonbus, we use monohydrazine…"

I could see that it was going to be a very long trip.

I was slowly getting the hang of walking with my new legs, thanks to Karen Bessarian's help. I'd always been impatient; I suppose thinking you didn't have much time left was part of the cause. Of course, Karen — in her eighties — must have similarly felt that her days had been numbered. But she'd apparently adapted immediately to the notion of being more or less immortal, whereas I was still stuck in the time-is-running-out mindset.

Ah, well. I'm sure I'd make the transition. After all, it's supposed to be old people who are set in their ways, not guys like me. But no — that was unfair. They say you're as young as you feel, and Karen certainly didn't feel old now; maybe she never had.

Four others besides Karen and me had received new bodies today. I'm sure they'd all been at the same sales pitch I'd attended, but I hadn't talked to anyone except Karen there, and these people now had faces so much younger than what I'd presumably seen then that I didn't recognize any of them. We were all to spend the next three days here, undergoing physical and psychological testing ("hardware and software diagnostics," I'd overheard one of the Immortex employees say to Dr. Porter, who had given the younger man a very stern look).

I was pleased to see that I wasn't the only one who'd been having trouble walking. A girl — yes, damn it, she looked like a girl, all of sixteen — was using a wheelchair.

Immortex clients could choose just about any age to look like, of course. This reconstruction must have been based on 2D photos — if this girl were Karen, she'd have been sixteen in the mid-nineteen seventies — where, I think, hairstyles had been all fluffy, and blue eye shadow had been in vogue. But whoever this was wasn't trying to regress: her hair was short and tightly curled, in today's fashion, and she had a band of bright pink from temple to temple, across the bridge of her nose, the kind of makeup kids today liked.

Two of the others were also female, and three of them were white. Like Karen, they had opted to look about thirty — meaning, ironically, that all these minds that were much older than mine were housed in bodies that appeared substantially younger than even my new one did. The other upload was a black male. He'd adopted a serene face of perhaps fifty. Actually, now that I thought about it, he looked a lot like Will Smith; I wondered if that's what his original had looked like, or if he'd opted for a new face.

Karen was chatting with the other women. She apparently knew at least one of them from philanthropic circles. I suppose it was natural that the four old women would spend tune together. And, by default, that meant I ended up talking with the other man.

"Malcolm Draper," the man said, extending a large hand.

"Jake Sullivan," I replied, taking it. Neither of us were inclined to that silly male game of demonstrating how strong we were by squeezing too hard — probably just as well, given our new robotic hands.

"Where are you from, Jake?"

"Here. Toronto."

Malcolm nodded. "I live in New York. Manhattan. But of course you can't get this service down there. So, what do you do, Jake?"

The question I always hated. I didn't actually
do
anything — not for a living. "I'm into investments," I said. "You?"

"I'm a lawyer — do you call them solicitors up here?"

"Only in formal contexts. Lawyer, attorney."

"Well, that's what I am."

"What kind of law?" I asked.

"Civil liberties."

I gave the mental command that used to reconfigure my features into an impressed expression, but I really had no idea what it did to my face now. "How's business?"

"In the present political climate? Lots of cases, damn few victories. I can see the Statue of Liberty from my office window — but they should rename the old girl the Statue of Do Exactly What the Government Says You Should Do." He shook his head. "That's why I uploaded, see? Not too many of my generation left — people who actually remember what it was like to
have
civil liberties, before Homeland Security, before
Littler v. Carvey
, before every dollar bill and retail product had an RFID tracking chip in it. If we let the good old days pass from living memory, we'll never be able to get them back."

"So you're still going to practice law?" I asked.

"Yes, indeed — when interesting-enough cases come along, that is." He reached into a pocket. "Here, let me give you my card … just in case."

Weightlessness was wonderful!

Some of the old people were afraid of it, and stayed securely fastened in their ergo-chairs. But I undid my seat belt and floated around the cabin, gently pushing off walls, the floor, and the ceiling. We'd all had antinausea injections before takeoff, and, at least for me, the medicine was working perfectly. I found I could twirl along my head-to-toe axis at a great speed and not get dizzy. The flight attendant showed us some neat things, including water pulling itself into a floating ball. He also showed us how hard it was to throw something to another person: the brain refused to believe that throwing it in a straight line was the way to do it, and we all kept sending them up, as if in parabolic trajectories against gravity.

Karen Bessarian was enjoying weightlessness, too. The cabin walls were completely covered with little black foam pyramids, which I'd at first taken for acoustic insulation but now realized were really to prevent injuries when one went flying into them. Still, Karen was taking it fairly easy, not trying anything as athletic or adventurous as I was.

"If you look out the right-hand-side windows," said the flight attendant, "you can see the International Space Station." I happened to be upside down at that moment, so pushed off the wall and started drifting toward the left side. The flight attendant was deadpan. "The
other
right-hand-side, Mr. Sullivan."

I smiled sheepishly, and pushed off again with my palm. I found a spot by one of the windows and looked outside. The International Space Station — all cylinders and right angles — had been abandoned for decades. Too big to crash safely into the ocean, it was occasionally given a boost to keep it orbiting. The last astronaut to depart had left the two Canadian-built remote-manipulator arms shaking hands with each other.

"In about ten minutes," said the flight attendant, "we'll be docking with the moonship. You should be strapped in for docking — but, don't worry, you'll get three full days of weightlessness on your way to the moon."

On my way to the moon…

I shook my head.

On my way to the fucking moon.

It was well after midnight. Dr. Porter had long since gone home, but there were all sorts of Immortex staff still around to cater to our every need — not that we had many.

We didn't eat, so there was no point in putting out a fancy buffet for us. I should have thought that through, should have had a special last meal just before uploading.

Of course, Immortex hadn't suggested we do so, I guess because a final meal was what the condemned, not the liberated, were supposed to enjoy.

More: we didn't drink, so there was no point in having an open bar. Indeed, I realized with a pang of guilt that I couldn't remember the last time I'd had a Sullivan's Select … and now I never would again. My great grandfather — Old Sully himself — was probably spinning in his grave at the thought of a scion of his dynasty giving up beer for anything, even immortality.

And, most astonishing of all, we didn't sleep. How often I'd said there were too few hours in a day! But now it seemed as though there were far too many.

We, this little band of new uploads, were to spend the night together in this party room; the first night was apparently very difficult for a lot of people. Two Immortex therapists milled about, as did someone who seemed to be the landlocked equivalent of a cruise director, coming up with activities to keep people occupied. Being up constantly, not getting tired, not needing to sleep, not
wanting
to sleep: it was going to be quite an adjustment, even for those who, in their old age, had slept lightly and had needed only five or six hours a night.

Two of the recently uploaded women were chatting away about things that didn't interest me. The third woman and Draper were playing a trivia game that the cruise director had brought up on a wall monitor, but the questions were geared toward their youth, and I knew none of the answers.

And so I ended up spending more time with Karen. Part of it was kindness on her part, I'm sure; she seemed to recognize that I was a fish out of water. Indeed, I felt compelled to comment on that as we went outside, exiting onto the treed Immortex grounds, a gibbous moon overhead. "Thanks," I said to Karen as we walked along, "for spending so much time with me."

Karen smiled her new-and-improved perfectly symmetrical smile. "Don't be silly," she said. "Who else would I talk to about physics or philosophy? In fact, I've got another joke for you. Rene Descartes goes into a bar and orders a drink. The bartender serves it up. Old Rene, he nurses it for a while, but at last it's gone. And so the barkeep says to him, 'Hey, Rene, care for another?' To which Descartes replies, 'I think not' — and disappears."

I laughed, and even though my new laugh sounded strange to me, it made me feel good. August nights were filled with mosquitoes, but I quickly recognized another advantage to an artificial body: the bugs left us alone. "But, y'know," I said, as we walked along, "I'm actually surprised that we don't need to sleep. I thought it was necessary for the consolidation of memory."

"A popular misconception," said Karen, and, with her lovely Georgia accent, the words didn't sound condescending. "But it's just not true. It takes
time
to consolidate memories, and normal humans can't go for any length without sleeping — but the sleeping has nothing to do with the consolidation."

"Really?"

"Oh, yes. We're going to be fine."

"Good."

We walked for a while in companionable silence, then Karen said, "Anyway, I should be the one thanking you for spending time with me."

"Why's that?"

"Well, half the reason I uploaded was to get away from old people. Can you imagine me in an old-folks' home?"

I laughed. "No, I guess not."

"The other people here who are my age," she said, shaking her head. "Their goal in life was to become rich. There's something ruthless about that, and something shallow, too. I never intended to be rich — it just happened, and no one was more surprised by it than me. And you didn't intend to be rich, either."

"But if it weren't for money," I said, "we'd both be dead or worse soon."

"Oh, I know! I know! But that's bound to change. Immortality is expensive right now, but it's got to come down in price; technology always does. Can you imagine a world in which the only thing that mattered was how rich you are?"

"You don't sound very—" Damn it! Another thought I'd intended to keep to myself partially leaking out.

"Very what?" said Karen. "Very American? Very capitalist?" She shook her head. "I don't think any serious writer can be a capitalist. I mean, look at me: to my own astonishment, I'm one of the best-selling authors of all time. But am I one of the best writers ever in the English language? Not by a long shot. Work in a field in which financial reward has no correlation with actual worth and you can't be a capitalist. I don't say there's a
negative
correlation: there are great writers who sell very well. But there is no meaningful correlation. It's just a crapshoot."

"So, are you going to go back to writing now that you're a Mindscan?" I asked. It had been years since there'd been a new Karen Bessarian book.

"Yes, I intend to. In fact, being a writer is the main reason I uploaded. See, I love my characters — Prince Scales, Doctor Hiss. I love them all. And, as I told you before, I
created
them. They came right out of here." She tapped the side of her head.

"Yes. So?"

"So, I've watched the ebb and flow of copyright legislation over my lifetime. It's been a battle between warring factions: those who want works to be protected forever, and those who believe works should fall into public domain as fast as possible. When I was young, works stayed in copyright for fifty years after the authors' death. Then it was lengthened to seventy years, and that's still the current figure, but it isn't long enough."

"Why?"

"Well, because if I had a child today — not that I could — and I died tomorrow — not that I'm going to — that child would receive the royalties from my books until he or she was seventy. And then, suddenly, my child — by that point, an old man or woman — would be cut off; my work would be declared public domain, and no more royalties would ever have to be paid on it. The child of my body would be denied the benefits of the children of my mind. And that's just not right."

"But, well, isn't the culture enriched when material goes into the public domain?" I asked. "Surely you wouldn't want Shakespeare or Dickens to still be protected by copyright?"

"Why not? J.K. Rowling is still in copyright; so is Stephen King and Marcos Donnelly — and they all have had, and continue to have, a huge impact on our culture."

"I guess…" I said, still not sure.

"Look," said Karen, gently, "one of your ancestors started a brewing company, right?"

I nodded. "My great grandfather, Reuben Sullivan — Old Sully, they called him."

"Right. And you benefit financially from that to this day. Should the government instead have confiscated all the assets of Sullivan Brewing, or whatever the company's called, on the seventieth anniversary of Old Sully's death? Intellectual property is still
property
, and it should be treated the same as anything else human beings build or create."

I had a hard time with this; I never used anything but open-source software — and there
was
a difference between a building and an idea; there was, in fact, a
material
difference. "So you uploaded in order to make sure you keep getting royalties on

DinoWorld
forever?"

"It's not just that," Karen said. "In fact, it's not even principally that. When something falls into public domain,
anyone
can do
anything
with the material. You want to make a porno film with my characters? You want to write bad fiction featuring my characters? You can, once my works go into public domain. And that's not right; they're
mine
."

"But by living forever, you can protect them?" I said.

"Exactly. If I don't die, they never fall into public domain."

We continued walking; I was getting the hang of it — and the motor in my belly could keep me doing it for weeks on end, or so Porter had told me. It was now almost 5:00 a.m. — I couldn't remember the last time I'd been up so late. I hadn't realized that Orion was visible in summer if you stayed up this long. Clamhead must be missing me something fierce, although the robokitchen would be feeding her, and my next-door neighbor had agreed to take her for walks.

We passed under a lamp, and to my astonishment I noticed that my arm was wet; I could see it glistening in the lamp light. Only a little later did I experience a physical sensation of dampness. I rubbed a finger along my arm. "Good grief!" I said. "It's dew."

Karen laughed, not at all perturbed. "So it is."

"You're taking all this so well," I said to her.

"I try to take
everything
in stride," Karen replied. "It's all material."

"What?"

"Sorry. Writer's mantra. 'It's all material.' It all goes into the hopper. Everything you experience is fodder for future writing."

"That's, um, an unusual way of going through life."

"You sound like Daron. When he and I used to go for dinner, he'd be embarrassed when a couple at a nearby table was having a fight. Me, I'm always leaning closer and cocking my head to hear better, thinking, 'Oh, this is great; this is pure gold.' "

"
Hmph
," I said. I was getting good at making all those sounds that aren't words but still convey meaning.

"And," said Karen, "with these new ears — God, they're sensitive! — I'll be able to hear even more. Poor Daron would hate that."

"Who's Daron?"

"Oh, sorry. My first husband, Daron Bessarian, and the last one whose name I took; my maiden name was Cohen. Daron was a nice Armenian boy, from my high school.

We were a funny couple, in a way. We used to argue about whose people had suffered the worse holocaust."

I didn't know how to reply to that, so instead I said, "Maybe we should go inside before we get too damp."

She nodded, and we headed into the party room. Draper — the black lawyer — was now playing chess with one of the women; a second woman — the
faux
sixteen-year-old — was reading something on a datapad; and the third woman was, to my astonishment, doing jumping jacks, under the supervision of an Immortex personal trainer. I thought it incredibly pointless — an upload's artificial form hardly needed the exercise. But then I realized it must in fact be luxurious to suddenly be nimble and limber again, after years of being trapped in an aged, decaying body.

"Want to catch the 5:00 a.m. newscast?" I asked Karen.

"Sure."

We walked down a corridor, and found a room I'd noted earlier in the day that had a wall screen.

"Do you mind the CBC?" I said.

"Not at all. I watch it all the time from Detroit. It's the only way I can find out what's really going on in my country — or in the rest of the world."

I told the TV to turn on. It did so. I'd watched newscasts on this channel hundreds of times before, but this one looked completely different, now that I was seeing in full color. I wondered about that, about where the connections in my brain that allowed me to perceive colors I'd never seen before had come from.

The newscaster — a turbaned Sikh whose shift, I knew, went until 9:00 a.m. — was speaking while news footage ran behind him. "Despite another protest on Parliament Hill yesterday afternoon, it seems almost certain that Canada will go ahead and legalize multiple marriages later this month. Prime Minister Chen has scheduled a press conference for this morning, and…"

Karen shook her head, and the movement caught my eye. "You don't approve?" I asked.

"No," she said.

"Why not?" I said it as gently as I could, trying to keep my tone from sounding confrontational.

"I don't know," she replied, amiably enough.

"Do gay marriages bother you?"

She sounded slightly miffed. "No. I'm not
that
old."

"Sorry."

"No, it's a fair question. I was in my forties when Canada legalized gay marriages. I actually came to Toronto in the summer of — what was it? Two thousand and three? — to attend the wedding of an American lesbian couple I knew who came up here to get married."

"But the U.S. doesn't allow gay marriages — I remember when the constitutional amendment was passed, outlawing them."

Karen nodded. "The U.S. doesn't allow a lot of things. Believe me, many of us are uncomfortable with the continued drifting to the right."

"But you
are
against multiple marriages."

"Yes, I am, I suppose. But I'm not sure I can articulate why. I mean, I've seen lots of single moms do just fine — including my sister, may God rest her soul. So certainly my definition of family isn't limited to two parents."

"What about single dads? What about single
gay
dads?"

"Yeah, sure, that's fine."

I nodded in relief; old people can be
so
conservative. "So, what's wrong with multiple marriages?"

"I guess I think you can really only have the level of commitment that constitutes a marriage in a couple. Anything bigger than that waters it down."

"Oh, I don't know. Most people have an infinite supply of love; just ask anyone who comes from a big family."

"I guess," she said. "I take it you're in favor of multiple marriages?"

"Sure. I mean, I don't have any interest in one myself, but that's not the point. I've know several triads over the years, and two quads. They're all genuinely in love; they've got stable, long-term relationships. Why shouldn't they be entitled to call what they have a marriage?"

"Because it's
not
. It just isn't."

I certainly didn't want to start an argument, so I didn't say anything further. Looking back at the TV, I saw the anchor was now doing a story on the death of former U.S.

President Pat Buchanan, who had passed away yesterday at a hundred and six.

"Good riddance," said Karen, looking at the screen.