Chapter 30
Two days after Cleveland's impromptu proposal, Freddie had hoped that he wouldn't bring it up again. There was no way that she could accept his proposal. Yes, she loved him. But she didn't know how to make love last. While Cleveland was at work, Freddie headed to Lillian's house to talk to her friend. She hoped that Lillian had some pointers about marriage.
“Well, you are still in Atlanta,” Lillian said when she opened the door. “I haven't seen my best friend in weeks.”
“Shut up,” Freddie said as she walked in and gave Lillian a hug. “I've been busy trying to settle in and then there was my trip to New Orleans.”
Lillian ushered Freddie to the sofa. “What happened? Did you see your parents? Are they both going to jail?”
Freddie raised her eyebrow. “You know a lot about this case,” she said.
Lillian nodded, “My mother has been checking the Internet for any updates on it. She wanted to call your mother, but they haven't spoken to each other in years.”
“She got away with it.”
“Huh?”
“My mother killed a man and she's just walking around scot-free, just like she didn't take a man's life and ruin my father's life.” Freddie pulled at her hair in frustration. “And you know what else? I walked away from everything.”
“You mean your hotel?”
She nodded solemnly. “Since Loraine claims that she did everything that she did for the good of the business, she can have it.”
“No offense, but your mom has never been good at business and you basically built that hotel into what it is now.”
Freddie didn't want to think about what she'd given up and how much of her blood, sweat, and tears she'd poured into The French Garden Inn. “Cleveland asked me to marry him,” she blurted out.
“What? Are you kidding me?” Lillian asked, her eyes stretched to the size of silver dollars. “But you haven't known him that long and . . . Did you say yes?”
Freddie closed her eyes and dropped her head. “As much as I love him, I don't know if I'm ready. What do I have to offer him?”
Lillian didn't say anything as she rose from the sofa and headed to the kitchen. Freddie followed her. “Lil, how are you just going to walk away?”
“Because I'm just blown away that Cleveland would want to get married. What do you two really know about each other?”
“Here we go. You still don't like him, do you?” Freddie asked.
“I don't have to like him, but you can't seriously be considering marrying him?”
“Why not?” Freddie said as she sat down on a bar stool and grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl on the center of the bar. “I love him.”
“And love isn't going to pay the bills, love isn't going to get you through the hard times . . .”
“Are you and Louis having problems?” Freddie asked.
Lillian grabbed an apple of her own and sat beside Freddie. “No, we're not. But marriage isn't easy and look at how long Louis and I knew each other before we got married.”
Freddie bit into the apple, wishing that she could write off what Lillian was saying, but she knew marriage was hard. She knew that she and Cleveland had a lot of things to work out before they could start a life together. But she wanted to be with him and she did love him, but did she know how to love him and be a wife? Then there was the whole thing with her finding a job. There was no way she could be a housewife. She had to do something. But did that mean she had to accept his proposal?
“Lillian,” Freddie said. “I need a job.”
“Uh-huh. Why don't you just talk to your future sister-in-law? Do you want me to cook some lunch?” Lillian looked at her watch. “Or I guess it would be brunch.”
Freddie rolled her eyes. “Look,” Lillian said. “The last time I gave you advice it nearly ruined our friendship, so I'm not going to say anything.”
“Lil,” Freddie said. “I was wrong before and I'm sorry that I took things so personally when I told you about Cleveland.”
“And I shouldn't have gotten on my high horse about him. I don't really know him the way you do and I could be wrong about him. I've seen a change in Cleveland. The other day when I took Louis lunch to the fire station, Cleveland was talking about you.”
A slow smile spread across Freddie's face. “Really?”
Lillian nodded as she walked over to the stove. “I've heard Cleveland talk about women in the past and it was all about her ass, her breasts or what she did or didn't do in bed. Of course, these were conversations that I wasn't supposed to hear,” she said as she pulled a pan from underneath the stove.
“So, how did you hear these conversations?”
Lillian turned around and smirked at her friend. “Hello, I know where to sit and wait for my man without being seen or heard.”
“Okay, you're scary,” Freddie said with a laugh.
“It's no secret that I'm nosy. But anyway, Cleveland and Louis were sitting in the break room, drinking Coca Colas and talking about us. Cleveland was gushing about how special you are to him. He said that he'd never met a woman like you. Basically, he said that you're on his level. You're smart and witty and it doesn't hurt that you have a banging body. That's when I made my presence known. The last thing I wanted to hear were any details about what you two do when you're naked.”
Freddie smiled, imagining the look on their faces when Lillian walked in the room. “Maybe I was wrong about Cleveland,” Lillian said as she opened the refrigerator and searched for something to cook.
“All right,” Freddie said. “Let me write this down because you just admitted that you were wrong about something.”
Lillian pulled out a carton of eggs and a roll of turkey sausage. “Whatever, Winnie.”
Freddie tossed her apple core at Lillian. “There you go with that Winnie crap!”
“Just kidding with you. I know you hate that nickname.”
Freddie walked over to Lillian and started helping her cook the eggs and sausage. Lillian looked at her friend as she cracked some eggs into a bowl.
“You know all that stuff I said about love?” Lillian began as Freddie sprinkled paprika in the eggs. “I was wrong. Love changes people, and if you love Cleveland Alexander, then you should marry him.”
Freddie stopped sprinkling the seasoning. “What?”
“Marry that man. If you want to marry him, then do it.”
“I'm scared,” she whispered as she began to stir the eggs. “I really don't know if I can be the wife that he deserves.”
Lillian turned the stove on and smiled. “Yes, you can. Even though I would've never admitted it on my wedding day, I don't think I was ready to get married. And then when we began living together as husband and wife, I thought that I wasn't good enough for Louis. I was afraid for him to see that I'm not perfect.”
“No one expects you to be perfect,” Freddie said. “You put those restrictions on yourself.”
“That's not true. When people come to my house, everyone expects me to have the perfect dinner, a spotless house and . . .”
“Once again, no one expects you to be perfect, you just want us to think that you are perfect. We know the truth, and even with your flaws, we love you,” Freddie said.
“I learned that when Louis woke up one morning before I did and he was just staring at me. So, I'm thinking, my God, I must look a mess. But he gently kissed me on the lips and said âGood morning, beautiful.'”
“What's so special about that?” she asked.
“Because, I used to get up and pull a Whitley.”
“A what?”
“Remember on
A Different World
when Whitley would get up and put makeup on and brush her teeth before Dwayne Wayne would wake up? That's how I spent the first month of our marriage.”
Freddie poured the eggs into a heated pan and laughed uncontrollably at her friend. “You have got to be kidding me.”
Lillian tossed in the crumbled sausage. “No.”
Freddie shook her head and thought that Cleveland was going to have to love her just for who she was because there was no way that she'd do what Lillian did.
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Cleveland and Darren stood at the counter in Ross-Simons looking at diamonds. Shaking his head, Cleveland expelled a curse. “This is too much,” he said.
“What?”
“Shopping for a diamond ring,” he said.
Darren laughed and slapped his brother on his back. “This is what you get for asking a woman to marry you. So, tell me again, you blurted out that you wanted to marry her while you two were having sex?”
The clerk, who was about to open the case to show Cleveland a group of rings, arched her eyebrow at Darren's comment. She put back the rings that she'd initially reached for and pulled out a group of rings that were about two carats bigger.
“Something tells me that she deserves more than a half karat,” she said.
Darren turned his head away and laughed. “Damn,” he said.
Cleveland punched his brother in the arm. “Maybe I want to do something different. Because Freddie is just that special,” Cleveland said. “How about a ruby?”
The clerk nodded. “That is different. Do you think that's wise? What if she wants a diamond?”
Cleveland smiled. “I think she'll like it. Our love is fiery just like that stone.”
The clerk put the diamonds away and excused herself to find some ruby rings, which were in a different display case. Darren closed his hand around Cleveland's shoulder. “Are you sure you're ready to do this?”
“Yeah, if she doesn't like the ring then . . .”
“I'm not talking about buying a ring. I'm talking about marriage. This isn't something that you should enter into lightly.”
“Now you sound like a preacher,” Cleveland said.
“Do you think I would've asked her to marry me if I wasn't ready?”
Darren nodded. “Yes, I do. I don't understand how you go from Mr. Bachelor to Mr. I'm-Ready-to-Make-a-Commitment.”
“Freddie has shown me what it's like to be with someone worth risking it all for. When I wake up in the morning, she's my first thought.”
“I guess so since she's living in your house, sleeping in your bed, and she doesn't have a job. Are you sure this woman isn't just using you as a means to start her life over after Katrina.”
Cleveland fought the urge to deck his brother. “When did you become Mr. Cynical? How can you even say that about her? You've met Freddie and . . .”
The clerk returned with a tray of ruby rings. “Here we go. These are some of the most beautiful rings that we have with ruby stones.”
Cleveland glared at Darren before he turned back to the clerk. He couldn't understand where his brother's attitude came from.
Darren remained silent as the clerk presented Cleveland with a princess-cut ruby ring in a white gold setting.
Cleveland picked up the ring, held it up to the light and smiled. “Perfect.”
“This is wrong,” Darren blurted out.
“What?” Cleveland said, nearly dropping the ring.
“There are other rings,” the clerk said. “I can grab some of the other ones and . . .”
Cleveland reached out and touched her shoulder. “No, this is fine.” Then he turned to Darren. “You need to chill the hell out.”
“Excuse me,” the clerk said, pushing her raven hair behind her ears. “I'm going to wrap this up.” She couldn't get away from the brothers fast enough.
“Listen, this thing has happened too fast. If you really love her, then take a little more time to get to know her,” Darren said. “What if she sees you as a pay day?”
“Bullshit,” Cleveland said. “Just because you have made bad choices, don't try and put that off on me.”
“Didn't you warn me about Rita?”
“And didn't you ignore me?”
“Look how well that turned out.”
Cleveland shook his head and glowered at his brother. “You know what? I have faith in what Freddie and I have. I don't give a damn what you or anyone else thinks about us.”
“Whatever, but I don't want to see you get hurt because if that happens, you're going to shut yourself down to any other woman that you come across,” Darren said.
“And when Freddie and I live happily ever after? Then how many times do I get to say âI told you so'?”
Darren ran his hand over his face. “I pray that I'm wrong. But be realistic, bro. What you're doing only happens in the movies and in fairy tales.”
“And how often does the fireman end up with the billionaire?” Cleveland snapped before stomping off to the cash register. He didn't give a damn what Darren thought, he loved Freddie and she was going to be his wife.
Cleveland decided to take the MARTA back to his place because he was too pissed off at his brother to ride in the same car with him. But part of him wondered if Darren was right. Was he rushing into marriage with Freddie? They'd fallen in love so quickly. But he and Darren knew that tomorrow was never promised.
His cell phone rang. “Yeah,” he said.
“All right, bro,” Darren said. “I'm sorry, I was out of line and I shouldn't have said those things in the store.”
“You're damned right.”
“I know you're pissed,” he said. “But marriage is serious business and you don't want to do it more than once.”
“I know this, but she is the love of my life.”
“Well, I hope she says yes when you ask her again,” Darren said. “Properly.”