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“Yeah, just exhausted.”

“I’ve been textin’ and callin’ ya. I was startin’ to get a little freaked out that something had happened to you.”

Despite myself, I smile knowing that Beau was concerned for me. “I’m fine. I was so dog-tired by the time they let us leave the studio,” I tell him, sitting up and opening my eyes for the first time since arriving back to my hotel room. I’m bathed in dull light from the lamp across the room. I’m assuming Ben left it on for me.

“I know ya were, that’s why I was tryin’ to get ahold of ya. To make sure ya made it back safely.” Oh. I think my heart just melted into a big pile of mushy goo. I can hear the faint rustling of material in the background, and my mind instantly thinks of Beau lying naked in bed within those covers.

“I did. Ben helped me up to my room.”

There’s a long pregnant pause before he asks, “Ben?” There’s no missing the fact that his voice is laced with annoyance and something else. Jealousy.

“Yeah, Ben. I practically fell asleep in the car ride back to the hotel and he helped carry me inside.”

“Ben carried you? Into your hotel room?”

“Yes,” I say, trying to figure out a way to defuse the situation I see brewing. “He helped get me inside my hotel room. And then he left.”

Silence greets me on the other side of the line. I debate on what to say next. Even though nothing happened, I find myself caught between defending Ben against whatever accusations Beau is about to hurl at him, and letting Beau know that it’s ultimately my decision if something were to ever happen between Ben and myself. I’m technically still single, and I have a right to have whoever I want in my hotel room with me.

He must sense my irritation as much as I feel his through the phone. “I’m sorry, Layne. That guy just makes me see red whenever I think about him around you. I know I don’t have a claim on ya…yet, but that doesn’t mean I have to like him hangin’ around you. Even if his intentions are pure, I just don’t trust him.”

“All he did was help me in my room and turn on a light. I heard the door close before I even fell asleep.”

Beau sighs heavily in the phone. “Forgive me, sweetheart. For some crazy reason, I turn all jealous and possessive when it comes to you. I’m not used to dealin’ with this green-eyed reaction. Congratulations, again,” he adds, his voice changing to a more cheerful one.

“Thank you. Do you know what I’m singing for the finale?” I ask, yawning and lying back down on the bed.

“I do. But I can’t tell ya yet. We’ll have to do the big reveal tomorrow for the cameras. Or should I say tonight, since it’s after three a.m.”

It’s quiet for several minutes. I relax into my pillow and close my eyes. Listening to Beau’s slow and steady breathing, I’m lulled back towards sleep. “I should let ya go,” Beau whispers. “You’ve had a long night.”

“What if I just wanted you to stay on the line? I like listening to you breathe. It makes me feel like you’re right here beside me,” I mumble in a sleepy voice.

“Then I’m not going anywhere. I’ll stay right here for as long as you want me to. Anytime you need me, I’m right here, Layne.” His voice, even laced with his own exhaustion, is strong and steady. I can hear the conviction in his words and it makes my heart race just a little bit faster.

Music starts softly in the background. Within a few seconds, Beau is singing along to a country song I’m not familiar with. Of course, that doesn’t surprise me since most of the country songs I’ve learned have been newly acquired since meeting Beau Tanner.

One song quickly becomes two, which then turns into three. Lying in bed, I’m completely mesmerized by his deep voice, all sweet and sexy and intoxicating. I’ve heard him sing plenty, but never like this. Never have the words been so intimate and raw. It’s as if the words he’s singing are for me and me alone, and as I lie in bed, I know that they are. I feel the emotions he feels for me pouring through the phone. It’s as if no one else exists in the world. It’s just Beau and me. Together.

His soft, seductive words about finding love and holding on to it forever are the last thing I recall before slowly drifting back to sleep.

*****

Between practices with Beau, the choreographer, and a vocal coach, dress fittings and sleep, I have little room for anything else come the weekend–and that includes eating. It’s the final weekend before the big live two-day finale, and I’m running on fumes. Saturday nights before would involve some sort of physical torture with Corie, followed by drinks and dancing at a local club. Now, I’m more homesick than ever, and just want to curl up in bed and sleep until Tuesday.

Of course, we all know that’ll never happen.

After an hour-long Skype chat with Eli and my mom, I take a quick shower and settle in to watch
Friends
reruns. My phone rings before Rachel hops on the plane for London to disrupt Ross’ wedding to Emily. I smile at the name on the screen.

“What are you doing?”

“Talkin’ to you,” Beau says with a smile.

“You’re kidding me. I never would have guessed,” I retort with a chuckle.

“I have an idea,” he says, all signs of humor gone.

“What’s up?” I ask, sitting up straight in bed.

“A car is going to be pullin’ up in front of the hotel in about ten minutes. Get in the car. No need to dress up or change. We’re goin’ somewhere without cameras or pryin’ eyes. No questions asked.” Of course, the first thing I want to do is ask a question: namely, where am I going? But I refrain from doing the one thing he told me not to do.

Besides, I trust him.

Note to self: Never get into cars with strangers. Unless that stranger is a gorgeous cowboy with the sexiest southern drawl. Then, don’t walk. Run to the car!

“Deal?” he asks.

“I have to go. I have to be downstairs in ten minutes,” I say with one of those big, cheeky grins on my face.

Beau’s laughter is the last thing I hear before signing off the phone.

After brushing out my hair, I throw back on my bra and change my t-shirt because no one wants to be caught with a country hottie without a bra and wearing an oversized shirt with sleeping puppies. I found a vintage seventies rock tee at a local thrift shop last weekend and I have yet to wear it. While Beau said there was no need to change my clothes, I still feel the need to exchange my holey sweatpants for something different. Throwing on the first pair of shorts I find in the drawer, I quickly slip into the bathroom to freshen up before heading downstairs.

A black town car is waiting beneath the awning as I slip outside. A friendly looking, older gentleman in a black suit opens the back door for me. I’m disappointed when I realize the backseat is empty. Once inside, he closes the door, engulfing me in cool air conditioning and silence.

“Good evening, Miss Carter. Mr. Tanner asks that you relax for a few moments. We’ll be at our destination within fifteen minutes or so,” the man says, smiling at me in the rearview mirror.

“And where exactly is our destination, sir?” I ask.

He chuckles but never takes his eyes off of me in the mirror. “You can call me Al, ma’am. And as far as our destination goes, I’ve been instructed to remind you that there are to be no questions asked.”

“Cheeky bastard, isn’t he? Are all cowboys this damn stubborn?” I mumble, not realizing I said it loud enough for Al to hear.

His laughter fills the car. “He is indeed, Miss Carter. He also said that you might try to persuade me into giving up the location. In that case, I am to remind you that all good things come to those who wait.” With one more smile in the rearview mirror, Al winks at me before turning his attention to the road before him.

Fifteen minutes later, we pull in front of a large, non-descriptive brick building with very few lights on. Before Al can exit the car, my door opens, revealing one handsome cowboy. The smile he gives me could melt the polar icecaps in December; maybe even strip the panties off a nun in church on Sunday morning. Either way, that gorgeous smile is aimed directly at me.

Beau extends his hand, assisting me from the vehicle. “Did ya have a nice trip?”

“Yes,” I tell him breathlessly as he leads me towards the front doors.

“Did you ask Al where you were going?”

“Of course not,” I tell him, fretting innocence.

Beau’s laughter is better than any music. “I bet you didn’t,” he says with a firm shake of his head. “This way,” he adds as we step inside and head towards a bank of elevators. I don’t ask any questions as Beau presses the button for the tenth floor.

Inside the elevator, I can feel his eyes blazing a trail of fire up and down my body. I fight my desire to look at him for as long as I can, but in the end, it’s fruitless. When my eyes connect with his, I feel the effects of their burn all the way to my toes. This man has the uncanny ability to touch every part of my body with only his eyes, leaving me yearning for more and rendering me speechless.

When we reach our floor and the door opens, I walk alongside Beau, his hand warming the base of my spine, until we reach the second door on the left. Inside, the room is set up like a small rehearsal studio, similar to the one we use for the studio.

“What is this place?” I ask, taking in the wall of instruments and the comfortable seating.

“This is my rehearsal studio while I’m in Los Angeles. The band and I practice here from time to time while I’m stuck here with show commitments. It’s also the place I escape to when I need to get away from all of the show people and the cameras.”

“This is a nice place,” I tell him, looking around the large room a second time.

“This is the one place I don’t allow the studio to film. It’s like my own private sanctuary, ya know? No cameras. No lights. No production assistants telling me where to stand. Just me, my instruments, and a little free time.”

I don’t really know what to say, so I opt to remain quiet. I’m not sure why he brought me here, but his “no questions” statement comes to mind again, so I don’t ask. Instead, I walk over to a drum set in the corner of the room. I’ve never really played an instrument before unless you count chopsticks on the old piano in the backroom of Chaser’s. But even though I don’t play, doesn’t mean I haven’t always wanted to.

“Have you ever played?” he asks, startling me with his closeness.

“No.”

“Come on,” Beau says, grabbing my hand and pulling me towards the drums.

Beau takes a seat on the stool and slaps his left leg. His eyes are alive as if a challenge has been made. Of course, I’m not one to back down from any challenge, so I straddle his leg–careful not to kick the drum set in front of me–and have a seat on Beau’s leg. The position is incredibly erotic and makes me want to start rubbing my crotch against him like a dog in heat.
Down, girl.

“Alright, pick a song,” Beau says, suddenly pulling a pair of drumsticks from a bucket next to the drums.

“Just pick a song? Any song I want and you’ll play it?”

“No, we’ll play it. Pick.”

So I throw out the first song I think of. “‘Barracuda’ by Heart.”

“Excellent choice, darlin’. The Wilson sisters have recently become a personal favorite of mine.”

And with that, he begins to drum the opening beat of the song. I quickly find myself tapping along with my foot, and feel the song taking shape. Of course, it’s not as good as it probably could be considering his movements are restricted somewhat by the woman sitting on his lap.

When he gets to the part where the lyrics come into play, he stops and hands me the sticks. “Your turn.”

“But, I don’t know how to play,” I defend, staring at the sticks like they’re a snake that might try to bite me.

“Sure you do. Just feel the music and the beat. Even if ya don’t hit the right drums, you still could tap out the beat with your eyes closed. So do it. Close your eyes and just feel the music.”

Hesitantly taking the warm drumsticks in my hands, I get ready to make a fool of myself on the drums. But I know this music like the back of my hand, so I take a few deep breaths and close my eyes. Then I begin to play.

Note to self: Next time you’re going to pick up a foreign instrument, select a slower song.

Surprisingly, I think I do all right by the time I make it somewhere in the middle of the song. Oh, it’s not anything near performance ready, but you can tell there’s a song deep down. Way, way down. But the important thing is that I feel the beat, feel the music. It pulls me in and holds me captive.

Just like the man I’m sitting on.

Taking my hands in his, Beau slows down the noise and helps drum a steady beat. Suddenly we’ve gone from hard and rockin’ to slow and seductive. His hands are hot wrapped around mine, and I feel his warm breath tickling my ear as he slowly hypnotizes me with each inhale and exhale. An uncontrollable shiver rips through my body, but it has nothing to do with the coolness of the room and everything to do with this man and the way he touches me.

We play in unison for several minutes, playing a song that I’m not familiar with. Hell, for all I know, Beau is making it up as we go. All I know is that I’m entranced with the music, the steady tapping of the drums, and the one-hundred percent all-man hottie with his arms wrapped around me.

Shivers rip through my body like a tornado and goose bumps pepper my skin when Beau gently brushes his lips against the back of my neck. “You smell like heaven. It’s a little bit of something floral wrapped in sweetness. Like tulips dipped in sugar. It makes me want to lick this part of your neck,” he says as he runs his tongue down my neck and toward my collarbone. “And suck on ya. Right. Here,” Beau says, punctuating each word by gently sucking open-mouthed on my tingly skin.

“You can’t say that to me,” I whisper without conviction, finding it difficult to speak with my suddenly too thick tongue.

“Why not?” he whispers against my flushed skin.

“Because it makes me want more. And I can’t have more,” I reply with a groan. My body is fully charged, a live wire of electricity, with no relief in sight.

“
Yet,
Layne. We can’t have more
yet.
I promise you that as soon as this show is finished, I will know what the rest of your skin tastes like. I am going to savor every inch of your delectable body. I am going to kiss every part of you as I strip you naked, and then I am going to do things to you–every single one of the wicked things I’ve fantasized about–until you are screaming my name and left satisfied and boneless. And then I’m going to do them all over again. Why? Because one time isn’t going to be nearly enough with you. I might need days. Weeks. Fuck, I might need to spend the rest of my life consumed by you. Only you.”