My Mistress's Sparrow Is Dead (63 page)

“Mrs. Wang is very capable,” Zhenbao said with a smile. “She’ll be taking care of us, I’m sure. I very much doubt that it will be us taking care of her.”

“Don’t be fooled by her chatter,” said Shihong. “She doesn’t understand a thing. She’s been in China for three years now, but she still isn’t used to it here, and she can’t really speak Chinese well.”

Mrs. Wang smiled slightly and didn’t disagree. She merely summoned the amah to fetch a bottle of medicine from the cabinet, and poured out a spoonful. Zhenbao saw the thick liquid, like white paint, in the spoon, and winced. “Is that cream of calcium? I’ve taken that before—it tastes terrible.”

Mrs. Wang emptied the spoon down her throat. For a moment she was speechless, but then she swallowed the medicine. “It’s like drinking a wall!” she said. Zhenbao smiled again. “When Mrs. Wang talks, she hits the nail right on the head!”

“Mr. Tong,” said Mrs. Wang, “don’t keep calling me Mrs. Wang.” She got up and went over to a desk near the window. It’s true, Zhenbao was thinking to himself, the name “Mrs. Wang” is just too commonplace. She sat at the desk, apparently writing something. Shihong went over to her, put his hand on her shoulder, and bent down to ask, “You’re perfectly healthy, so why are you taking doses of that?”

Mrs. Wang kept on writing, without turning her head. “The heat is rising in my system—I’ve got a pimple on my face.”

“Where?” said Shihong, leaning his face close. She moved aside lightly, frowning and smiling at once. “Hey there, hey there!” she warned him.

Dubao, raised in an old-fashioned family, had never seen a husband and wife like this. He was unable to sit still and left to admire the scenery. He opened the glass door and walked onto the balcony. Zhenbao went on peeling an apple with a fair degree of composure. But Mrs. Wang came back across the room, and thrust a piece of paper at him. “There, I too have a given name,” she said.

“The way you write Chinese characters, you shouldn’t show them around,” Shihong said with a smile. “People will just laugh.”

When Zhenbao saw the three crooked words on the paper, each one bigger than the last, and the last one breaking apart into three distinct fragments—wang jiAO RUI—he really had to laugh.

“I told you people would laugh, didn’t I?” Shihong said with a clap of his hands.

“No, no,” said Zhenbao, controlling himself. “Really it’s a pretty name!”

“Those overseas Chinese—the names they pick never have any style,” said Shihong.

Pouting, Jiaorui grabbed the piece of paper and crumpled it up. She turned on her heels and walked off, seemingly in a huff. Not thirty seconds later she came back with an open jar of candied walnuts, which she’d already started to eat, and she offered them to Zhenbao and Dubao.

“I thought you were afraid of getting fat!” laughed Shihong.

“It’s true,” said Zhenbao. “Sweets are very fattening.”

“You don’t know about those overseas Chinese, they—” Shihong started to say, but Jiaorui hit him. “It’s always ‘they, them, those overseas Chinese’!” she said. “Don’t call me ‘them’!”

Shihong went right on. “They have the bad habits of the Chinese and the bad habits of foreigners as well. From the foreigners they learn to be afraid of getting fat, won’t eat this, won’t eat that, always taking purgatives but can’t stop eating sweets. But then—go ahead, just ask her! If you ask her why she’s eating this, she’ll say she’s had a little cough recently, and candied walnuts are good for a cough.”

“That really is the old Chinese way,” Zhenbao said with a smile. “Anything you like to eat is, of course, good for something.”

Jiaorui picked up a walnut and slid it between her teeth. She pointed her little finger at Zhenbao. “Stop that now—there really is some truth to it!”

To Zhenbao, she seemed drunk. Fearing the kind of faux pas that so often follows drink, he mumbled something inconsequential and strolled onto the balcony. The breeze was cool on his skin: most likely his face had been pretty red a moment before. Now he was even more troubled. He’d just put an end to his relationship with Rose, and here she was again, in a new body, with a new soul—and another man’s wife. But this woman went even further than Rose. When she was in the room, the walls seemed to be covered with figures in red chalk, pictures of her half naked, on the left, on the right, everywhere. Why did he keep running into this kind of woman? Was it his fault that he always reacted the way he did? Surely that couldn’t be. After all, there really weren’t many women of this sort, not among the pure Chinese. He’d just returned to China, so he was running with the half-Chinese, half-Western crowd. Any Chinese he met while abroad was “an old friend found in a faraway land.” When he returned home and saw those “old friends” again, the first time they met they were bosom friends, the second time mere acquaintances, and by the third time they were strangers to each other.

And yet, when it came to this Wang Jiaorui, hadn’t Shihong done pretty well for himself by marrying her? Of course, Wang Shihong’s father had money; if a man had to forge ahead on his own, as Zhenbao did, such a woman would be a major impediment. And he wasn’t easygoing like Wang Shihong, who let a woman flout every rule. What was the point if you had to argue all day long? That was sure to sap a man’s energy and drain him of ambition. Of course . . . she was like this precisely because her husband couldn’t control her; if Wang Shihong had managed to get a handle on her, she wouldn’t be quite so unruly.

Zhenbao leaned on the railing, his arms folded. Down below, an electric tram with a brightly burning lamp stopped at the entrance of the building. Several people got on and off, and the lamp moved away. Wide and quiet, the street stretched beyond him; the only light was from a little restaurant on the first floor. Two leaves skittered by in the wind like ragged shoes not worn by anyone, just walking along by themselves. So many people in the world—but they won’t be coming home with you. When night fell and silence took over—or when, as could happen at any time, you stood at the brink of death—there in the dark, you needed a wife you really loved, otherwise there would be nothing but loneliness. Zhenbao didn’t think this through clearly, but he was overwhelmed by a sense of foreboding.

Shihong and his wife were chatting as they walked onto the balcony. “Is your hair dry?” Shihong asked. “If you stand in the breeze your cough is going to get worse.”

“It doesn’t matter,” said Jiaorui, unwrapping the towel and shaking out her hair.

Zhenbao figured that since Shihong was leaving the next day, the couple would want to speak in privacy. Raising a hand to disguise a forced yawn, he said, “We’ll go to bed now. Dubao has to get up very early tomorrow so he can go to school and get a student handbook.”

“I’m leaving in the afternoon,” Shihong said, “so I probably won’t see you.” The two men shook hands and said good-bye. Zhenbao and Dubao went to their room.

The next day, when Zhenbao came back from work and pressed the doorbell, Jiaorui opened the door, phone receiver in hand. It was dim in the hallway, which made it hard to see, but Shihong’s hat and coat were gone from the coatrack, along with the leather suitcase that had been under the rack. He must have left already. Taking off his coat and hanging it on the rack, Zhenbao heard Jiaorui dial a phone number in the other room. “Please ask Mr. Sun to come to the phone,” she said. Zhenbao listened. He heard her ask, “Is this Timmy? No, I’m not going out today, I’m at home waiting for a boyfriend.” She started to giggle. “Who is he? I’m not telling you. Why should I tell you? . . . Ah, so you’re not interested? Not even interested in yourself, are you . . . Anyway, I’m waiting for him to come for tea at five o’clock. I’m waiting specially for him, so don’t come over.”

Zhenbao went to his room without waiting for her to finish. His brother wasn’t there, or in the bathroom either. He went out to see if he was on the balcony, and Jiaorui emerged from the living room to greet him. “Dubao asked me to tell you that he’s making the rounds of the used bookstores to see if he can find some books.”

“Oh, thank you,” said Zhenbao. He took a good long look. She was wearing a long dress that trailed on the floor, a dress of such intense, fresh, and wet green that anything it touched turned the same color. When she moved a little, the air was streaked with green. The dress had been cut a bit too small, it seemed: the seams along the side were split open an inch and a half, then laced together, in a crisscross pattern, over a green satin strip that didn’t fully cover a startling pink slip. Looked at too long, those eye-popping colors would prove blinding. Only Jiaorui could wear a dress like that with such utter insouciance.

“Would you like some tea?” she asked, turning back into the living room. She sat down at the table, and lifted the pot to pour the tea. The table was set for two, with a plate of butter biscuits and toast. Zhenbao stood by the glass door.

“Isn’t there a guest coming?”

“We won’t wait for him. Let’s go ahead and have something to eat.”

Zhenbao hesitated, unable to figure out what she had in mind. Then, just for the time being, he sat down.

“Do you take milk?” Jiaorui asked.

“Either way.”

“Oh, that’s right, you like green tea. You were abroad so many years and couldn’t get it there—that’s what you said yesterday.”

“You have a good memory.”

Getting up to ring the bell, Jiaorui threw him a glance. “No, you don’t know. Usually my memory is terrible.”

Zhenbao’s heart jumped, and he was knocked off balance. The amah came in. “Make two cups of green tea,” Jiaorui ordered.

“Ask her to bring another teacup and plate while she’s at it,” said Zhenbao, “for the guest who’s coming later.”

Jiaorui gave him a sharp look. “Who is this guest that you’re so anxious about? Amah, bring me a pen and a piece of paper.” She dashed off a note, then pushed it across to Zhenbao. Two lines, simple and succinct:

Dear Timmy, So very sorry, but I have something to do today. I’ve gone out.—Jiaorui
. She folded the paper over and gave it to the amah. “Mr. Sun will come in a little while. When he does, give this to him and tell him I’m not home.”

The amah went out. Zhenbao took a biscuit. “I don’t understand you,” he said. “Why go to so much trouble, asking a man to come to your house, then turn him away empty-handed?”

Jiaorui leaned forward, carefully considering the selection of biscuits on the plate, but she couldn’t find any that she liked. “When I asked him to come I didn’t plan to turn him away.”

“Oh? A last-minute decision?”

“Don’t you know the saying? It’s a woman’s prerogative to change her mind.”

The amah brought the green tea, leaves floating all over the surface of the water. Zhenbao held the glass in both hands without drinking. His eyes were fixed on the tea but his mind was elsewhere, working things out. Jiaorui was still carrying on with that Mr. Sun behind her husband’s back, and evidently she was worried that Zhenbao would see what was going on. That’s why she’d put on this sweet act today. She wanted to win him over so he’d keep his mouth shut. But in fact Zhenbao had no intention of interfering in their private lives. It wasn’t that his bond with Wang Shihong was too weak—even if they’d been blood brothers, stirring up disputes between a husband and wife was not his style. Even so, this woman could cause a lot of trouble. Zhenbao redoubled his caution.

Jiaorui set down her tea glass and rose to get a jar of peanut butter from the cabinet. “I’m a trashy person, and I like to eat trashy things.”

“Oh, my! This stuff is very rich, very fattening!”

Jiaorui took off the lid. “I love breaking the rules. Don’t you approve of rule-breaking?”

Zhenbao put his hand on top of the glass jar. “No.”

Jiaorui hesitated for a long moment. Then she said, “How about this? You put some on the bread for me. I’m sure you won’t give me too much.”

Her expression was so pitiful that he couldn’t help laughing. Zhenbao spread peanut butter on the bread. Jiaorui watched him closely over the edge of her cup, pursed her lips, and laughed. “Do you know why I had you do it for me? If I did it myself, all of a sudden I might turn conscientious and spread it as thin as possible. But I know that you’d feel bad if you only gave me a little!” At this they both laughed. Unable to resist Jiaorui’s childlike charm, Zhenbao gradually softened.

As they were drinking their tea, the doorbell sounded. Zhenbao got restless. For the third time now he asked, “Is that the guest you invited? Don’t you feel embarrassed?” Jiaorui shrugged.