My Secret Garden (Women Sexual Fantasies)

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Nancy Friday

My Secret

Garden

Women’s Sexual Fantasies

FOR BILLY

who believed in this book

when it was just fantasy

N.F.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

FOREWORD by "J," ......................................................... 1

CHAPTER ONE

“TELL ME WHAT YOU ARE

THINKING ABOUT,” HE SAID.............................................5

CHAPTER TWO

"WHY FANTASIZE WHEN YOU HAVE ME?"

FRUSTRATION .................................................................... 17

Madge, Dot

INSUFFICIENCY.................................................................. 21

Louella, Irene, Annette, Maria

SEX ENHANCEMENT ......................................................... 27

Patricia, Suzanne,

FOREPLAY .......................................................................... 34

Bertha, Bellinda

APPROVAL .......................................................................... 38

Sally, Vicki, Francesca, Sondra

EXPLORATION.................................................................... 46

Karen, Abbie, Hilda, Heather, Kitty

SEXUAL INITIATIVE........................................................... 53

Carol, Faye

INSATIABILITY ................................................................... 60

Clarissa, Annabel, Iris, Nora .............................................. 65

DAYDREAMS ...................................................................... 66

Corinne, Molly, Alicia, Lily, Eliza, Esther, Shirley, Lillian, Viola

MASTURBATION ................................................................ 74

Patsy, Norma, Adair, Mary Beth, Elizabeth, Mary Jane, Amelia, Alix

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THE LESBIANS.................................................................... 86

Marion, Jeanne, Lisa, Zizi, Kate

CHAPTER THREE
THE HOUSE OF FANTASY

ROOM NUMBER ONE: ANONYMITY.............................. 100

Linda, Pamela, Marie

ROOM NUMBER TWO: THE AUDIENCE......................... 108

Caroline, Elspeth, Mary Jo, Melanie, Celeste ROOM NUMBER THREE: RAPE....................................... 116

Julietta, Gail, Dinah, Sadie

ROOM NUMBER FOUR: PAIN AND MASOCHISM ........ 123

Barbara, Edith, Rose Ann, Amanda

ROOM NUMBER FIVE: DOMINATION ............................ 133

Nathalie, Poppy, Heather, Ingrid

ROOM NUMBER SIX: THE SEXUALITY OF TERROR.... 146

Johanna, Anna

ROOM NUMBER SEVEN: THRILL OF THE FORBIDDEN151

Emma, Donna

ROOM NUMBER EIGHT: TRANSFORMATION ROOM... 155

Monica, Betty, Phyllis

ROOM NUMBER NINE: THE EARTH MOTHER ROOM.. 165

Vivian, Marina

ROOM NUMBER TEN: INCEST ........................................ 168

Bella, Dominique, Lola

ROOM NUMBER ELEVEN: THE ZOO.............................. 175

Jo, Rosie, Dawn, Wanda

ROOM NUMBER TWELVE: BIG BLACK MEN................ 181

Margie, Raquel, Lydia

ROOM NUMBER THIRTEEN: YOUNG BOYS.................. 185

Evelyn, Victoria

ROOM NUMBER FOURTEEN: THE FETISHISTS ........... 188

Faith

ROOM NUMBER FIFTEEN: OTHER WOMEN ................ 190

Christine, Dolly, Bee, Venice, Lilly, Rita, Mary Beth, ii

Viv, Lee, Willa, Dana, Cara, Celia, Theresa, Tania, Michelle, Sandra, Patty

ROOM NUMBER SIXTEEN: PROSTITUTION ................. 207

CHAPTER FOUR

"WHERE DID A NICE GIRL LIKE YOU GET AN IDEA
LIKE THAT?"

CHILDHOOD...................................................................... 209

Theda, Lindsay, Fiona, Felicia, Sonia, Phyllis, Marlene, Kay, Trudy, Mona, Stella

SOUNDS............................................................................. 221

June, Nina, Meg, Holly, Evie

WOMEN DO LOOK ........................................................... 225

Fay, Sukie, Constance, Deana, Anna, Vera, Una, Lois, Liz, Winona, Rudy, Gale, Imogene, Francine, April, Myrna, Laurie, Jeanie

SEEING AND READING.................................................... 234

Mary Jane, Miranda, Margaret, Alexandra, Stephanie RANDOM ASSOCIATIONS ............................................... 243

Susie, Adrienne, Doris, Lulu, Daisy, Kit, Flossie, Josie, Brett, Sarah, Maud, Gelda

CHAPTER FIVE

GUILT AND FANTASY, OR, WHY THE FIG LEAF?

WOMEN’S GUILT.............................................................. 257

Christiana, Hope, Lil, Alison, Clare, Penelope ................. 267

MEN’S ANXIETY .............................................................. 268

Tina’s husband ................................................................ 269

CHAPTER SIX

FANTASY ACCEPTED........................................................ 271

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"OF COURSE I FANTASIZE, DOESN’T EVERYONE?". 272

Gloria, Hannah, Sophie, Bobbie, Paula

FANTASIES THAT SHOULD BE REALITY .................... 298

Martha

ACTING OUT FANTASIES, PROS AND CONS................ 300

Sylvia, Babs, Elizabeth, Winnie, Loretta, Sheila, Claudine, Jocelyn

SHARING FANTASIES ...................................................... 311

Lynn, Jacqueline, Doris, Bonnie, Jessie, Esther, Posie, Marx, Joan, Adele’s husband

CHAPTER SEVEN

Quickies ................................................................................. 327

AFTERWORD

“IN DEFENSE OF NANCY FRIDAY"

by Martin Shepard, M.D., psychiatrist, ................................ 340

iv

FOREWORD by "J,"

author of the Sensuous Woman

I’ve never met Nancy Friday, but I feel that I know her, for I still have pictures of her wedding tucked away in a drawer. She had what I consider a perfect wedding – romantic, glamorous, inexpensive and private – and the reason I know about it is that Cosmopolitan Magazine covered the event in its April 1966

issue.

The article was titled "Marry the Man Today…in Rome," and when the manuscript of
My Secret Garden
was sent to me for comment, I dug out
Cosmopolitan
and took another look at the author. My memory was accurate. Nancy Friday looks like a former Miss America – pretty, wholesome, well-scrubbed, glowing.
This
girl has written a book on women’s sexual fantasies?

There couldn’t be a more perfect author, for it’s time that we removed the veils of misunderstanding from this subject and made it respectable. Too many people assume that anyone who has sexual fantasies is mentally sick or oversexed – or both! Ms.

Friday’s healthy attitude and common-sense comments will do much to alleviate guilts, fears and ignorance, and the fact that she is somewhat of a girl-next-door type will be comforting to readers who feel that sexual fantasies aren’t well-bred.

Admittedly, the reader will at times have to fight off shock, prurient interest and distaste while reading My Secret Garden.

This is no coffee-table book. Nor should it be left around where children might pick it up. My Secret Garden could bring plain brown paper wrappers back into vogue, for not only is it a serious, informative study of a facet of human sexuality that has been largely ignored, it is also painfully personal, 1

uncompromisingly candid and unabashedly erotic. There has never been anything quite like it. You are going to have to force yourself at times to remember that this is a clinical work.

I began to be interested in sexual fantasies several years ago when I realized how much you could learn about the person you love by examining his or her fantasies. For it is pretty certain that sexual fantasies do reflect one’s secret vision of ideal sexual activity. That doesn’t mean I think you should take your lover’s dreams literally (most fantasies feature highly exaggerated behaviour), but you should become aware that buried in his or her favourite sexual fantasy is a core of desire to experience a special psychological attitude or activity and the accompanying physical sensations. You won’t really know your lover until you have unearthed those hidden desires. Nor will you have achieved complete trust and intimacy until you have been able to share your fantasies with each other and have them accepted. Perhaps this book will break the barrier of silence.

Very little space was devoted to sexual fantasies in
The
Sensuous Woman
. Most of the women I interviewed were uninhibited in their discussions of the subject and I incorporated some of their comments into several chapters. I even considered doing a separate section detailing the fantasies that were repeated to me most often, but I dropped the idea when the companion chapter on men’s fantasies proved so difficult. That was one of the shortest chapters in my book, for, much to my astonishment, asking a man about his sexual fantasies triggered a response similar to that of hitting an exposed nerve. In both individual and group interviews the men reacted as if I had suggested rape, and clammed up immediately. Even swingers and habitual orgiasts seemed to be struck by a bolt of instant amnesia. After
The
Sensuous Woman
was published, I got a number of letters from women saying they thought the chapter on men’s fantasies was interesting, but not one comment was ever received from men.

My heart goes out to the poor soul who attempts to compile the 2

first book on men’s fantasies. It would be easier, to train turtles to outrun greyhounds.

In all fairness, I should mention that my own sex has its area of sensitivity. I had an extremely difficult time getting many women to discuss masturbation. They would volunteer every detail of their lovemaking, acknowledge extramarital affairs, etc., without embarrassment, but be unable to even say the word masturbation, much less admit to engaging in this very normal activity. Only when they were describing a sexual fantasy were these women able to relax enough to speak of masturbation.

I mention all this to explain my opinion that men and women will react very differently to
My Secret Garden
. I suspect that women generally will be fascinated by the revelations in this book, but not surprised. Nor will these readers have trouble in acknowledging that they too fantasize. Those women, however, who consider sexual intercourse unpleasant and/or unsatisfying will be revolted by the explicit and enthusiastically carnal sexual daydreams of the women in this book and will reject and deny their own fantasies both to the world and to themselves.

And how will the male react? The first man I gave
My Secret
Garden
to was so turned on by the book that he went on a lovemaking marathon. But, unfortunately for the women in America, I suspect that this reaction was not average. The next few male readers were much like the men Nancy Friday tells us about. Since many of the women in this book regard their sexual fantasies as more intimate than the sex act itself, the men felt that their masculinity was threatened (how could any dream be more satisfying than, me?). These readers were especially furious at the fantasies where women imagined that their husbands were movie or sports stars during their lovemaking. (A common male fantasy, by the way, is to imagine while he is making love to his wife or girlfriend that she is Raquel Welch, Ava Gardner or whoever else excites him. The double standard seems to extend even to dreams.)

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Some men, already unnerved by the onslaught of women’s lib, will be angered that they are treated as sex objects in most women’s fantasies and be shocked and frightened by some of the contributors’ lusty, dominating, twisted dreams. The possibility that Susan, his demure little wife, could imagine even one of the outrageous acts in
My Secret Garden
will be more than this type of man can handle emotionally, and my advice to Susan is that she let him know that she approves of the book but keep her fantasies to herself until he matures a little more. Women are going to have to do most of the work of helping men acknowledge that it isn’t freaky to fantasize.

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