Needing You (29 page)

“We just got here,” I tell him laughing.

“I know, but I can think of a whole lot of other things we could be doing than being here,” he whispers into my ear. I can’t help laughing and a few of the guys look over at me, but I just ignore them too.

“You’re crazy, we have time for that later,” I tell him and then kiss him on the lips. A few of the guys joke about us and another tells us to get a room, but it’s all in good fun.

King Dread starts to play and the bar gets loud. I can’t hold a conversation, let alone think to myself.  It’s nice to be a spectator for once and it doesn’t hurt to be sitting in Tuck’s lap with his arm around my waist.

The evening flies by because I’m laughing, enjoying the music and just having a great time. I honestly couldn’t have asked for anything more. When Tuck heads up to the bar to get a drink, I see Parker, so I decide to go and say hello.

“You guys sound great tonight Parker!”

“Thanks, how have you been?” he asks.

“I’m pretty good. So look, I wanted to talk to you about Tuck…umm…he did tell me about what happened between you guys and I’m sorry Parker,”  I say sadly to him.

“Thanks, but I don’t want to talk about this, no offense, it’s in the past,” he says solemnly.

“Right sorry, I just…well…I mean…I can see that you guys…well I mean you guys were best friends once and it just seems like you could have that back, if you want. I know Tuck misses your friendship and I know how bad he feels about what he did, but if you could…”

“Harp stop. I get what you’re trying to do, but it’s not that simple.  Tuck and I aren’t friends and what happened, well it’s not something I can forget,” he says a bit harshly.

“I understand that, I guess I was just hoping you guys could move on from it.  We all have things that we need to move on from.  You guys were best friends and I hope one day, you can be friends again.”

“I would like nothing more than to move on and maybe in time, I can. I do miss my friendship with Tuck; he was my best friend, but I’m not sure I can get over what happened.” The look on his face tells me he wishes things were different, but I can understand, I guess.

Before I can say anything else to Parker, Tuck walks up behind me. “Hey Park we’re leaving tomorrow at 9 a.m., what time are you leaving?”

“Huh?” I say out loud, looking at Parker.  Clearly, they are talking about something that I have no idea about.

“We’re heading out around 11 a.m., I won’t be up until then, but I’m already packed and Natalie will be pushing me out the door I’m sure,” he says with a laugh.

“Okay cool” Tuck says.

“Hello, what are you guys talking about? You and Natalie are going somewhere together?”  How the heck did I not know this? I mean, I’ve seen them hang out and come and go here and there, but I never realized they were serious or anything.

Parker looks worried as he looks to Tuck and then back to me, then back to Tuck. What the heck is going on?  “Oh sorry baby, Park and Natalie are coming to Virginia too,” he says like it’s not a big deal.

“W-what why?” I ask nervously.  This is already going to be hard, but I can’t have them there and watch their faces fall when I have to talk about what my father did to me.  I already can’t bear the look that will be on Tuck’s face, I can’t have anyone else there.

“Harper,” Park starts to stay, “we’re your friends and we’re coming to support you,” he says simply enough.

“Oh,” is all I can say.

“We’ll see you tomorrow Park,” Tuck says as he turns and leads us back to our table. I give Parker a little wave, still not believing that Parker and Natalie are coming to Virginia tomorrow for me.

The rest of the night I’m pretty quiet, not really thinking about what’s going on around me, but now worrying about what’s going to happen at my father’s trial, with my friends there. “You okay babe? You’ve been pretty quiet.” Obviously Tuck knows something’s wrong.

“I’m fine, just tired I guess,” I fib.

“Okay, well let’s head back then,” he says.  So we make our way back to my dorm and after I wash up, I crawl into bed and surprising fall asleep right away.

Morning comes way too fast and we make our way to the airport for our 9 a.m. flight.  We book ourselves a hotel room, because there’s no way I’m going to step foot back into my parents’ house.  My mom tried to get me to come and stay there, but I know it’s only so she can try to talk me out of testifying.  Not happening.  Tuck agreed that a hotel is probably best.

We don’t get into Virginia until around 6 p.m. due to the time difference, which is fine with me. The less time I’m in Virginia, the better.

By the time we get to the hotel, it’s going on 7 p.m. and I am beyond starved.  I haven’t eaten anything all day because of my nerves but now after I calmed down my stomach is letting me know it needs food. “I’m ordering room service, what would you like?” he asks sweetly. We place our order and I hop into the shower to wash the day of travel away. When I come out, I throw on a pair of yoga pants and a tee-shirt and sit on the bed beside where Tuck is sprawled out watching television.

Tuck pulls me down to him and starts kissing me passionately.  I can’t get enough of this man.  I pull his shirt over his head and then make my way back to his mouth, where I taste and lick every part of it. My hands run up and down his bare defined chest and his hands are roaming all over my body. He pulls my shirt off and unhooks my bra and they end up getting thrown to the floor. My nipples turn to hard peaks, because of the coldness, and Tuck quickly takes my nipple into his mouth and starts licking and sucking on it.  He twists and plays with my other nipple while continuing his torture on my body.  My hands are pulling on his hair, while pushing him harder into my breast.

Things are getting hot and heavy, when all of a sudden there is a knock at the door. “Shit,” Tuck says as he pulls away from me, “room service is here.”  He walks to the door not caring that he has a tent in his pants and opens up the door and retrieves our food.  He pushes the door closed and looks at me like a hungry tiger and I’m his prey.  I do nothing but sit on the bed with a smile on my face telling him to come and get it, and he does.  He swiftly walks back over to me and his lips crash onto mine. He pulls back “baby the food can wait, I want dessert now,” and then his assault on my breasts picks back up.  Who needs food anyway, I just need Tuck!

“Please Tuck, I need you in me now,” I pant.

“Baby not until I taste you,” he says, as he quickly removes my yoga pants and underwear.  He mouth goes right to my core and I can’t help but call out. He continues his licks up and down my slick opening and I can feel myself building. “God baby, you taste like heaven.”  As his tongue assaults my body, I pull on my nipples because I’ve learned he likes to watch me touch myself.   As I’m slowly twisting my nipples, his eyes grow darker. “Damn Harp, you are so fucking sexy.”

“Please don’t stop, oh my, oh yes, right there, oh yeah…..AHHHHH,” the orgasm taking over my body.   He doesn’t stop his tongue assault on my body until every last spasm is out of me.

“I fucking love tasting you baby,” he says as he comes up and takes control of my mouth. As he’s kissing me, he reaches over to the nightstand and pulls a condom out of the top drawer.

I pull back from him, “Wait Tuck, I want to taste you too.”

“Not right now baby, I need to be inside of you,” he says through hooded lids.

I don’t say another word because I feel his first thrust into me and cry out again. He feels so good inside of me, like he makes me whole. I can’t get enough of him. “Harder Tuck, oh God yes” and a few more hard thrusts and I’m crying out Tuck’s name again followed by him fulfilling me. Damn, this man is amazing.

We spend the rest of the night eating, hanging out, watching mindless TV, and having more sex.

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Monday comes way too fast, but I won’t back down.  We make our way to the courthouse and Parker and Nat are with us. They’re staying at the same hotel as us, so we all met up last night and hung out. It’s great getting to catch up with Natalie and I’m also happy to see that Tuck and Parker are talking.  I hope they can be friends again. 

I can’t stop shaking because I’m freaking nervous.  Tuck keeps squeezing my hand so I know he’s there, but it’s not helping with the fact that I will see my father’s face and I know the angry look that will be on it.  Stay strong, I keep telling myself. I can do this.  We meet the lawyer right inside and he talks to me and goes over what’s going to happen today.  He did advise me that they offered a plea deal to my father and he declined.  My lawyer explains that his team may try to say that I wanted to have a sexual relationship with my father, which is disgusting, who would do such a thing? Yuck. I feel the vomit in the back of my throat, but luckily keep it down. 

The trial doesn’t start for another thirty minutes so my lawyer’s trying to prep me as best he can.  Tuck sits with me squeezing my hand and telling me that he’s here for me. I don’t say anything back.

As I’m listening to my lawyer talk and talk and talk, I lose focus and start thinking about Allie. How she should be here doing this with me. Before I know what I’m doing I stand up and tell them all that I’ll be back that I need a few minutes to myself. Then I run the hell out of the courthouse with tears falling freely from my eyes. I wander over to the trees and fall to my knees.  The tears are coming out of my eyes and I’m sitting here looking at the sky asking Allie to give me the strength to get through this nightmare.  I know I need to do this, but I don’t want to relive every painful detail that’s happened to me.  I just want to forget it and move on. 

I’m not sure how long I’m outside, but I feel Tuck’s presence at my back. He sits down and just pulls me to him and wraps his arms around me. I cry into his chest.  There’s no words passed between us, but there doesn’t need to be.

After several minutes, I calm my tears down and look at Tuck. His look shows pain and love. “I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. If I could do something so you wouldn’t have to I would. I hate that this is happening to you.” He takes my face in his hands and looks deep into my eyes, like he’s looking into my soul. “Harp, you are the strongest person I know, you’re going to get through this today and I am going to be right here with you baby,” he says and then he kisses my lips. It’s a short kiss, but I can feel all his emotions within that kiss.

We slowly make our way back inside the courthouse, Parker and Natalie both look worried until they spot us, then they look relieved to see me. They must have thought I was running and not coming back.  I can’t say I blame them, but I can’t do that, I need justice for me but more for Allie.

“Harper, I need to speak to you,” my lawyer says sharply. I start to walk towards him and Tuck is right beside me, holding my hand tightly.

“What’s going on?” I ask worried.

My lawyer looks behind me at something and then back to me, “you don’t need to testify today.”

I look at Tuck and he seems relieved. “Oh okay, so is it tomorrow that I need to testify?” I ask.

“No, you won’t need to testify at all, your father just took a plea deal.” he states with a smile.

“WHAT?” I ask, obviously shocked by this announcement.

“After you ran out of here, you passed by your parents and you were obviously upset.  Your father realized he put you through enough and that it isn’t fair to put you through any more pain. He said to tell you that he’s sorry for everything he’s done and put you and your sister through. I know it probably doesn’t mean much, but I thought I’d let you know,” my lawyer tells me.

“So what happens know?” I ask, as tears are falling from my eyes again.  Tuck stands behind me and wraps me securely in his arms, while I wait for an answer from my lawyer.

“It’s over Harper. Your father took the deal which will put him in prison for fifteen to thirty years.”

I don’t say anything, because honestly, I have no idea what to say.  The tears are falling like a flood and I turn in Tuck’s arms and just cry into his chest. I cry for myself, for my sister Allie, and for losing my parents. I will never have the relationship with my mom, like I wish I could have had.

“Let’s go home,” Tuck says as he leads me back towards Parker and Natalie and then we head back to our hotel.

Chapter 28

I don’t see my mom at the courthouse and she hasn’t tried to contact me.  I’m overwhelmed by the news of my father taking the plea deal that will put him in prison for 15-30 years. I’m beyond happy that justice will be served. My only wish is that my sister could be here with me to celebrate.

Once back at the hotel, Tuck and I just hang out and talk and eventually he calls and invites Park and Natalie over.  It’s great being able to talk to Natalie without having to work around our conversations. She is pretty great! I thank her for coming to support me and she informs me it’s not a problem. But it is; I value it more than she can possibly even know.

Our conversations are pretty light right now. I don’t want to discuss what happened to me and Natalie doesn’t pressure for details, which I’m happy for.  I can see a look of sorrow in her eyes and I just hope she doesn’t pity me.  That would be the worst.

“Nat, please don’t look at me like that,” I say looking at her.

“Sorry, I just can’t believe what you went through. I’m sorry that happened to you. You are the strongest person I know that’s for sure,” she says with a smile.

“Thanks. We all have secrets and now you know mine, but it’s not something I’m going to talk about. I just want to put it behind me and move on with my life,” I say hopeful.

“You’re right. Moving on sounds like a great plan. Boys, we need alcohol for a toast,” she says gesturing to Parker and Tuck that we are in need of drinks.  Parker grabs four bottles of beer, though I have no idea where he got them, and hands each of us one. “Here’s to moving forward and having the best future possible with some new kick ass friends,” Nat says in a toast. We all laugh and clink our bottles and drink.

The rest of our trip goes pretty smoothly.  Before we leave, I inform Tuck I have a stop I need to make before we head back to the west coast.  Before I can leave Virginia I need to go to my sister’s grave. Tuck understands and walks me to her gravesite, kisses me on the head and tells me he’ll be in the car. I sit down by her headstone and lay the different colored roses and lilies in front of her headstone and start telling her what’s going on in my life, and of course, I tell her all about Tuck.