Night Season (23 page)

"You're supposed to persuade her to cooperate," Cullen said coolly. "If that doesn't work, you'll make a dandy hostage."

"No," Bilbo said sharply. "Daniel Weaver, you is telling him—"

"With all due respect, councillor—shut up." Daniel looked at Cynna then. His eyes were hard and strange—not the warm whiskey color she was used to, but a brittle amber. "Don't let them use me against you. Don't let me do it, either." And he stalked off.

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

Two Sleeps Later…

Cullen's eyes shifted over those assembled to drive him out. Thirteen. Only thirteen proud I had taken the trouble of coming together to rid themselves of the dangerous contamination in their clan.

Such a small clan, and so proud, so honored by the other clans. Such great du. They couldn't have their honor damaged, could they? If he wouldn't break himself to suit their notion of honor, they'd do it for him.

Thirteen present… but not his father
. Surely he'll come. He's late, but he'll be here. Even if he doesn't understand, can't speak for me before the clan the way a father ought to, he didn't mean what he said. He won't leave me to face this alone…

Thirteen men… and one woman. Old, bent, her eyes filmed with cataracts, the Etorri Rhej spoke. "Cullen Seabourne, step forward."

It was happening. It was happening now, and his father wasn't coming. He'd meant it. He'd said Cullen would be dead to him if he refused the Rho's order, and he'd meant it.

Cullen held himself rigid and stared at the old woman, who seemed to think he'd cooperate politely. His throat burned. His eyes burned. "I'm right here and you're only half-blind. Surely you can see me?"

"Step forward," the Rhej repeated.

He shrugged. "No."

The man on his left was built much like him, with elegant hands and a neatly trimmed beard. His voice was much deeper than his appearance suggested, baritone heading for bass. "Don't make this harder on everyone than it has to be, son."

Son? Heat prickled over him like lightning waiting to strike. And he could have struck. He could burn them all
—
which was why they were so eager to be rid of him, wasn't it? "You're my Rho," he said to the man who was also his uncle. "For another few minutes, anyway, you're my Rho. You are not my father. I'm told…" He had to stop and swallow, which messed up his delivery. "I have it on good authority that I don't have a father
."

"
This doesn't have to happen. You can still renounce sorcery, remain
—"

"I could renounce the Change, too, no doubt." He'd told them that, over and over. They didn't hear, couldn't understand, that the one was as much part of him as the other. No more essential than breathing, either one of them.

"No." The old woman's voice was sharp. "He cannot. Blame me, Cullen Seabourne, if you must blame. I have Seen that you are not to remain. Your Rho has hoped to change my seeing by persuading you to renounce what cannot be put aside. He meant well, but he offers false hope. You were born Etorri, but your fate does not lie with."

She'd been right. The old bat had been right. His fate lay with Nokolai, not.

With that thought came the knowledge that he was dreaming—same tired old dream, one his subconscious ought to have grown weary of playing with years ago. But that knowledge was enough to shift the dream, not end it…

He was on the ground now, held down by strong hands on his feet, his knees, his arms. Mist swirled over him and them
—
they'd lost their faces to that mist, but the Rho's voice was clear and certain: "I call seco on Cullen Seabourne, born
."

"Let me go, fool!" cried a woman, unseen in the mist.

Ah, yes—things were happening a bit out of order, but that would be his mother, who'd shown up to berate the Rho, the Rhej, the whole clan, bless her. Not that they had let her attend the seco itself, but she'd tried. Cullen braced himself for the next part—

"Or I'll shoot every sorry-ass one of you."

That was not in the script. Cullen turned his head as the mists cleared, and saw Cynna standing a few feet away with her legs wide, her .357 gripped in one hand and braced by the other in proper FBI shoot-'em-up fashion. She was extremely pissed. "Maybe I'll shoot you all anyway," she growled. "Bunch of damn idiots
—
let him up this second
."

He smelled Cynna, smelled the spicy musk of her. She was aroused. And so was he.

Cullen woke with his heart pounding, his skin damp with fear-sweat, and the smallest of smiles on his lips. The air was filled with the scent of Cynna curled up behind him, spoon-fashion… and her hand was on his cock.

His breath hissed out as she stroked slowly up, the tip of her finger stroking over the glans. Lust swirled through him, hotter and so much cleaner than the mist in his dream. "Cynna…"

"Shh," she said. "Go on back to sleep. Don't mind me."

He had to smile. She meant to turn the tables on him, did she? And God knew he wanted to, wanted to sink inside her, ride her hard. But… "I can't."

"Um… you sure? Because evidence has come to light…" Another slow stroke, this one ending at his scrotum, where she scratched lightly. "That suggests you can."

Cullen closed his eyes. Her touch was sweet, the temptation clear and lovely… but he couldn't look at her. He couldn't. He held very still.

After a moment her hand retreated. "You worried about your heart?"

"Yes," he said, glad for the excuse. "I think it's healed, but better safe than sorry."

Cynna made a low sound, maybe skeptical. But she didn't push him, and for that, too, he was grateful.

Cullen lay awake far too long after that, sifting the shades of darkness in the tiny cabin with eyes uninterested in closing and a body disgusted with him for turning her down. Finally sleep began dragging at him once more.

That's just what she would have done

, he thought as he drifted closer to the other darkness, the one that birthed dreams. If Cynna had known him back then, she'd have shown up, ready to kick ass. She wouldn't have let him face it alone.

Horses were not Cynna's idea of fun. Riding one for hours in a drizzle kept her frownie face glued on. Once the medallion's trail left the river, though, horses became inevitable. Or so everyone told her.

"My ass is never going to forgive me," she muttered, shifting position for the thousandth time.

Cullen grinned. "Maybe they'll have some liniment in the village. I'll be happy to rub it in for you."

They were all keeping their mage lights near the ground so the horses could see where they were going. Cullen's pair of lights hovered near his horse's knees, and the underlighting made him look like a beautiful devil.

God only knew what she looked like… and she hoped He'd keep that info to Himself.

Cullen seemed entirely at home atop a horse, which annoyed her no end. When they bought their mounts at the port where they left the barge, he'd expected to have trouble finding a horse that would accept him, since they mostly didn't like the scent of lupi. But horses here were used to odd-smelling riders, and his gelding had turned out to be a cheap date. A couple carrots and it decided Cullen was its new best friend.

Cynna slid him an appraising look. After the way he turned her down last night, she ought to be pissed or hurt or both. Somehow she wasn't.

He met her eyes, wearing his bland face. Bland on Cullen looked about as convincing as a peacock pretending to be a sparrow. "Sure your heart's up to all that rubbing?"

"Did you say something about liniment?" Steve steered his horse closer. "Man, I'd kill for something that took the ache out."

If anyone was having more trouble with the horseback bit than Cynna, it was Steve. Not because he'd never ridden. Unlike her, he'd grown up in the country and had tootled around on a horse sometimes as a kid. But that was years ago, and he'd come off the injured list recently. Major injuries, too. Cynna at least had strong legs and a fit body… though curving those legs around a horse's barrel for hours at a time was teaching her about muscles she'd never known existed.

"Better save your ammo," Cullen advised him. "The way things are going, you'll need it."

The two of them fell to talking about the area they were riding through. Cynna's aching butt to the contrary, they weren't that far from the river—maybe twenty miles—in low, rolling hills dotted with trees. There was a road, fortunately. Dirt, like most roads here, but traveled enough to be maintained.

Ahead, though, were mountains. Not terribly high mountains, but they loomed large to Cynna. They were in Ahk territory.

The trail headed right up into them.

Bilbo was all in a lather about that. At first he'd said they would wait for more of the guard to arrive. Then he'd decided it would be worse to enter their land with a lot of soldiers. They'd wait until they got permission. Only problem was that, according to Tash, the Ahk didn't get the whole notion of visitors, so permission might be a long time coming. If you were on their land, you were either Ahk or a trespasser. They weren't kind to trespassers.

He was nattering away at Wen again, holding one of those weird, relayed conversations with one of the other councilors back in the City via two or three Ekiba. The two of them looked pretty funny—the little gnome on a baby-size pony trotting along beside the big, bald, nearly naked Ekiba on his full-size horse.

"I'll check," Steve told Cullen, and bravely poked at his horse's sides with his heels. The animal went into a fast trot.

Cynna's horse had trotted a couple times. She did not approve of trotting. "Check what?" she asked Cullen.

"Tash's scout is back, and Steve is fidgety. He's going to see if that village we're aiming for is close."

"Please, God," she said fervently. "I think the drizzle is working its way up to becoming real rain."

"In Ireland they'd call this soft weather. When it isn't raining hard, you see, it's soft."

"You been to Ireland?"

"A few times. Mum had a cousin who married an Irish lass. What they say about the incredible green of the land is true."

"How about what they say about leprechauns?"

"Ah, now, that's another story." And he proceeded to tell one, probably 90 percent fiction but entertaining.

Cullen didn't speak, act, or look like a man troubled by nightmares or some hidden trauma. But last night…

Maybe she was imagining things. Cullen was a prime manipulator. Maybe turning down sex was part of some grand scheme to get her so hot and bothered she'd agree to marry him temporarily so he'd have rights to his child. She might have imagined the flatness in his voice last night. Even if she were right about that, she might have read all the wrong things into it—that he was shook, bad shook, and needed time to pull himself together.

But she'd hadn't imagined the feel of his skin—clammy and cool, as if he were sliding into shock. Could a nightmare do that? Manifest so strongly the body reacted as if it were badly injured?

Nor had she imagined the tremors, if that was the right word… nothing as obvious as trembling, but before she woke him, he'd been vibrating like a tuning fork. She was pretty sure those tremors were what had woken her. When they hadn't woken him, she'd decided to do that herself.

So, yeah, her guesses might be all wrong. Guesses often were. But this time she didn't think so. She knew how sometimes the only way you make things okay is by pretending with everything in you that they were. Last night he'd needed her to pretend with him. He'd needed that more than sex.

But a wish ached deep inside her that he could have told her. Could have let her step into the pain with him and know what it was about.

The village parked perilously near the mountains was called Shuva. According to Tash, Shuva existed because of its market. The Ahk were not farmers, so they traded for produce at the market here and in similar small villages near their territory.

Shuva was small, the stone cottages tiny. Many of the roofs gleamed darkly in the damp—slate tiles, Cynna thought. Some were thatched, their hats dull and dark in the damp night. They rode past some larger buildings, too—a school, a store, and what seemed to be a church or temple. No voices came from inside the last one, but light flickered in the windows, and as they rode by she heard music—the wild lilt of fiddles chasing some song to its end.

She glanced at Cullen. His head was cocked and his face had fallen into an absent smile, the sort that means you don't know you're smiling. Lupi loved violins.

The light was thin here, not like the City. More candles and firelight, fewer mage lights. How did people endure three months of darkness?

Up ahead a tall man strode along beside Bilbo's horse. He was human, or looked it, with a bushy beard and long, dark hair pulled back in a rough tail. His features were Anglo; his skin, weathered in the way of a man who's spent much of his time outdoors. He had a Cossack look going—dark, heavy tunic with an embroidered band around the neck; furry vest; loose trousers tucked into workman's boots.

He was the sheriff. Sort of. One of the gaggle of children who'd met them at the fringes of the village had said, "Michael's gone to get the sheriff to meet your honors." At least, that's what Cynna thought he'd said, via the charm, but his words had gotten mixed up with the other kids shushing him, then insisting that Derreck wasn't a
real
sheriff. They just called him that sometimes.

The kids had followed them at first, but mothers and fathers had called them inside. Not many were out at this hour. It was probably about eight bells, which meant most people had eaten supper and were tucked up warm at home. Everyone she'd seen so far looked human.

"I thought humans stayed in the City," Cynna said to Cullen, who rode beside her. "At least… do they smell human to you?"

"Oh, yeah. They look human to my other vision, too." He widened his eyes in fake shock, "You don't suppose Bilbo misled us, do you?"

She snorted. "You think? Only I don't see why. He must have known we'd find out otherwise, so why did he bother? Habit?"

The guard riding behind them—one of the two humans—spoke softly. Cynna's charm whispered his words in her ear: "Humans are discouraged from settling outside the City, but do it anyway. They don't like it when we get out on our own because we start thinking we should be in charge of ourselves."