âLook, backing's always iffy. The United States
government
almost defaulted. You can't have too much in reserve.”
âButâ”
âListen, I'm going to be straight with you.” I waited till he gave the slightest of nods to indicate this would make it into the register of our encounters. âI was just there to make nice. But he was there to make his own contacts. And not just Adamé. That older woman with them, she's got money, too, right?”
âYour guy was having quite a go at her.”
âAt some point he was telling her about me on the bridge, right?”
I hadn't been sure about that till Serrano nodded.
âThe guy's a loose cannon. I live here. I've got a reputation to maintain, too.” I paused. âNow you? What'd you see? Was he heavy-handing that woman?”
Serrano nodded sadly. âYeah, I almost had to give her a hand with him.”
âReally?” It was so unroachlike.
âYeah, really!” He let a beat pass and said, âI know what you think of me, what everyone thinks. Do you suppose âthe cockroach' is accidental?
The Mission's my turf and no one crosses me. No one! You know why? So you can walk down the street at night and not getâThat's why Tessa could work any hours she wanted, why she could ride that racing bike and not have it boosted out from under her. It's why there aren't shoot-outs in the streets like there are across the bay.” He picked up his drink, took a small sip, but the movement shielded his face and I couldn't tell if he was really announcing the truth or giving me a cover story he'd created for himself. One he'd come to believe. âSo, yeah, I could tell your
date
to get out of Harriet Knebel's face.”
I ignored the Dale business this time. âBut you didn't. You waited to see what'd happen. Because?”
âWhat do you think?”
âYou wanted to see what happened to Adamé, right? How come? He's not in your turf?”
âHe's in this turf.” He tapped his head. âHis laundering, that screws with my turf and”âhe leaned closerââhe's doing deals the brass figure are above my head. Whenânot ifâwhen I get him, heads'll roll like they're in a bowling alley. I've been onto Adamé ever since he and his wife moved hereâover five years come January. Almost nailed the fucker twice but somehow each time he squeezed free and popped up looking cleaner than ever with me the one covered in shit. There's not going to be any third time.”
âWhen you make the collar, you'll take the kind of step up like my becoming stunt coordinator?”
For a moment I thought that had just reminded him of our set yesterday and the hassle Mac's horn-blowing idiocy had created for him. The guy really took his image seriously! Now I realized that to him his move would be akin to my becoming not merely stunt coordinator, or second unit director. To equal his promotion I'd have to become Scorsese.
Then he produced a smile. The Mission was tough turf, as perilous as it got in this town, but for the conqueror the spoils could be huge.
Still, that was his business. Mine was Tessa. âTell me about Ginger Rampono and the bike accident. Tessa was the cyclist, right?”
I expected him to protest or flat refuseâI didn't doubt for an instant that he'd have all the facts about his employeeâbut he didn't hesitate. âRight. Been on the job two weeksâ”
âThe job?”
âBike messenger.”
âA bike messenger,” I repeated. Thinking of her whipping through downtown streets, racing up stairs to clients, grabbing deliveries, and running for her bikeâit made me like her all over again. Made the horror of causing the little girl's accident all too easy to imagine. âAfter that, manning a copy machine . . . ”
He nodded. âThe accident flipped her, literally and figuratively. Over the handlebars. Landed on her headâcracked patella, severed tendon, and broken tibia. Had double vision for months.”
âOh God!” That was too close to home. âAnd the accident itself?”
âStandard bike-car meet-up. No clear guilt. No one charged. That's the official word. A witness said later that Tessa cut in front of the car. It caught her back wheel and sent her flying. But the witness also said the driver wasn't watching the road, talking to the little girl. When she hit the bike, she panicked, lost control . . . was killed. The kid was in the hospital for weeks.” His delivery was a little off, as if he was trying for rote and failing.
Or maybe I just wanted to believe there was a little bit of âcaring” in him. âAnd Tessa, how long was she hospitalized?”
âSF General overnight. No insurance. Signed herself out. Outpatient clinics for months.”
âShe couldn't work. How'd she live? Welfare? Unemployment?”
âShe did what she'd done before she came here.”
âWhich was?”
âShoplifting.”
âReally?” He hadn't been specific before. âMinor offense” could have been check kiting or DUI. But shoplifting enough to support herself, that was a whole different animal. Particularly for a woman with a cracked knee and a broken leg. It would have been an all-day-every-day job. If that was true, copping Varine Adamé's credit card would have been a snap. And having the nerve to spend the night here with itâa breeze.
But what about the Tessa Jurovik who sent two hundred dollarsâall her extra moneyâto Ginger Rampono? âPeople do hit-and-runs all the time. They don't mortgage themselves for the victim. Why'd she care so much about this kid?”
âShe didn't say.” He looked down at his plate for a bit, then seemed to decide to go on. âHer father walked out; her mother fell apart; and she ended up with a juvie record. She knew what this kid could be in for. It really got to her.”
âBut when you told her the driver wasn't paying attentionâ”
âI never mentioned that.”
What?
âYou didn't tell her she didn't cause the accident?”
âShe did cause it.”
Mr. Logical Black-and-White!
âBut if she'd known the driver wasn't payingâ”
âI didn't mention the accident,” he reiterated in a case-closed tone that infuriated me.
You had to know how guilty she felt. How could you not tell her?
You
. . . cockroach!
He tore off a piece of the bread.
The past is illusion, the future a dream: be this moment.
I watched him . . . watched him chewing. Just chewing.
I realized why he hadn't told her.
Then I had to steel myself to keep from yelling: âThat's how you met her, huh? In the cop shop. The coffeehouse bit was a lie, right? Of course you didn't tell her it wasn't her fault. You saw her record; you
owned
her.
You
set her up in a high-stress business that paid shit. No wonder she tried to kill herself.”
He looked annoyed and replied in that infuriating logical-man voice. âYou really get off on thinking the worst of me. So, let me tell you what happened.
She
propositioned
me
, businesswise. She'd been at the job a month. Said she knew the place was a front, knew drug deals were going down outside, and the dealers knew the place was a front, which made the whole arrangement useless.”
âExcept for the pleasure the dealers got laughing at you.”
Good for them, you louse!
âYeah, right. I knew that, too. It was a problem I had to address. She came up with the answer: me bankrolling her in the specialty copy service.”
I nodded, still suspicious. âSo it'd be legit and you could still use it.”
âRight. It'd take time for memories to fade. But even so, it was win-win.”
âAnd you'd get to eyeball all those legal copies.”
âOf course not. Do you think I spend my days looking for ways to break the law?”
Luckily I didn't have to answer that. I sipped my drink, hunting for another angle into his arrangement. But there wasn't one. Still there was something about him and what he was giving me that seemed not so much untrue as incomplete. What was I missing? The suddenly ubiquitous Mrs. Adamé, perhaps. If both Warren Llekko and Jessica Silverman had opinions about her, surely Serrano would, too. âTell me about Varine Adamé.”
âIs that what you said to the desk clerk downstairs?”
Of course, he'd asked them what I was after. âDid they also let you know that Tessa spent the night here on Varine Adamé's credit card?”
I almost laughed at his reaction. The guy was astonished, then insulted, and finally embarrassed. Then he looked as if he was seeing a section of a jigsaw puzzle clearly for the first time while shifting pieces like mad.
âVarine?” I prompted before he could get it all nailed down in his head. âJessica Silverman said she supported some girls' charities, regularly, small amounts, low-key.”
âAnd what a good impression she's made with that.”
You really do hate Adamé. You could go snarl to snide with Warren Llekko.
I caught myself.
No past, no future, just this. Pay attention!
I said, âWhat do you knowâ”
âI don't,” he said too quickly. âAdamé just uses her!” He spit the words with such outrage I almost laughed. This, from the guy who'd slapped me mere hours ago!
âShe shows up at his events when she has to, but that's it. She could have a second life for all the free time she's not using.”
âDoes she?”
âNo record of it.”
âRecord? Like jail? Fifty-one-fifty?”
He shrugged. For civilians a shrug is one of many choices; for a police officer it's not going on the record.
âA mental condition?” I asked in astonishment. âWhy would you evenâ”
âLook, being married to a guy like that: it's a prison of its own. It can drive a smart woman crazy.”
I lifted my glass and then put it down. Was he just projecting his own frustration with Adamé? Or was it possible he was concerned about her? Was he cockroach with a conscience?
Or did he just figure she was an easy back door to Adamé, one he could never open?
But none of this was getting me any closer to finding Tessa. âWhy her? Varine Adamé? Why'd Tessa take her credit card? Where would she evenâoh, shit! You! You're the connection. How didâwhyâ?”
âWhy would I do that? What's the benefit to me?”
âI don'tâ”
âEven for a cockroach, it's not just evil for evil's sake.”
âProve it!”
He leaned forward. âHow?”
âYou've done some quick and quiet work here. Get me into her room.”
He considered for a second or two and then said, âOkay. What's the number?”
I could barely believe it! âRoom 1701.”
He laughed.
I waited.
âRoom 1701, that's the Presidential Suite.”
24
I'd assumed Serrano would hit up a contact in Security. What I didn't dream was that we'd arrive to find the door to the Presidential Suite already propped open.
If things went south there'd be nothing to incriminate the contact. Serrano could wriggle out of it. And I'd be out on the limb while he was sawing.
Me, trust the cockroach? Not hardly.
I walked in.
He shut the door.
âThe President'd better have lots of friends,” I said taking in the living room. A dining table stood to one side, doors on both sides of the room led to bedrooms, but it was the view that left me gaping. âBe hard to concentrate on the recession or Afghanistan here.”
Serrano was looking down into the streets as if he owned them. But when he turned back to me there was a tightness in his face. âIf you're hunting for secrets,” he said, âhere's a tip. Check the lesser bedroom. No one thinks to look there. If Tessa's smart, that's what she'll've figured.”
Why would she have cared about hiding anything?
âAnd make it quick.”
Uh hah!
But I didn't have time to ponder the limits of his power. If there was any lead to Tessa here . . .
The second bedroom had two doubles, both turned down, both looking fresh and eager. The bathroomâpristine. I hurried back through the parlorâlarge, comfortable, with its killer view, but stillâsurprisinglyâjust a room. I would have thoughtâ
A phone rang! His cell.
âYeah,” Serrano grunted. âHey, Scatto, we had an arrangeâ” I heard a couple more monosyllables and a final click off. âGotta go!” he called to me.
âOkay. Thanks.”
âI mean
we
gotta go.”
âWhat? Your contact's changed his mind?”
âCold feet. Up and over the balls.”
âI need a couple more minutesâ”
âNo can do. I gottaâ”
âIf I leave now, this is a wash.”
âI have toâ”
âDeclan, if Tessa jumps tomorrow because we missed a lead to her hereâ”
He hesitated.
âGo! I'll take my chances.”
He sighed. âIf you end up in jail I don't know you.”
Big surprise!
The door all but clanked behind him, leaving me, essentially, a burglar with no clear idea what I was after.
Still, no one's more romantic than a San Franciscan. And me, who'd been exiled for well over a decade before coming home this year, I couldn't resist turning off the lights and walking to the window. From here, the
highest point downtown, I could see the bay, the Bay Bridge, Oakland, Berkeley, and beyond to the hills. Lights glowed from high rises, sparkled off the cables between the bridge towers, flowed from headlights and burbled from taillights, and disappeared as cars slowed then vanished into tunnels. I felt overflowing, overwhelmed, as if the magnificence of the view was more than one person could handle. I wanted to call all my friends to come. I wished I still had a lover to melt against as we looked from the black water to the sparkling lights.