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As soon as I open the door, Carl rushes in in a whirlwind. "Rory, I was so worried. Your phone is going straight to voicemail and there's so much going on and-"

"I'm fine," I cut her off. She looks me over to confirm this for herself and when she's satisfied, she takes a deep breath.

"Well you could let a girl know,
Jesus,
" she sighs dramatically before stalking to my living room and plopping down on the sofa.

"Well come right in then," I tease, and she sticks her tongue out at me like a toddler. I walk over to the couch and sit facing her. I guess I won't be able to avoid the fallout from yesterday's fight after all, even for one day.

"You're really okay?" she asks again. "When you weren't in school I-"

"I'm okay, I guess, I just wanted one day to relax before I spend the rest of the school year being accused of being some crazy slut or whatever variation Chelsea comes up with," I explain. "The dean called the house. I erased the message but I'm gonna have to tell my mom when she gets home from work. They're gonna make her come in for a meeting." I sigh. "Do you think they'll suspend me?"

Carl stares at me wide eyed. "So you haven't spoken to anyone since yesterday? Tina...
Cap?
" I shake my head and am stunned by Carl's wry smile.

"What? What could possibly be funny? What is everyone saying? Did I have a crack baby and then flee Florida to avoid an assault charge because I'm such a crazy violent bitch?"

Carl sits back and makes herself comfortable, still smirking. "It smells amazing in here, have you been baking?" she asks. I blink at her before I remember my manners.

"Muffins. You want?" I offer, and she nods. I go to the kitchen and grab a plate and four muffins and bring them to Carl before sitting back down and eating my own. "So?" I prompt. I know I wanted to avoid this until tomorrow, but she's here, and I can't not ask what the story is. I'm sure it's something more outrageous than my simple imagination could fathom.

"Well," Carl starts talking between bites, "the rumor is that Chelsea followed you into the bathroom and took a picture of you changing..."

"That's not the rumor, that's what happened," I challenge. Carl raises her eyebrows like she agrees that it's unexpected.

"I know, right? They're saying she was jealous of you and Cap, because apparently you're in love, so she tried to embarrass you by implicating you in what was meant to be a nude photo/ sexting scandal. Apparently you got your hands on her phone to delete the photo, but she attacked you and you accidentally dropped it in the toilet. Apparently you have a scar on your hip from some car accident you were in when you were a kid, and everyone's making fun of Chelsea because she doesn't know where a C section scar is supposed to be." She's saying all of this casually, chewing huge mouthfuls all the while. "Oh and because you kicked her ass even though she's the one who came after you."

I glare at her, mouth agape, completely in shock.

There is no way this is what people are saying, this is not the way things go in high school. People don't turn on the Queen Bee unless someone more powerful is pulling strings, and I'm nowhere near where she is on the food chain.

"So, I guess for once the rumor mill got it pretty close, besides how you got the scar, unless the car accident is true..."

I blink at her, giving nothing away.

"Oh, and you and Cap being in love... unless that's also true, of course..." Now she's smirking and I chuck a throw pillow at her and roll my eyes. She knows it isn't true and I don't know why she can't just let her
Sam and Rory
theory go, I think she just enjoys teasing me.

"I can't believe it," I murmur.

"I know. You must have a guardian angel up there with the high school rumor Gods," she replies with a shrug as she takes a second muffin and starts breaking off pieces to pop into her mouth. "Dese ah tho good," she mumbles through a mouthful.

"I don't understand," I whisper, still trying to figure out how a nobody new girl came out on top of Miss Popularity...

It hits me like a brick wall.

Of course.

Sam.

Why I didn't realize it immediately, I'll never know. The only way they'd all turn on their Queen, is if they were directed to by someone with more power - their King.

Cap.

Once again, he's defended me. He's cleaned up my mess, fixed my problems.

I want to be angry with him for doing all this behind my back without even discussing it with me, but I can't. I can already hear him say "I got you Pine", or "what are friends for?" And maybe they are. Maybe this is what it's like to have friends,
real friends
, who are there to stand by you and back you up when you need them most. I look across the couch at Carl, who’s just casually munching away. She's the first real girl-friend I've ever had, and I'm eighteen years old. She doesn't judge me - doesn't keep me around to keep an eye on me, or because of some ulterior motive. And last year, when everything went down, the one person I was sure would always stand by me left me all alone to fend for myself before I ever knew what it felt like to have that kind of support system.

I launch myself at Carl and assault her with a hug. She yelps in surprise before returning my embrace.

"Thanks Carl," I murmur, "You don't know how much it means to me to have you as a friend."

Carl squeezes me. "I got your back, Rory."

And I believe her.

****

Carl left to go back to school before lunch period ended. The relief from not having to deal with the rumors I'd been expecting has washed over me. Now all I have to worry about are the school's disciplinary repercussions, but truthfully, that was never my biggest concern. On her way out, Carl admitted that she fabricated the part of the rumor about Sam and me being in love in an effort to tease me/ get me to admit to my crush, which I proceeded to deny, once again. I have to admit, I was surprised by the small pang of disappointment I felt at hearing this. I'd wondered why if Sam had been behind the direction of the rumors, they would include him and I having feelings for one another. For a moment I wondered if maybe I wasn't the only one feeling this way. But Carl's confession made sense, and I'm once again in the safe territory of
just friends.

The only other issue is spring break. There is absolutely no way I can go away with Chelsea, and though I know Carl and Tina, and probably Sam, will be disappointed, I think they'll understand why I can't come with them.

The afternoon has flown by, and I put down my book and decide to bake another batch of muffins since Carl ended up eating three. I flip my iPod back on, and start singing out loud and dancing to 90's Green Day. I've just put a batch in the oven and I'm screaming about having no motivation when the doorbell chimes once again.

I look at the clock and realize that school got out about ten minutes ago and it's probably Carl coming back to check on me.  

"One second!" I call out and wipe my hands on a dish towel as I walk to the door, still dancing to the music.

I swing open the door and freeze.

It's Sam.

And I was bopping my head and singing about how
masturbation's lost its fun
as I opened the door. I blush bright red, but Sam has a giant grin plastered across his face.

"You know, I was a little worried about you after yesterday, but you seem to be having a good time playing hooky, huh, Ferris Bueller?" he drawls from my front step. I wipe my hands again on the dish towel before stuffing it into the pocket of my apron. I'm once again taken with how attractive he is. It's warmer today than it's been lately, and Sam is channeling a modern day James Dean in a simple jeans and fitted tee ensemble, complete with a leather jacket. I'm struck by his effortless beauty. It's just not normal.

"Uh... do you wanna come in?" I offer shyly. I don't know why I suddenly feel so shy with him, but I do. He hesitates.

"Is that okay? I just wanted to check on you. We could talk out here if you want," he offers. He thinks he’ll make me uncomfortable if he comes inside. He's worried about me freaking out about being alone with him, and vaguely, I wonder why I'm not. But I'm not.

"Yeah, come on in," I murmur and hold the door open for him. Sam walks slowly into the house that still doesn't feel like home. It's a modest house. Less than a third of the size of his own, which is pretty enormous. My mom bought it with the divorce settlement, which was less than she deserved, but she just wanted it over quickly so she agreed to a lump sum that was probably about half of what she'd have gotten if she'd fought my dad in court. By that time my father was eager for us to leave since we'd become such pariahs, at least in his circle, or I bet he'd have tried to ensure she received even less.

We bought this house sight unseen. Karen came and took photos for us, and really, we only needed something small and simple for the two of us. My mom's only requirement was that it be in a safe neighborhood and within the Port Woodmere school district. And that's precisely what we got. It's a standard center hall colonial, nearly identical to the thirty others on the block just like it. I watch as Sam looks around. There are a few photos of me as a kid and a couple of me and my mom, but not much. We've only just moved in a few months ago, and it shows.

Sam turns around to face me and smirks. He reaches toward me and I swallow nervously, anticipating the warmth that I know will spread through me at his touch.

His thumb brushes my nose and I bite my lip, realizing how much I'd like for him to kiss me, to taste his lips, and also realizing how much the thought frightens me.

He pulls his thumb, now white with powder, back away.

"You've got flour on your nose," he explains before reaching back and swiping his thumb across my cheek. "Here too."

"Oh." It comes out like a gasp and I blush again. I'd pour flour all over myself if it'd get him to touch me so sweetly like that.
Jesus,
I can barely recognize myself in my own thoughts. I close my eyes for a brief moment to pull myself together. "Do you want to sit down?" I offer when I've reminded myself of my manners.

Sam heads to the living room and sits gracefully, stretching his arms along the arm and back of the sofa, and rests his ankle on his opposite knee. He's so tall, long limbed, and so damn attractive. There's an inexplicable nervous yet thrilling energy that he brings with him that is only highlighted by the memory of Carl sitting in that same spot only a couple of hours earlier. His hair has gradually grown since I first met him, and now it falls in a thick wave, some locks hanging into his eyes until he pushes it back again. I find myself thinking how much I'd like to run my own fingers through that hair. His deep blue eyes are intense, and they follow me across the room as I make to join him on the couch.

"So, any of that flour get anywhere other than all over you?" he asks. I look down to see that he's right, I have patches of white powder everywhere. I stand back up to untie the back of my apron.

"If Chelsea were here she'd be screamin' that it's cocaine to anyone who'd listen," I mutter. Sam watches me as I bunch up the apron and walk to the back toward the kitchen where the door to the laundry room is open, and toss it in the laundry basket.

"Well she's
not
here, and my guess is she won't be anywhere you are for a while," he calls out while I put some muffins on a plate in the kitchen.

I set it on the coffee table in front of him and resettle on the couch, folding my legs under myself so I can face him.

"What do you mean?" I ask, but before he can respond, the floodgates open. "The dean called to ask my mom in for a meeting about yesterday. I thought everyone would be spittin' that rumor about me havin' a baby, and worse, but they're not, are they...?" It almost comes out like an accusation, though I'm not sure I mean for it to.

Sam shakes his head. "No, they're not." He's looking at me cautiously, like he's not sure if I'm going to yell at him or not.

"You manipulated the rumors," I say, and it isn't a question. Sam doesn't deny it. In fact, he doesn't say anything, he just stares at me. "And the story about my scar... the car accident? That was you, too?"

Sam gives a sharp nod, still looking at me intently, as if he doesn't know how I'm going to react.

In that moment I feel overwhelmed. Touched. I don't know what I did to deserve the loyalty and friendship of this man, but I value it beyond measure. I treasure it. And him. I don't mean to get emotional, but I do. I blink away tears, inwardly chiding myself for being so dramatic.

"Thank you," I whisper.

Sam's relief is immediate and obvious. He rakes his hand through his hair and lets out a deep exhale.
"Shit,
Ror, don't cry," he breathes, and then swipes his thumb across each of my cheeks to rid my tears.

I shake my head. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to be so emotional." I laugh at myself, in wonder at the fact that even when I'm not upset, I'm somehow in tears. "You're a real good friend, Sam. I mean it. Thank you," I say earnestly and fling my arms around his neck in a hug. He's surprised, as Carl was, I can tell. Obviously he knows I have issues with being touched, but I've hugged him before, and I feel no fear in his arms, which after a brief hesitation, wrap around me and pull me even tighter to him. He smells so damn good. Clean, masculine, and faintly of aftershave. I want to sigh, but I hold it in, and I pull away first before I can trick myself into believing I have any right to be there - in his arms.