Obsessions (21 page)

The breath left London as she felt the panic attack coming
on. She tried to get a good breath but the air wouldn’t go into her lungs. She
started to see stars as the wind began to blow. She pulled away from both of
the Alpha’s, as her brain lost its focus and she fell down to her knees. Ryder
was beside her before she could black out.

“Breathe, London. Breathe, baby. Just take in one. Stop
all of this nonsense. Just breathe,” Ryder murmured softly.

London inhaled deeply; her eyes closed. She wanted
away from these people. Every time she turned around something was happening. She
hated moving to Alpha City. Nothing was going right, and she couldn’t control
the damn panic attacks that seemed to be coming more and more.

“Get away from me. Both of you are driving me
insane. I don’t want anybody. You can go back inside and I will send Zoey the
glasses so you can see who is coming on your land. Oh yeah right you don’t
believe that anyone was on your land. Get off of me,” she screamed at Ryder.

Ryder slowly backed up. Nolan helped him up as they
both stared at her. They probably thought she was crazy now. Hell, she thought
she might be losing it too. London could see cabs parked at the end of the
driveway. All she wanted to do was get the hell out of here. London got up and
started walking fast toward the cabs. She was going to her office and figure
out what to do.

London turned around when she got in one of the cabs. 
Nolan and Ryder were staring at her as she told the cab driver where to take
her. She couldn’t seem to shake the look that was on Ryder face. He was actually
smiling as she left. Hell, he is crazy too. She knew she was starting to feel a
little off ever since she met the man, her body and thoughts just seem to be
crazed. She was fighting and drinking.
Damn maybe you are going crazy
.

London pulled up at her office. The streetlights
were on so it wasn’t a problem to see the lock. She put the key in and went
inside to turn the alarm off. She looked around and turned the lights on then
turned the alarm system back on. All she wanted to do was take a shower and get
in bed. Her mind was running and she wanted it to stop. First, she called Zoey
and told her that she left the glasses on her bed at Ryder’s house. She stated
that she didn’t want to talk right now but she was safe and would see her
tomorrow at work.

Chapter 28

London got into the shower and let the hot water run
over her body until it started turning cold. She just wanted to relax. She concluded
that she hadn’t relaxed in a long time. Climbing out, she realized that she
didn’t have any clean clothes here, so she settled for going to bed in the
nude. She had covers stored in the closet, and no one could get in here.

With the towel around her, she walked out into her
office, and immediately started to scream when she saw someone sitting on her
sofa. It took her a moment to realize that it was Ryder, and he wasn’t smiling.
He had a determined look on his face that she couldn’t understand. She froze as
he got up and stalked toward her.

Stopping in front of her, Ryder pushed the hair away
from her face tucking it behind her ear. “You are mine. You always have been. I
thought I was protecting you from all of this. My life as an Alpha is crazy
enough, and I didn’t want you to get hurt, but I see now that you can take care
of yourself. Your magic is strong whether you know it or not. I know your
grandmother is helping you with it, and you are going to grow stronger, but I
can’t stay away from you London. I’ve tried sweetheart but I’ve been in love
with you for a long time.”

“You what? You can’t love me. No. No! You don’t even
know me!” London’s heart broke.
This can’t be happening.

“Yes I can and I do. I love you London Grey. You are
mine. For a shifter it can happen fast. Real fast. And the moment I saw your
picture I knew you were mine. My wolf knew it too.” Ryder pulled her closer to
him. He reached up not waiting for her response. He was taking charge and she
loved it. Her emotional rollercoaster was still going downhill. She knew she
would eventually crash and burn but God help her she wanted this man with all
her heart. If she was truly honest with herself she fell in love with Ryder the
first time she saw him. However, when she first laid eyes on him she was laying
on the bathroom floor. Not a good way to meet your mate for the first time.

“Nolan knew. Everyone knew how I felt; they just
needed me to admit to it. Today, right now, I’m telling you, London Grey, that
I love you and you are my mate. I will do whatever I have to do to make you
mine.” Ryder nuzzled her cheek inhaling her scent into his lungs. She loved it
when he nuzzled her face. Nothing felt better when a wolf showed his affection.
Could this really be happening?  Does he really care for me?

“I’m very dominant, London, and me staying away
anymore isn’t going to happen.” His voice sounded muffled as he continued
kissing down her neck. Taking her towel, Ryder pulled it out of her hands and
dropped it to the floor. Goose-bumps formed on her arms as he continued
downward. He stopped between her shoulder and neck and began softly licking in
small circles. Now she was running on full-blown lust and she wanted him now.

She could smell her own arousal as Ryder gently
stroked his hand around her breast. He didn’t touch it yet, but continued to
lightly brush underneath. The teasing was only making her pant more loudly. She
had never heard herself breathe so hard during foreplay. She could feel his
breath as he continued to lower his mouth down to one of her nipples.

“Beautiful, London. All I want to do is suck until
you scream so loud my guards hear you. I want them to know you are mine. Nobody
else will ever touch these.” Ryder was a professional at teasing making the end
result that much more extreme, and the man was driving her insane. She loved
how he spoke dirty to her. He knew just the right words to use that turned her
on more.

Ryder reached out with his tongue and licked her
nipple. Her body shuddered as his breath blew across the tip. She wanted to
touch his skin and feel the hardness of his chest. She quickly remembered the
way his body felt against her, and now she ached to feel it again.

London pushed her hands up under his tee shirt
feeling the course hair as it brushed through her fingers. Lightly touching his
nipples, Ryder jerked her hands out and thrust them behind her back. He didn’t
hurt her but she lavished in his strength as he took the power away from her.

“Not tonight baby. Tonight I’m in charge.” She could
see his eyes glowing yellow in color as her body reacted to the dominant man
she craved. His nostrils flared as the excitement ran down between her thighs.
Nobody had ever made her react like this. Moaning as his hand slid between her
legs, London knew she wanted more. Much, much more.

She watched as Ryder rubbed the liquid between his
fingers then brought it up to his mouth. She couldn’t take her eyes away from
him as he slowly sucked each finger in his mouth. His eyes were closed as he
tasted her. The small smile came on his lips as Ryder opened his eyes. It was
the most amazing thing she had ever seen when his wolf glared back at her. Pushing
her backwards, Ryder laid her down on her desk. Picking up her towel, he began
ripping it in two. He tied the towels long ways then wrapped it around her
wrists. She heard the towel rip again as he pulled her tied hands over her
head. Her body ached waiting for him to finish as he walked around to her feet.

“Pull your legs up London and spread them open for
me.” She complied. The tone in his voice spiked her arousal higher.

“You’re dripping wet. Are you wet for me, London?”

“Yes,” she purred.

She impatiently waited for his next move as Ryder
began taking his clothes off. He never took his eyes off her as she greedily gazed
up and down his naked body.

“I’ve waited so long to have you, and now that I’ve had
a taste, I want more. You smell like cotton candy, but you taste like sweet
honey and I plan on eating them both.”  She shivered at the look of
determination on his face as he leaned down and rubbed his nose against her
lips then inhaled deeply. Using his fingers he opened her up like a prize and
took a long and slow lick. She could feel him flatten his tongue and continue
to slowly lick her up and down. The pressure from his tongue drove her into a
frenzy.

She was desperate to touch him but her hands were
tied above her head. Tomorrow she would feel embarrassed when she looked
Ryder’s guards in the eyes but for now she couldn’t control the moans that came
out of her mouth. He was relentless as he plundered the hidden nub. He only had
to add one finger to throw her into a powerful orgasm. She tried to calm down
but Ryder continued his glorious torture by adding another finger, which sent
another orgasm raging through her body.

“Please Ryder. Please,” she groaned.

“Please what, London? I want you to say it. Tell me
what you want.” Her voice left her as Ryder began rubbing his erection over her
lips, but never entered her.

“Tell me that you are mine, London.”

“I’m yours.” London screamed, as Ryder surged
forward entering her giving her what she wanted. Thrusting hard and fast into
her body, Ryder immediately stopped allowing her body to adjust to him. She
found herself with her legs wrapped around him.

Ryder growled and then looked down at her. “I…I
thought I could live without you, alone. Immerse myself in my work, but I can’t
London. My life isn’t complete if you’re not in it and I don’t want to live
anymore without you.”

“Shh…you’re not alone anymore.” Her voice was only a
whisper, but she loved him and he needed to hear that from her. Even though her
mind continued to give her reasons why this wouldn’t work, her heart said to
jump and take a chance. Her dad always told her that life was just a leap of
faith. One never knew what lie around the corner but if an opportunity
presented itself then jump out and grab it. Tonight, she was going to jump out
and grab the man she had loved a long time.

“I’ve thought about you every day since we met.  I
don’t understand it, but I love you too.” A small smile of satisfaction hinted
at his lips as he leaned forward fiercely taking her mouth. His kiss was hard
and wet as his tongue played with hers. She savored each swipe of his tongue as
his taste and hers mingled together. He was addicting as her body fired into a
heat that would melt steel.

She had never seen him this open and raw before. Being
an Alpha he hid his emotions never letting his true feelings slip. Now she knew
that she wasn’t alone in how she felt. Nobody would ever touch her heart like
he did.

Leaning up, Ryder surged inside of her, immediately
stopping when the gasping cry plundered out of her mouth. The short ache of
pain eased as he slowly moved inside of her. She smiled and closed her eyes as
he pushed further inside sinking deeper. He was larger than anyone she had ever
been with, but the pain faded quickly as he began to move slowly.

“Open your eyes, London.” She complied as his hips
began moving faster. London got so engrossed in the sound of his hips slapping
against her that she couldn’t focus on anything else.

She ached to touch him but he had securely tied her
hands. It was like he was reading her thoughts. “You want to touch me?”

“Yes,” London moaned out.

“Beg me. I need to know you will submit to me here
like this.” London groaned as Ryder stopped moving. He stared down at her
waiting. He needed her submission and for the first time ever she wanted to
give it to him. Only Ryder.

Her voice was pleading as she begged Ryder.  “Please
let me touch you. I need to feel your skin, your hair, and want to bite you so
bad I can’t stand it.” Ryder’s eyes widened at her plea, and quicker than her
eyes could see, he jerked the towel loose releasing her hands allowing her to
touch him. Her instinct was to bite down on his lip but she needed to just
touch him. Reaching up, she slipped her fingers through his hair. His hair was
damp from the heat they were generating.

Her skin was damp with sweat as his hands moved up
her stomach clasping her breasts. He leaned over and licked each nipple like an
ice cream on a hot summer day then sucked it harder as he continued to push
further into her body. Releasing her nipple, Ryder slipped his hands under her
butt picking her up off the desk. He held her tighter as he pushed her back
into the wall. Her body clutched his cock as he wildly pressed deeper. She
wasn’t sure he could go any further but her body was made for his. Never had a
man made her feel like this.

She loved the possessive feeling she felt as he held
her tighter. He lifted one of her legs higher allowing him to get deeper inside
of her. Screaming out she dug her fingernails in his back as her orgasm rushed
higher. She licked her lips just before she bit him. The urge was too hard to
resist when she sucked the skin between his neck and shoulder. This was
mind-blowing as she bit down harder than she meant too.

Frenzied from the bite, Ryder wildly pushed harder
and faster, until her orgasm blazed to the finish line. She screamed out as she
came. Ryder thrust two more times then threw his head back and growled her name
as he came deep inside of her.

Ryder’s head was leaning forward as they both tried
to regain their breath. She held on tighter as her breathing calmed.  Afraid to
let go, London reached out and softly ran her finger down his face. Slowly, his
eyes opened as she smiled at him. He smiled back then pushed off the wall,
carrying her to the couch. She had already pulled it out so she could sleep in
her office tonight. He gently laid her down and grabbed the blanket pulling it
over them. They laid there until Ryder broke the silence.

“I love you, London Grey.”

“I love you too, Ryder Malone.” He snuggled her
closer to his body as they drifted off to sleep.

London could feel her hair moving as she slowly woke
up. She remembered what happened and she could feel the love with every stroke
as Ryder played with her hair. She could also feel something else between her
butt cheeks.

“How do you feel, baby?” Ryder continued to play
with her hair.
How did he know I was awake?

London rolled over so she was looking at him. His
eyes were beautiful. They were as blue as the Caribbean Sea. “I slept great.
How did you sleep?”

Ryder reached over and passionately kissed her. She
could feel his passion mix with hers. He made her feel safe and loved for the
first time since her parents died. She could feel the coldness from before
leaving her heart. Putting his hand on each side of her head, he stared down
into her eyes.  “Don’t ever leave me.”  She couldn’t explain the feelings that
rushed forward.

“I want.”  London whispered then hugged him tight
against her chest. 

* * * *

He moved his hands up to her face and leaned in,
lightly brushing his lips over hers. “I slept for the first time in a long
time. I owe that to you.” He couldn’t get enough of her taste and lips. 

A pounding on the door made him jerk upward. He
could feel London freeze and start shaking. Her chest rose and fell so fast
that he thought she was having a heart attack. It had scared her so bad that
she lay silent and still. He looked down at her pale face. She stared at the
door like something was going to come through it. He knew it was Jamie. He could
smell his Beta’s scent.

“It’s just Jamie. Let me go open the door for him. You
okay?” Ryder pushed London’s hair behind her ear.